मैं लेखक नहीं हूँ -विमल मित्र
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- lekhak- vimal mitr
tritiy vishv hindi sammelan is bar dilli mean anushthit hone ja raha hai. maian nagapur mean ayojit pratham hindi vishv hindi sammelan mean shamil hua tha aur unake pashchath dvitiy vishv hindi sammelan mean bhag lene ke lie mujhe m aaurishas bhi bheja gaya tha. isake lie maian samast hindibhashiyoan ka hriday se kritajn hooan.
yah mujhe maloom hai ki kalakatta se hi hindi ka pahala samachar-patr prakashit hua tha. shri bhoodev mukhopadhyay, jo ki ‘ek iansapaiktar aauph skools’ the, bangal, bihar aur u disa ke chhatroan se kaha karate the: tum log hindi padho. un dinoan bangal, bihar aur u disa ek hi rajy tha. bhoodev baboo pahale apane-ap ko ek bharatavasi samajhate the, bad mean bangali. kalakatta se hi shri ramanand chattopadhyay ne tin prasiddh masik patrikaoan ka prakashan aranbh kiya tha. ye patrikaean thi : ‘pravasi’ (bangala bhasha mean), ‘madarn rivyoo’ (aangreji bhasha mean) aur ‘vishal bharat’ (hindi bhasha mean). ‘pravasi’ mean guroodev raviandranath thakur ki bahuteri rachanaean chhapa karati thi. ‘madarn rivyoo’ bharat ke pratinidhi-masik ke roop mean vishvavikhyat tha. ‘madarn rivyoo’ mean bharat-premi si. eph. eandrayooj aur je. ti. sadlaiand jaise log likha karate the. bharat ki vyavastha ke sanbandh mean je. ti. sadlaiand ne ‘madarn rivyoo’ mean dharavahik lekh likha, jisaka shirshak tha : ‘d l aaulais l aau’ (kanoon rahit kanoon). bad mean jab yah pustak roop mean chhapa, tatkalin aangrej sarakar ne is pustak ko jabt kar liya. ianglaiand mean si. eph. endrayooj ke bahut se aise dhani bhakt the, jo unhean manamana dhan de sakate the. phir bhi si. eph. endrayooj ne phatehali ka jivan vyatit karana pasand kiya. ianglaiand ki jahaj kanpaniyoan ke malikoan ka nirdesh tha ki si. eph. endrayooj ko ya unake dvara anushansit kisi bhi vyakti ko bina kisi bhi kharch ke yatra karane ki suvidha di jae. si. eph. endrayooj ke do hi sthayi nivas-sthan the : shaantiniketan aur gaandhi ji ka sabaramati-ashram. unhoanne ek kitab likhi thi : ‘vhat ai o tu kraist’. yah kitab khoob biki aur unhean rupaye bhi khoob mile. lekin ye sare rupaye unhoanne ek anajan chhatr ko uchch shiksha ke lie ‘aauksaphord yanivarsiti’ mean bhejane mean kharch kar die.
shri ramanand chattopadhyay ne ‘vishal bharat’ nam ka jo hindi-masik nikala tha, usake sanpadak the poojy banarasidas chaturvedi. maian tinoan patrikaean hi padha karata tha. mujhe abhi tak yad hai ki pandit hajariprasad dvivedi, bhagavaticharan varma aur nirala ji ki rachanaean maian khoob pasand kiya karata tha. pan. hajariprasad dvivedi ji ka to maian usi samay se bhakt ban gaya. unaka upanyas ‘banabhatt ki atmakatha’ mera ek priy upanyas hai. jab m aaurishas mean pan. hajariprasad dvivedi ji se meri bheant huee aur maianne un purani batoan ki charcha ki to ve bahut prasann hue the.
