वेश्या -प्रेमचंद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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chh: mahine bad kalakatte se ghar ane par dayakrishna ne pahala kam jo kiya, vah apane priy mitr siangarasianh se matamapurasi karane jana tha. siangar ke pita ka aj tin mahine hue dehant ho gaya tha. dayakrishna bahut vyast rahane ke karan us samay n a saka tha. matamapurasi ki rasm patr

likhakar ada kar di thi; lekin aisa ek din bhi nahian bita ki siangar ki yad use n ayi ho. abhi vah do-char mahine aur kalakatte rahana

chahata tha; kyoanki vahaan usane jo karobar jari kiya tha, use sangathit roop mean lane ke lie usaka vahaan maujood rahana zaroori tha aur usaki tho de din ki gairahajiri se bhi hani ki shanka thi. kintu jab siangar ki stri lila ka paravana a pahuancha to vah apane ko n rok saka. lila ne saph-saph to kuchh n likha tha, keval use turant bulaya tha; lekin dayakrishna ko patr ke shabdoan se kuchh aisa anuman hua ki vahaan ki paristhiti chintajanak hai aur is avasar par usaka vahaan pahuanchana zaroori hai. siangar sampann bap ka beta tha, b da hi alh d, b da hi jiddi, b da hi aramapasand. dridhata ya lagan use chhoo bhi nahian gayi thi. usaki maan usake bachapan hi mean mar chuki thi aur bap ne usake palane mean niyantran ki apeksha sneh se zyada kam liya tha. use kabhi duniya ki hava nahian lagane di. udyog bhi koee vastu hai, yah vah janata hi n tha. usake mahaj ishare par har ek chiz samane a jati thi. vah javan balak tha, jisamean n apane vichar the n siddhant. koee bhi adami use b di asani se apane kapat-banoan ka nishana bana sakata tha. mukhtaroan aur munimoan ke daanv-peanch samajhana usake lie lohe ke chane chabana tha. use kisi aise samajhadar aur hitaishi mitr ki zaroorat thi, jo svarthiyoan ke hathakandoan se usaki raksha karata rahe. dayakrishna par is ghar ke b de-b de ehasan the. us dosti ka hak ada karane ke lie usaka ana avashyak tha. muanh-hath dhokar siangarasianh ke ghar par hi bhojan ka irada karake dayakrishna usase milane chala. nau baj gaye the, hava aur dhoop mean garmi ane lagi thi. siangarasianh usaki khabar pate hi bahar nikal aya. dayakrishna use dekhakar chauank p da. lambe-lambe keshoan ki jagah usake sir par ghuangharale bal the hvah sikkh tha), a di maang nikali huee. aankhoan mean n aansoo the, n shok ka koee doosara chihn, chehara kuchh jard avashy tha par us par vilasita ki musakarahat thi. vah ek mahin reshami kamij aur makhamali joote pahane hue tha; mano kisi mahaphil se utha a raha ho. sanvedana ke shabd dayakrishna ke oanthoan tak akar nirash laut gaye. vahaan badhaee ke shabd zyada anukool pratit ho rahe the. siangarasianh lapakakar usake gale se lipat gaya aur bola, tum khoob aye yar, idhar tumhari bahut yad a rahi thi; magar pahale yah batala do, vahaan ka karobar band kar aye ya nahian ? agar vah jhanjhat chho d aye ho, to pahale use tilaanjali de ao. ab ap yahaan se jane n payeange. maianne to bhaee, apana kaian da badal diya. batao, kab tak tapasya karata. ab to aye din jalase hote haian. maianne socha yar, duniya mean aye, to kuchh din sair-sapate ka anand bhi utha lo. nahian to ek din yoan hi hath malate chale jayॅge. kuchh bhi sath n jayaga. dayakrishna vismay se usake muanh ki or takane laga. yah vahi siangar hai ya koee aur ! bap ke marate hi itani tabdili ! donoan mitr kamare mean gaye aur sophe par baithe. saradar sahab ke samane is kamare mean pharsh aur masanad thi, alamari thi. ab darjanoan gaddedar sophe aur kursiyaan haian, kalin ka pharsh hai, reshami parade haian, b de-b de aine haian. saradar sahab ko sanchay ki dhun thi, siangar ko u dane ki dhun hai. siangar ne ek sigar jalakar kaha, teri bahut yad ati thi yar, teri jan ki kasam. dayakrishna ne shikava kiya kyoan jhooth bolate ho bhaee, mahinoan gujar jate the, ek khat likhane ki to apako phursat n milati thi, meri yad ati thi. siangar ne alh dapan se kaha, bas, isi bat par meri sehat ka ek jam piyo. are yar, is zindagi mean aur kya rakha hai ? hansi-khel mean jo vakt kat jay, use ganimat samajho. maianne to yah tapasya tyag di. ab to aye din jalase hote haian, kabhi dostoan ki davat hai, kabhi dariya ki sair, kabhi gana-bajana, kabhi sharab ke daur. maianne kaha,lao kuchh din vah bahar bhi dekh looan. hasarat kyoan dil mean rah jay. adami sansar mean kuchh bhogane ke lie ata hai, yahi zindagi ke maje haian. jisane ye maje nahian chakkhe, usaka jina vritha hai. bas, dostoan ki majalis ho, bagal mean mashook ho aur hath mean pyala ho, isake siva mujhe aur kuchh n chahie ! usane alamari kholakar ek botal nikali aur do gilasoan mean sharab dalakar bola, yah meri sehat ka jam hai. inkar n karana. maian tumhare sehat ka jam pita hooan. dayakrishna ko kabhi sharab pine ka avasar n mila tha. vah itana dharmatma to n tha ki sharab pina pap samajhata, haan, use durvyasan samajhata tha. gandh hi se usaka ji mitalane laga. use bhay hua ki vah sharab ka t chahe muanh mean le le, use kanth ke niche nahian utar sakata. usane pyale ko shishtachar ke taur par hath mean le liya, phir use jyoan-ka-tyoan mej par rakhakar bola, tum janate ho, maianne kabhi nahian pi. is samay mujhe kshama karo. das-paanch din mean yah phan bhi sikh jaooanga, magar yah to batao, apana karobar bhi kuchh dekhate ho, ya isi mean p de rahate ho. siangar ne aruchi se muanh banakar kaha, oh, kya zikr