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chitr:Icon-edit.gif is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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ek din subah svami anand a pahuanche. ratan ko yah pata n tha ki unhean ane ka nimantran diya gaya hai. udas chehare se usane akar khabar di, "baboo, gangamati ka vah sadhu a pahuancha hai. balihari hai, khoj-khajakar pata laga hi liya."

ratan sabhi sadhu-sajjanoan ko sandeh ki drishti se dekhata hai. rajalakshmi ke gurudev ko to vah phooti aauankh nahian dekh sakata. bola, "dekhie, yah is bar kis matalab se aya hai. ye dharmik log rupaye lene ke anek kaushal janate haian."

hansakar kaha, "anand b de adami ka l daka hai, d aauktari pas hai, use apane lie rupayoan ki zaroorat nahian."

"hooan, b de adami ka l daka hai! rupaya rahane par kya koee is raste par ata hai!" is tarah apana sudridh abhimat vyakt karake vah chala gaya. ratan ko asali apatti yahian par hai. maan ke rupaye koee le jay, isaka vah jabaradast virodhi hai. haan, usaki apani bat alag hai."

vajranand ne akar mujhe namaskar kiya, kaha, "aur ek bar a gaya dada, kushal to hai? didi kahaan haian?"

"shayad pooja karane baithi haian, nishchay hi unhean khabar nahian mili hai."

"to khud hi jakar sanvad de dooan. pooja karana bhag tho de hi jayega, ab ve ek bar rasoeeghar ki taraph bhi drishtipat karean. pooja ka kamara kis taraph hai dada? aur vah naee ka bachcha kahaan gaya- jara chay ka pani chadha de."

pooja ka kamara dikha diya. ratan ko pukarate hue anand ne us or prasthan kiya.

do minat bad donoan hi akar upasthit hue. anand ne kaha, "didi, paanchek-rupaye de do, chay pikar jara siyalada bazar ghoom aooan."

rajalakshmi ne kaha, "najadik hi ek achchha bazar hai anand, utani door kyoan jaoge? aur tum hi kyoan jaoge? ratan ko jane do n!"

"kaun ratan? us adami ka vishvas nahian didi, maian aya hooan isilie shayad vah chhaant-chhaantakar s di huee machhaliyaan kharid layega." kahakar hathath dekha ki ratan daravaze par kh da hai. tab jibh dabakar kaha, "ratan, bura n manana bhaee, maianne samajha tha ki tum udhar chale gaye ho, pukarane par uttar nahian mila tha n!"

rajalakshmi hansane lagi, mujhase bhi bina hanse n raha gaya. ratan ki bhauanhean nahian chadhian, usane gambhir avaz mean kaha, "maian bazar ja raha hooan maan, kisan ne chay ka pani chadha diya hai." aur vah chala gaya. rajalakshmi ne kaha, "shayad ratan ki anand se nahian banati?"

anand ne kaha, "haan, par maian use dosh nahian de sakata didi. vah apaka hitaishi hai- airoan-gairoan ko nahian ghusane dena chahata. par aj usase mel kar lena hoga, nahian to khana achchha nahian milega. bahut dinoan ka bhookha hooan."

rajalakshmi ne jaldi se baramade mean jakar kaha, "ratan aur kuchh rupaye le ja bhaee, kyoanki ek b di-si ruee machhali lani hogi." lautakar kaha, "muanh-hath dho lo bhaee, maian chay taiyar kar lati hooan." kahakar vah niche chali gayi.

anand ne kaha, "dada, ekaek talabi kyoan huee?"

"isaki kaiphiyat kya maian dooanga anand?"

anand ne hansate hue kaha, "dekhata hooan ki dada ka ab bhi vahi bhav hai- narajagi door nahian huee hai. phir kahian lapata ho jane ka irada to nahian hai? us dapha gangamati mean kaisi jhanjhat mean dal diya tha! idhar sare desh ke logoan ka nimantran aur udhar makan ka malik lapata! bich mean maian- naya adami -idhar dau dooan, udhar dau dooan, didi pair phailakar rone baith gayian, ratan ne logoan ko bhagane ka udyog kiya- kaisi vipatti thi! vah dada, ap khoob haian!"

maian bhi hans p da, bola, "abaki bar narajagi door ho gayi hai. daro mat."

anand ne kaha, "par bharosa to nahian hota. ap jaise ni:sang, ekaki logoan se maian darata hooan aur akasar sochata hooan ki apane apane ko sansar mean kyoan bandhane diya."

man hi man kaha, takadir! aur muanh se kaha, "dekhata hooan ki mujhe bhoole nahian ho, bich-bich mean yad karate the?"

anand ne kaha, "nahian dada, apako bhoolana bhi mushkil hai aur samajhana bhi kathin hai, moh door karana to aur bhi kathin hai. agar vishvas n ho to kahie, didi ko bulakar gavahi de dooan. apase sirph do-tin din ka hi to parichay hai, par us din didi ke sath sur mean sur milakar maian bhi jo rone nahian baith gaya so sirph isalie ki yah sannyasi dharm ke bilkushal khilaf hai."

bola, "vah shayad didi ki khatir. unake anurodh se hi to itani door aye hoan?"

