ज्वालामुखी -प्रेमचंद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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digri lene ke bad maian nity laibreri jaya karata. patroan ya kitaboan ka avalokan karane ke lie nahian. kitaboan ko to maianne n chhoone ki kasam kha li thi. jis din gajat mean apana nam dekha, usi din mil aur kaiant ko uthakar tak par rakh diya. maian keval aangreji patroan ke ‘vaanted’ kalamoan ko dekha karata. jivan yatra ki fikr savar thi. mere dada ya paradada ne kisi aangrez ko gadar ke dinoan mean bachaya hota athava kisi ilake ka zamiandar hota, to kahian ‘namineshan’ ke lie udyog karata. par mere pas koee sipharish n thi. shok ! kutte, billiyoan aur motaroan ki maang sabako thi. par bi.e. pas ka koee purasaanhal n tha. mahinoan isi tarah dau date gujar gaye, par apani ruchi ke anusar koee jagah najar n ayi. mujhe aksar apane bi.e. hone par krodh ata tha. draivar, phayaramain, mistri, khanasama ya bavarchi hota, to mujhe itane dinoan bekar n baithana p data.

ek din maian charapaee par leta hua ek patr padh raha tha ki mujhe ek maang apani ichchha ke anusar dikhaee di. kisi rees ko ek aise praivet sekretari ki zaroorat thi, jo vidvanh, rasik, sahriday aur roopavan ho. vetan ek hazar masik ! maian uchhal p da. kahian mera bhagy uday ho jata aur yah pad mujhe mil jata, to ziandagi chain se kat jati. usi din maianne apana vinay-patr apane photo se sath ravana kar diya, par apane atmiy-ganoan mean kisi se isaka zikr n kiya ki kahian log meri hansi n u daean. mere lie 30 ru. masik bhi bahut the. ek hazar kaun dega ? par dil se yah khayal door n hota ! baithe-baithe shekhachilli ke mansoobe baandha karata. phir hosh mean akar apane ko samajhata ki mujhamean aise ooanche pad ke lie kaun si yogyata hai. maian abhi kalej se nikala hua pustakoan ka putala hooan. duniya se bekhabar ! us pad ke lie ek-se ek vidvan, anubhavi purush muanh phailae baithe hoange. mere lie koee asha nahian. maian roopavan sahi, sajila sahi, magar aise padoan ke lie keval roopavan hona kafi nahian hota. vijnapan mean isaki charcha karane se keval itana abhipray hoga ki kuroop adami ki zaroorat nahian, aur uchit bhi hai. balki bahut sajilapan to ooanche padoan ke lie kuchh shobha nahian deta madhyam shreni, toand bhara hua sharir, phoole hue gal aur gaurav-yukt vaky-shaili yah uchch padadhikariyoan ke lakshan haian aur mujhe inamean se ek bhi mayassar nahian. isi asha aur bhay mean ek saptah gujar gaya aur ab nirash ho gaya. maian bhi kaisa ochha hooan ki ek be sir-pair ki bat ke pichhe aisa phool utha, isi ko l dakapan kahate haian. jahaan tak mera khayal hai, kisi dillagibaj ne ajakal ke shikshit samaj ki moorkhata ki pariksha karane ke lie yah svaang racha hai. mujhe itana bhi n soojha. magar athavean din pratahkal tar ke chaparasi ne mujhe avaz di. mere hriday mean gudagudi-si hone lagi. lapaka hua aya. tar kholakar dekha, likha—svikar hai, shighr ao. aishagadh.

magar yah sukh-samvad pakar mujhe vah anand n hua, jisaki asha thi. maian kuchh der tak kh da sochata raha, kisi tarah vishvas n ata tha. zaroor kisi dillagibaj ki shararat hai. magar koee mujayaka nahian, mujhe bhi isaka muanhato d javab dena chahie. tar de dooan ki ek mahine ki tanakhvah bhej do. ap hi sari kalee khul jaegi. magar phir vichar kiya, kahian vastav mean nasib jaga ho, to is udandata se bana-banaya khel big d jayaga chalo, dillagi hi sahi. jivan mean yah ghatana bhi smaraniy rahegi. tilasm ko khol hi dalooan. yah nishchay karake tar dvara apane ane ki soochana de di aur sidhe relave steshan par pahuancha. poochhane par maloom hua ki yah sthan dakkhin ki or hai.

