पिंजर -रविन्द्र नाथ टैगोर

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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jab maian padhaee ki pustakean samapt kar chuka to mere pita ne mujhe vaidyak sikhani chahi aur is kam ke lie ek jagath ke anubhavi guru ko niyukt kar diya. mera navin guru keval deshi vaidyak mean hi chatur n tha, balki d aauktari bhi janata tha. usane manushy ke sharir ki banavat samajhane ke ashay se mere lie ek manushy ka dhaancha arthath haddiyoan ka pianjar mangava diya tha. jo us kamare mean rakha gaya, jahaan maian padhata tha. sadharan vyakti janate haian ki murda visheshat: haddiyoan ke pianjar se, kam ayu vale bachchoan ko, jab ve akele hoan, kitana adhik bhay lagata hai. svabhavat: mujhako bhi dar lagata tha aur arambh mean maian kabhi us kamare mean akela n jata tha. yadi kabhi kisi avashyakatavash jana bhi p data to usaki or aankh uthakar n dekhata tha. ek aur vidyarthi bhi mera sahapathi tha. jo bahut nirbhay tha. vah kabhi us pianjar se bhayabhit n hota tha aur kaha karata tha ki is pianjar ki samarthy hi kya hai? jisase kisi jivit vyakti ko hani pahuanch sake. abhi haddi‍yaan haian, kuchh dinoan pashchath mitti ho jayeangi. kintu maian is vishay mean usase kabhi sahamat n hua aur sarvada yahi kahata raha ki yah maianne mana ki atma in haddiyoan se vilag ho gayi hai, tab bhi jab tak yah vidyaman hai vah samay-asamay par akar apane purane makan ko dekh jaya karati hai. mera yah vichar prakat mean anokha ya asambhav pratit hota tha aur kabhi kisi ne yah nahian dekha hoga ki atma phir apani haddiyoan mean vapas ayi ho. kintu yah ek amar ghatana hai ki mera vichar saty tha aur saty nikala.

bhag 2

kuchh dinoan pahale ki ghatana hai ki ek rat ko garhasth avashyakataoan ke karan mujhe us kamare mean sona p da. mere lie yah nee bat thi. at: niand n aee aur maian kafi samay tak karavatean badalata raha. yahaan tak ki samip ke girajaghar ne barah bajaye. jo laimp mere kamare mean prakash de raha tha, vah madhdam hokar dhire-dhire bujh gaya. us samay mujhe us prakash ke sambandh mean vichar aya ki kshan-bhar pahale vah vidyaman tha kintu ab sarvada ke lie aandhere mean parivartit ho gaya. sansar mean manushy-jivan ki bhi yahi dasha hai. jo kabhi din aur kabhi rat ke anant mean ja milata hai. dhire-dhire mere vichar pianjar ki or parivartit hone arambh hue. maian hriday mean soch raha tha ki bhagavan jane ye haddi‍yaan apane jivan mean kya kuchh n hoangi. sahasa mujhe aisa jnat hua jaise koee anokhi vastu mere palang ke charoan or andhere mean phir rahi hai. phir lambi saansoan ki dhvani, jaise koee dukhit vyakti saans leta hai, mere kanoan mean aee aur paanvoan ki ahat bhi sunaee di. maianne socha yah mera bhram hai, aur bure svapnoan ke karan kalpanik avajean a rahi haian, kintu paanv ki ahat phir sunaee di. is par maianne bhram-nivaran hetu uchch svar se poochha-kaun hai? yah sunakar vah aparichit shakl mere samip aee aur boli- maian hooan, maian apane pianjar ko dikhane aee hooan. maianne vichar kiya mera koee parichit mujhase hansi kar raha hai. isalie maianne kaha-yah kaun-sa samay pianjar dekhane ka hai. vastav mean tumhara abhipray kya hai? dhvani aee- mujhe asamay se kya abhipray? meri vastu hai, maian jis samay chahooan ise dekh sakati hooan. ah! kya tum nahian dekhate ve meri pasaliyaan haian, jinamean varshoan mera hriday raha hai. maian poore chhabbis varsh is ghoansale mean band rahi, jisako ab tum pianjar kahate ho. yadi maian apane purane ghar ko dekhane chali aee to isamean tumhean kya badha huee? maian dar gaya aur atma ko talane ke lie kaha- achchha, tum jakar apana pianjar dekh lo, mujhe niand ati hai. maian sota hooan. maianne hriday mean nishchay kar liya ki jis samay vah yahaan se hate, maian turant bhagakar bahar chala jaooanga. kintu vah talane vali asami n thi, kahane lagi- kya tum yahaan akele sote ho? achchha ao kuchh batean karean. usaka agrah mere lie vyarth ki vipatti se kam n tha. mrityu ki rooparekha meri aankhoan ke samane phirane lagi. kintu vivashata se uttar diya- achchha to baith jao aur koee manoranjak bat sunao. avaz aee- lo suno. pachchis varsh bite maian bhi tumhari tarah manushy thi aur manushyoan mean baith kar batachit kiya karati thi. kintu ab shmashan ke shoony sthan mean phirati rahati hooan. aj meri ichchha hai ki maian phir ek lambe samay ke pashchath manushyoan se batean karooan. maian prasann hooan ki tumane meri batean sunane par sahamati prakat ki hai. kyoan? tum batean sunana chahate ho ya nahian. yah kahakar vah age ki or aee aur mujhe maloom hua ki koee vyakti mere paanyati par baith gaya hai. phir isase poorv ki maian koee shabd mukh se nikalooan, usane apani katha sunani arambh kar di.