anand ne kaha, "bilkukal jhooth nahian hai dada. unaka anurodh to sirph anurodh nahian hai, vah to mano maan ki pukar hai, pair apane ap chalana shuroo kar dete haian. n jane kitane gharoan mean ashray leta hooan, par thik aisa to kahian nahian dekhata. suna hai ki ap bhi to bahut ghoome haian, apane bhi kahian koee inake aisi aur dekhi hai?"

kaha, "bahut."

rajalakshmi ne pravesh kiya. kamare mean ghusate hi usane meri bat sun li thi, chay ki pyali anand ke nikat rakhakar mujhase poochha, "bahut kya ji?"

anand shayad kuchh vipadgrast ho gaya; maianne kaha, "tumhare gunoan ki batean. inhoanne sandeh zahir kiya tha, isalie maianne zor se usaka prativad kiya hai."

anand chay ki pyali muanh se laga raha tha, hansi ki vajah se tho di-si chay zamin par gir p di. rajalakshmi bhi hans p di.

anand ne kaha, "dada, apaki upasthit-buddhi adbhut hai. yah thik ulati bat kshan-bhar mean apake dimag mean kaise a gayi?"

rajalakshmi ne kaha, "isamean ashchary kya hai anand? apane man ki bat dabate-dabate aur kahaniyaan gadhakar sunate-sunate is vidya mean ye poori tarah mahamahopadhayay ho gaye haian."

kaha, "to tum mera vishvas nahian karati?"

"jara bhi nahian."

anand ne hansakar kaha, "gadhakar kahane ki vidya mean ap bhi kam nahian haian didi. tatkal hi javab de diya, "jara bhi nahian."

rajalakshmi bhi hans p di. boli, "jal-bhunakar sikhana p da hai bhaee. par ab tum der mat karo, chay pikar naha lo. yah achchhi tarah janati hooan ki kal tren mean tumhara bhojan nahian hua. inake muanh se meri sukhyati sunane ke lie to tumhara sara din bhi kam hoga." yah kahakar vah chali gayi.

anand ne kaha, "ap donoan jaise do vyakti sansar mean viral haian. bhagavan ne adbhut jo d milakar ap logoan ko duniya mean bheja hai."

"usaka namoona dekh liya n?"

"namoona to us pahile hi din saaneethiyaan steshan ke pe d-tale dekh liya tha. isake bad aur koee kabhi najar nahian aya."

"aha! ye batean yadi tum unake samane hi kahate anand!"

anand kam ka adami hai, kam karane ka udyam aur shakti usamean vipul hai. usako nikat pakar rajalakshmi ke anand ki sima nahian. rat-din khane ki taiyariyaan to pray: bhay ki sima tak pahuanch gayi. donoan mean lagatar kitane paramarsh hote rahe, un sabako maian nahian janata. kan mean sirph yah bhanak p di ki gangamati mean ek l dakoan ke lie aur ek l dakiyoan ke lie skool khola jayega. vahaan kafi garib aur nich jati ke logoan ka vas hai aur shayad ve hi upalakshy haian. suna ki chikitsa ka bhi prabandh kiya jayega. in sab vishayoan ki mujhamean tanik bhi patuta nahian. paropakar ki ichchha hai par shakti nahian. yah sochate hi ki kahian kuchh kh da karana ya banana p dega, mera shrant man 'aj nahian, kal' kah-kahakar din talana chahata hai. apane naye udyog mean bich-bich mean anand mujhe ghasitane ata, par rajalakshmi hansate hue badha dekar kahati, "inhean mat lapeto anand, tumhare sab sankalp pangu ho jayeange."

sunane par prativad karana hi p data. kahata, "abhi-abhi us din to kaha ki mera bahut kam hai aur ab mujhe bahut kuchh karana hoga!"

rajalakshmi ne hath jo dakar kaha, "meri galati huee gusaeean, ab aisi bat kabhi jaban par nahian laooangi."

"tab kya kisi din kuchh bhi nahian karooanga?"

"kyoan nahian karoge? yadi bimar p dakar dar ke mare mujhe adhamara n kar dalo, to isase hi maian tumhare nikat chirakritajn rahooangi."

anand ne kaha, "didi, is tarah to ap sachamuch hi inhean akarmany bana deangi."

rajalakshmi ne kaha, "mujhe nahian banana p dega bhaee, jis vidhata ne inaki srishti ki hai usi ne isaki vyavastha kar di hai- kahian bhi truti nahian rahane di hai."

anand hansane laga. rajalakshmi ne kaha, "aur phir vah jalamuanha jyotishi aisa dar dikha gaya hai ki inake makan se bahar pair rakhate hi meri chhati dhakh-dhakh karane lagati hai- jab tak lautate nahian tab tak kisi bhi kam mean man nahian laga sakati."

"is bich jyotishi kahaan mil gaya? kya kaha usane?"

isaka uttar maianne diya. kaha, "mera hath dekhakar vah bola ki bahut b da vipadh-yog hai- jivan-maran ki samasya!"