taimatebul mean usaka vrittaant vistar ke sath likha tha. sthan atiramaniy hai, par jalavayu svasthyakar nahian. haan, hrisht-pusht navayuvakoan par usaka asar shighr nahian hota. drishy bahut manoram hai, par zaharile janavar bahut milate haian. yathasadhy aandheri ghatiyoan mean n jana chahie. yah vrittaant padhakar utsukta aur bhi badhi zaharile janavar haian to hua karean., kahaan nahian haian. maian aandheri ghatiyoan ke pas bhoolakar bhi n jaooanga. akar saphar ka saman thik kiya aur eeshvar ka nam lekar niyat samay par steshan ki taraph chala, par apane alapi mitroan se isaka kuchh zikr n kiya, kyoanki mujhe poora vishvas tha ki do-hi-char din mean phir apana-sa muanh lekar lautana p dega.

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ga di par baitha to sham ho gee thi. kuchh der tak sigar aur patroan se dil bahalata raha. phir maloom nahian kab niand a gee. aankhean khulian aur khi daki se bahar taraph jhaanka to ushakal ka manohar drishy dikhaee diya. donoan or hare vrikshoan se dhaki huee parvat-ksheniyaan, un par charati huee ujali-ujali gayean aur bhean de soory ki sunahari kiranoan mean rangi huee bahut sundar maloom hoti thian. ji chahata tha ki kahian meri kutiya bhi inhian sukhad paha diyoan mean hoti, jangaloan ke phal khata, jharanoan ka taja pani pita aur anand ke git gata. yakayak drishy badala kahian ujale-ujale pakshi tairate the aur kahian chhoti-chhoti doangiyaan nirbal atmaoan ke sadrishy dagamagati huee chali jati thian. yah drishy bhi badala. paha diyoan ke daman mean ek gaanv najar aya, jha diyoan aur vrikshoan se dhaka hua, mano shaanti aur santosh ne yahaan apana nivas-sthan banaya ho. kahian bachche khelate the, kahian gay ke bachh de kilole karate the. phir ek ghana jangal mila. jhund-ke-jhund hiran dikhaee diye, jo ga di ki hahakar sunate hi chauk diyaan bharate door bhag jate the. yah sab drishy svapn ke chitroan ke saman aankhoan ke samane ate the aur ek kshan mean gayab ho jate the. unamean ek avarnaniy shaantidayini shobha thi, jisase hriday mean akaankshaoan ke aveg uthane lagate the.

akhir aishagadh nikat aya. maianne bistar sanbhala. jara der mean siganal dikhaee diya. meri chhati dh dakane lagi. ga di ruki. maianne utarakar idhar-udhar dekha, kuliyoan ko pukarane laga ki itane mean do varadi pahane hue adamiyoan ne akar mujhe sadar salam kiya aur poochha—‘ap....se a rahe haian n, chaliye motar taiyar hai.’ meri baanchhe khil geean. ab tak kabhi motar par baithane ka saubhagy n hua tha. shan ke sat ja baitha. man mean bahut lajjit tha ki aise phate hal kyoan aya ? agar janata ki sachamuch saubhagy-soory chamaka hai, to that-bat se ata khair, motar chali, donoan taraph maulasari ke saghan vriksh the. s dak par lal vajari bichhi huee thi. s dak hare-bhare maidan mean kisi suramy jaladhar ke sadrish bal khati chali gee thi. das minat bhi n gujare hoange ki samane ek shaantimay sagar dikhaee diya. sagar ke us par paha di par ek vishal bhavan bana hua tha. bhavan abhiman se sir uthae hue tha, sagar santosh se niche leta hua, sara drishy kavy, shrriangar aur amod se bhara hua tha.

ham sadar daravaze par pahuanche, kee adamiyoan ne dau dakar mera svagat kiya. inamean ek shaukin muanshiji the jo bal sanvare aankhoan mean surma lagae hue the. mere lie jo kamara sajaya gaya tha, usake dvar par mujhe pahuanchakar bole—sarakar ne pharamaya hai, is samay ap aram karean, sandhya samay mulakat kijiega.