bhag 3

vah boli-mahashay, jab maian manushy ke roop mean thi to keval ek vyakti se darati thi aur vah vyakti mere lie mano mrityu ka devata tha. vah tha mera pati. jis prakar koee vyakti machhali ko kaanta lagakar pani se bahar le aya ho. vah vyakti mujhako mere mata-pita ke ghar se bahar le aya tha aur mujhako vahaan jane n deta tha. achchha tha usaka kam jaldi hi samapt ho gaya arthath vivah ke doosare mahine hi vah sansar se chal basa. maianne logoan ki dekha-dekhi vaishnav riti se kriyakarm kiya, kintu hriday mean bahut prasann thi ki kaanta nikal gaya. ab mujhako apane mata-pita se milane ki ajna mil jaegi aur maian apani purani saheliyoan se, jinake sath khela karati thi, milooangi. kintu abhi mujhako maike jane ki ajna n mili thi, ki mera sasur ghar aya aur mera mukh dhyan se dekhakar apane-ap kahane laga- mujhako isake hath aur paanv ke chinh dekhane se maloom hota hai yah l daki dayan hai. apane sasur ke ve shabd mujhako ab tak yad haian. ve mere kanoan mean gooanj rahe haian. usake kuchh dinoan pashchath mujhe apane pita ke yahaan jane ki ajna mil gee. pita ke ghar jane par mujhe jo khushi prapt huee vah varnan nahian ki ja sakati. maian vahaan prasannata se apane yauvan ke din vyatit karane lagi. maianne un dinoan anekoan bar apane vishay mean kahate suna ki maian sundar yuvati hooan, parantu tum kaho tumhari kya sammati hai? maianne uttar diya- maianne tumhean jivit dekha nahian, maian kaise sammati de sakata hooan, jo kuchh tumane kaha thik hoga. vah boli- maian kaise vishvas dilaooan ki in do gadhoan mean lajjashil do netr, dekhane valoan par bijaliyaan girate the. khed hai ki tum meri vastavik muskan ka anuman in haddiyoan ke khule mukh de se nahian laga sakate. in haddiyoan ke chahuanor jo saundary tha ab usaka nam tak baki nahian hai. mere jivan ke kshanoan mean koee yogy-se-yogy d aauktar bhi kalpana n kar sakata tha ki meri haddiyaan manav-sharir ki roop-rekha ke varnan ke kam ayeangi. mujhe vah din yad hai jab maian chala karati thi to prakash ki kiranean mere ek-ek bal se nikalakar pratyek disha ko prakashit karati thian. maian apani baanhoan ko ghantoan dekha karati thi. ah-ye ve baanhean thian, jisako maianne dikhaeean apani or asakt kar liya. sambhavat: subhadra ko bhi aisi baanhean nasib n huee hoangi. meri komal aur patali uangaliyaan mrinal ko bhi lajati thian. khed hai ki mere is nagn-dhaanche ne tumhean mere saundary ke vishay mean sarvatha jhoothi sammati nirdharit karane ka avasar diya. tum mujhe yauvan ke kshanoan mean dekhate to aankhoan se niand u d jati aur vaidyak jnan ka sauda mastishk se ashudhd shabd ki bhaanti samapt ho jata. usane kahani ka taratamy pravahit rakhakar kaha- 'mere bhaee ne nishchay kar liya tha ki vah vivah n karega. aur ghar mean maian hi ek stri thi. maian sandhya-samay apane udyan mean chhaya vale vrikshoan ke niche baithati to sitare mujhe ghoora karate aur shital vayu jab mere samip se gujarati to mere sath athakheliyaan karati thi. maian apane saundary par ghamand karati aur anekoan bar socha karati thi ki jis dharati par mera paanv p data hai yadi usamean anubhav karane ki shakti hoti to prasannata se phooli n samati. kabhi kahati sansar ke sampoorn premi yuvak ghas ke roop mean mere pairoan par p de haian. ab ye sampoorn vichar mujhako anek bar viphal karate haian ki ah! kya tha aur kya ho gaya. mere bhaee ka ek mitr satishakumar tha jisane maidikal k aaulej mean d aauktari ka praman-patr prapt kiya tha. vah hamara bhi ghareloo d aauktar tha. vaise usane mujhako nahian dekha tha parantu maianne usako ek din dekh hi liya aur mujhe yah kahane mean bhi sankoch nahian ki usaki sundarata ne mujh par vishesh prabhav dala. mera bhaee ajib dhang ka vyakti tha. sansar ke shit-grishm se sarvatha aparichit vah kabhi grihasth ke kamoan mean hastakshep n karata. vah maunapriy aur ekant mean raha karata tha jisaka parinam yah hua ki sansar se alag hokar ekantapriy ban gaya aur sadhu-mahatmaoan ka-sa jivan bitane laga. haan, to vah navayuvak satishakumar hamare yahaan pray: ata aur yahi ek navayuvak tha jisako apane ghar ke purushoan ke atirikt mujhe dekhane ka sanyog prapt hua tha. jab maian udyan mean akeli hoti aur pushpoan se lade hue vriksh ke niche maharani ki bhaanti baithati, to satishakumar ka dhyan aur bhi mere hriday mean chutakiyaan leta-parantu tum kis chinta mean ho. tumhare hriday mean kya bit rahi hai? maianne thandi saans bharakar uttar diya- maian yah vichar kar raha hooan ki kitana achchha hota ki