tumane chhe d diya, yar ? karobar ke pichhe is chhoti-si zindagi ko tabah nahian kar sakata. n koee sath laya hai, n sath le jayaga. papa ne mar-marakar dhan sanchay kiya. kya hath laga ? pachas tak pahuanchate-pahuanchate chal base. unaki atma ab bhi sansar ke sukhoan ke lie taras rahi hogi. dhan chho dakar marane se phakemast rahana kahian achchha hai. dhan ki chinta to nahian satati, par yah hay-hay to nahian hoti ki mere bad kya hoga ! tumane gilas mej par rakh diya. jara piyo, aankhean khul jayॅgi, dil hara ho jayaga. aur log so da aur baraf milate haian, maian to khalis pita hooan. ichchha ho, to tumhare lie baraf mangaooan ? dayakrishna ne phir kshama maangi; magar siangar gilas-par-gilas pita gaya. usaki aankhean lal-lal nikal ayian, ool-jalool bakane laga, khoob diangean marian, phir besure rag mean ek bazaroo git gane laga. ant mean usi kursi par p da-p da besudha ho gaya. sahasa pichhe ka parada hata aur lila ne use ishare se bulaya. dayakrishna ki dhamaniyoan mean shatagun veg se rakt dau dane laga. usaki sankochamay, bhiru prakriti bhitar se jitani hi roopasakt thi, bahar se utani hi virakt. suandariyoan ke sammukh akar vah svayan avakh ho jata tha, usake kapoloan par lajja ki lali dau d jati thi aur aankhean jhuk jati thian; lekin man unake charanoan par lotakar apane-apako samarpit kar dene ke lie vikal ho jata tha. mitragan use boodhe baba kaha, karate the. striyaan use arasik samajhakar usase udasin rahati thian. kisi yuvati ke sath lanka tak rel mean ekant-yatraa karake bhi vah usase ek shabd bhi bolane ka sahas n karata. haan, yadi yuvati svayan use chhe dati, to vah apane pran tak usaki bheant kar deta. usake is sankochamay, avaruddh jivan mean lila hi ek yuvati thi, jisane usake man ko samajha tha aur usase savakh sahridayata ka vyavahar kiya tha. tabhi se dayakrishna man se usaka upasak ho gaya tha. usake anubhavashoony hriday mean lila nari-jati ka sabase sundar adarsh thi. usaki pyasi atma ko sharbat ya lemaned ki utani ichchha n thi, jitana thande, mithe pani ki. lila mean roop hai, lavany hai, sukumarata hai, in batoan ki or usaka dhyan n tha. usase zyada roopavati, lavanyamayi aur sukumar yuvatiyaan usane parkoan mean dekhi thian. lila mean sahridayata hai, vichar hai, daya hai, inhian tattvoan ki or usaka akarshan tha. usaki rasikata mean atm-samarpan ke siva aur koee bhav n tha. lila ke kisi adesh ka palan karana usaki sabase b di kamana thi, usaki atma ki tripti ke lie itana kafi tha. usane kaanpate hathoan se parada uthaya aur andar akar kh da ho gaya. aur vismay bhari aankhoan se use dekhane laga. usane lila ko yahaan n dekha hota, to pahachan bhi n sakata. vah roop, yauvan aur vikas ki devi is tarah murajha gayi thi, jaise kisi ne usake pranoan ko choosakar nikal liya ho. karun-svar mean bola, yah tumhara kya hal hai, lila ? bimar ho kya ? mujhe soochana tak n di. lila muskarakar boli, tumase matalab ? maian bimar hooan ya achchhi hooan, tumhari bala se ! tum to apane sair-sapate karate rahe. chh: mahine ke bad jab apako yad ayi hai, to poochhate ho bimar ho ? maian us rog se grast hooan, jo pran lekar hi chho data hai. tumane in mahashay ki halat dekhi ? unaka yah rang dekhakar mere dil par kya gujarati hai, yah kya maian apane muanh se kahooan tabhi samajhoge ? maian ab is ghar mean jabaradasti p di hooan aur behayaee se jiti hooan. kisi ko meri chah ya chinta nahian hai. papa kya mare, mera sohag hi uth gaya. kuchh samajhati hooan, to bevakooph banayi jati hooan. rat-rat bhar n jane kahaan gayab rahate haian. jab dekho, nashe mean mast, haphtoan ghar mean nahian ate ki do batean kar looan; agar inake yahi dhang rahe, to sal-do-sal mean rotiyoan ke muhataj ho jayeange. daya ne poochha, yah lat inhean kaise p d gayi ? ye batean to inamean n thian. lila ne vyathit svar mean kaha, rupaye ki balihari hai aur kya ! isilie to boodhe mar-marake kamate haian aur marane ke bad l dakoan ke lie chho d jate haian. apane man mean samajhate hoange, ham l dakoan ke lie baithane ka thikana kiye jate haian. maian kahati hooan, tum unake sarvanash ka saman kiye jate ho, unake lie zahar boye jate ho. papa ne lakhoan rupaye ki sampatti n chho di hoti, to aj yah mahashay kisi kam mean lage hote, kuchh ghar ki chinta hoti; kuchh zimmedari hoti; nahian to baiank se rupaye nikale aur u daye. agar mujhe vishvas hota ki sampatti samapt karake vah sidhe marg par a jayॅge, to mujhe jara bhi du:kh n hota; par mujhe to yah bhay hai ki aise log phir kisi kam ke nahian rahate, ya to jelakhane mean marate haian ya anathalay mean. apaki ek veshya se ashanaee hai. madhuri nam hai aur vah inhean ulte chhure se mooan d rahi hai, jaisa usaka dharm hai. apako yah khabt ho gaya ki vah mujh par jan deti hai. usase vivah ka prastav bhi kiya ja chuka hai. maloom nahian, usane kya javab diya. kee bar ji mean aya ki jab yahaan kisi se koee nata hi nahian hai to apane ghar chali jaooan; lekin darati hooan ki tab to yah aur bhi svatantr ho jayॅge. mujhe kisi par vishvas hai, to vah tum ho. isilie tumhean bulaya tha ki shayad tumhare samajhane-bujhane ka kuchh asar ho. agar tum bhi asaphal hue, to maian ek kshan yahaan n rahooangi. bhojan taiyar hai, chalo kuchh kha lo. dayakrishna ne siangarasianh ki or sanket karake kaha, aur yah ? 'yah to ab kahian do-tin baje cheteange.' 'bura n maneange.' 