mujhe ab tak isaki kuchh khabar n thi ki yah ‘sarakar’ kaun hai, n mujhe kisi se poochhane ka sahas hua kyoanki apane svami ke nam tak se anabhijn hone ka parichay nahian dena chahata tha. magar isamean koee sandeh nahian ki mera svami b da sajjan manushy tha. mujhe itane adar-satkar ki kadapi asha n thi. apane susajjit kamare mean jakar jab maianne ek aram-kursi par baitha, to harsh se vihval ho gaya. paha diyoan ki taraph se shital vayu ke mand-mand jhoanke a rahe the. samane chhajja tha. niche jhil thi. saanp ke keanchul ke sadrish prakash se poorn, aur maian, jise bhagy devi ne sadaiv apana sautela l daka samajha tha, is samay jivan mean pahali bar nirvighn anand ka sukh utha raha tha.

tisare pahar shaukin muanshiji ne akar ittala di ki sarakar ne yad kiya hai. maianne is bich mean bal bana lie the. turant apana sarvottam soot pahana aur muanshiji ke sath sarakar ki seva mean chala. is, samay mere man mean yah shanka uth rahi thi ki meri batachit se svami asantusht n ho jayan aur unhoanne mere vishay mean jo vichar sthir kiya ho, usamean koee aantar n p d jay, tathapi maian apani yogyata ka parichay dene ke lie khoob taiyar tha. ham kee baramadoan se hote aant mean sarakar ke kamare ke daravaze par pahuanche. reshami parada p da hua tha. muanshiji ne parda uthakar mujhe ishare se bulaya. maianne kaanpate hue hriday se kamare mean qadam rakha aur ashchary se chakit rah gaya ! mere samane sauandary ki ek jvala diptiman thi.

phool bhi sundar hai aur dipak bhi sundar hai. phool mean thandak aur sugandhi hai, dipak mean prakash aur uddipan. phool par bhramar u d-u dakar usaka ras leta hai, dipak mean patang jalakar rakh ho jata hai. mere samane karachobi manasad par jo sundari virajaman thi, vah sauandary ki ek prakashamay jvala thi. phool ki pankhu diyaan ho sakati haian jvala ko vibhakt karana asambhav hai. usake ek-ek aang ki prashansa karana jvala ko katana hai. vah nakh-shikh ek jvala thi, vahi dipak, vahi chamak vahi lalima, vahi prabha, koee chitrakar saundary pratima ka isase ichchha chitr nahian khianch sakata tha. ramani ne meri taraph vatsaly drishti se dekhakar kaha—apako saphar mean koee vishesh kasht to nahian hua ?

maianne sanbhalakar uttar diya—ji nahian, koee kasht nahian hua.

ramani— yah sthan pasand aya ?

maianne sahasapoorn utsah ke sath javab diya—aisa sundar sthan prithvi par n hoga. haan gaid-buk dekhane se vidit hua ki yahaan ka jalavayu jaisa sukhadaprakat hota hai, yatharth mean vaisa nahian, vishaile pashuoan ki bhi shikayat hai.

yah sunate hi ramani ka mukh-soory kaantihin ho gaya. maianne to charcha isalie kar di thi, jisase prakat ho jay ki yahaan ane mean mujhe bhi kuchh tyag karana p da hai, par mujhe aisa maloom hua ki is charcha se use koee vishesh duahkh hua. par kshan-bhar mean soory-mandal se bahar nikal aya, boli—yah sthan apani ramaniyata ke karan bahudha logoan ki aankhoan mean khatakata hai. gun ka niradar karanevale sabhi jagah hote haian aur yadi jalavayu kuchh hanikar ho bhi, to ap jaise balavan manushy ko isaki kya chinta ho sakati hai. rahe vishaile jiv-jantu, vah apane netroan ke samane vichar rahe haian. agar mor, hiran aur hans vishaile jiv haian, jo nissandeh yahaan vishaile jiv bahut haian.

mujhe sanshay hua kahian mere kathan se usaka chitt khinn n ho gaya ho. garv se bola—in gaid-bukoan par vishvas karana sarvatha bhool hai.

