आत्म-संगीत -प्रेमचंद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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adhi rat thi. nadi ka kinara tha. akash ke tare sthir the aur nadi mean unaka pratibimb laharoan ke sath chanchal. ek svargiy sangit ki manohar aur jivanadayini, pran-poshini ghvaniy aauan is nistabdh aur tamomay drishy par is prakash chha rahi thi, jaise hriday par ashaऍan chhayi rahati haian, ya mukhamandal par shok.

rani manorama ne aj guru-diksha li thi. din-bhar dan aur vrat mean vyast rahane ke bad mithi niand ki god mean so rahi thi. akasmath usaki aankhean khulian aur ye manohar dhvaniy aauan kanoan mean pahuanchi. vah vyakul ho gayi—jaise dipak ko dekhakar patang; vah adhir ho uthi, jaise kh aauan d ki gandh pakar chianti. vah uthi aur dvarapaloan evan chaukidaroan ki drishtiy aauan bachati huee rajamahal se bahar nikal ayi—jaise vedanapoorn krandan sunakar aankhoan se aansoo nikal jate haian.

sarita-tat par kantili jha diya thian. ooanche kagare the. bhayanak jantu the. aur unaki daravani avajean! shav the aur unase bhi adhik bhayankar unaki kalpana. manorama komalata aur sukumarata ki moorti thi. parantu us madhur sangit ka akarshan use tanmayata ki avastha mean khianche liya jata tha. use apadaoan ka dhyan n tha.

vah ghantoan chalati rahi, yahaan tak ki marg mean nadi ne usaka gatirodh kiya.

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manorama ne vivash hokar idhar-udhar drishti dau dayi. kinare par ek nauka dikhaee di. nikat jakar boli—m aauanjhi, maian us par jaooangi, is manohar rag ne mujhe vyakul kar diya hai.

m aauanjhi—rat ko nav nahian khol sakata. hava tej hai aur laharean daravani. jan-jokhim haian

manorama—maian rani manorama hooan. nav khol de, muanham aauangi mazadoori dooangi.

m aauanjhi—tab to nav kisi tarah nahian khol sakata. raniyoan ka is mean nibah nahian.

manorama—chaudhari, tere p aauanv p dati hooan. shighr nav khol de. mere pran khianche chale jate haian.

m aauanjhi—kya inam milega?

manorama—jo too m aauange.

‘m aauanjhi—ap hi kah dean, ganvar kya janooan, ki raniyoan se kya chiz m aauangani chahie. kahian koee aisi chiz n m aauang baithooan, jo apaki pratishtha ke viruddh ho?

manorama—mera yah har atyant moolyavan hai. maian ise kheve mean deti hooan. manorama ne gale se har nikala, usaki chamak se m aaujhi ka mukh-mandal prakashit ho gaya—vah kathor, aur kala mukh, jis par jhurriy aauan p di thi.

achanak manorama ko aisa pratit hua, manoan sangit ki dhvani aur nikat ho gayi ho. kadachit koee poorn jnani purush atmanand ke avesh mean us sarita-tat par baitha hua us nistabdh nisha ko sangit-poorn kar raha hai. rani ka hriday uchhalane laga. ah ! kitana manomugdhakar rag tha ! usane adhir hokar kaha—m aauanjhi, ab der n kar, nav khol, maian ek kshan bhi dhiraj nahian rakh sakati.

m aauanjhi—is har ho lekar maian kya karuanga?

manorama—sachche moti haian.

m aauanjhi—yah aur bhi vipatti haian m aauanjhin gale mean pahan kar p dosiyoan ko dikhayegi, vah sab dah se jaleangi, use galiy aauan deangi. koee chor dekhega, to usaki chhati par s aauanp lotane lagega. meri sunasan jhop di par din-daha de daka p d jayaga. log chori ka aparadh lagayeange. nahian, mujhe yah har n chahie.

manorama—to jo kuchh too m aauang, vahi dooangi. lekin der n kar. mujhe ab dhairy nahian hai. pratiksha karane ki tanik bhi shakti nahian haian. in rag ki ek-ek tan meri atma ko t dapa deti hai.

m aauanjhi—isase bhi achdi koee chiz dijie.

manorama—are nirdayi! too mujhe batoan mean lagaye rakhana chahata haian maian jo deti hai, vah leta nahian, svayan kuchh m aauangata nahi. tujhe kya maloom mere hriday ki is samay kya dasha ho rahi hai. maian is atmik padarth par apana sarvasv nyauchhavar kar sakati hooan.

m aauanjhi—aur kya dijiega?