'maian ab in batoan ki paravah nahian karati. maianne to nishchay kar liya hai ki agar mujhe kabhi aankhean dikhayian, to maian inhean maja chakha dooangi. mere pitaji fauj mean soobedar mejar haian. meri deh mean unaka rakt hai.' lila ki mudra uttejit ho gayi. vidroh ki vah ag, jo mahinoan se p di sulag rahi thi, prachand ho uthi. usane usi lahaje mean kaha, meri is ghar mean itani saansat huee hai, itana apaman hua hai aur ho raha hai ki maian usaka kisi tarah bhi pratikar karake atmaglani ka anubhav n karooangi. maianne papa se apana hal chhipa rakha hai. aj likh dooan, to inaki sari mashikhat utar jay. nari hone ka dand bhog rahi hooan, lekin nari ke dhairy ki bhi sima hai. dayakrishna us sukumari ka vah tamatamaya hua chehara, ve jalati huee aankhean, vah kaanpate hue hoanth dekhakar kaanp utha. usaki dasha us adami ki- si ho gayi, jo kisi ko dard se t dapate dekhakar vaidy ko bulane dau de. ardr kanth se bola, is samay mujhe kshama karo lila, phir kabhi tumhara nimantran svikar karooanga. tumhean apani or se itana hi vishvas dilata hooan ki mujhe apana sevak samajhati rahana. mujhe n maloom tha ki tumhean itana kasht hai, nahian to shayad ab tak maianne kuchh yukti sochi hoti. mera yah sharir tumhare kisi kam aye, isase badhakar saubhagy ki bat mere lie aur kya hogi ! dayakrishna vahaan se chala, to usake man mean itana ullas bhara hua tha, mano viman par baitha hua svarg ki or ja raha hai. aj use jivan mean ek aisa lakshy mil gaya tha, jisake lie vah ji bhi sakata hai aur mar bhi sakata hai. vah ek mahila ka vishvasapatr ho gaya tha. is ratn ko vah apane hath se kabhi n jane dega, chahe usaki jan hi kyoan n chali jay. ek mahina gujar gaya. dayakrishna siangarasianh ke ghar nahian aya. n siangarasianh ne usaki paravah ki. is ek hi mulakat mean usane samajh liya tha ki daya is naye rang mean anevala adami nahian hai. aise satvik janoan ke lie usake yahaan sthan n tha. vahaan to rangile, rasiya, ayyash aur big de-diloan hi ki chah thi. haan, lila ko hamesha usaki yad ati rahati thi. magar dayakrishna ke svabhav mean ab vah sanyam nahian hai. vilasita ka jadoo us par bhi chalata hua maloom hota hai. madhuri ke ghar usaka bhi ana-jana shuroo ho gaya hai. vah siangarasianh ka mitr nahian raha, pratidvandvi ho gaya hai. donoan ek hi pratima ke upasak haian; magar unaki upasana mean antar hai. siangar ki drishti se madhuri keval vilas ki ek vastu hai, keval vinod ka ek yantr. dayakrishna vinay ki moorti hai jo madhuri ki seva mean hi prasann hai. siangar madhuri ke has-vilas ko apana jarakharid hak samajhata hai, dayakrishna isi mean santusht hai ki madhuri usaki sevaoan ko svikar karati hai. madhuri ki or se jara bhi aruchi dekhakar vah usi tarah big d jayaga jaise apani pyari gho di ki muanhajori par. dayakrishna apane ko usaki kripadrishti ke yogy hi nahian samajhata. siangar jo kuchh madhuri ko deta hai, garv-bhare atm-pradarshan ke sath; mano us par koee ehasan kar raha ho. dayakrishna ke pas dene ko hai hi kya; par vah jo kuchh bheant karata hai, vah aisi shraddha se, mano devata ko phool chadhata ho. siangar ka asakt man madhuri ko apane pianjare mean band rakhana chahata hai, jisamean us par kisi ki nigah n p de. dayakrishna nirlipt bhav se usaki svachchhand kri da ka anand uthata hai. madhuri ko ab tak jitane adamiyoan se sabika p da tha, ve sab siangarasianh ki hi bhaanti kamuki, eershyalu, danbhi aur komal bhavoan se shoony the, roop ko bhogane ki vastu samajhanevale. dayakrishna un saboan se alag tha sahridayi, bhadr aur sevashil, mano us par apani atma ko samarpan kar dena chahata ho. madhuri ko ab apane jivan mean koee aisa padarth mil gaya hai, jise vah b di ehatiyat se sanbhalakar rakhana chahati hai. j daoo gahane ab usaki aankhoan mean utane moolyavan nahian rahe, jitani yah fakir ki di huee tavij. j daoo gahane hamesha mileange, yah tavij kho gayi, to phir shayad hi kabhi hath aye. j daoo gahane keval usaki vilas-pravritti ko uttejit karate haian. par is tavij mean koee daivi shakti hai, jo n jane kaise usamean sadnurag aur parishkar-bhavana ko jagati hai. dayakrishna kabhi prem-pradarshan nahian karata, apani virah-vyatha ke rag nahian alapata, par madhuri ko us par poora vishvas hai. siangarasianh ke pralap mean use banavat aur dikhave ka abhas hota hai. vah chahati hai, yah jald yahaan se tale; lekin dayakrishna ke sanyat bhashan mean use gaharaee tatha gambhiry aur gurutv ka abhas hota hai. auroan ki vah premika hai; lekin dayakrishna ki ashik, jisake kadamoan ki ahat pakar usake andar ek toofan uthane lagata hai. usake jivan mean yah nayi anubhooti hai. ab tak vah doosaroan ke bhog ki vastu thi, ab kam-se-kam ek prani ki drishti mean vah adar aur prem ki vastu hai. siangarasianh ko jab se dayakrishna ke is premabhinay ki soochana mili hai, vah usake khoon ka pyasa ho gaya hai.rh eershyagni se phuanka ja raha hai. usane dayakrishna ke pichhe kee shohade laga rakhe haian ki ve use jahaan payean, usaka kam tamam kar dean. vah khud pistaul liye usaki toh mean rahata hai. dayakrishna is khatare ko samajhata hai, janata hai; apane niyat samay par madhuri ke pas bila naga a jata hai. maloom hota hai, use apani jan ka kuchh bhi moh nahian hai. shohade use dekhakar kyoan katara jate haian, mauqa pakar bhi kyoan us par var nahian karate, isaka rahasy vah nahian samajhata. ek din madhuri ne usase kaha, qrishnaji, tum yahaan n