us vakt se hi mere man mean yah sadh panapane lagi thi ki maian lekhak banooanga. samay ke ek lanbe aantaral ke bad aj maian sochata hooan ki kya sachamuch maian ek lekhak ban paya hooan? sharath baboo ki ek ukti yad a rahi hai, unhoanne kaha tha : ‘duniya mean do pair hone par hi chala ja sakata hai, lekin do hath hone par hi lekhak nahian bana ja sakata’. sach poochhie to maian bhi lekhak kahaan ban paya hooan? harek sal hi dilli ki kaliba di ke mitragan durgapooja ke avasar par apani varshik patrika ke lie mere lekh ki maang karate haian. mari bhi har sal yahi ichchha rahati hai ki maian unaki patrika ke lie koee vishesh mahatv ki maulik rachana likh bhejooan. lekin har sal mera vah sankalp kora sankalp hi sabit hota hai, kabhi vah kary roop mean parinat nahian ho pata. yahaan tak ki unaki chitthi ka maian javab bhi nahian de pata hooan.
kisi bhi chitthi ka javab n dena ek akshamy aparadh hai, yah auroan ki bhaanti maian bhi samajhata hooan. phir bhi maian hamesha yah aparadh karata hooan aur man hi man isake lie dukhi bhi hota hooan. maian yah aparadh kyoan karata hooan, ise samajhane mauka mere doorasth mitroan ko kabhi mila bhi nahian. isi vajah se ve bhi man hi man mujhe bhala-bura kahate haian. shayad ve mujhe pakhandi ya arthalolup bhi samajhate hoangean.
lekin sansar mean ‘alasi’ jati ke adami bhi hote haian, is bat se koee bhi aparichit nahian hoga. maian bhi usi jati ka ek adami hooan. aur maian jo us ‘alasi’ jati ke logoan ka shiramaur hooan, is bat ka avishkar sanbhavat: sabase pahale pita ne hi kiya tha.
bachapan mean pitaji aksar kaha karate: yah l daka alasiyoan ka badashah hai, isase kachh bhi nahian hoga.
pitaji ki dooradrishti kaisi satik thi, yah soch-soch kar mean aj bhi hairan rah jata hooan. karan yah hai ki pitaji ki pratyek bhavishyavani aksharash: saty siddh huee hai.
pitaji yah bhi kahate: itana muanhachor hone par tum jivan mean unnati kaise karoge?
maian unnati karana chahata hi nahian, yah bat maian us din pitaji ko samajha nahian saka tha. pitaji ki najaroan mean unnati ka matalab tha: moti tanakhvah ki sarakari naukari, kalakatta mean ek makan aur sath hi sath ek ga di. aur unnati ka sabase b da lakshan tha: ek mota ‘baiank-baileans’. is prakar ki unnati ki kamana n karana pitaji ki nigahoan mean ek bahut b da aparadh tha, aur sirph mere pita ji hi kyoan, prithvi ke sare pita apane putr ki usi tarah ki unnati ki kamana karate haian.
mere pitaji aj jivit nahian haian. agar ve jivit hote to meri yah parinati dekhakar nishchit roop se khoob hi dukhi hote. karan yah hai ki sachamuch hi meri unnati nahian huee.
shuroo-shuroo mean unhoanne socha tha ki maian vilayat jakar bairistari ki pariksha pas karooan. unaka ek l daka daktar bana aur ek l daka ianjiniyar. sabase chhote-l dake ko bairistar banana chahie. bat kahane mean bhi achchhi lagati thi aur sunane mean bhi. lekin maianne unaki pahali asha par hi tusharapat kiya tha. isaka karan yah hai ki maianne usi din saph-saph shabdoan mean bata diya tha ki vakil mukhtar bairistar banane par jhooth bolana hoga. isalie yah mere dvara mumakin nahian. pitaji mero tark sunakar hatavak ho ge the. hatasha, kshobh aur du:kh ka mano un par paha d toot p da tha. kuchh der ke bad unhoanne kaha tha: to phir tum chartard-ekauanteansi padho. is lain mean bhi beshumar roope kamae ja sakate haian.