"didi, in sab batoan par ap vishvas karati haian?"

maianne kaha, "haan karati haian zaroor karati haian. tumhari didi kahati haian ki kya vipadh-yog nam ki koee bat hi duniya mean nahian hai? kya kabhi kisi par aphat nahian ati?"

anand ne hansakar kaha, "a sakati hai, par hath dekhakar koee kaise bata sakata hai didi?"

rajalakshmi ne kaha, "yah to nahian janati bhaee, par mujhe yah bharosa zaroor hai ki jo mere jaisi bhagyavati hai, use bhagavan itane b de du:kh mean nahian dubayeange."

kshan-bhar tak stabdhata ke sath usake muanh ki or dekhakar anand ne doosari bat chhe d di.

isi bich makan ki likha-padhi, bandobast aur vyavastha ka kam chalane laga, dher ki dher eeantean, kath, choona, suraki, daravaze, khi dakiyaan vagairah a p dian. purane ghar ko rajalakshmi ne naya banane ka ayojan kiya.

us din sham ko anand ne kaha, "chalie dada, jara ghoom ayean."

ajakal mere bahar jane ke prastav par rajalakshmi anichchha zahir kiya karati hai. boli, "ghoomakar lautate-lautate ratri ho jayegi anand, thand nahian lagegi?"

anand ne kaha, "garami se to log mare ja rahe haian didi, thand kahaan hai?"

aj meri tabiyat bhi bahut achchhi n thi. kaha, "isamean shak nahian ki thand lagane ka dar nahian, par aj uthane ki bhi vaisi ichchha nahian ho rahi hai anand."

anand ne kaha, "yah j data hai. sham ke vakt kamare mean baithe rahane se anichchha aur bhi badh jayegi-chalie, uthie."

rajalakshmi ne isaka samadhan karane ke lie kaha, "isase achchha ek doosara kam karean n anand. parasoan kshitij mujhe ek achchha haramoniyam kharid kar de gaya hai, ab tak use dekhane ka vakt hi nahian mila. maian bhagavan ka nam leti hooan, tum baithakar suno- sham kat jayegi." yah kah usane ratan ko pukarakar baks lane ke lie kah diya.

anand ne vismay se poochha, "bhagavan ka nam mane kya git didi?"

rajalakshmi ne sir hilakar 'haan' ki. "didi ko yah vidya bhi ati hai kya?"

"bahut sadharan-si." phir mujhe dikhakar kaha, "bachapan mean inhoanne hi abhyas karaya tha."

anand ne khush hokar kaha, "dada to chhipe hue rustam haian, bahar se pahichanane ka koee upay hi nahian."

usaka mantavy sun lakshmi hansane lagi, par maian saral man se sath n de saka. kyoanki anand kuchh bhi nahian samajhega aur mere inakar ko ustad ke vinay-vaky samajh aur bhi zyada tang karega, aur ant mean shayad naraj bhi ho jayega. putr-shokatur dhritarashtr-vilap ka duryodhan vala gana janata hooan, par rajalakshmi ke bad is baithak mean vah kuchh janchega nahian.

rajalakshmi ne haramoniyam ane par pahale do-ek bhagavan ke aise git sunaye jo har jagah prachalit haian aur phir vaishnav-padavali arambh kar di. sunakar aisa laga ki us din muraripur ke akha de mean bhi shayad itana achchha nahian suna tha. anand vismay se abhibhoot ho gaya, meri or ishara kar mugdh chitt se bola, "yah sab kya inhian se sikha hai didi?"

"sab kya ek hi adami ke pas koee sikhata hai anand?"

"yah sahi hai." isake bad usane meri taraph dekhakar kaha, "dada, ab apako daya karani hogi. didi kuchh thak gayi haian."

"nahian bhaee, meri tabiyat achchhi nahian hai.';'

"tabiyat ke lie maian zimmedar hooan, kya atithi ka anurodh nahian maneange?"

"manane ka upay jo nahian hai, tabiyat bahut kharab hai."

rajalakshmi gambhir hone ki cheshta kar rahi thi par saphal n ho saki, hansi ke mare lot-pot ho gayi. anand ne ab mamala samajha, bola, "didi, to sach batao ki apane kisase itana sikha?"

maianne kaha, "jo rupayoan ke parivartan mean vidya-dan karate haian unase, mujhase nahian bhaiya. dada is vidya ke pas se bhi kabhi nahian phataka."

kshan bhar maun rahakar anand ne kaha, "maian bhi kuchh tho da-sa janata hooan didi, par zyada sikhane ka vakt nahian mila. yadi is bar suyog mila to apaka shishyatv svikar kar apani shiksha ko sampoorn kar looanga. par aj kya yahian ruk jaanyagi, aur kuchh nahian sunayeangi?"

rajalakshmi ne kaha, "ab vakt nahian hai bhaee, tum logoan ka khana jo taiyar karana hai."

anand ne ni:shvas chho dakar kaha, "janata hooan ki sansar mean jinake oopar bhar hai unake pas vakt kam hai. par umr mean maian chhota hooan, apaka chhota bhaee. mujhe sikhana hi hoga. aparichit sthan mean jab akela vakt katana nahian chahega, tab apaki is daya ka smaran karooanga."

rajalakshmi ne sneh se vigalit hokar kaha, "tum d aauktar ho, videsh mean apane is svasthyahin dada ke prati drishti rakhana bhaee, maian jitana bhi janati hooan utana tumhean pyar se sikhaooangi."