aya karo. tumhean to pata nahian hai, par yahaan tumhare bisoan dushman haian. maian darati hooan ki kisi din koee bat n ho jay. shishir ki tushar-mandit sandhaya thi. madhuri ek kashmiri shal odhe aangithi ke samane baithi huee thi. kamare mean bijali ka rajat prakash phaila hua tha. dayakrishna ne dekha, madhuri ki aankhean sajal ho gee haian aur vah muanh pherakar unhean dayakrishna se chhipane ki cheshta kar rahi hai. pradarshan aur sukhabhog karane vali ramani kyoan itana sankoch kar rahi hai, yah usaka ana di man n samajh saka. haan, madhuri ke gore, prasann, sankochahin mukh par lajjamishrit madhurima ki aisi chhata usane kabhi n dekhi thi. aj usane us mukh par kulavadhoo ki bhiru akaanksha aur dridh vatsaly dekha aur usake abhinay mean saty ka uday ho gaya. usane sthir bhav se javab diya, maian to kisi ki buraee nahian karata, mujhase kisi ko kyoan vair hone laga. maian yahaan kisi ka badhak nahian, kisi ka virodhi nahian. data ke dvar par sabhi bhikshuk jate haian. apana-apana bhagy hai, kisi ko ek chutaki milati hai, kisi ko poora thal. koee kyoan kisi se jale ? agar kisi par tumhari vishesh kripa hai, to maian use bhagyashali samajhakar usaka adar karooanga. jalooan kyoan ? madhuri ne sneh-katar svar mean kaha, zi nahian, ap kal se n aya kijie. dayakrishna muskarakar bola, tum mujhe yahaan ane se nahian rok sakatian. bhikshuk ko tum dutkar sakati ho, dvar par ane se nahian rok sakatian. madhuri sneh ki aankhoan se use dekhane lagi, phir boli, kya sabhi adami tumhian jaise nishkapat haian ? 'to phir maian kya karooan ?' 'yahaan n aya karo.' 'yah mere bas ki bat nahian.' madhuri ek kshan tak vichar karake boli, ek bat kahooan, manoge ? chalo, ham-tum kisi doosare nagar ki rah lean. 'keval isilie ki kuchh log mujhase khar khate haian ?' 'khar nahian khate, tumhari jan ke grahak haian.' dayakrishna usi avichalit bhav se bola, zis din prem ka yah puraskar milega, vah mere jivan ka naya din hoga, madhuri ! isase achchhi mrityu aur kya ho sakati hai ? tab maian tumase prithakh n rahakar tumhare man mean, tumhari smriti mean rahooanga. madhuri ne komal hath se usake gal par thapaki di. usaki aankhean bhar ayi thian. in shabdoan mean jo pyar bhara hua tha, vah jaise pichakari ki dhar ki tarah usake hriday mean sama gaya. aisi vikal vedana ! aisa nasha ! ise vah kya kahe ? usane karun svar mean kaha, aisi batean n kiya karo krishna, nahian to maian sach kahati hooan, ek din zahar khakar tumhare charanoan par so jaooangi. tumhare in shabdoan mean n-jane kya jadoo tha ki maian jaise phuank uthi. ab ap khuda ke lie yahaan n aya kijie, nahian to dekh lena, maian ek din pran de dooangi. tum kya jano, hatyara siangar kis buri tarah tumhare pichhe p da hua hai. maian usake shohadoan ki khushamad karate-karate har gayi. kitana kahati hooan, dayakrishna se mera koee sambandh nahian, usake samane tumhari ninda karati hooan, kitana kosati hooan, lekin us nirdayi ko mujh par vishvas nahian ata. tumhare lie maianne in gundoan ki kitani minnatean ki haian, unake hath kitana apaman saha hai, vah tumase n kahana hi achchha hai. jinaka muanh dekhana bhi maian apani shan ke khilaf samajhati hooan, unake pairoan p di hooan, lekin ye kutte haddiyoan ke tuk de pakar aur bhi sher ho jate haian. maian ab unase tang a gayi hooan aur tumase hath jo dakar kahati hooan ki yahaan se kisi aisi jagah chale chalo, jahaan hamean koee n janata ho. vahaan shanti ke sath p de rahean. maian tumhare sath sabakuchh jhelane ko taiyar hooan. aj isaka nishchay karaye bina maian tumhean n jane dooangi. maian janati hooan, tumhean mujh par ab bhi vishvas nahian hai. tumhean sandeh hai ki tumhare sath kapat karooangi. dayakrishna ne toka nahian madhuri, tum mere sath anyay kar rahi ho. mere man mean kabhi aisa sandeh nahian aya. pahale hi din mujhe n-jane kyoan kuchh aisa pratit hua ki tum apani aur bahanoan se prithakh ho. maianne tumamean vah shil aur sankoch dekha, jo maianne kulavadhuoan mean dekha hai. madhuri ne usaki aankhoan mean aankhean g dakar kaha, tum jhooth bolane ki kala mean itane nipun nahian ho krishna, ki veshya ko bhulava de sako ! maian n shilavati hooan, n sankochavati hooan aur n apani doosari bahanoan se bhinn hooan, maian veshya hooan; utani hi kalushit, utani hi vilasaandh, utani hi mayavini, jitani meri doosari bahanean; balki unase kuchh zyada. n tum any purushoan ki tarah mere pas vinod aur vasana-tripti ke lie aye the. nahian, mahinoan ate rahane par bhi tum yoan alipt n rahate. tumane kabhi diang nahian mari, mujhe dhan ka pralobhan nahian diya. maianne bhi kabhi tumase dhan ki asha nahian ki. tumane apani vastavik sthiti mujhase kah di. phir bhi maianne tumhean ek nahian, anek aise avasar diye ki koee doosara adami unhean n chho data; lekin tumhean maian apane panje mean n la saki. tum chahe aur jis irade se aye ho, bhog ki ichchha se nahian aye. agar maian tumhean itana nich, itana hridayahin, itana vilasaandha samajhati, to is tarah tumhare naj n uthati. phir maian bhi tumhare sath mitr-bhav rakhane lagi. samajh liya, meri pariksha ho rahi hai. jab tak is pariksha mean saphal n ho jaooan, tumhean nahian pa sakati. tum jitane sajjan ho, utane hi kathor ho. yah kahate hue madhuri ne dayakrishna ka hath pak d liya aur anurag aur samarpan-bhari chitavanoan se use dekhakar boli, sach batao krishna, tum mujhamean kya dekhakar akarshit hue the ? dekho, bahanebaji n karana. tum roop par mugdha hone vale adami nahian ho, maian kasam kha sakati hooan. dayakrishna ne sankat mean p dakar kaha, roop itani tuchchh vastu nahian hai, madhuri ! vah man ka aeena hai. 