is vaky se suandari ka hriday khil gaya, boli—ap spashtavadi maloom hote haian aur yah manushy ka ek uchch gun hai. maian apaka chitr dekhate hi itana samajh gee thi. apako yah sunakar ashchary hoga ki is pad ke lie mere pas ek lakh se adhik prarthanapatr aye the. kitane em.e.the, koee di.es-si. tha, koee jarmani se pi-ech.di. upadhi kie hue tha, mano yahaan mujhe kisi darshanik vishay ki jaanch karavani thi mujhe abaki hi yah anubhav hua ki desh mean uchch-shikshit manushyoan ki itani bharamar hai. kee mahashayoan ne svarachit granthoan ki namavali likhi thi, mano desh mean lekhakoan aur panditoan hi ki avashkata hai. unhean kalagati ka leshamatr bhi parichay nahian hai. prachin dharm-kathaean ab keval aandhabhaktoan ke rasasvadan ke lie hi haian, unase aur koee labh nahian hai. yah bhautik unnati ka samay hai. ajakal log bhautik sukh par apane pran arpan kar dete haian. kitane hi logoan ne apane chitr bhi bheje the. kaisi-kaisi vichitr moortiyaan thian, jinhean dekh kar ghantoan hansie. maianne un sabhi ko ek alabam mean laga liya hai aur avakash milane par jab hansane ki ichchha hoti hai, to unhean dekha karati hooan. maian us vidya ko rog samajhati hooan, jo manushy ko banamanush bana de. apaka chitr dekhate hi aankhean mugdh ho geean. tatkshan apako bulane ko tar de diya.

maloom nahian kyoan, apane gun-svabhav ki prashansa ki apeksha ham apane bahy gunoan ki prashansa se adhik santusht hote haian aur ek suandari ke mukh se to vah chalate hue jadoo ke saman hai. bola—yathasadhy apako mujhase asantusht hone ka avasar n milega.

sundari ne meri or prashansapoorn netroan se dekhakar kaha—isaka mujhe pahale hi se vishvas hai. aie, ab kuchh kam ki batean ho jayan. is ghar ko ap apana hi samajhie aur sankoch chho dakar anand se rahie. mere bhaktoan ki sankhya bahut hai. vah sansar ke pratyek bhag mean upasthit haian aur bahudha mujhase anek prakar ki jijnasa kiya karate haian. un sabakoan maian apake supurd karati hooan. apako unamean bhinn-bhinn svabhav ke manushy mileange. koee mujhase sahayata maangata hai, koee meri ninda karata hai, koee sarahata hai, koee galiyaan deta hai. in sab praniyoan ko santusht karana apaka kam hai. dekhie, aj ke patroan ka dher hai. ek mahashay kahate haian—‘bahut din hue apaki prerana se maian apane b de bhaee ki mrityu ke bad unaki sampatti ka adhikari ban baitha tha. ab unaka putr vayas prapt kar chuka hai aur mujhase apane pita ki jayadad lautana chahata hai. itane dinoan tak us sampatti ka upabhog karane ke pashchath ab usaka hath se nikalana akhar raha hai, apaki is vishay mean kya sahamati hai ?’ inako uttar dijie ki is samay kootaniti se kam lo, apane bhatije ko kapat prem se mila lo. aur jab vah niahshank ho jae to usase ek sade stamp par hastakshar kara lo. isake pichhe patavari aur any karmachariyoan ki madad se isi stamp par jayadad ka bainama likha lo. yadi ek lagakar do milate hoan, to aga-pichha mat karo.

yah uttar sunakar mujhe b da kautoohal hua. niti-jnan ko dhakka–sa laga. sochane laga, yah ramani kaun hai aur kyoan aise anarth ka paramarsh deti hai. aise khulamkhulla to koee vakil bhi kisi ko yah ray n dega. usaki or sandehatmak bhav se dekhakar bola—yah to sarvatha nyayaviruddh pratit hota hai.