"par isake alava kya apako aur koee fikr nahian hai didi?"

rajalakshmi chup rahi. anand ne mujhe uddeshy kar kaha, "dada jaisa bhagy sahasa najar nahian ata."

maianne isaka uttar diya, "aur aisa akarmany vyakti hi kya jaldi najar ata hai anand? aisoan ki nakel pak dane ke lie bhagavan mazaboot adami bhi de deta hai, nahian to ve bich samudr mean hi doob jaany- kisi tarah ghat tak pahuanch hi n payean. isi tarah sansar mean samanjasy ki raksha hoti hai bhaiya, meri batean milakar dekhana, praman mil jayega."

rajalakshmi bhi muhoort-bhar ni:shabd dekhati rahi, phir uth gayi. use bahut kam hai.

in kuchh dinoan ke andar hi makan ka kam shuroo ho gaya, chij-bast ko ek kamare mean bandakar rajalakshmi yatra ke lie taiyari karane lagi. makan ka bhar boodhe tulasidas par raha.

jane ke din rajalakshmi ne mere hath mean ek postakard dekar kaha, "meri char panne ki chitthi ka yah javab aya hai- padhakar dekh lo." aur vah chali gayi.

do-tin lainoan mean kamalalata ne likha hai-

"sukh se hi hooan bahin, jinaki seva mean apane ko nivedan kar diya hai, mujhe achchha rakhane ka bhar bhi unhian par hai. yahi prarthana karati hooan ki tum log kushal raho. b de gursaeeanji apani anandamayi ke lie shraddha pragat karate haian.

-iti shri shriradhakrishnacharanashrita, kamalalata."

usane mere nam ka ullekh bhi nahian kiya hai. par in kee aksharoan ki a d mean usaki n jane kitani batean chhupi rah gayian. khojane laga ki chitthi par ek booand aauansoo ka dag bhi kya nahian p da hai? par koee bhi chihn najar nahian aya.

chitthi ko hath mean lekar chup baitha raha. khi daki ke bahar dhoop se tapa hua nilabh akash hai, p dosi ke ghar ke do nariyal ke vrikshoan ke pattoan ki phaank se usaka kuchh aansh dikhaee deta hai. vahaan akasmath hi do chehare pas hi pas mano tair aye, ek meri rajalakshmi ka-kalyan ki pratima, doosara kamalalata ka, aparisphut, anajan jaise koee svapn mean dekhi huee chhavi.

ratan ne akar dhya n bhang kar diya. bola, "snan ka vakt ho gaya hai baboo, maan ne kaha hai."

snan ka samay bhi nahian bit jana chahie!

phir ek din subah ham gangamati ja pahuanche. us bar anand anahoot atithi tha, par is bar amantrit bandhav. makan mean bhi d nahian samati, gaanv ke atmiy aur anatmiy n jane kitane log hamean dekhane aye haian. sabhi ke cheharoan par prasann hansi aur kushal-prashn hai. rajalakshmi ne kushariji ki patni ko pranam kiya. sunanda rasoee ke kam mean lagi thi, bahar nikal aee aur ham donoan ko pranam karake boli, "dada, apaka sharir to vaisa achchha dikhaee nahian deta!"

rajalakshmi ne kaha, "achchha aur kab dikhata tha bahin? mujhase to nahian hua, ab shayad tum log achchha kar sako- isi asha se yahaan le aee hooan."

mere vigat dinoan ki bimari ki bat shayad b di bahoo ko yad a gayi, unhoanne snehardr kanth se dilasa dete hue kaha- "dar ki koee bat nahian hai beti, is desh ke hava-pani se do din mean hi ye thik ho jayeange." meri samajh mean nahian aya ki mujhe kya hua hai aur kisalie itani dushchinta hai!

isake bad nana prakar ke kamoan ka ayojan poore udyam ke sath shuroo ho gaya. po damati ko kharidane ki batachit se shuroo karake shishu-vidyalay ki pratishtha ke lie sthan ki khoj tak kisi bhi kam mean kisi ko jara bhi alasy nahian.

sirph maian akela hi man mean koee utsah anubhav nahian karata. ya to yah mera svabhav hi hai, ya phir aur hi kuchh jo drishti ke agochar meri samast pran-shakti ka dhire-dhire moolochchhedan kar raha hai. ek subhita yah ho gaya hai ki meri udasinata se koee vismit nahian hota, manoan mujhase aur kisi bat ki pratyasha karana hi asangat hai. maian durbal hooan, asvasth hooan, maian kabhi hooan aur kabhi nahian hooan. phir bhi koee bimari nahian hai, khata pita aur rahata hooan. apani d aauktari vidya dvara jyoan hi kabhi anand hilane-dulane ki koshish karata hai tyoan hi rajalakshmi sasneh ulahane ke roop mean badha dete hue kahati haian, "unhean dikh karane ka kam nahian bhaee, n jane kya se kya ho jay. tab hamean hi bhogana p dega!"

anand kahata, "apako savadhan kiye deta hooan ki jo vyavastha ki hai usase bhogane ki matra badhegi hi, kam nahian hogi didi."

