त्यागी का प्रेम- प्रेमचंद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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lala gopinath ko yuvavastha mean hi darshan se prem ho gaya tha. abhi vah iantaramidiyat klas mean the ki mil aur barkale ke vaijnanik vichar unako kanthasth ho gaye the. unhean kisi prakar ke vinod-pramod se ruchi n thi. yahaan tak ki kalej ke kriket-maichoan mean bhi unako utsah n hota tha. has-parihas se kosoan bhagate aur unase prem ki charcha karana to mano bachche ko joojoo se darana tha. pratahkal ghar se nikal jate aur shahar se bahar kisi saghan vriksh ki chhaanh mean baith kar darshan ka adhyayan karane mean nirat ho jate. kavy alankar upanyas sabhi ko tyajy samajhate the. shayad hi apane jivan mean unhoanne koee kisse-kahani ki kitab padhi ho. ise keval samay ka durupayog hi nahian varanh man aur buddhi-vikas ke lie ghatak khyal karate the. isake sath hi vah utsahahin n the. seva-samitiyoan mean b de utsah se bhag lete. svadeshavasiyoan ki seva ke kisi avasar ko hath se n jane dete. bahudha muhalle ke chhote-chhote dookanadaroan ki dookan par ja baithate aur unake ghate-tote mande-teje ki ramakahani sunate.

shanaiah-shanaiah kalej se unhean ghrina ho gayi. unhean ab agar kisi vishay se prem tha to vah darshan tha. kalej ki bahuvishayak shiksha unake darshananurag mean badhak hoti. atev unhoanne kalej chho d diya aur ekagrachitt ho kar vijnanoparjan karane lage. kiantu darshananurag ke sath hi sath unaka deshanurag bhi badhata gaya aur kalej chho dane ke tho de hi dinoan pashchath vah anivaryatah jati-sevakoan ke dal mean sammilit ho gaye. darshan mean bhram tha avishvas tha aandhakar tha jati-seva mean samman tha yash tha aur donoan ki sadichchhaean thian. unaka vah sadanurag jo barasoan se vaijnanik vadoan ke niche daba hua tha vayu ke prachand veg ke sath nikal p da. nagar ke sarvajanik kshetr mean kood p de. dekha to maidan khali tha. jidhar aankh uthate sannata dikhaee deta. dhvajadhariyoan ki kami n thi par sachche hriday kahian najar n ate the. charoan or se unaki khianch hone lagi. kisi sanstha ke mantri bane kisi ke pradhan kisi ke kuchh kisi ke kuchh. isake avesh mean darshananurag bhi vida hua. pianjare mean ganevali chi diya vistrit parvatarashiyoan mean a kar apana rag bhool gayi. ab bhi vah samay nikal kar darshanagranthoan ke panne ulat-palat liya karate the par vichar aur anushilan ka avakash kahaan ! nity man mean yah sangram hota rahata ki kidhar jaooan udhar ya idhar vijnan apani or khianchata desh apani or khianchata.

ek din vah isi ulajhan mean nadi ke tat par baithe hue the. jaladhara tat ke drishyoan aur vayu ke pratikool jhoankoan ki parava n karate hue b de veg ke sath apane lakshy ki or badhi chali jati thi par lala gopinath ka dhyan is taraph n tha. vah apane smritibhandar se kisi aise tattvajnani purush ko khoj nikalana chahate the jisane jati-seva ke sath vijnan-sagar mean gote lagaye hoan. sahasa unake kalej ke ek adhyapak pandit amaranath agnihotri a kar samip baith gaye aur bole-kahie lala gopinath kya khabarean haian

gopinath ne anyamanask ho kar uttar diya-koee nayi bat to nahian huee. prithvi apani gati se chali ja rahi hai.

amaranath-myunisipal-vard nambar 21 ki jagah khali hai usake lie kise chunana nishchit kiya hai

gopi-dekhie kaun hota hai. ap bhi kh de hue haian

amar-aji mujhe to logoan ne jabaradasti ghasit liya. nahian to mujhe itani phursat kahaan.

gopi-mera bhi yahi vichar hai. adhyapakoan ka kriyatmak rajaniti mean phansana bahut achchhi bat nahian.

amaranath is vyangy se bahut lajjit hue. ek kshan ke bad pratikar ke bhav se bole-tum ajakal darshan ka abhyas karate ho ya nahian

gopi-bahut kam. isi duvidha mean p da hua hooan ki rashtriy seva ka marg grahan karooan ya saty ki khoj mean jivan vyatit karooan.

amar-rashtriy sansthanoan mean sammilit hone ka samay abhi tumhare lie nahian aya. abhi tumhari umr hi kya hai jab tak vicharoan mean gambhiry aur siddhaantoan par dridh vishvas n ho jay us samay tak keval kshanik aveshoan ke vashavarti ho kar kisi kam mean kood p dana achchhi bat nahian. rashtriy seva b de uttaradayitv ka kam hai.