manorama—mere pas isase bahumooly aur koee vastu nahian hai, lekin too abhi nav khol de, to pratijna karati hooan ki tujhe apana mahal de dooangi, jise dekhane ke lie kadachit too bhi kabhi gaya ho. vishuddh shvet patthar se bana hai, bharat mean isaki tulana nahian.

m aauanjhi—(hans kar) us mahal mean rah kar mujhe kya anand milega? ulate mere bhaee-bandhu shatru ho jaeange. is nauka par aandheri rat mean bhi mujhe bhay n lagata. aandhi chalati rahati hai, aur maian is par p da rahata hooan. kiantu vah mahal to din hi mean pha d khayaga. mere ghar ke adami to usake ek kone mean sama jaeange. aur adami kahaan se laooanga; mere naukar-chakar kahaan? itana mal-asabab kahaan? usaki saphaee aur marammat kahaan se karaooanga? usaki phulavariy aauan sookh jaeangi, usaki kyariyoan mean gid d boleange aur atariyoan par kabootar aur ababilean ghoansale banayeangi.

manorama achanak ek tanmay avastha mean uchhal p di. use pratit hua ki sangit nikatatar a gaya hai. usaki sundarata aur anand adhik prakhar ho gaya tha—jaise batti ukasa dene se dipak adhik prakashavan ho jata hai. pahale chittakarshak tha, to ab aveshajanak ho gaya tha. manorama ne vyakul hokar kaha—ah! too phir apane muanh se kyoan kuchh nahian m aauangata? ah! kitana viragajanak rag hai, kitana vihraval karane vala! maian ab tanik dhiraj nahian dhar sakati. pani utar mean jane ke lie jitana vyakul hota hai, shvas hava ke lie jitani vikal hoti hai, gandh u d jane ke lie jitani vyakul hoti hai, maian us svargiy sangit ke lie utani vyakul hooan. us sangit mean koyal ki-si masti hai, papihe ki-si vedana hai, shyama ki-si vihvalata hai, isase jharanoan ka-sa zor hai, aandhi ka-sa bal! isamean vah sab kuchh hai, isase vivekagni prajjvalit hoti, jisase atma samahit hoti hai, aur aant:karan pavitr hota hai. m aauanjhi, ab ek kshan ka bhi vilamb mere lie mrityu ki yantrana hai. shighr nauka khol. jis suman ki yah sugandh hai, jis dipak ki yah dipti hai, us tak mujhe pahuancha de. maian dekh nahian sakati is sangit ka rachayita kahian nikat hi baitha hua hai, bahut nikat.

m aauanjhi—apaka mahal mere kam ka nahian hai, meri jhop di usase kahian suhavani hai.

manorama—hay! to ab tujhe kya dooan? yah sangit nahian hai, yah is suvishal kshetr ki pavitrata hai, yah samast suman-samooh ka saurabh hai, samast madhurataoan ki madhurataoan ki madhuri hai, samast avasthaoan ka sar hai. nauka khol. maian jab tak jiooangi, teri seva karuangi, tere lie pani bharuangi, teri jhop di baharuangi. haan, maian tere marg ke kank d chunooangi, tere jhoanp de ko phooloan se sajaooangi, teri m aauanjhin ke pair malooangi. pyare m aauanjhi, yadi mere pas sau janean hoti, to maian is sangit ke lie arpan karati. eeshvar ke lie mujhe nirash n kar. mere dhairy ka antim biandu shushk ho gaya. ab is chah mean dah hai, ab yah sir tere charanoan mean hai.

yah kahate-kahate manorama ek vikshipt ki avastha mean m aauanjhi ke nikat jakar usake pairoan par gir p di. use aisa pratit hua, manoan vah sangit atma par kisi prajjvalit pradip ki tarah jyoti barasata hua meri or a raha hai. use romaanch ho aya. vah mast hokar jhoomane lagi. aisa jnat hua ki maian hava mean u di jati hooan. use apane parshv-desh mean tare jhilamilate hue dikhayi dete the. us par ek amavismrit ka bhavavesh chha gaya aur ab vahi mastana sangit, vahi manohar rag usake muanh se nikalane laga. vahi amrit ki booandean, usake adharoan se tapakane lagian. vah svayan is sangit ki srot thi. nadi ke pas se ane vali dhvaniy aauan, pranaposhini dhvaniy aauan usi ke muanh se nikal rahi thian. manorama ka mukh-mandal chandrama ke tarah prakashaman ho gaya tha, aur aankhoan se prem ki kiranean nikal rahi thian.

sanbandhit lekh

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