rajalakshmi sahaj hi svikar karake kahati, "yah to maian janati hooan anand, ki bhagavan ne mere janm-kal mean hi yah du:kh kapal mean likh diya hai."

isake bad aur tark nahian kiya ja sakata.

kabhi kitabean padhate hue din kat jata hai, kabhi apani vigat kahani ko likhane mean aur kabhi soone maidanoan mean akele ghoomate. ek bat se nishchint hooan ki karm ki prerana mujhamean nahian hai. l d-jhag dakar uchhal-kood machakar sansar mean das adamiyoan ke sir par chadh baithane ki shakti bhi nahian aur sankalp bhi nahian. sahaj hi jo mil jata hai, use hi yathesht man leta hooan. makan-ghar, rupaya-paisa, zamin-jayadad, man-samman, ye sab mere lie chhayamay haian. doosaroan ki dekha-dekhi apani j data ko yadi kabhi karttavy-buddhi ki ta dana se sachet karana chahata hooan to dekhata hooan ki tho di hi der mean vah phir aauankhean band kiye ooangh rahi hai- saik doan dhakke dene par bhi hilana-dulana nahian chahati. dekhata hooan ki sirph ek vishay mean tandratur man kalarav se tarangit ho uthata hai aur vah hai muraripur ke das dinoan ki smriti ka alo dan. mano kanoan mean sunaee p d raha hai, vaishnavi kamalalata ka sasneh anurodh- 'naye gusaeean, yah kar do n bhaee!- are jao, sab nasht kar diya! meri galati huee jo tumase kam karane ke lie kaha, ab utho. jalamuanhi padma kahaan gayi, jara pani chadha deti, tumhara chay pine ka samay ho gaya hai gusaeean."

un dinoan vah khud chay ke patr dhokar rakhati thi, is darase ki kahian toot n jaany. unaka prayojan khatm ho gaya hai, tathapi kya maloom ki phir kabhi kam mean ane ki asha se usane ab bhi unhean yatnapoorvak rakh chho da hai ya nahian, janata hooan ki vah bhagooan-bhagooan kar rahi hai. hetu nahian janata, to bhi man mean sandeh nahian hai ki muraripur ke ashram mean usake din har roj sankshipt hote ja rahe haian. ek din akasmath shayad, yahi khabar milegi. yah kalpana karate hi aauankhoan mean aauansoo a jate haian ki vah nirashray, ni:sabal path-path par bhiksha maangati huee ghoom rahi hai, bhoola-bhataka man santvana ki asha mean rajalakshmi ki or dekhata hai, jo sabaki sakal shubhachintaoan ke avishram karm mean niyukt hai-manoan usake donoan hathoan ki dasoan aanguliyoan se kalyan ajasr dhara se bah raha hai. suprasann muanh par shanti aur santosh ki snigdha chhaya p d rahi hai. karuna aur mamata se hriday ki yamuna kinare tak poorn haian-niravichchhinn prem ki sarvavyapi mahima ke sath vah mere hriday mean jis asan par pratishthit hai, nahian janata ki usaki tulana kisase ki jay.

vidushi sunanda ke durnivar prabhav ne kuchh vakt ke lie use jo vibhrant kar diya tha, usake du:sah paritap se usane apani purani satta phir se pa li hai. ek bat aj bhi vah mere kanoan-kanoan mean kahati hai ki "tum bhi kam nahian ho ji, kam nahian ho! bhala yah kaun janata tha ki tumhare chale jane ke path par hi mera sarvasv palak marate hi dau d p dega. oo:! vah kaisi bhayankar bat thi! sochane par bhi dar lagata hai ki mere ve din kate kaise the. dh dakan band hokar mar nahian gayi, yahi ashchary hai!" maian uttar nahian de pata hooan, sirph chupachap dekhata rahata hooan.

apane bare mean jab usaki galati pak dane ki guanjaish nahian hai. sau kamoan ke bich bhi sau dapha chupachap akar dekh jati hai. kabhi ekaek akar najadik baith jati hai aur hath ki kitab hatate hue kahati hai, "aauankhean band karake jara so jao n, maian sir par hath phere deti hooan. itana padhane par aauankhoan mean dard jo hone lagega."

anand akar bahar se hi kahata hai, "ek bat poochhani hai, a sakata hooan?"

rajalakshmi kahati haian, "a sakate ho. tumhean ane ki kahaan manahi hai anand?"

anand kamare mean ghusakar ashchary se kahata hai, "is asamay mean kya ap inhean sula rahi haian didi?"

rajalakshmi hansakar javab deti hai, "tumhara kya nukasan hua? nahian sone par bhi to ye tumhari pathashala ke bachh doan ko charane nahian jayeange!"

"dekhata hooan ki didi inhean mitti kar deangi."

"nahian to khud jo mitti huee jati hooan, bephikri se koee kam-kaj hi nahian kar pati."