gopinath ne nishchay kar liya ki maian jati-seva mean jivanakshep karooanga. amaranath ne bhi yahi phaisala kiya ki maian myunisipailiti mean avashy jaooanga. donoan ka paraspar virodh unhean karm-kshetr ki or khianch le gaya. gopinath ki sakh pahale hi se jam gayi thi. ghar ke dhani the. shakkar aur sone-chaandi ki dalali hoti thi. vyapariyoan mean unake pita ka b da man tha. gopinath ke do b de bhaee the. vah bhi dalali karate the. paraspar mel tha dhan tha santanean thian. agar n thi to shiksha aur shikshit samuday mean ganana. vah bat gopinath ki badaulat prapt ho gayi. isalie unaki svachchhandata par kisi ne apatti nahian ki kisi ne unhean dhanoparjan ke lie majaboor nahian kiya. atev gopinath nishchiant aur nirdvandv hokar rashtr-seva mean kahian kisi anathalay ke lie chande jama karate kahian kisi kanya-pathashala ke lie bhiksha maangate phirate. nagar ki kaangres kameti ne unhean apana mantri niyukt kiya. us samay tak kaangres ne karmakshetr mean padarpan nahian kiya tha. unaki karyashilata ne is jirn sanstha ka mano punaruddhar kar diya. vah pratah se sandhya aur bahudha pahar rat tak inhian kamoan mean lipt rahate the. chande ka rajistar hath mean liye unhean nityaprati saanjh-savere amiroan aur reesoan ke dvar par kh de dekhana ek sadharan drishy tha. dhire-dhire kitane hi yuvak unake bhakt ho gaye. log kahate kitana niahsvarth kitana adarshavadi tyagi jati-sevak hai. kaun subah se sham tak niahsvarth bhav se keval janata ka upakar karane ke lie yoan dau d-dhoop karega unaka atmotsarg prayah dveshiyoan ko bhi anurakt kar deta tha. unhean bahudha reesoan ki abhadrata asajjanata yahaan tak ki unake katu shabd bhi sahane p date the. unhean ab vidit ho gaya tha ki jati-seva b de aanshoan tak keval chande maangana hai. isake lie dhanikoan ki darabaradari ya doosare shabdoan mean khushamad bhi karani p dati thi darshan ke us gauravayukt adhyayan aur is danalolupata mean kitana aantar tha kahaan mil aur keant spensar aur kid ke sath ekaant mean baithe hue jiv aur prakriti ke gahan goodh vishay par vartalap aur kahaan in abhimani asabhy moorkh vyapariyoan ke samane sir jhukana ! vah aantahkaran mean unase ghrina karate the. ve dhani the aur keval dhan kamana chahate the. isake atirikt unamean aur koee vishesh gun n tha. unamean adhikaansh aise the jinhoanne kapat-vyavahar se dhanoparjan kiya tha. par gopinath ke lie ve sabhi poojy the kyoanki unhian ki kripadrishti par unaki rashtr-seva avalambit thi.

is prakar kee varsh vyatit ho gaye. gopinath nagar ke many purushoan mean gine jane lage. vah dinajanoan ke adhar aur dukhiyaroan ke madadagar the. ab vah bahut kuchh nirbhik ho gaye the aur kabhi-kabhi reesoan ko bhi kumarg par chalate dekh kar phatakar diya karate the. unaki tivr alochana bhi ab chande jama karane mean unaki sahayak ho jati thi.

abhi tak unaka vivah n hua tha. vah pahale hi se brahmachary vrat dharan kar chuke the. vivah karane se saf inakar kiya. magar jab pita aur any bandhujanoan ne bahut agrah kiya aur unhoanne svayan kee vijnan-granthoan mean dekha ki indriy-daman svasthy ke lie hanikarak hai to asamanjas mean p de. kee haphte sochate ho gaye aur vah man mean koee bat pakki n kar sake. svarth aur paramarth mean sangharsh ho raha tha. vivah ka arth tha apani udarata ki hatya karana apane vistrit hriday ko sankuchit karana n ki rashtr ke lie jina. vah ab itane ooanche adarsh ka tyag karana niandy aur upahasajanak samajhate the. isake atirikt ab vah anek karanoan se apane ko parivarik jivan ke ayogy pate the. jivika ke lie jis udyogashilata jis anavarat parishram aur jis manovritti ki avashyakata hai vah unamean n rahi thi. jati-seva mean bhi udyogashilata aur adhyavasay ki kam zaroorat n thi lekin usamean atm-gaurav ka hanan n hota tha. paropakar ke lie bhiksha maangana dan hai apane lie pan ka ek bi da bhi bhiksha hai. svabhav mean ek prakar ki svachchhandata a gayi thi. in trutiyoan par parada dalane ke lie jati-seva ka bahana bahut achchha tha.

ek din vah sair karane ja rahe the ki raste mean adhyapak amaranath se mulakat ho gayi. yah mahashay ab myunisipal bord ke mantri ho gaye the aur ajakal is duvidha mean p de hue the ki shahar mean madak vastuoan ke bechane ka thika looan ya n looan. labh bahut tha par badanami bhi kam n thi. abhi tak kuchh nishchay n kar sake the. inhean dekh kar bole-kahie lala ji mizaj achchha hai n ! apake vivah ke vishay mean kya hua

gopinath ne dridhata se kaha-mera irada vivah karane ka nahian hai.