kamini khilakhilakar hans p di aur boli —nyay ki apane bhali kahi. yah keval dharmandh manushyoan ke man ka samajhauta hai, sansar mean isaka astitv nahian. bap rrin le kar mar jae, l daka kau di-kau di bhare. vidvanh log ise nyay kahate haian, maian ise ghor atyachar samajhati hooan. is nyay ke parade mean gaanth ke poore mahajan ki hek di saf jhalak rahi hai . ek dakoo kisi bhadr purush ke ghar mean daka marata hai, log use pak dakar kaid kar dete haian, dharmatma log ise bhi nyay kahate haian, kintu yahaan bhi vahi dhan aur adhikar ki prachandata hai. bhadr purush ne kitane hi gharoan ko loota, kitanoan hi ka gala dabaya aur is prakar dhan-sanchay kiya, kisi ko bhi unhean aankh dikhane ka sahas n hua. dakoo ne jab unaka gala dabaya, to vah apane dhan aur prabhutv ke bas se us par vajraprahar kar baithe. ise nyay nahian kahate. sansar mean dhan, chhal, kapat dhoortata ka rajy hai yahi jivan-sangram hai. yahaan pratyek sadhan, jisase hamara kam nikale, jisase ham apane shatruoan par vijay pa sakean nyayanukool aur uchit hai. dharm-yuddh ke din ab nahian rahe. yah dekhie, yah ek doosare sajjan ka patr hai. vah kahate haian—‘maianne pratham shreni mean em.e. pas kiya, pratham shreni mean qanoon ki pariksha pas ki, par ab koee meri bat bhi nahian poochhata.

ab tak yah asha thi ki yogyata aur parishram ka avashy hi kuchh phal milega, par tin sal ke anubhav se jnat hua ki yah keval dharmik niyam hai. tin sal se ghar ki pooanji kha chuka. ab vivash hokar apaki sharan leta hooan. mujh hatabhagy manushy par daya kijie aur mera be da par lagaie.’ inako uttar dijie ki jali dastavej banaie aur jhoothe dave chalakar unaki digari kara lijie. tho de hi dinoan mean apaka klesh nivaran ho jaega. yah dekhie, ek sajjan aur kahate haian—‘l daki sayani ho gee hai, jahaan jata hooan, log dayaj ki gathari maangate haian, yahaan pet ki rotiyoan ka thikana nahian, kisi tarah bhalamanasi nibha raha hooan, charoan aur nianda ho rahi hai, jo ajna ho, usaka palan karooan.’ inhean likhie, kanya ka vivah kisi buddhe khurrat seth se kar dijie. vah dayaj lene ki jagah kuchh ulate aur de jaega. ab ap samajh ge hoange ki aise jijnasuoan ko kis dhang se uttar dene ki avashyakata hai. uttar sankshipt hona chahie, bahut tika-tippani vyarth hoti hai. abhi kuchh dinoan tak apako yah kam kathin jan p dega; par ap chatur manushy haian, shighr apako is kam ka abhyas ho jaega. tab apako maloom hoga ki isase sahaj aur koee upay nahian hai. apake dvara saik doan darun duahkh bhogane valoan ka kalyan hoga aur vah ajanm apaka yash gaeange.

mujhe yahaan rahate ek mahine se adhik ho gaya, par ab tak mujh par yah rahasy n khula ki yah sundari kaun hai ? maian kisaka sevak hooan ? isake pas itana atul dhan, aisi-aisi vilas ki samagriyaan kahaan se ati haian ? jidhar dekhata tha, aishvary hi ka adambar dikhaee deta tha. mere ashchary ki sima n thi, mano kisi tilism mean phansa hooan. in jijnasaoan ka is ramani se kya sambandh hai yah bhed bhi n khulata tha. mujhe nity usase sakshath hota tha, usake sammukh ate hi maian achet-sa ho jata tha, usaki chitavanoan mean ek akarshan tha, jo mere pranoan ko khianch liya karata tha. maian vaky-shoony ho jata, keval chhipi huee aankhoan se use dekha karata tha. par mujhe usaki mridul muskan aur rasamayi alochanaoan tatha madhur, kavyamay bhavoan mean premanand ki jagah ek prabal manasik ashaanti ka anubhav hota tha. usaki chitavanean keval hriday ko banoan ke saman chhedati thian, usake kataksh chitt ko vyast karate the. shikari apane shikar ko khilane mean jo anand pata hai, vahi us param suandari ko meri prematurata mean prapt hota tha. vah ek sauandary jvala thi jalane ke sivay aur kya kar sakati hai ? tis, par maian patang ki bhaanti us jvala par apane ko samarpan karana chahata tha. yahi akaanksha hoti ki un padakamaloan par sir rakhakar pran de dooan. yah keval upasak ki bhakti thi, kam aur vasanaoan se shoony.