"ap donoan hi kramash: pagal ho jayeange." kahakar anand bahar chala jata hai.

skool banavane ke kam mean anand ko saans lene ki bhi phursat nahian hai, aur sampatti kharidane ke hangame mean rajalakshmi bhi poori tarah doobi huee hai. isi samay kalakatte ke makan se ghoomati huee, bahut se post-aauphisoan mean ki muharoan ko pith par liye hue, bahut der mean, navin ki saanghatik chitthi a pahuanchi- gauhar mrityushayya par hai. sirph meri hi rah dekhata hua ab bhi ji raha hai. yah khabar mujhe shool jaisi chubhi. yah nahian janata ki bahin ke makan se vah kab lauta. vah itana zyada pi dit hai, yah bhi nahian suna-sunane ki vishesh cheshta bhi nahian ki aur aj ekadam shesh sanvad a gaya. pray: chhah din pahale ki chitthi hai, isalie ab vah zinda hai ya nahian-yahi kaun janata hai! tar dvara khabar pane ki vyavastha is desh mean nahian hai aur us desh mean bhi nahian. isalie isaki chinta vritha hai. chitthi padhakar rajalakshmi ne sir par hath rakhakar poochha, "tumhean kya jana p dega?"

"haan."

"to chalo, maian bhi sath chalooan."

"yah kahian ho sakata hai? is aphat ke samay tum kahaan jaogi?"

yah usane khud hi samajh liya ki prastav asangat hai, muraripur ke akha de ki bat bhi phir vah jaban par n la saki. boli, "ratan ko kal se bukhar hai, sath mean kaun jayega? anand se kahooan?"

"nahian, vah mere bistar uthane vala adami nahian hai!"

"to phir sath mean kisan jay?"

"bhale jay, par zaroorat nahian hai."

"jakar roj chitthi doge, bolo?"

"samay mila to dooanga."

"nahian, yah nahian sunooangi. ek din chitthi n milane par maian khud a jaooangi chahe tum kitane hi naraj kyoan n ho." '

agatya raji hona p da, aur har roj sanvad dene ki pratijna karake usi din chal p da. dekha ki dushchinta se rajalakshmi ka muanh pila p d gaya hai, usane aauankhean poanchhakar antim bar savadhan karate hue kaha, "vada karo ki sharir ki avahelana nahian karoge?"

"nahian, nahian, karooanga."

"kaho ki lautane mean ek din ki bhi deri nahian karoge?"

"nahian, so bhi nahian karooanga!"

ant mean bailaga di relave steshan ki taraph chal di.

ashadh ka mahina tha. tisare prahar gauhar ke makan ke sadar daravaze par ja pahuancha. meri avaz sunakar navin bahar aya aur pachha d khakar pairoan ke pas gir p da. jo dar tha vahi hua. us dirghakay balishth purush ke prabalakanth ke us chhati pha dane vale krandan mean shok ki ek nayi moorti dekhi. vah jitani gambhir thi, utani hi b di aur utani hi saty. gauhar ki maan nahian, bahin nahian, kanya nahian, patni nahian. us din is sangihin manushy ko ashruoan ki mala pahanakar vida karane vala koee n tha; to bhi aisa maloom hota hai ki use sajjahin, bhooshanahin, kangal vesh mean nahian jana p da, usaki lokantar-yatra ke path ke lie shesh pathey akele navin ne hi donoan hath bharakar u del diya hai.

bahut der bad jab vah uthakar baith gaya tab poochha, "gauhar kab mara navin?"

"parasoan. kal subah hi hamane unhean daphanaya hai."

"kahaan daphanaya?"

"nadi ke kinare, am ke bagiche mean. aur yah unhian ne kaha tha. mameri bahin ke makan se bukhar lekar laute aur vah bukhar phir nahian gaya tha."

"ilaj hua tha?"

"yahaan jo kuchh ho sakata hai sab hua, par kisi se bhi kuchh labh n hua. baboo khud hi sab jan gaye the."

"akha de ke b de gusaeeanji ate the?"

navin ne kaha, "kabhi-kabhi. navadvip se unake gurudev aye haian, isilie roj ane ka vakt nahian milata tha." aur ek vyakti ke bare mean poochhate hue sharm ane lagi, to bhi sankoch door kar prashn kiya, "vahaan se aur koee nahian aya navin?"

navin ne kaha, "haan, kamalalata aee thi.",

"kab aee thi?"

navin ne kaha, "har-roj. antim tin dinoan mean to n unhoanne khaya aur n soya, baboo ka bichhauna chho dakar ek bar bhi nahian uthian."

aur koee prashn nahian kiya, chup ho raha. navin ne poochha, "ab kahaan jayeange, akha de mean?"

"haan."

"jara thaharie." kahakar vah bhitar gaya aur ek tin ka baks bahar nikal laya. use mujhe dete hue bola, "apako dene ke lie kah gaye haian."

"kya hai isamean navin?"