amaranath-aisi bhool n karana. tum abhi navayuvak ho tumhean sansar ka kuchh anubhav nahian hai. maianne aisi kitani misalean dekhi haian jahaan avivahit rahane se labh ke badale hani hi huee hai. vivah manushy ko sumarg par rakhane ka sabase uttam sadhan hai jise ab tak manushy ne avishkrit kiya hai. us vrat se kya fayada jisaka parinam chhichhorapan ho.

gopinath ne pratyuttar diya-apane madak vastuoan ke thike ke vishay mean kya nishchay kiya

amar-abhi tak kuchh nahian. ji hichakata hai. kuchh n kuchh badanami to hogi hi.

gopi-ek adhyapak ke lie maian is peshe ko apaman samajhata hooan.

amar-koee pesha kharab nahian hai agar eemanadari se kiya jay.

gopi-yahaan mera apase matabhed hai. kitane hi aise vyavasay haian jinhean ek sushikshit vyakti kabhi svikar nahian kar sakata. madak vastuoan ka thika unamean ek hai.

gopinath ne a kar apane pita se kaha-maian kadapi vivah n karooanga. ap log mujhe vivash n karean varana pachhataiega.

amaranath ne usi din thike ke lie prarthanapatr bhej diya aur vah svikrit bhi ho gaya.

do sal ho gaye haian. lala gopinath ne ek kanya-pathashala kholi hai aur usake prabandhak haian. shiksha ki vibhinn paddhatiyoan ka unhoanne khoob adhyayan kiya hai aur is pathashala mean vah unaka vyavahar kar rahe haian. shahar mean yah pathashala bahut hi sarvapriy hai. usane bahut aanshoan mean us udasinata ka parishodh kar diya hai jo mata-pita ko putriyoan ki shiksha ki or hoti hai. shahar ke ganyamany purush apani l dakiyoan ko saharsh padhane bhejate haian. vahaan ki shiksha-shaili kuchh aisi manoranjak hai ki balikaean ek bar ja kar mano mantramugdh ho jati haian. phir unhean ghar par chain nahian milata. aisi vyavastha ki gayi hai ki tin-char varshoan mean hi kanyaoan ka grihasthi ke mukhy kamoan se parichay ho jay. sabase b di bat yah hai ki yahaan dharm-shiksha ka bhi samuchit prabandh kiya gaya hai. abaki sal se prabandhak mahoday ne aangreji ki kakshaean bhi khol di haian. ek sushikshit gujarati mahila ko bambee se bula kar pathashala unake hath mean de di hai. in mahila ka nam hai anandi baee. vidhava haian. hiandi bhasha se bhali-bhaanti parichit nahian haian kiantu gujarati mean kee pustakean likh chuki haian. kee kanya-pathashalaoan mean kam kar chuki haian. shiksha-sambandhi vishayoan mean achchhi gati hai. unake ane se madarase mean aur bhi raunak a gayi hai. kee pratishthit sajjanoan ne jo apani balikaoan ko mansoori aur nainital bhejana chahate the ab unhean yahian bharati kara diya hai. anandi reesoan ke gharoan mean jati haian aur striyoan mean shiksha ka prachar karati haian. unake vastrabhooshanoan se suruchi ka bodh hota hai. haian bhi uchchakul ki isalie shahar mean unaka b da samman hota hai. l dakiyaan un par jan deti haian unhean maan kah kar pukarati haian. gopinath pathashala ki unnati dekh-dekh kar phoole nahian samate. jisase milate haian anandi baee ka hi gunagan karate haian. bahar se koee suvikhyat purush ata hai to usase pathashala ka nirikshan avashy karate haian. anandi ki prashansa se unhean vahi anand prapt hota hai jo svayan apani prashansa se hota. baee ji ko bhi darshan se prem hai aur sabase b di bat yah hai ki unhean gopinath par asim shraddha hai. vah hriday se unaka samman karati haian. unake tyag aur nishkam jati-bhakti ne unhean vashibhoot kar liya hai. vah muanh par unaki b daee nahian karatian par reesoan ke gharoan mean b de prem se unaka yashogan karati haian. aise sachche sevak ajakal kahaan log kirti par jan dete haian. jo tho di-bahut seva karate haian dikhave ke lie. sachchi lagan kisi mean nahian. maian lala ji ko purush nahian devata samajhati hooan. kitana saral santoshamay jivan hai. n koee vyasan n vilas. bhor se sayankal tak dau date rahate haian n khane ka koee samay n sone ka samay. us par koee aisa nahian jo unake aram ka dhyan rakhe. bechare ghar gaye jo kuchh kisi ne samane rakh diya chupake se kha liya phir chh di uthayi aur kisi taraph chal diye. doosari aurat kadapi apani patni ki bhaanti seva-satkar nahian kar sakati.