'yahaan mujhase roopavanh striayoan ki kami nahian hai.' 'yah to apani-apani nigah hai. mere poorv sanskar rahe hoange.' madhuri ne bhॅvean siko dakar kaha, tum phir jhooth bol rahe ho, chehara kahe deta hai. dayakrishna ne parast hokar poochha, poochhakar kya karogi, madhuri ? maian darata hooan, kahian tum mujhase ghrina n karane lago. sambhav hai, tum mera jo roop dekh rahi ho, vah mera asali roop n ho ? madhuri ka muanh latak gaya. virakt-si hokar boli, isaka khule shabdoan mean yah arth hai ki tumhean mujh par vishvas nahian. thik hai, veshyaoan par vishvas karana bhi nahian chahie. vidvanoan aur mahatmaoan ka upadesh kaise n manoge ? nari-hriday is samasya par vijay pane ke lie apane astroan se kam lene laga. dayakrishna pahale hi pahale hamale mean himmat chho d baitha. bola, tum to naraz huee jati ho, madhuri ! maianne to keval is vichar se kaha, tha ki tum mujhe dhokhebaj samajhane lagogi. tumhean shayad maloom nahian hai, siangarasianh ne mujh par kitane ehasan kiye haian. maian unhian ke tuk doan par pala hooan. isamean ratti bhar bhi mubalaga nahian. vahaan jakar jab maianne unake rang-dhang dekhe aur unaki sadhavi stri lila ko bahut dukhi paya, to sochate-sochate mujhe yahi upay soojha ki kisi tarah siangarasianh ko tumhare panje se chhu daooan. mere is abhiman ka yahi rahasy hai, lekin unhean chhu da to n saka, khud phans gaya. mere is phareb ki jo saza chaho do, sir jhukaye hue hooan. madhuri ka abhiman toot gaya. jalakar boli, to yah kahiye ki ap lila devi ke ashik haian. mujhe pahale se maloom hota, to tumhean is ghar mean ghusane n deti. tum to ek chhipe rustam nikale. vah tote ke pianjare ke pas jakar use puchakarane ka bahana karane lagi. man mean jo ek dah uth rahi thi, use kaise shant kare ? dayakrishna ne tiraskar-bhare svar mean kaha, maian lila ka ashik nahian hooan, madhuri ! us devi ko kalankit n karo. maian aj tumase shapath khakar kahata hooan ki maianne kabhi use is nigah se nahian dekha. usake prati mera vahi bhav tha, jo apane kisi atmiy ko du:kh mean dekhakar har ek manushy ke man mean ata hai. 'kisi se prem karana to pap nahian hai, tum vyarth mean apani aur lila ki saphaee de rahe ho.' 'maian nahian chahata ki lila par kisi tarah ka akshep kiya jay.' 'achchha sahab, lijie; lila ka nam n looangi. maianne man liya, vah sati hai, sadhavi hai aur keval usaki ajna se...' dayakrishna ne bat kati, unaki koee ajna nahian thi. 'o ho, tum to jaban pak date ho, krishna ! kshama karo, unaki ajna se nahian tum apani ichchha se aye. ab to raji hue. ab yah batao, age tumhare kya irade haian ? maian vachan to de dooangi; magar apane sanskaroan ko nahian badal sakati. mera man durbal hai. mera satitv kab ka nasht ho chuka hai. any moolyavanh padarthoan ki tarah roop aur yauvan ki raksha bhi balavanh hathoan se ho sakati hai. maian tumase poochhati hooan, tum mujhe apani sharan mean lene par taiyar ho ? tumhara ashray pakar tumhare prem ki shakti se, mujhe vishvas hai, maian jivan ke sare pralobhanoan ka samana kar sakati hooan. maian is sone ke mahal ko thukara dooangi; lekin isake badale mujhe kisi hare vriksh ki chh aauh to milani chahie. vah chh aauh tum mujhe doge ? agar nahian de sakate, to mujhe chho d do. maian apane hal mean magan hooan. maian vada karati hooan, siangarasianh se maian koee sambandh n rakhooangi. vah mujhe gherega, royega. sambhav hai, gundoan se mera apaman karaye, atank dikhaye. lekin maian sabakuchh jhel looangi, tumhari khatir se.. .' age aur kuchh n kahakar vah trishna-bhare lekin usake sath hi nirapeksh netroan se dayakrishna ki or dekhane lagi, jaise dookanadar gahak ko bulata to hai par sath hi yah bhi dikhana chahata hai ki use usaki paravah nahian hai. dayakrishna kya javab de ? sangharshamay sansar mean vah abhi keval ek kadam tika paya hai. idhar vah aangul-bhar jagah bhi usase chhin gayi hai. shayad jor marakar vah phir vah sthan pa jay; lekin vahaan baithane ki jagah nahian. aur ek doosare prani ko lekar to vah kh da bhi nahian rah sakata. agar man liya jay ki adamy udyog se donoan ke lie sthan nikal lega, to atm-samman ko kahaan le jay ? sansar kya kahega ? lila kya phir usaka muanh dekhana chahegi ? siangar se vah phir aankhean mila sakegi ? yah bhi chho do. lila agar use pati samajhati hai, samajhe. siangar agar usase jalata hai to jale, use isaki paravah nahian. lekin apane man ko kya kare ? vishvas usake andar akar jal mean phanse pakshi ki bhaanti ph daph da kar nikal bhagata hai. kulina apane sath vishvas ka varadan liye ati hai. usake sahachary mean hamean kabhi sandeh nahian hota. vahaan sandeh ke lie pratyaksh praman chahie. kutsita sandeh ka sanskar liye ati hai. vahaan vishvas ke lie pratyaksh atyant pratyaksh praman ki zaroorat hai. usane namrata se kaha, tum janati ho, meri kya halat hai ? 'haan, khoob janati hooan.' 'aur us halat mean tum prasann rah sakogi ?' 