विमाता -प्रेमचंद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

stri ki mrityu ke tin hi mas bad punarvivah karana mritatma ke sath aisa anyay aur usaki atma par aisa aghat hai jo kadapi kshamy nahian ho sakata. maian yah kahooanga ki us svargavasini ki mujhase aantim prerana thi aur n mera shayad yah kathan hi many samajha jay ki hamare chhote balak ke lie ‘maan’ ki upasthiti paramavashyak thi. parantu is vishay mean meri atma nirmal hai aur maian asha karata hooan ki svargalok mean mere is kary ki nirday alochana n ki jayagi. saraansh yah ki maianne vivah kiya aur yadyapi ek nav-vivahita vadhoo ko matritv upadesh besura rag tha, par maianne pahale hi din amba se kah diya ki maianne tumase keval is abhipray se vivah kiya hai ki tum mere bhole balak ki maan bano aur usake hriday se usaki maan ki mrityu ka shok bhula do.

do mas vyatit ho gaye. maian sandhya samay munnoo ko sath le kar vayu sevan ko jaya karata tha. lautate samay katipay mitroan se bheant bhi kar liya karata tha. un sangatoan mean munnoo shyama ki bhaanti chahakata. vastav mean in sangatoan se mera abhipray manovinod nahian, keval munnoo ke asadharan buddhi chamatkar ko pradarshit karana tha. mere mitragan jab munnoo ko pyar karate aur usaki vilakshan buddhi ki sarahana karate to mera hriday baansoan uchhalane lagata tha. ek din maian munnoo ke sath baboo jvalasianh ke ghar baitha hua tha. ye mere param mitr the. mujhamean aur unamean kuchh bhedabhav n tha. isaka arth yah nahian hai ki ham apani kshudrataean, apane parivarik kalahadi aur apani arthik kathinaiyaan bayan kiya karate the. nahian, ham in mulakatoan mean bhi apani pratishtha ki raksha karate the aur apani duravastha ka zikr kabhi hamari jaban par n ata tha. apani kalimaoan ko sadaiv chhipate the. ekata mean bhi bhed tha aur ghanishthata mean bhi aantar. achanak baboo jvalasianh ne munnoo se poochha ‘kyoan tumhari ammaan tumhean khoob pyar karati haian n ?’’ maianne muskara kar munnoo ki or dekha. usake uttar ke vishay mean mujhe koee sandeh n tha. maian bhali-bhaanti janata tha ki ammaan use bahut pyar karati hai. parantu mere ashchary ka thikana n raha jab munnoo ne is prashn ka uttar mukh se n de kar netroan se diya. usake netroan se aansoo ki booandean tapakane lagian. maian lajja se g d gaya. is ashru-jal ne amba ke us suandar chitr ko nasht-bhrasht kar diya jo gat do mas se maianne hriday mean aankit kar rakha tha. jvalasianh ne kuchh sanshay ki drishti se dekha aur punah munnoo se poochha ‘kyoan rote ho beta ?’ munnoo bola ‘rota nahian hooan, aankhoan mean dhuaan lag gaya tha.’ jvalasianh ka vimata ki mamata par sandeh karana svabhavik bat thi; parantu vastav mean mujhe bhi sandeh ho gaya ! amba sahridayata aur sneh ki vah devi nahian hai, jisaki sarahana karate meri jihna n thakati thi. vahaan se utha to mera hriday bhara hua tha aur lajja se matha n uthata tha.