dashahare ke din the. kanya-pathashala mean utsav manane ki taiyariyaan ho rahi thian. ek natak khelane ka nishchay kiya gaya tha. bhavan khoob sajaya gaya tha. shahar ke reesoan ko nimantran diye gaye the. yah kahana kathin hai ki kisaka utsah badha hua tha baee ji ka ya lala gopinath ka. gopinath samagriyaan ekatr kar rahe the unhean achchhe dhang se sajane ka bhar anandi ne liya tha natak bhi inhian ne racha tha. nityaprati usaka abhyas karati thian aur svayan ek part le rakha tha.

vijayadashami a gayi. dopahar tak gopinath pharsh aur kursiyoan ka iantajam karate rahe. jab ek baj gaya aur ab bhi vah vahaan se n tale to anandi ne kaha-lala ji apako bhojan karane ko der ho rahi hai. ab sab kam ho gaya hai. jo kuchh bach raha hai mujh par chho d dijie.

gopinath ne kaha-kha looanga. maian thik samay par bhojan karane ka paband nahian hooan. phir ghar tak kaun jay. ghantoan lag jayeange. bhojan ke uparant aram karane ka ji chahega. sham ho jayagi.

anandi-bhojan to mere yahaan taiyar hai brahmani ne banaya hai chal kar kha lijie aur yahian jara der aram bhi kar lijie.

gopinath-yahaan kya kha looan ! ek vakt n khaooanga to aisi kaun-si hani ho jayagi

anandi-jab bhojan taiyar hai to upavas kyoan kijiega.

gopinath-ap jayean apako avashy der ho rahi hai. maian kam mean aisa bhoola ki apaki sudhi hi n rahi.

anandi-maian bhi ek joon upavas kar looangi to kya hani hogi

gopinath-nahian-nahian isaki kya zaroorat hai maian apase sach kahata hooan maian bahudha ek hi joon khata hooan.

anandi-achchha maian apake inakar ka mane samajh gayi. itani moti bat ab tak mujhe n soojhi.

gopinath-kya samajh gayian maian chhootachhat nahian manata. yah to apako maloom hi hai.

anandi-itana janati hooan kiantu jis karan se ap mere yahaan bhojan karane se inakar kar rahe haian usake vishay mean keval itana nivedan hai ki mujhe apase keval svami aur sevak ka sambandh nahian hai. mujhe apase atmiyata ka sambandh hai. apaka mere pan-phool ko asvikar karana apane ek sachche bhakt ke marm ko aghat pahuanchana hai. maian apako isi drishti se dekhati hooan.

gopinath ko ab koee apatti n ho saki. ja kar bhojan kar liya. vah jab tak asan par baithe rahe anandi baithi pankha jhalati rahi.

is ghatana ki lala gopinath ke mitroan ne yoan alochana ki mahashay ji ab to vahian ( vahian par khoob zor de kar) bhojan bhi karate haian.

shanaiah-shanaiah parada hatane laga. lala gopinath ko ab paravashata ne sahity-sevi bana diya tha. ghar se unhean avashyak sahayata mil jati thi kiantu patroan aur patrikaoan tatha any anek kamoan ke lie unhean gharavaloan se kuchh maangate hue bahut sankoch hota tha. unaka atm-samman jara-jara si batoan ke lie bhaiyoan ke samane hath phailana anuchit samajhata tha. vah apani zarooratean ap poori karana chahate the. ghar par bhaiyoan ke l dake itana kolahal machate ki unaka ji kuchh likhane mean n lagata. isalie jab unaki kuchh likhane ki ichchha hoti to bekhatake pathashala mean chale jate. anandi baee vahian rahati thian. vahaan n koee shor tha n gul. ekaant mean kam karane mean ji lagata. bhojan ka samay a jata to vahian bhojan bhi kar lete. kuchh dinoan ke bad unhean baith kar likhane mean kuchh asuvidha hone lagi (aankhean kamazor ho gayi thian) to anandi ne likhane ka bhar apane sir le liya. lala sahab bolate the anandi likhati thian. gopinath ki prerana se unhoanne hiandi sikhi thi aur tho de hi dinoan mean itani abhyast ho gayi thian ki likhane mean jara bhi hichak n hoti. likhate samay kabhi-kabhi unhean aise shabd aur muhavare soojh jate ki gopinath ph dak-ph dak uthate unake lekh mean jan-si p d jati. vah kahate yadi tum svayan kuchh likho to mujhase bahut achchha likhogi. maian to begari karata hooan. tumhean paramatma ki or se yah shakti karata huee hai. nagar ke lal-bujhakk doan mean is sahakarita par tika-tippaniyaan hone lagi par vidvajjan apani atma ki shuchita ke samane eershya ke vyangy ki kab paravah karate haian. anandi kahatian-yah to sansar hai jisake man mean aye kahe par maian us purush ka niradar nahian kar sakati jis par meri shraddha hai. par gopinath itane nirbhik n the. unaki sukirti ka adhar lokamat tha. vah usaki bhartsana n kar sakate the. isalie vah din ke badale rat ko rachana karane lage. pathashala mean is samay koee dekhanevala n hota tha. rat ki niravata mean khoob ji lagata. aram-kurasi par let jate. anandi mej ke samane kalam hath mean liye unaki or dekha karatian. jo kuchh unake mukh se nikalata turant likh letian. unaki aankhoan se vinay aur shil shraddha aur prem ki kiran-si nikalati huee jan p dati. gopinath jab kisi bhav ko man mean vyakt karane ke bad anandi ki or takate ki vah likhane ke lie taiyar haian ya nahian to donoan vyaktiyoan ki nigahean milatian aur ap hi jhuk jatian. gopinath ko is tarah kam karane ki aisi adat p dati jati thi ki jab kisi karyavash yahaan ane ka avasar n milata to vah vikal ho jate the.