'tum aisa prashn kyoan karate ho krishna ? mujhe du:kh hota hai. tumhare man mean jo sandeh hai, vah maian janati hooan, samajhati hooan. mujhe bhram hua tha ki tumane bhi mujhe jan liya hai, samajh liya hai. ab maloom hua, maian dhokhe mean thi !' vah uthakar vahaan se jane lagi. dayakrishna ne usaka hath pak d liya aur prarthi-bhav se bola, tum mere sath anyay kar rahi ho, madhuri ! maian saty kahata hooan, aisi koee bat nahian hai... madhuri ne kh de-kh de virakt man se kaha, tum jhooth bol rahe ho, bilakul jhooth. tum ab bhi man se yah svikar nahian kar rahe ho ki koee stri svechchha se roop ka vyavasay nahian karati. paise ke lie apani lajja ko ugha dana, tumhari samajh mean kuchh aise anand ki bat hai, jise veshya shauq se karati hai. tum veshya mean stritv ka hona sambhav se bahut door samajhate ho. tum isaki kalpana hi nahian kar sakate ki vah kyoan apane prem mean sthir nahian hoti. tum nahian janate, ki prem ke lie usake man mean kitani vyakulata hoti hai aur jab vah saubhagy se use pa jati hai, to kis tarah pranoan ki bhaanti use sanchit rakhati hai. khare pani ke samudr mean mithe pani ka chhota-sa patr kitana priy hota hai ise vah kya jane, jo mithe pani ke matake uॅdelata rahata ho. dayakrishna kuchh aise asamanjas mean p da hua tha ki usake muanh se ek bhi shabd n nikala. usake man mean jo shanka chinagari ki bhaanti chhipi huee hai, vah bahar nikalakar kitani bhayankar jvala utpatr kar degi. usane kapat ka jo abhinay kiya tha, prem ka jo sv aaug racha tha, usaki glani use aur bhi vyathit kar rahi thi. sahasa madhuri ne nishthurata se poochha, tum yahaan kyoan baithe ho ? dayakrishna ne apaman ko pikar kaha, mujhe sochane ke lie kuchh samay do madhuri ! 'kya sochane ke lie ?' 'apana kartavy ?' 'maianne apana kartavy sochane ke lie to tumase samay nahian maanga ! tum agar mere uddhar ki bat soch rahe ho, to use dil se nikal dalo. maian bhrashta hooan aur tum sadhuta ke putale ho zab tak yah bhav tumhare andar rahega, maian tumase usi tarah bat karooangi jaise auroan ke sath karati hooan. agar bhrasht hooan, to jo log yahaan apana muanh kala karane ate haian, ve kuchh kam bhrasht nahian haian. tum jo ek mitr ki stri par daant lagaye hue ho, tum jo ek sarala abala ke sath jhoothe prem ka sv aaug karate ho, tumhare hathoan agar mujhe svarg bhi milata ho, to use thukara dooan.' dayakrishna ne lal aankhean karake kaha, tumane phir vahi akshep kiya ? madhuri tilamila uthi. usaki rahi-sahi mriduta bhi eershya ke um date hue pravah mean sama gayi. lila par akshep bhi asahy hai, isalie ki vah kulavadhoo hai. maian veshya hooan, isalie mere prem ka upakar bhi svikar nahian kiya ja sakata ! usane avichalit bhav se kaha, akshep nahian kar rahi hooan, sachchi bat kah rahi hooan. tumhare dar se bil khodane ja rahi hooan. tum svikar karo ya n karo, tum lila par marate ho. tumhari lila tumhean mubarak rahe. maian apane siangarasianh hi mean prasann hooan, uddhar ki lalasa ab nahian rahi. pahale jakar apana uddhar karo. ab se khabaradar kabhi bhoolakar bhi yahaan n ana, nahian to pachhataoge. tum jaise range hue patitoan ka uddhar nahian karate. uddhar vahi kar sakate haian, jo uddhar ke abhiman ko hriday mean ane hi nahian dete. jahaan prem hai, vahaan kisi tarah ka bhed nahian rah sakata. yah kahane ke sath hi vah uthakar barabar vale doosare kamare mean chali gayi, aur andar se dvar band kar liya. dayakrishna kuchh der vahaan marmahat-sa raha, phir dhire-dhire niche utar gaya, mano deh mean pran n ho. do din dayakrishna ghar se n nikala. madhuri ne usake sath jo vyavahar kiya, isaki use asha n thi ! madhuri ko usase prem tha, isaka use vishvas tha, lekin jo prem itana asahishnu ho, jo doosare ke manobhavoan ka jara bhi vichar n kare, jo mithya kalank aropan karane se bhi sankoch n kare, vah unmad ho sakata hai, prem nahian. usane bahut achchha kiya ki madhuri ke kapat-jal mean n phansa, nahian to usaki n jane kya durgati hoti. par doosare kshan usake bhav badal jate aur madhuri ke prati usaka man komalata se bhar jata. ab vah apani anudarata par, apani sankirnata par pachhatata ! use madhuri par sandeh karane ka koee karan n tha. aisi dasha mean eershya svabhavik hai aur vaharh eershya hi kya, jisamean dank n ho, vish n ho. mana, samaj usaki ninda karata. yah bhi man liya ki madhuri sati bharya n hoti. kam-se-kam siangarasianh to usake panje se nikal jata. dayakrishna ke sir se rrin ka bhar to kuchh halka ho jata, lila ka jivan to sukhi ho jata. sahasa kisi ne dvar khatakhataya. usane dvar khola, to siangarasianh samane kh da tha. bal bikhare hue, kuchh ast-vyast. dayakrishna ne hath milate hue poochha, kya paanv-paanv hi a rahe ho, mujhe kyoan n bula liya ? siangar ne use chubhati huee aankhoan se dekhakar kaha, maian tumase yah poochhane aya hooan ki madhuri kahaan hai ? avashy tumhare ghar mean hogi. 'kyoan apane ghar par hogi, mujhe kya khabar ? mere ghar kyoan ane lagi ?' 'in bahanoan se kam n chalega, samajh gaye ? maian kahata hooan, maian tumhara khoon pi jaooanga varana thik-thik bata do, vah kahaan gayi ?' 'maian bilakul kuchh nahian janata, tumhean vishvas dilata hooan. maian to do din se ghar se nikala hi nahian.' 