kabhi-kabhi vah sandhya ke samay apane motar-vot par baithakar sagar ki sair karati to aisa jan p data, mano chandrama akash-lalima mean tair raha hai. mujhe is drishy mean sukh prapt hota tha.

mujhe ab apane niyat karyoan mean khoob abhyas ho gaya tha mere pas pratidin patroan ka potha pahuanch jata tha. maloom nahian, kis dak se ata tha. liphaphoan par koee mohar n hoti thi. mujhe in jijnasuoan mean bahudha vah log milate the, jinaka meri drishti mean b da adar tha; kitane hi aise mahatma the, jinamean mujhe shraddha thi. b de-b de vidvanh lekhak aur adhyapak, b de-b de aishvaryavan rees, yahaan tak ki kitane hi dharm ke achary, nity apani ramakahani sunate the.

unaki dasha atyant karunajanak thi. vah sabake-sab mujhe range hue siyar dikhaee dete the. jin lekhakoan ko maian apani bhasha ka stambh samajhata tha, unase ghrina hone lagi. vah keval uchakke the, jinaki sari kirti chori, anuvad aur katar-byauant par nirbhar thi. jin dharm ke acharyoan ko maian poojy samajhata tha, vah svarth, trishna aur ghor nichata ke daladal mean phanse hue dikhaee dete the. mujhe dhire-dhire yah anubhav ho raha tha ki sansar ki utpatti se ab tak, lakhoan shatabdiyaan bit jane par bhi manushy vaisa hi kroor, vaisa hi vasanaoan ka gulam bana hua hai. balki us samay ke log saral prakritti ke karan itane kutil, duragrahoan mean itane chalak n hote the.

ek din sandhya samay us ramani ne mujhe bulaya. maian apane ghamand mean yah samajhata tha ki mere baankapan ka kuchh-n-kuchh asar us par bhi hota hai. apana sarvottam soot pahana, balasanvare aur virakt bhav se jakar baith gaya. yadi vah mujhe apana shikar banakar khelati thi, to maian bhi shikar banakar use khilana chahata tha.

jyoan hi maian pahuancha, us lavanyamayi ne muskarakar mera svagat kiya, par mukh-chandr kuchh malin tha. maianne adhir hokar poochha—sarakar ka ji to achchha hai ?

usane nirash bhav se uttar diya —ji haan, ek mahine se ek kathin rog mean phans gee hooan. ab tak kisi bhaanti apane ko sanbhal saki hooan, par ab rog asadhy hota jata hai. usaki aushadhi nirday manushy ke pas hai. vah mujhe pratidin t dapate dekhata hai, par usaka pashan-hriday jara bhi nahian pasijata.

maian ishara samajh gaya. sare sharir mean ek bijali-si dau d gee. saans b de veg se chalane lagi. ek unmattata ka anubhav hone laga. nirbhay hokar bola—sambhav hai, jise apane nirday samajh rakha ho vah bhi apako aisa hi samajhata ho aur bhay se muanh kholane ka sahas n kar sakata ho.

suandari ne kaha—to koee aisa upay bataie, jisase donoan or ki ag bujhe. priyatam! ab maian apane hriday ki dahakati huee virahagni ko nahian chhipa sakati. mera sarvasv apako bheant hai. mere pas vah khazane haian, jo kabhi khali n hoange, mere pas vah sadhan haian, jo apako kirti ke shikhar par pahuancha deange. maian samast sansar ko apake pairoan par jhuka sakati hooan. b de-b de samrat bhi meri ajna ko nahian tal sakate. mere pas vah mantr hai, jisase maian manushy ke manovegoan ko kshan-matr mean palat sakati hooan, aie, mere hriday se lipatakar is dah-kraanti ko shaant kijie.

ramani ke chehare par jalati huee ag ki-si kaanti thi. vah donoan hath phailae kamonmatt hokar meri or badhi. usaki aankhoan se ag ki chinagariyaan nikal rahi thian. parantu jis prakar agni se para door bhagata hai usi prakar maian bhi usake samane se ek qadam pichhe hat gaya. usaki prematurata se maian bhayabhit ho gaya, jaise koee nirdhan manushy kisi ke hathoan se sone ki eeant lete hue bhayabhit ho jae. mera chitt ek ajnat ashanka se kaanp utha. ramani ne meri or agnimay netroan se dekha, mano kisi sianhani ke muanh se usaka ahar chhin jae aur sarosh hokar boli— yah bhiruta kyoan ?