anandi se milane ke pahale gopinath ko striyoan ka kuchh jo jnan tha vah keval pustakoan par avalambit tha. striyoan ke vishay mean prachin aur arvachin prachy aur pashchaty sabhi vidvanoan ka ek hi mat tha-yah mayavi atmik unnati ki badhak paramarth ki virodhini vrittiyoan ko kumarg ki or le janevali hriday ko sankirn bananevali hoti hai. inhian karanoan se unhoanne is mayavi jati se alag rahana hi shreyaskar samajha tha kiantu ab anubhav batala raha tha ki striyaan sanmarg ki or bhi le ja sakati haian unamean sadgun bhi ho sakate haian. ve karttavy aur seva ke bhavoan ko jagrit bhi kar sakati haian. tab unake man mean prashn uthata ki yadi anandi se mera vivah hota to mujhe kya apatti ho sakati thi. usake sath to mera jivan b de anand se kat jata. ek din vah anandi ke yahaan gaye to sir mean dard ho raha tha. kuchh likhane ki ichchha n huee. anandi ko isaka karan maloom hua to usane unake sir mean dhire-dhire tel malana shuroo kiya. gopinath ko us samay alaukik sukh mil raha tha. man mean prem ki tarangean uth rahi thian-netr mukh vani-sabhi prem mean page jate the. usi din se unhoanne anandi ke yahaan ana chho d diya. ek saptah bit gaya aur n aye. anandi ne likha-apase pathashala sambandhi kee vishayoan mean ray leni hai. avashy aie. tab bhi n gaye. usane phir likha-maloom hota hai ap mujhase naraz haian ! maianne janaboojh kar to koee aisa kam nahian kiya lekin yadi vastav mean ap naraz haian to maian yahaan rahana uchit nahian samajhati. agar ap ab bhi n ayeange to maian dvitiy adhyapika ko charj de kar chali jaooangi. gopinath par is dhamaki ka bhi kuchh asar n hua. ab bhi n gaye. aant mean do mahine tak khianche rahane ke bad unhean jnat hua ki anandi bimar hai aur do din se pathashala nahian a saki. tab vah kisi tark ya yukti se apane ko n rok sake. pathashala mean aye aur kuchh jhijhakate sakuchate anandi ke kamare mean qadam rakha. dekha to chupachap p di huee thi. mukh pila tha sharir ghul gaya tha. usane unaki or dayaprarthi netroan se dekha. uthana chaha par ashakti ne uthane n diya. gopinath ne ardr kanth se kaha-leti raho leti raho uthane ki zaroorat nahian maian baith jata hooan. daktar sahab aye the

mishrain ne kaha-ji haan do bar aye the. dava de gaye haian.

gopinath ne nusakha dekha. daktari ka sadharan jnan tha. nusakhe se jnat hua-hridayarog hai. aushadhiyaan sabhi pushtikar aur balavarddhak thian. anandi ki or phir dekha. usaki aankhoan se ashrudhara bah rahi thi. unaka gala bhi bhar aya. hriday masosane laga. gadgad ho kar bole-anandi tumane mujhe pahale isaki soochana n di nahian to rog itana n badhane pata.

anandi-koee bat nahian hai achchhi ho jaooangi jaldi hi achchhi ho jaooangi. mar bhi jaooangi to kaun ronevala baitha hua hai. yah kahate-kahate vah phoot-phoot kar rone lagi.

gopinath darshanik the par abhi tak unake man ke komal bhav shithil n hue the. kampit svar se bole-anandi sansar mean kam-se-kam ek aisa adami hai jo tumhare lie apane pran tak de dega. yah kahate-kahate vah ruk gaye. unhean apane shabd aur bhav kuchh bhadde aur uchchhrinkhal se jan p de. apane manobhavoan ko prakat karane ke lie vah in sarahin shabdoan ki apeksha kahian adhik kavyamay rasapoorn anurakt shabdoan ka vyavahar karana chahate the par vah is vakt yad n p de

anandi ne pulakit ho kar kaha-do mahine tak kis par chho d diya tha

gopinath-in do mahinoan mean meri jo dasha thi vah maian hi janata hooan. yahi samajh lo ki maianne atmahatya nahian ki yahi b da ashchary hai. maianne n samajha tha ki apane vrat par sthir rahana mere lie itana kathin ho jayaga.