'rat ko maian usake pas tha. savere mujhe usaka yah patr mila. maian usi vakt dau da hua usake ghar gaya. vahaan usaka pata n tha. naukaroan se itana maloom hua, t aauge par baithakar kahian gayi hai. kahaan gayi hai, yah koee n bata saka. mujhe shak hua, yahaan ayi hogi. jab tak tumhare ghar ki talashi n le looanga, mujhe chain n ayegi.' usane makan ka ek-ek kona dekha, takht ke niche, alamari ke pichhe. tab nirash hokar bola, b di bevapha aur makkar aurat hai. jara is khat ko padho. donoan pharsh par baith gaye. dayakrishna ne patr lekar padhana shuroo kiya saradar sahab ! maian aj kuchh dinoan ke lie yahaan se ja rahi hooan, kab lautooangi, kuchh nahian janati. kahaan ja rahi hooan, yah bhi nahian janati. ja isalie rahi hooan ki is besharmi aur behayaee ki zindagi se mujhe ghrina ho rahi hai. aur ghrina ho rahi hai un lampatoan se, jinake kutsit vilas ka maian khilauna thi aur jinamean tum mukhy ho. tum mahinoan se mujh par sone aur resham ki varsha kar rahe ho; magar maian tumase poochhati hooan, usase lakh gune sone aur das lakh gune resham par bhi tum apani bahan ya stri ko is roop ke bazar mean baithane doge ? kabhi nahian. un deviyoan mean koee aisi vastu hai, jise tum sansar bhar ki daulat se bhi moolyavan samajhate ho. lekin jab tum sharab ke nashe mean choor, apane ek-ek aang mean kam ka unmad bhare ate the, to tumhean kabhi dhyan ata tha ki tum usi amooly vastu ko kis nirdayata ke sath pairoan se kuchal rahe ho ? kabhi dhyan ata tha ki apani kul-deviyoan ko is avastha mean dekhakar tumhean kitana du:kh hota ? kabhi nahian. yah un gid doan aur gidhdoan ki manovritti hai, jo kisi lash ko dekhakar charoan or se jama ho jate haian, aur use noch-nochakar khate haian. yah samajh rakkho, nari apana bas rahate hue kabhi paisoan ke lie apane ko samarpit nahian karati. yadi vah aisa kar rahi hai, to samajh lo ki usake lie aur koee ashray aur koee adhar nahian hai aur purush itana nirlajj hai ki usaki duravastha se apani vasana tript karata hai aur isake sath hi itana nirday ki usake mathe par patita ka kalank lagakar use usi duravastha mean marate dekhana chahata hai ! kya vah nari hai ? kya naritv ke pavitr mandir mean usaka sthan nahian hai ? lekin tum use us mandir mean ghusane nahian dete. usake sparsh se mandir ki pratima bhrasht ho jayagi. khair, purush-samaj jitana atyachar chahe kar le. ham asahay haian, atmabhiman ko bhool baithi haian lekin... sahasa siangarasianh ne usake hath se vah patr chhin liya aur jeb mean rakhata hua bola, kya b de gaur se padh rahe ho, koee nayi bat nahian. sabakuchh vahi hai, jo tumane sikhaya hai. yahi karane to tum usake yahaan jate the. maian kahata hooan, tumhean mujhase itani jalan kyoan ho gayi ? maianne to tumhare sath koee buraee n ki thi. is sal-bhar mean maianne madhuri par das hazar se kam n phooanke hoange. ghar mean jo kuchh moolyavanh tha, vah maianne usake charanoan par chadha diya aur aj use sahas ho raha hai ki vah hamari kul-deviyoan ki barabari kare ! yah sab tumhara prasad hai. sattar choohe khake billi haj ko chali ! kitani bevapha jat hai. aisoan ko to goli mar de. jis par sara ghar luta diya, jisake pichhe sare shahar mean badanam hua, vah aj mujhe upadesh karane chali hai ! zaroor isamean koee-n-koee rahasy hai. koee naya shikar phansa hoga; magar mujhase bhagakar jayagi kahaan, dhooandh n nikalooan to nam nahian. kambakht kaisi prem-bhari batean karati thi ki mujh par gh doan nasha chadh jata tha. bas, koee naya shikar phans gaya. yah bat n ho, mooanchh mu da looan. dayakrishna usake saphachat chehare ki or dekhakar muskaraya tumhari mooanchhean to pahale hi mu d chuki haian. is halake-se vinod ne jaise siangarasianh ke ghav par maraham rakh diya. vah be-saro-saman ghar, vah phata pharsh, ve tooti-phooti chizean dekhakar use dayakrishna par daya a gayi. chot ki tilamilahat mean vah javab dene ke lie eeant-patthar dhooandh raha tha; par ab chot thandi p d gayi thi aur dard ghanibhoot ho raha tha. dard ke sath-sath sauhard bhi jag raha tha. jab ag hi thandi ho gayi to dhuaan kahaan se ata ? usane poochha, sach kahana, tumase bhi kabhi prem ki batean karati thi ? dayakrishna ne muskarate hue kaha, mujhase ? maian to khali usaki soorat dekhane jata tha. 'soorat dekhakar dil par kaboo to nahian rahata.' 'yah to apani-apani ruchi hai.' 'hai mohani, dekhate hi kaleje par chhuri chal jati hai.' 'mere kaleje par to kabhi chhuri nahian chali. yahi ichchha hoti thi ki isake pairoan par gir panooan.' 'isi shayari ne to yah anarth kiya. tum-jaise buddhuoan ko kisi dehatin se shadi karake rahana chahie. chale the veshya se prem karane !' ek kshan ke bad usane phir kaha, magar hai bevapha, makkar ! 'tumane usase vapha ki asha ki, mujhe to yahi afasos hai.' 'tumane vah dil hi nahian paya, tumase kya kahooan.' ek minat ke bad usane sahriday-bhav se kaha, apane patr mean usane batean to sachchi likhi haian, chahe koee mane ya n mane ? saundary ko bazaroo chiz samajhana kuchh bahut achchhi bat to nahian hai. dayakrishna ne puchara diya, zab stri apana roop bechati hai, to usake kharidar bhi nikal ate haian. phir yahaan to kitani hi jatiyaan haian, jinaka yahi pesha hai. 'yah pesha chala kaise ?' ‘striyoan ki durbalata se.' 