pitaji sahi mayane mean mera bhala chahane vale the. isalie unhean bhi jyada dosh nahian diya ja sakata. karan yah ki rupaya hi duniya mean b da hone ka sabase b da mapadand hai, doosare pitaoan ki bhaanti mere pita ji bhi yah bhalibhaanti samajhate the. maianne jab unase kaha tha ki chartard-ekauanteansi bhi ek tarah se hisab mean golamal kar taiks ki chori karane ka tarikha sikhane ki vidya hai, tab mujhe yad hai ki ve man hi man bahut naraj ho ge the.
unhoanne kaha tha : ‘to phir tum b de hokar karoge kya?’
maianne kaha tha : ‘maian bangala bhasha mean em.e. karooanga.’
‘bangala mean em.e. karake kya banoge? skool mastar?’
maianne kaha tha : ‘nahian, maian lekhak banooanga.’
pitaji ne poochha tha: ‘lekhak banoge, isaka matalab ? lekhak hone par bhi to tumhean din ke vakt bandhi huee tanakhvah ki ek naukari karani hogi.’
maianne kaha tha : ‘nahian ..... lekhak, yani sirph lekhak. poore vakt ka lekhak, saiant-parasaiant lekhak ..... maian naukari karake part-taim ka gulam lekhak nahian banana chahata.’
pitaji meri bat sunakar mano akash se niche gir p de the. unhoanne kaha tha: ‘kya likhakar koee lekhak roope kama pata hai? likhakar bhala koee roope vala bana hai? sharath baboo ka bhala kitana baiank-baianleans tha? maikel madhusoodan datt ko to rupayoan ke abhav ke karan aspatal mean bina ilaj ke marana p da tha, yah kya tum janate ho?’
pitaji ke samane maian in batoan ka koee sidha javab nahian de saka tha. maian kah nahian saka tha ki baiank-baianleans dekhakar maian kisi manushy ka moolyaankan nahian kar sakata. baiank-baianleans to bahutoan ke pas hota hai. kya ve sabhi manushy hote haian? aur aspatal mean marane ki vivashata? marana to ek din hoga hi, to aspatal mean bina ilaj ke marane ke bajay apane ghar par daktaroan ki dava khakar marane ki yantrana kya kuchh kam hogi?
aj itane dinoan ke bad purane dinoan ki ve batean yad a rahi haian. sachamuch, pitaji ki duradrishti gajab ki thi.
pitaji apane tark ko sashakt banane ke lie aksar kaha karate : ‘duniya mean b da adami banane ke lie apana dhol khud apane ap pitana hota hai. kursi par asin logoan ki tariph aur khushamad karani p dati hai. jhooth hone par bhi priy batean kahani p dati hai. paanch adamiyoan ke sath milana-julana p data hai. tum to ho pahale sire ke muanhachor, tum yah sab kaise kar sakoge? tum kah rahe ho ki tum lekhak banoge. so is lain mean bhi zaroor dalabaji hai. tumhean sanpadakoan ki makkhanabaji karani hogi, prakashakoan ke daravaze par dharana dena hoga aur jo log puraskar dete haian : unaka stuti gan karana hoga. koshish-pairavi ke bina to nobel puraskar bhi nahian milata. tumhare jaisa muanhachor adami kya yah sab kar sakega?
maianne kaha tha: ‘maian yah sab kuchh bhi nahian chahata. maian sirph apane ghar mean baitha-baitha likhooanga.’
pitaji ne kaha tha : ‘to phir tumhara kuchh bhi hona namumakin hai.’