anandi ne gopinath ka hath dhire se apane hath mean lekar kaha-ab to kabhi itani kathorata n kijiyega

gopinath-(sachiant hokar) aant kya hai

anandi-kuchh bhi ho !

gopi.-kuchh bhi ho ! apaman nianda upahas atmavedana.

anandi-kuchh bhi ho maian sab kuchh sah sakati hooan aur apako bhi mere hetu sahana p dega.

gopi.-anandi maian apane ko prem par balidan kar sakata hooan lekin apane nam ko nahian. is nam ko akalankit rakhakar maian samaj ki bahut kuchh seva kar sakata hooan.

anandi-n kijie. apane sab kuchh tyag kar yah kirti labh ki hai maian apake yash ko nahian mitana chahati (gopinath ka hath hridayasthal par rakh kar) isako chahati hooan. isase adhik tyag ki akaanksha nahian rakhati

gopi.-donoan batean ek sath sanbhav haian

anandi-sanbhav hai. mere lie sanbhav hai. maian prem par apani atma ko bhi nyochhavar kar sakati hooan.

isake pashchath lala gopinath ne anandi ki buraee karani shuroo ki. mitroan se kahate unaka ji ab kam mean nahian lagata. pahale ki-si tanadehi nahian hai. kisi se kahate unaka ji ab yahaan se uchat ho gaya hai apane ghar jana chahati haian unaki ichchha hai ki mujhe prativarsh taraqqi mila kare aur usaki yahaan guanjaish nahian. pathashala ko kee bar dekha aur apani alochana mean kam ko asantoshajanak likha. shiksha sangathan utsah suprabandh sabhi batoan mean nirashajanak kshati payi. varshik adhiveshan mean jab kee sadasyoan ne anandi ki vetan-vriddhi ka prastav upasthit kiya to lala gopinath ne usaka virodh kiya. udhar anandi baee bhi gopinath ke dukh de rone lagi. yah manushy nahian hai patthar ka devata hai. unhean prasann karana dustar hai achchha hi hua ki unhoanne vivah nahian kiya nahian to dukhiya inake nakhare uthate-uthate sidhar jati. kahaan tak koee saphaee aur suprabandh par dhyan de ! divar par ek dhabba bhi p d gaya kisi kone-khutare mean ek jala bhi lag gaya baramadoan mean kagaz ka ek tuk da bhi p da mil gaya to apake tivar badal jate haian. do sal maianne jyoan-tyoan karake nibaha lekin dekhati hooan to lala sahab ki nigah dinoandin k di hoti jati hai. aisi dasha mean maian yahaan adhik nahian thahar sakati. mere lie naukari mean kalyan nahian hai jab ji chahega uth kh di hooangi. yahaan ap logoan se mel-muhabbat ho gayi hai kanyaoan se aisa pyar ho gaya hai ki chho d kar jane ko ji nahian chahata. ashchary tha ki aur kisi ko pathashala ki dasha mean avanati n dikhati thi varanh halat pahale se achchhi thi.

ek din pandit amaranath ki lala ji se bheant ho gayi. unhoanne poochha-kahie pathashala khoob chal rahi hai n

gopi-kuchh n poochhie. dinoandin dasha girati jati hai.

amar-anandi baee ki or se dhil hai kya

gopi-ji haan sarasar. ab kam karane mean unaka ji nahian lagata. baithi huee yog aur jnan ke granth padha karati haian. kuchh kahata hooan to kahati haian maian ab isase aur adhik kuchh nahian kar sakati. kuchh paralok ki bhi chinta karooan ki chaubisoan ghante pet ke dhandhoan mean hi lagi rahooan pet ke lie paanch ghante bahut haian. pahale kuchh dinoan tak barah ghante karati par vah dasha sthayi nahian rah sakati thi. yahaan a kar maianne svasthy kho diya. ek bar kathin rogagrast ho gayi. kya kameti ne mere dava-darpan ka kharch de diya koee bat poochhane bhi aya phir apani jan kyoan dooan suna hai gharoan mean meri badagoee bhi kiya karati haian. amaranath marmik bhav se bole-ye batean mujhe pahale hi maloom thian.

do sal aur gujar gaye. rat ka samay tha. kanya-pathashala ke oopar vale kamare mean lala gopinath mej ke samane kurasi par baithe hue the samane anandi koch par leti huee thi. mukh bahut mlan ho raha tha. kee minat tak donoan vichar mean magn the. aant mean gopinath bole-maianne pahale hi mahine mean tumase kaha tha ki mathura chali jao.

anandi-vahaan das mahine kyoankar rahati. mere pas itane rupaye kahaan the aur n tumhian ne koee prabandh karane ka ashvasan diya. maianne socha tin-char mahine yahaan aur rahooan. tab tak kiphayat karake kuchh bacha looangi tumhari kitab se bhi kuchh mil jayeange. tab mathura chali jaooangi magar yah kya maloom tha ki bimari bhi isi avasar ki tak mean baithi huee hai. meri dasha do-char din ke lie bhi sanbhali aur maian chali. is dasha mean to mere lie yatr karana asambhav hai.