maian hi satishakumar hota. vah hansakar boli- achchha, pahale meri kahani sun lo phir premalap kar lena. ek din varsha ho rahi thi, mujhe kuchh bukhar tha us samay d aauktar arthath mera priy satish mujhe dekhane ke lie aya. yah pratham avasar tha ki ham donoan ne ek-doosare ko amane-samane dekha aur dekhate hi d aauktar moorti-saman sthir-sa ho gaya aur mere bhaee ki maujoodagi ne hosh sanbhalane ke lie badhy kar diya. vah meri or sanket karake bola-'maian inaki nabj dekhana chahata hooan.' maianne dhire-se apana hath dushale se nikala. d aauktar ne meri nabj par hath rakha. maianne kabhi n dekha ki kisi d aauktar ne sadharan jvar ke nirikshan mean itana vichar kiya ho. usake hath ki uangaliyaan kaanp rahi thian. kathin parishram ke pashchath usane mere jvar ko anubhav kiya; kintu vah mera jvar dekhate-dekhate svayan hi bimar ho gaye. kyoan, tum is bat ko manate ho ya nahian. maianne darate-darate kaha- haan, bilkul manata hooan. manushy ki avastha mean parivartan utpann hona kathin nahian hai. vah boli- kuchh dinoan parikshan karane se jnat hua ki mere hriday mean d aauktar ke atirikt aur kisi navayuvak ka vichar tak nahian. mera karyakram tha sandhya-samay vasanti rang ki sa di pahanakar baloan mean kanghi, phooloan ka har gale mean dalakar, darpan hath mean liye bag mean chale jana aur paharoan dekha karana. kyoan, kya darpan dekhana bura hai? maiann ghabarakar uttar diya- nahian to. usane kahani ka silasila sthapit rakhate hue kaha- darpan dekhakar maian aisa anubhav karati jaise mere do roop ho gaye haian. arthath maian svayan hi satishakumar ban jati aur svayan hi apane pratibimb ko premika samajhakar us par tan-man nyauchhavar karati. yah mera bahut hi priy manoranjan tha aur maian ghantoan vyatit kar deti. anekoan bar aisa hua ki madhyanh ko palang par bistar bichhakar leti aur ek hath ko bistar par upeksha se pheank diya. jara aankh jhapaki to sapane mean dekha ki satishakumar aya aur mere hath ko choomakar chala gaya...bas, ab maian kahani samapt karati hooan, tumhean to niand a rahi hai. meri utsukata bahut badh chuki thi. at: maianne namrata bhare svar mean kaha- nahian, tum kahe jao, meri jijnasa badhati jati hai. vah kahane lagi- achchha suno! tho de dinoan mean hi satishakumar ka karobar bahut badh gaya aur usane hamare makan ke niche ke bhag mean apani dispensari khol li. jab use rogiyoan se avakash milata to maian usake pas ja baithati aur hansi-thatthoan mean vibhinn davaee ka nam poochhati rahati. is prakar mujhe aisi davaean bhi jnat ho geean, jo vishaili thian. satishakumar se jo kuchh maian maloom karati vah b de prem aur namrata se bataya karata. is prakar ek lamba samay bit gaya aur maianne anubhav karana arambh kiya ki d aauktar hosh-havash khoye-se rahata hai aur jab kabhi maian usake sammukh jati hooan to usake mukh par murdani-si chha jati hai. parantu aisa kyoan hota hai? isaka koee karan jnat n hua. ek din d aauktar ne mere bhaee se ga di maangi. maian pas baithi thi. maianne bhaee se poochha- 'd aauktar rat mean is samay kahaan jayega?' mere bhaee ne uttar diya- 'tabah hone ko.' maianne anurodh kiya ki mujhe avashy batao vah kahaan ja raha hai? bhaee ne kaha- 'vah vivah karane ja raha hai.' yah sunakar mujh par moorchha-si chha gee. kintu maianne apane-apako sanbhala aur bhaee se phir poochha- 'kya vah sachamuch vivah karane ja raha hai ya majak karate ho?' usane uttar diya- 'saty hi aj d aauktar dulhan layega! maian varnan nahian kar sakati ki yah bat mujhe kitani kashtaprad anubhav huee. maianne apane hriday se bar-bar poochha ki d aauktar ne mujhase yah bat kyoan chhipakar rakhi. kya maian usako rokati ki vivah mat karo? in purushoan ki bat ka koee vishvas nahian. madhyanh d aauktar rogiyoan ko dekhakar dispensari mean aya aur maianne poochha, 'd aauktar sahab! kya yah saty hai ki aj apaka vivah hai.' yah kahakar maian bahut hansi aur d aauktar yah dekhakar ki maian is bat ko hansi mean u da rahi hooan, n keval lajjit hua; balki kuchh chintit-sa ho gaya. phir maianne sahasa poochha- 'd aauktar sahab, jab apaka vivah ho jayega to kya ap phir bhi logoan ki nabj dekha kareange. ap to d aauktar haian aur any d aauktaroan ki apeksha prasidhd bhi haian ki ap sharir ke sampoorn aangoan ki dasha bhi janate haian; kintu khed hai ki ap d aauktar hokar kisi ke hriday ka pata nahian laga sakate ki vah kis dasha mean hai. vastut: hriday bhi sharir ka bhag hai.' mere shabd d aauktar ke hriday mean tir ki bhaanti lage; parantu vah maun raha.