maian ghar ki or chala to man mean vichar karane laga ki kis prakar apane krodh ko prakat karooan. kyoan n muanh dhaank kar so rahooan. amba jab poochhe to kathorata se kah dooan ki sir mean pi da hai, mujhe tang mat karo. bhojan ke lie uthaye to jhi dak kar uttar dooan. amba avashy samajh jayagi ki koee bat meri ichchha ke pratikool huee hai. mere paanv pak dane lagegi. us samay apani vyangyapoorn batoan se usaka hriday bedh dalooanga. aisa rulaooanga ki vah bhi yad kare. punah vichar aya ki usaka hansamukh chehara dekh kar maian apane hriday ko vash mean rakh sakooanga ya nahian. usaki ek prem-poorn drishti, ek mithi bat, ek rasili chutaki meri shilatuly rushtata ke tuk de-tuk de kar sakati hai. parantu hriday ki is nirbalata par mera man jhuanjhala utha. yah meri kya dasha hai, kyoan itani jaldi mere chitt ki kaya palat gayi ? mujhe poorn vishvas tha ki maian in mridul vakyoan ki aandhi aur lalit katakshoan ke bahav mean bhi achal rah sakata hooan aur kahaan ab yah dasha ho gayi ki mujhamean sadharan jhoanke ko bhi sahan karane ki samarthy nahian ! in vicharoan se hriday mean kuchh dridhata ayi, tis par bhi krodh ki lagam pag-pag par dhili hoti jati thi. aant mean maianne hriday ko bahut dabaya aur banavati krodh ka bhav dharan kiya. than liya ki chalate hi chalate ekadam se baras padooanga.

aisa n ho ki vilambaroopi vayu is krodharoopi megh ko u da le jay, parantu jyoan hi ghar pahuancha, amba ne dau d kar munnoo ko godi mean le liya aur pyar se sane hue komal svar se boli ‘aj tum itani der tak kahaan ghoomate rahe ? chalo, dekho, maianne tumhare lie kaisi achchhi-achchhi phulau diyaan banayi haian.’ mera kritrim krodh ek kshan mean u d gaya. maianne vichar kiya, is devi par krodh karana bhari atyachar hai. munnoo abodh balak hai. sambhav hai ki vah apani maan ka smaran kar ro p da ho. amba isake lie doshi nahian thaharayi ja sakati. hamare manobhav poorv vicharoan ke adhin nahian hote, ham unako prakat karane ke nimitt kaise-kaise shabd gadhate haian, parantu samay par shabd hamean dhokha de jate haian aur ve hi bhavanaean svabhavik roop se prakat hoti haian. maianne amba ko n to koee vyangyapoorn batean hi kahian aur n krodhit ho mukh dhaank kar soya hi, balki atyant komal svar mean bola munnoo ne aj mujhe atyant lajjit kiya. khajanachi sahab ne poochha tumhari nayi ammaan tumhean pyar karati haian ya nahian, to ye rone laga. maian lajja se g d gaya. mujhe to svapn mean bhi yah vichar nahian ho sakata ki tumane ise kuchh kaha hoga. parantu anath bachchoan ka hriday us chitr ki bhaanti hota hai jis par ek bahut hi sadharan parada p da hua ho. pavan ka sadharan jhoanka bhi use hata deta hai.

ye batean kitani komal thian, tis par bhi amba ka vikasit mukhamandal kuchh murajha gaya. vah sajal netr ho kar boli is bat ka vichar to maianne yathasadhy pahale hi din se rakha hai. parantu yah asambhav hai ki maian munnoo ke hriday se maan ka shok mita dooan. maian chahe apana sarvasv arpan kar dooan, parantu mere nam par jo sautelepan ki kalima lagi huee hai, vah mit nahian sakati.

mujhe bhay tha ki is vartalap ka parinam kahian viparit n ho, parantu doosare hi din mujhe amba ke vyavahar mean bahut aantar dikhayi dene laga. maian use pratah-sayankal paryant munnoo ki hi seva mean lagi huee dekhata, yahaan tak ki us dhun mean use meri bhi chianta n rahati thi. parantu maian aisa tyagi n tha ki apane aram ko munnoo par arpan kar deta. kabhi-kabhi mujhe amba ki yah ashraddha n bhati, parantu maian kabhi bhool kar bhi isaki charcha n karata. ek din maian aniyamit roop se daftar se kuchh pahale hi a gaya. kya dekhata hooan ki munnoo dvar par bhitar ki or mukh kiye kh da hai. mujhe is samay aankh-michauni khelane ki soojhi. maianne dabe paanv pichhe se ja kar usake netr mooand liye. par shok ! usake donoan gal ashrupoorit the. maianne turant donoan hath hata liye. aisa pratit hua mano sarp ne das liya ho. hriday par ek chot lagi. munnoo ko god mean lekar bola munnoo, kyoan rote ho ? yah kahate-kahate mere netr bhi sajal ho aye.