gopi-mujhe bhay hai ki kahian bimari tool n khianche. sangrahani asadhy rog hai. mahine-do mahine yahaan aur rahane p d gaye to bat khul jayagi.

anandi-(chidh kar) khul jayagi khul jay. ab isase kahaan tak darooan

gopi-maian bhi n darata agar mere karan nagar ki kee sansthaoan ka jivan sankat mean n p d jata. isalie maian badanami se darata hooan. samaj ke yah bandhan nire pakhand haian. maian unhean sampoornatah anyay samajhata hooan. is vishay mean tum mere vicharoan ko bhali-bhaanti janati ho par karooan kya durbhagyavash maianne jati-seva ka bhar apane oopar le liya hai aur usi ka phal hai ki aj mujhe apane mane hue siddhaantoan ko to dana p d raha hai aur jo vastu mujhe pranoan se bhi priy hai use yoan nirvasit karana p d raha hai.

kintu anandi ki dasha sanbhalane ki jagah dinoandin girati hi gayi. kamazori se uthana-baithana kathin ho gaya tha. kisi vaidy ya daktar ko usaki avastha n dikhayi jati thi. gopinath davaean late the anandi unaka sevan karati thi aur din-din nirbal hoti jati thi. pathashala se usane chhutti le li thi. kisi se milati-julati bhi n thi. bar-bar cheshta karati ki mathura chali jaooan kintu ek anajan nagar mean akele kaise rahooangi n koee age n pichhe. koee ek ghooant pani denevala bhi nahian. yah sab sochakar usaki himmat toot jati thi. isi soch-vichar aur hais-bais mean do mahine aur gujar gaye aur ant mean vivash hokar anandi ne nishchay kiya ki ab chahe kuchh sir par bite yahaan se chal hi dooan. agar saphar mean mar bhi jaooangi to kya chinta hai. unaki badanami to n hogi. unake yash ko kalank to n lagega. mere pichhe tane to n sunane p deange. saphar ki taiyariyaan karane lagi. rat ko jane ka muhoort tha ki sahasa sandhyakal se hi prasavapi da hone lagi aur gyarah bajate-bajate ek nanha-sa durbal satavaansa balak prasav hua. bachche ke hone ki avaz sunate hi lala gopinath betahasha oopar se utare aur girate-p date ghar bhage. anandi ne is bhed ko aant tak chhipaye rakha apani darun prasavapi da ka hal kisi se n kaha. daee ko bhi soochana n di magar jab bachche ke rone ki dhvani madarase mean gooanji to kshanamatr mean daee samane a kar kh di ho gayi. naukaraniyoan ko pahale se shankaean thian. unhean koee ashchary n hua. jab daee ne anandi ko pukara to vah sachet ho gayi. dekha to balak ro raha hai.

doosare din das bajate-bajate yah samachar sare shahar mean phail gaya. ghar-ghar charcha hone lagi. koee ashchary karata tha koee ghrina karata koee hansi u data tha. lala gopinath ke chhidranveshiyoan ki sankhya kam n thi. pandit amaranath unake mukhiya the. un logoan ne lala ji ki nianda karani shuroo ki. jahaan dekhie vahian do-char sajjan baithe gopaniy bhav se isi ghatana ki alochana karate najar ate the. koee kahata tha is stri ke lakshan pahale hi se vidit ho rahe the. adhikaansh adamiyoan ki ray mean gopinath ne yah bura kiya. yadi aisa hi prem ne zor mara tha to unhean nidar ho kar vivah kar lena chahie tha. yah kam gopinath ka hai isamean kisi ko bhram n tha. keval kushal-samachar poochhane ke bahane se log unake ghar jate aur do-char anyoktiyaan suna kar chale ate the. isake viruddh anandi par logoan ko daya ati thi. par lala ji ke aise bhakt bhi the jo lala ji ke mathe yah kalank madhana pap samajhate the. gopinath ne svayan maun dharan kar liya tha. sabaki bhali-buri batean sunate the par muanh n kholate the. itani himmat n thi ki sabase milana chho d dean.

prashn tha ab kya ho anandi baee ke vishay mean to janata ne phaisala kar diya. bahas yah thi ki gopinath ke sath kya vyavahar kiya jay. koee kahata tha unhoanne jo kukarm kiya hai usaka phal bhogean. anandi baee ko niyamit roop se ghar mean rakhean. koee kahata hamean isase kya matalab anandi janean aur vah janean. donoan jaise ke taise haian jaise udee vaise bhan n unake choti n unake kan. lekin in mahashay ko pathashala ke aandar ab qadam n rakhane dena chahie. janata ke phaisale sakshi nahian khojate. anuman hi unake lie sabase b di gavahi hai.