bhag 4

lagan ka muhoort bahut rat ge nishchit hua tha aur barat der se jani thi. at: d aauktar aur mera bhaee pratidin ki bhaanti sharab pine baith gaye. is manovinod mean unako bahut der ho gee. gyarah bajane ko the ki maian unake pas gee aur kaha- 'd aauktar sahab, gyarah bajane vale haian apako vivah ke lie taiyar hona chahie.' vah kisi sima tak chetan ho gaya tha, bola- 'abhi jata hooan.' phir vah mere bhaee ke sath batoan mean tallin ho gaya aur maianne avasar pakar vish ki pu diya, jo maianne dopahar ko d aauktar ki anupasthiti mean usaki alamari se nikali thi sharab ke gilas mean, jo d aauktar ke samane rakha hua tha dal di. kuchh kshanoan ke pashchath d aauktar ne apana gilas khali kiya aur doolha banane ko chala gaya. mera bhaee bhi usake sath chala gaya. maian apane do manjile kamare mean gee aur apana naya banarasi dupatta odha, maang mean siandoor bhar poori suhagan banakar udyan mean nikali jahaan pratidin sandhya-samay baitha karati thi. us samay chaandani chhitaki huee thi, vayu mean kuchh siharan utpann ho gee thi aur chameli ki sugandh ne udyan ko mahaka diya tha. maianne pu diya ki shesh dava nikali aur muanh mean dalakar ek chulloo pani pi liya. tho di der mean mere sir mean chakkar ane lage, aankhoan mean dhuandhalapan chha gaya. chaand ka prakash madhdim hone laga aur prithvi tatha akash, bel-boote, ab mera ghar jahaan maianne ayu bitaee thi, dhire-dhire lupt hote hue jnat hue aur maian mithi niand so gee. dedh sal ke pashchath sukh-svapn se chauanki to maianne kya dekha ki tin vidyarthi meri haddiyoan se d aauktari shiksha prapt kar rahe haian aur ek adhyapak meri chhati ki or beant se sanket karake l dakoan ko vibhinn haddiyoan ke nam bata raha hai aur kahata hai- 'yahaan hriday rahata hai, jo vivah aur du:kh ke samay dh daka karata hai aur yah vah sthan hai jahaan uthati javani ke samay phool nikalate haian.' achchha ab meri kahani samapt hoti hai. maian vida hoti hooan, tum so jao.