maian— maian apaka tuchchh sevak hooan, is mahanh adar ka patr nahian.

ramani— ap mujhase ghrina karate haian ?

maian— yah apaka mere sath anyay hai. maian is yogy bhi to nahian ki apake taluoan ko aankhoan se lagaooan. ap dipak haian, maian patang hooan, mere lie itana hi bahut hai.

ramani nairashyapoorn krodh ke sath baith gee aur boli—vastav ap nirdayi haian, maian aisa n samajhati thi. apamean abhi tak apani shiksha ke kusanskar lipate hue haian, pustakoan aur sadachar ki be di apake pairoan se nahian nikalian.

maian shighr hi apane kamare mean chala aya aur chitt ke sthir hone par jab maian is ghatana par vichar karane laga, to mujhe aisa maloom hua ki agnikuand mean girate girate bacha. koee gupt shakti meri sahayak ho gee. yah gupt shakti kya thi ?

maian jis kamare mean thahara hua tha, usake samane jhil ke doosari taraph chhota—sa jhop da tha. usamean ek vriddh purush raha karate the. unaki kamar to jhuk gee thi; par chehara tejamay tha. vah kabhi-kabhi is mahal mean aya karate the. ramani n jane kyoan unase ghrina karati thi, man mean unase darati thi. unhean dekhate hi ghabara jati mano kisi asamanjas mean p di huee hai. usaka mukh phika p d jata, jakar apane kisi gupt sthan mean muanh chhipa leti. mujhe usaki yah dasha dekhakar kautoohal hota tha. kee bar usane mujhase bhi unaki charcha ki thi, par atyant apaman ke bhav se. vah mujhe unase door-door rahane ka upadesh diya karati thi, aur yadi kabhi mujhe unase batean karate dekh leti, to usake mathe par bal p d jate the. kee dinoan tak mujhase khulakar n bolati thi.

us rat ko mujhe der tak niand nahian ayi. udhe dabun mean p da hua tha. kabhiji chahata, ao aankh band karake prem-ras ka pan karean, sansar ke padarthoan ka sukh bhogean, jo kuchh hoga, dekha jaega.

jivan mean aise divy avasar kahaan milate haian ? phir ap-hi-ap man khianch jata tha, ghrina utpann ho jati thi.

rat ke das baje hoange ki hathath mere kamare ka dvar ap-hi-ap khul gaya aur vahi tejasvi purush aandar aye. yadyapi maian apani svamini ke bhay se unase bahut kam milata tha, par unake mukh par aisi shaanti thi aur unake bhav aise pavitr tatha komal the ki hriday mean unake satsang ki utkantha hoti thi. maianne unaka svagat kiya aur lakar ek kurasi par baitha diya. unhoanne meri or dayapoorn bhav se dekhakar kaha—mere ane se tumhean kasht to nahian hua ?

maianne sir jhukakar uttar diya-ap-jaise mahatmaoan ka darshan mere saubhagy ki bat hai.

mahatmaji nishchiant hokar bole—achchha, to suno aur sachet ho jao, maian tumhean yah chetavani dene ke lie aya hooan. tumhare oopar ek ghor vipatti ane vali hai. tumhare lie is samay isake sivay aur koee upay nahian hai ki yahaan se chale jao. yadi meri bat n manoge to jivan paryant kasht bhogoge aur is mayajal se kabhi mukt n ho sakoge. mera jhop da tumhare samane tha, maian bhi kabhi-kabhi yahaan aya karata tha, par tumane mujhase milane ki avashyakata n samajhi. yadi pahale hi din tum mujhase milate, to sahasroan manushyoan ka sarvanash karane ke aparadh se bach jate. nissandeh tumhare karmoan ka phal hai, jisane aj tumhari raksha ki. agar yah pishachini ek bar tumase premaliangan kar leti, to phir tum kahian ke nahian rahate. tum usi dam usake ajayabakhane mean bhej diye jate. vah jis par rijhati hai, usaki yahi gat banati hai. yahi usaka prem hai. chalo, is ajayab ghar ki sair karo, tab tum samajhoge ki aj kis aphat se bache.