munnoo aansoo pi kar bola- ji nahian, rota nahian hooan.

maianne use hriday se laga liya aur kaha- ammaan ne kuchh kaha to nahian ?

munnoo ne sisakate hue kaha- ji nahian, mujhe vah bahut pyar karati haian.

mujhe vishvas n hua, poochha- vah pyar karati to tum rote kyoan ? us din khajanachi ke ghar bhi tum roye the. tum mujhase chhipate ho. kadachith tumhari ammaan avashy tumase kuchh kruddh huee haian.

munnoo ne meri or katar drishti se dekh kar kaha- ji nahian, vah mujhe pyar karati haian isi karan mujhe barambar rona ata hai. meri ammaan mujhe atyant pyar karati thian. vah mujhe chho dakar chali gayian. nayi ammaan usase bhi adhik pyar karati haian. isilie mujhe bhay lagata hai ki usaki tarah yah bhi mujhe chho dakar n chali jay.

yah kah kar munnoo punah phoot-phootakar rone laga. maian bhi ro p da. amba ke is snehamay vyavahar ne munnoo ke sukomal hriday par kaisa aghat kiya tha. tho di der tak maian stambhit rah gaya. kisi kavi ki yah vani smaran a gayi ki pavitr atmaean is sansar mean chirakal tak nahian thaharatian. kahian bhavi hi is balak ki jihna se to yah shabd nahian kahala rahi hai. eeshvar n kare ki vah ashubh din dekhana p de. parantu maianne tark dvara is shanka ko dil se nikal diya. samajha ki mata ki mrityu ne prem aur viyog mean ek manasik sambandh utpann kar diya hai aur koee bat nahian hai. munnoo ko god mean liye hue amba ke pas gaya aur muskara kar bola ‘inase poochho kyoan ro rahe haian ?’ amba chauank p di. usake mukh ki kaanti malin ho gayi. boli tumhian poochho. maianne kaha yah isalie rote haian ki tum inhean atyant pyar karati ho aur inako bhay hai ki tum bhi inaki mata ki bhaanti inhean chho dakar n chali jao. jis prakar gard saf ho jane se darpan chamak uthata hai, usi bhaanti amba ka mukhamandal prakashit ho gaya. usane munnoo ko meri god se chhin liya aur kadachith yah pratham avasar tha ki usane mamatapoorn sneh se munnoo ke paanv ka chumban kiya.

shok ! maha shok ! ! maian kya janata tha ki munnoo ki ashubh kalpana itani shighr poorn ho jayagi. kadachith usaki bal-drishti ne honahar ko dekh liya tha, kadachith usake bal shravan mrityu dootoan ke vikaral shabdoan se parichit the.

chhah mas bhi vyatit n hone paye the ki amba bimar p di aur enflueanja ne dekhate-dekhate use hamare hathoan se chhin liya. punah vah upavan marutuly ho gaya, punah vah basa hua ghar uj d gaya. amba ne apane ko munnoo par arpan kar diya tha haan, usane putr-sneh ka adarsh roop dikha diya. shitakal tha aur vah gh di ratri shesh rahate hi munnoo ke lie pratahkal ka bhojan banane uthati thi. usake is sneh-bahuly ne munnoo par svabhavik prabhav dal diya tha. vah hathila aur natakhat ho gaya tha. jab tak amba bhojan karane n baithe, muanh mean kaur n dalata, jab tak amba pankha n jhale, vah charapaee par paanv n rakhata. use chhe data, chidhata aur hairan kar dalata. parantu amba ko in batoan se atmik sukh prapt hota tha. enflueanja se karah rahi thi, karavat lene tak ki shakti n thi, sharir tava ho raha tha, parantu munnoo ke pratahkal ke bhojan ki chianta lagi rahati thi. hay! vah niahsvarth matri-sneh ab svapn ho gaya. us svapn ke smaran se ab bhi hriday gadh‌gad ho jata hai. amba ke sath munnoo ka chulabulapan tatha bal kri da vida ho gayi. ab vah shok aur nairashy ki jivit moorti hai, vah ab bhi nahian rota. aisa padarth kho kar ab use koee khataka, koee bhay nahian rah gaya.