"kholakar dekhie", kahakar usane mere hath mean chabi de di. kholakar dekha ki usaki kavita ki k aaupiyaan rassi se bandhi huee haian. oopar likha hai, "shrikant, ramayan khatm karane ka vakt nahian raha. b de gusaeeanji ko de dena, ve ise math mean rakh deange, jisase nasht n hone pave." doosari chhoti-si potali sooti lal kap de ki hai. kholakar dekha ki nana mooly ke ek bandal not haian, aur un par likha hai, "bhaee shrikant, shayad maian nahian bachooanga. pata nahian ki tumase mulakat hogi ya nahian. agar nahian huee to navin ke hathoan yah baks de jata hooan, ise le lena. ye rupaye tumhean de ja raha hooan." yadi kamalalata ke kam mean ayean to de dena. agar n le to jo ichchha ho so karana. allah tumhara bhala kare.-gauhar."

dan ka garv nahian, anunay-vinay bhi nahian. mrityu ko asann janakar sirph tho de se shabdoan mean baly-bandhu ki shubh kamana kar apana shesh nivedan rakh gaya hai. bhay nahian, kshobh nahian, uchchhvasit hay-hay se usane mrityu ka prativad nahian kiya. vah kavi tha, musalaman fakir-vansh ka rakt usaki shiraoan mean tha- shant man se yah shesh rachana apane baly-bandhu ke lie likh gaya hai. ab tak meri aauankhoan ke aauansoo bahar nahian nikale the, par ab unhoanne nishedh nahian mana, ve b di-b di booandoan mean aauankhoan se nikalakar dhulak pade.

ashadh ka dirgh din us vakt samapti ki or tha. sare pashchim akash mean kale meghoan ka ek star oopar uth raha tha. usake hi kisi ek sankirn chhidrapath se astonmukh soory ki rashmiyaan lal hokar a p dian, prachir se sanlagn shushkapray jamun ke pe d ke sir par. isi ki shakha ke sahare gauhar ki madhavi aur malati lataoan ke kuanj bane the. us din sirph kaliyaan thian. mujhe unamean se hi kuchh upahar dene ki usane ichchha ki thi. lekin chiantiyoan ke dar se nahian de saka tha. aj unamean se guchchhe ke guchchhe phoole haian, jinamean se kuchh to niche jh d gaye haian aur kuchh hava se u dakar ird-gird bikhar gaye haian. unhian mean se kuchh utha liye- baly-bandhu ke svahastoan ka sheshadan samajhakar. navin ne kaha, "chalie, apako pahuancha aooan."

kaha, "navin, jara bahar ka kamara to kholo, dekhooanga."

navin ne kamara khol diya. aj bhi chauki par ek or bichhauna lipata hua rakkha hai, ek chhoti pensil aur kuchh phate kagajoan ke tuk de bhi haian. isi kamare mean gauhar ne apani svarachit kavita vandini sita ke du:kh ki kahani gakar sunaee thi. is kamare mean n jane kitani bar aya hooan, kitane dinoan tak khaya-piya aur soya hooan aur upadrav kar gaya hooan. us din hansate-hue jinhoanne sab kuchh sahan kiya tha, ab unamean se koee bhi jivit nahian hai. aj apana sara ana-jana samapt karake bahar nikal aya.

raste mean navin ke muanh se suna ki gauhar aisi hi ek notoan ki chhoti potali usake l dakoan ko bhi de gaya hai. baki jo sampatti bachi hai, vah usake mamere bhaee-bahinoan ko milegi, aur usake pita dvara nirmit masjid ke rakshanavekshan ke lie rahegi.

ashram mean pahuanchakar dekha ki bahut bhi d hai. gurudev ke sath bahut se shishy aur shishyaean aee haian. khasi majalis jami hai, aur hav-bhav se unake shighr vida hone ke lakshan bhi dikhaee nahian diye. anuman kiya ki vaishnav-seva adi kary vidhi ke anusar hi chal rahe haian.

mujhe dekhakar dvarikadas ne abhyarthana ki. mere agaman ka hetu ve janate the. gauhar ke lie du:kh zahir kiya, par unake muanh par n jane kaisa vivrat, udbhrant bhav tha, jo pahale kabhi nahian dekha. aandazakiya ki shayad itane dinoan se vaishnavoan ki paricharya ke karan ve klant aur viparyast ho gaye haian, nishchint hokar batachit karane ka vakt unake pas nahian hai.

khabar milate hi padma ayi, usake muanh par bhi aj hansi nahian, aisi sankuchit-si, mano bhag jae to bache.

poochha, "kamalalata didi is vakt bahut vyast haian, kyoan padma?"

"nahian, didi ko bula dooan?" kahakar vah chali gayi. yah sab aj itana apratyashit aur aprasangik laga ki man hi man shankit ho utha. kuchh der bad hi kamalalata ne akar namaskar kiya. kaha, "ao gusaeean, mere kamare mean chal kar baitho."

apane bichhaune ityadi steshan par hi chho dakar sirph baig sath mean laya tha aur gauhar ka vah baks mere naukar ke sir par tha. kamalalata ke kamare mean akar, use usake hath mean dete hue bola, "jara savadhani se rakh do, baks mean bahut rupaye haian."

kamalalata ne kaha, "maloom hai." isake bad use khat ke niche rakhakar poochha, "shayad tumane abhi tak chay nahian pi hai?"

"nahian."

"kab aye?"

"sham ko."