lekin pan. amaranath aur unaki goshthi ke log gopinath ko itane saste n chho dana chahate the. unhean gopinath se purana dvesh tha. yah kal ka lauanda darshan ki do-char pustakean ulat-palat kar rajaniti mean kuchh shudabud karake lidar bana hua bichare sunahari ainak lagaye reshami chadar gale mean dale yoan garv se take mano saty aur prem ka putala hai. aise range siyar ki jitani kalee kholi jay utana hi achchha. jati ko aise dagabaj charitrahin durbalatma sevakoan se sachet kar dena chahie. pandit amaranath pathashala ki adhyapikaoan aur naukaroan se tahakikat karate the. lala ji kab ate the kab jate the kitani der rahate the yahaan kya kiya karate the tum log unaki upasthiti mean vahaan jane pate the ya rok thi lekin yah chhote-chhote adami jinhean gopinath se santusht rahane ka koee karan n tha (unaki sakhti ki naukar log bahut shikayat kiya karate the) is duravastha mean unake aiboan par parada dalane lage. amaranath ne pralobhan diya daraya dhamakaya par kisi ne gopinath ke viruddh sakshi n di.

udhar lala gopinath ne usi din se anandi ke ghar ana-jana chho d diya. do haphte tak to vah abhagini kisi tarah kanya pathashala mean rahi. pandrahavean din prabandhak samiti ne use makan khali kar dene ki notis de di. mahine bhar ki muhalat dena bhi uchit n samajha. ab vah dukhiya ek tang makan mean rahati thi koee poochhanevala n tha. bachcha kamazor khud bimar koee age n pichhe n koee duahkh ka sangi n sathi. shishu ko god mean liye din ke din bedana-pani p di rahati thi. ek budhiya mahari mil gayi thi jo bartan dho kar chali jati thi. kabhi-kabhi shishu ko chhati se lagaye rat ki rat rah jati par dhany hai usake dhairy aur santosh ko ! lala gopinath se muanh mean shikayat thi n dil mean. sochati in paristhitiyoan mean unhean mujhase paranmukh hi rahana chahie. isake atirikt aur upay nahian hai. unake badanam hone se nagar ki kitani b di hani hoti. sabhi un par sandeh karate haian par kisi ko yah sahas to nahian ho sakata ki unake vipaksh mean koee praman de sake !

yah sochate hue usane svami abhedanand ki ek pustak uthayi aur usake ek adhyay ka anuvad karane lagi. ab usaki jivika ka ekamatr yahi adhar tha. sahasa dhire se kisi ne dvar khatakhataya. vah chauank p di. lala gopinath ki avaz maloom huee. usane turant dvar khol diya. gopinath akar kh de ho gaye aur sote hue balak ko pyar se dekhakar bole-anandi maian tumhean muanh dikhane layaq nahian hooan. maian apani bhiruta aur naitik durbalata par atyant lajjit hooan. yadyapi maian janata hooan ki meri badanami jo kuchh honi thi vah ho chuki. mere nam se chalane vali sansthaoan ko jo hani pahuanchani thi pahuanch chuki. ab asambhav hai ki maian janata ko apana muanh phir dikhaooan aur n vah mujh par vishvas hi kar sakati hai. itana janate hue bhi mujhamean itana sahas nahian hai ki apane kukrity ka bhar sir le looan. maian pahale samajik shasan ki ratti bhar paravah n karata par ab pag-pag par usake bhay se mere pran tak kaanpane lagate haian. dhikkar hai mujh par ki tumhare oopar aisi vipattiyaan p dian lokanianda rog shok nirdhanata sabhi ka samana karana p da aur maian yoan alag-alag raha mano mujhase koee prayojan nahian hai par mera hriday hi janata hai ki usako kitani pi da hoti thi. kitani hi bar ane ka nishchay kiya aur phir himmat har gaya. ab mujhe vidit ho gaya ki meri sari darshanikata keval hathi ke daant thi. mujhamean kriya-shakti nahian hai lekin isake sath hi tumase alag rahana mere lie asahy hai. tumase door rah kar maian zinda nahian rah sakata pyare bachche ko dekhane ke lie maian kitani hi bar lalayit ho gaya hooan par yah asha kaise karooan ki meri charitrahinata ka aisa pratyaksh praman pane ke bad tumhean mujhase ghrina n ho gayi hogi.

anandi-svami apake man mean aisi batoan ka ana mujh par ghor anyay hai. maian aisi buddhihin nahian hooan ki keval apane svarth ke lie apako kalankit karooan. maian apako apana ishtadev samajhati hooan aur sadaiv samajhooangi. maian bhi ab apake viyog-duahkh ko nahian sah sakati. kabhi-kabhi apake darshan pati rahooan yahi jivan ki sabase b di abhilasha hai.

is ghatana ko pandrah varsh bit gaye haian. lala gopinath nity barah baje rat ko anandi ke sath baithe hue najar ate haian. vah nam par marate haian anandi prem par. badanam donoan haian lekin anandi ke sath logoan ki sahanubhooti hai gopinath sabaki nigah se gir gaye haian. haan unake kuchh atmiyagan is ghatana ko keval manushiy samajh kar ab bhi unaka samman karate haian kiantu janata itani sahishnu nahian hai.

sanbandhit lekh

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