mere dilli ke mitr yah sab janate haian ya nahian, kah nahian sakata. agar ve nahian janate to unaki janakari ke lie kah dooan ki sachamuch hi mera kuchh bhi nahian hua. kisi dal mean shamil hone ki svabhavik pravinata nahian hone ke karan dal mean rahane ki suvidhaoan se maian vanchit hua hooan, vaise hi dal ke bahar rahane ke karan hone vali asuvidhaoan ko maian poori yatra mean jhelata aur bhogata aya hooan. lekin ahankari samajha jane ka khatara mol lekar bhi maian kahana chahooanga ki pathak-pathikaoan ki zaroorat ke anusar likhakar lokapriyata arjit karane ki jo rah pratyek sahityakar ke samane khuli hoti hai, apani pratishtha ya svarthasiddhi ke lie yah sahajatam rasta chun lene ki bhool maianne kabhi nahian ki. aur phir lokapriyata kayam rakhane ke lie sachaee ka chhadmavesh dharan kar apani sahi jimmedari se kaushalapoorvak bach nikalane ki koshish bhi maianne kabhi nahian ki.
aur ek bat. aj jo adhunik hai, kal vahi prachin ho jaega. aur phir kal jo adhunik hoga, parasoan vahi prachin ho jayega. lekin shashvatata ki drishti se adhunik ya prachin ki sari sanjnaean arthahin haian. shashvat shabd bhi b da bhramak ho gaya hai. vyapak prayog ke karan is shabd ka sahi arth vilupt hota ja raha hai. adhunik akash aur adhunik samudr ki tarah adhunik sahity bhi katahal ke amachoor ki bhaanti hi avastavik hai. aur bhi spasht karate hue ise yooan kaha ja sakata hai ki adhunikata ki sanjna kitani gunavachak nahian, usase adhik hai kalavachak. jo vastu kshanabhuangar hoti hai, use lekar mahakal koee saradard mol nahian leta. isilie maian apani rachanaoan mean kshan-kal ke badale chirakal ki hi sarvada pooja-aradhana karata aya hooan.
to phir charoan taraph itani patrikaoan mean dher-sari rachanaean ap jo dekhate haian, usaka arth yah kadapi nahian hai ki maian lekhak hooan. isaka ekamatr karan yahi hai ki meri rachanaean chhapane par patr-patrikaoan ki bikri badhati hai, aur bikri badhane par hi unhean arth-labh hota hai. prakashakoan ke mamale mean bhi yahi bat hai. prakashak log meri kitabean chhapane ke lie itane utavale aur utsuk rahate haian, isaka karan bhi vahi hai. meri kitabean chhapane par prakashakoan ka baiank-baileans badhata hai. isilie sudoor keral, maisoor, u disa, ilahabad, banbee, jayapur aur dilli se akar prakashak log apani-apani bhashaoan mean anuvad kar kitabean chhapane ke lie mujh se anumati le jate haian. uddeshy ek hi hai, rupe kamane ka. lekin kya koee bhi mujhe lekhak ke roop mean svikar karata hai?
atev apane lekhak-jivan mean maian svayan apane-ap ka charamashatru hooan. aur usi shatruta ki sabase-b di sahayika hai meri lokapriyata. itani lokapriyata nahian hone par sanbhavat: maian ek din sachamuch hi sahi arthoan mean lekhak ho pata.
isilie ab sochata hooan ki pitaji jo kuchh kaha karate the, thik hi kahate the. mere jaise muanhachor adami ka sachamuch kuchh nahian ho sakata. sachamuch mera kuchh hua bhi nahian. yah bhi sach hai ki is bat ka mujhe aphasos bhi nahian hai. akhir jivan mean kuchh hona hi p dega, aisi koee anivaryata to nahian. akash ka akash hona athava samudr ka samudr hona hi kya paryapt nahian? lekhak maian nahian ban paya, n sahi. moolat: to maian ek manushy hi hooan. manushy hona hi mere lie paryapt hai. kyoanki taru-lata sahaj hi taru-lata hote haian, pashu-pakshi sahaj hi pashu-pakshi hote haian, lekin manushy anek kashtoan ke bad, anek yantranaoan ke bad, anek sadhanaoan ke bad aur anek tapasyaoan ke bad manushy ban pata hai. kya maian vaisa manushy hi bhala ban paya hooan?
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