yah kahakar mahatmaji ne divar mean ek batan dabaya. turant ek daravaza nikal aya. yah niche utarane ki sidhi thi. mahatma usamean ghuse aur mujhe bhi bulaya. ghor aandhakar mean kee qadam utarane ke bad ek b da kamara najar aya. usamean ek dipak timatima raha tha. vahaan maianne jo ghor, vibhats aur hridayavidarak drishy dekhe, usaka smaran karake aj bhi roangate kh de ho jate haian. itali ke amar kavi ‘dainti’ ne narak ka jo drishy dikhaya hai, usase kahian bhayavah, romaanchakari tatha narakiy drishy meri aankhoan ke samane upasthit tha; saik doan vichitr dehadhari nana prakar ki ashuddhiyoan mean lipate hue, bhoomi par p de karah rahe the. unake sharir manushyoan ke se the, lekin cheharoan ka rupaantar ho gaya tha. koee kutte se milata tha, koee gid d se, koee banabilav se, koee saanp se. ek sthan par ek mota, sthool manushy ek durbal, shaktihin manushy ke gale mean muanh lagae usaka rakt choos raha tha. ek or do giddh ki sooratavale manushy ek s di huee lash par baithe usaka maans noch rahe the. ek jagah ek ajagar ki soorat ka manushy ek balak ko nigalana chahata tha, par balak usake gale mean lataka hua tha. donoan hi zamin par p de chhatapata rahe the. ek jagah maianne atyant paishachik ghatana dekhi. do nagin ki soorat vali striyaan ek bhe diye ki sooratavale manushy ke gale mean lipati huee use kat rahi thian. vah manushy ghor vedana se chilla raha tha. mujhase ab aur n dekha gaya. turant vahaan se bhaga aur girata-p data apane kamare mean akar dam liya.

mahatmaji bhi mere sath chale aye. jab mera chitt shaant hua to unhoanne kaha—tum itani jaldi ghabara ge, abhi to is rahasy ka ek bhag bhi nahian dekha. yah tumhari svamini ke bihar ka sthan hai aur yahi usake palatoo jiv haian. in jivoan ke pishachabhinay dekhane mean usaka vishesh manoranjan hota hai. yah sabhi manushy kisi samay tumhare hi saman prem aur pramod ke patr the, par unaki yah durgati ho rahi hai. ab tumhean maian yahi salah deta hooan ki isi dam yahaan se bhagoan, nahian to ramani ke doosare var se kadapi n bachoge.

yah kahakar mahatma adrishy ho ge. maianne bhi apani gathari baandhi aur ardharatri ke sannate mean choroan ki bhaanti kamare se bahar nikala. shital anandamay samir chal raha tha, samane ke sagar mean tare chhitak rahe the, mehandi ki sugandhi u d rahi thi. maian chalane ko to chala, par sansar-sukh-bhog ka aisa suavasar chho date hue duahkh hota tha. itana dekhane aur mahatma ke upadesh sunane par bhi chitt us ramani ki or khianchata tha. maian kee bar chala, kee bar lauta, par aant mean atma ne iandriyoan par vijay payi. maianne sidha marg chho d diya aur jhil kinare-kinare girata-p da, kich d mean phansata hua s dak tak a pahuancha. yahaan akar mujhe ek vichitr ullas hua, mano koee chi diya baj ke changul se chhoot gee ho.

yadyapi maian ek mas ke bad lauta tha, par ab jo dekha, to apani charapaee par p da hua tha. kamare mean jara bhi gard ya dhool n thi. maianne logoan se is ghatana ki charcha ki, to log khoob hanse aur mitragan to abhi tak mujhe ‘praivet sekretari’ kahakar banaya karate haian. sabhi kahate haian ki maian ek minat ke lie bhi kamare se bahar nahian nikala, mahine-bhar gayab rahane ki to bat hi kya? isalie ab mujhe bhi vivash hokar yahi kahana p data hai ki shayad maianne koee svapn dekha hai. kuchh-bhi ho, paramatma ko koti-koti dhanyavad deta hooan ki maian us papakuand se bachakar nikal aya. vah chahe svapn hi ho, par maian use apane jivan ka ek vastavik anubhav samajhata hooan, kyoanki usane sadaiv ke lie meri aankhean khol dian.

sanbandhit lekh

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