'nahian, maian samajhata hooan, bismillah purushoan ne ki hogi.' isake bad ekaek jeb se gh di nikalakar dekhata hua bola, oho ! do baj gaye aur abhi maian yahian baitha hooan. aj sham ko mere yahaan khana khana. jara is vishay par batean hoangi. abhi to use dhooandh nikalana hai. vah hai kahian isi shahar mean. gharavaloan se bhi kuchh nahian kaha,. budhiya nayaka sir pit rahi thi. ustadaji apani takadir ko ro rahe the. n-jane kahaan jakar chhip rahi. usane uthakar dayakrishna se hath milaya aur chala. dayakrishna ne poochha, meri taraph se to tumhara dil saf ho gaya ? siangar ne pichhe phirakar kaha, hua bhi aur nahian bhi hua. aur bahar nikal gaya. sat-ath din tak siangarasianh ne sara shahar chhana, pulis mean riport ki, samacharapatroan mean notis chhapayi, apane adami dau daye; lekin madhuri ka kuchh bhi surag n mila ki phir mahaphil garm hoti. mitravrind subah-sham hajiri dene ate aur apana-sa muanh lekar laut jate. siangar ke pas unake sath gap-shap karane ka samay n tha. garami ke din, saza hua kamara bhatthi bana hua tha. khas ki tattiyaan bhi thian, pankha bhi; lekin garami jaise kisi ke samajhane-bujhane ki paravah nahian karana chahati, apane dil ka bukhar nikalakar hi rahegi. siangarasianh apane bhitaravale kamare mean baitha hua peg-par-peg chadha raha tha; par andar ki ag n shant hoti thi. is ag ne oopar ki ghas-phoos ko jalakar bhasm kar diya tha aur ab antastal ki j d virakti aur achal vichar ko dravit karake b de veg se oopar pheank rahi thi. madhuri ki bevaphaee ne usake amodi hriday ko itana ahat kar diya tha ki ab apana jivan hi bekar-sa maloom hota tha. madhuri usake jivan mean sabase saty vastu thi, saty bhi aur sundar bhi. usake jivan ki sari rekhaean isi bindu par akar jama ho jati thian. vah bindu ekaek pani ke bulabule ki bhaanti mit gaya aur ab ve sari rekhaean, ve sari bhavanaean, ve sari mridu smritiyaan un jhallayi huee madhumakkhiyoan ki tarah bhanabhanati phirati thian, jinaka chhatta jala diya gaya ho. jab madhuri ne kapat vyavahar kiya to aur kisase koee asha ki jay ? is jivan hi mean kya hai ? am mean ras hi n raha, to guthali kis kam ki ? lila kee dinoan se mahaphil mean sannata dekhakar chakit ho rahi thi. usane kee mahinoan se ghar ke kisi vishay mean bolana chho d diya tha. bahar se jo adesh milata tha, use bina kuchh kahe-sune poora karana hi usake jivan ka kram tha. vitarag-si ho gayi thi. n kisi shauq se vasta tha, n siangar se. magar is kee din ke sannate ne usake udas man ko bhi chintit kar diya. chahati thi ki kuchh poochhe; lekin poochhe kaise ? man jo toot jata. man hi kis bat ka ? man tab kare, jab koee usaki bat poochhata ho. man-apaman se prayojan nahian. nari hi kyoan huee ? usane dhire-dhire kamare ka parda hatakar andar jh aauka. dekha, siangarasianh sofa par chupachap leta hua hai, jaise koee pakshi saanjh ke sannate mean paroan mean muanh chhipaye baitha ho. samip akar boli, mere muanh par tala dal diya gaya hai; lekin kya karooan, bina bole raha nahian jata. kee din se sarakar ki mahaphil mean sannata kyoan hai ? tabiyat to achchhi hai ? siangar ne usaki or aankhean uthayian. unamean vyatha bhari huee thi. kaha, tum apane maike kyoan nahian chali jatian lila ? 'apaki jo ajna; par yah to mere prashn ka uttar n hua.' 'vah koee bat nahian. maian bilakul achchha hooan. aise behayaoan ko maut bhi nahian ati. ab is jivan se ji bhar gaya. kuchh dinoan ke lie bahar jana chahata hooan. tum apane ghar chali jao, to maian nishchint ho jaooan.' 'bhala apako meri itani chinta to hai.' 'apane sath jo kuchh le jana chahati ho, le jao.' 'maianne is ghar ki chijoan ko apana samajhana chho d diya hai.' 'maian naraz hokar nahian kah raha hooan, lila n-jane kab lautooan, tum yahaan akele kaise rahogi ?' kee mahine ke bad lila ne pati ki aankhoan mean sneh ki jhalak dekhi. 'mera vivah to is ghar ki sampatti se nahian hua hai, tumase hua hai. jahaan tum rahoge vahian maian bhi rahooangi.' 'mere sath to ab tak tumhean rona hi p da.' lila ne dekha, siangar ki aankhoan mean aansoo ki ek booand nile akash mean chandrama ki tarah girane-girane ko ho rahi thi. usaka man bhi pulakit ho utha. mahinoan ki kshudhagni mean jalane ke bad atr ka ek dana pakar vah use kaise thukara de ? pet nahian bharega, kuchh bhi nahian hoga, lekin us dane ko thukarana kya usake bas ki bat thi ? usane bilakul pas akar, apane adbachal ko usake samip le jakar kaha, maian to tumhari ho gayi. hansaoge, hansooॅgi, rulaoge, roooangi, rakhoge to rahooangi, nikaloge to bhi rahooangi, mera ghar tum ho, dharm tum ho, achchhi hooan to tumhari hooan, buri hooan to tumhari hooan. aur doosare kshan siangar ke vishal sine par usaka sir rakha hua tha aur usake hath the lila ki kamar mean. donoan ke mukh par harsh ki lali thi, aankhoan mean harsh ke aansoo aur man mean ek aisa toofan, jo unhean n jane kahaan u da le jaega. ek kshan ke bad siangar ne kaha, tumane kuchh suna, madhuri bhag gayi aur pagala dayakrishna usaki khoj mean nikala ! lila ko vishvas n aya dayakrishna ! 'haan ji, jis din vah bhagi hai, usake doosare hi din vah bhi chal diya.' 'vah to aisa nahian hai. aur madhuri kyoan bhagi ?' 'donoan mean prem ho gaya tha. madhuri usake sath rahana chahati thi. vah raji n hua.' lila ne ek lambi saans li. dayakrishna ke ve shabd yad aye, jo usane kee mahine pahale kahe the. dayakrishna ki ve yachana-bhari aankhean usake man ko masosane lagian. sahasa kisi ne b de zor se dvar khola aur dh dadh data hua bhitar vale kamare ke dvar par a gaya. siangar ne chakit hokar kaha, 'are ! tumhari yah kya halat hai, krishnaa ? kidhar se a rahe ho ?' dayakrishna ki aankhean lal thian, sir aur muanh par gard jami huee, chehare par ghabarahat, jaise koee divana ho. usane chillakar kaha, tumane suna; madhuri is sansar mean nahian rahi ! aur donoan hathoan se sir pit-pitakar rone laga, mano hriday aur pranoan ko aankhoan se baha dega.

sanbandhit lekh

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