"ati hooan, taiyar kar laooan." kahakar vah naukar ko sath lekar chal di aur padma bhi hath-muanh dhone ke lie pani dekar chali gayi, kh di nahian rahi.

phir khayal hua ki bat kya hai?

tho di der bad kamalalata chay le ayi, sath mean kuchh phal-phool, mithaee aur us vakt ka devata ka prasad. bahut der se bhookha tha, phauran hi baith gaya.

kuchh kshan pashchath hi devata ki saandhyar-arati ke shankh aur ghante ki avaz sunaee p di. poochha, "are, tum nahian gayian?"

"nahian, mana hai."

"mana hai tumhean? isake mano?"

kamalalata ne mlan hansi hansakar kaha, "mana ke mane haian mana gusaeean. arthath devata ke kamare mean mera jana nishiddh hai."

ahar karane mean ruchi n rahi, poochha "kisane mana kiya?"

"b de gusaeeanji ke gurudev ne. aur unake sath jo aye haian, unhoanne."

"ve kya kahate haian?';'

"kahate haian ki maian apavitr hooan, meri seva se devata kalushit ho jayeange."

"tum apavitr ho!" vidyut veg se poochha, "gauhar ki vajah se hi sandeh hua hai kya?"

"haan, isilie."

kuchh bhi nahian janata tha, to bhi bina kisi sanshay ke kah utha, "yah jhooth hai- yah asambhav hai."

"asambhav kyoan hai gusaeean?"

"yah to nahian batala sakata kamalalata, par isase badhakar aur koee bat mithya nahian. aisa lagata hai ki manushy-samaj mean apane mrityu-path yatri bandhu ki ekant seva ka aisa hi shesh puraskar diya jata hai!"

usaki aauankhoan mean aauansoo a gaye. boli, "ab mujhe du:kh nahian hai. devata antaryami haian, unake nikat to dar nahian tha, dar tha sirph tumase. aj maian nirbhay hokar ji gayi gusaeean."

"sansar ke itane adamiyoan ke bich tumhean sirph mujhase dar tha? aur kisi se nahian?"

"nahian, aur kisi se nahian, sirph tumase tha."

isake bad donoan hi stabdh rahe. ek bar poochha, "b de gusaeeanji kya kahate haian?"

kamalalata ne kaha, "unake lie to aur koee upay nahian hai. nahian to phir koee bhi vaishnav is math mean nahian ayega." kuchh der bad kaha, "ab yahaan rahana nahian ho sakata. yah to janati thi ki yahaan se ek din mujhe jana hoga, par yahi nahian socha tha ki is tarah jana hoga gusaeean. keval padma ke bare mean sochane se du:kh hota hai. l daki hai, usaka kahian bhi koee nahian hai. b de gusaeeanji ko yah navadvip mean p di huee mili thi. apani didi ke chale jane par vah bahut roegi. yadi ho sake to jara usaka khayal rakhana. yahaan n rahana chahe to mere nam se rajoo ko de dena- vah jo achchha samajhegi avashy karegi."

phir kuchh kshan chupachap kate. poochha, "in rupayoan ka kya hoga? n logi?"

"nahian. maian bhikharin hooan, rupayoan ka kya karooangi-batao?"

"to bhi yadi kabhi kisi kam mean ayean."

kamalalata ne is bar hansakar kaha, "mere pas bhi to ek din bahut rupaya tha, vah kis kam aya? phir bhi, agar kabhi zaroorat p di to tum kisalie ho? tab tumase maang looangi. doosare ke rupaye kyoan lene lagi?"

soch n saka ki is bat ka kya javab dooan, sirph usake muanh ki or dekhata raha.

usane phir kaha, "nahian gusaeean, mujhe rupaye nahian chahie. jinake shricharanoan mean svayan ko samarpan kar diya hai, ve mujhe nahian chho deange. kahian bhi jaooan, ve sare abhavapoorn kar deange. mere lie chinta, fikr n karo."

padma ne kamare mean akar kaha, "naye gusaeean ke lie kya isi kamare mean prasad le aooan didi?"

"haan, yahian le ao. naukar ko diya?"

"haan, de diya."

to bhi padma nahian gayi, kshan bhar tak idhar-udhar karake boli, "tum nahian khaogi didi?"

"khaooangi ri jalamuanhi, khaooangi. jab too hai, tab bina khaye didi ki rihaee hai?"

padma chali gayi.

subah uthane par kamalalata dikhaee nahian p di, padma ki jubani maloom hua ki vah sham ko ati hai. dinabhar kahaan rahati hai, koee nahian janata. to bhi maian nishchint nahian ho saka, rat ki batean yad karake dar hone laga ki kahian vah chali n gayi ho aur ab mulakat hi n ho.

b de gusaeeanji ke kamare mean gaya. samane un k aaupiyoan ko rakhakar bola, "gauhar ki ramayan hai. usaki ichchha thi ki yah math mean rahe."

dvarikadas ne hath phailakar ramayan le li, bole, "yahi hoga naye gusaeean. jahaan math ke aur sab granth rahate haian, vahian unhian ke sath ise bhi rakh dooanga."

koee do minat tak chup rahakar kaha, "usake sambandh mean kamalalata par lagae gaye apavad par tum vishvas karate ho gusaeean?"

dvarikadas ne muanh oopar uthakar kaha, "maian? jara bhi nahian."

"tab bhi use chala jana p d raha hai?"

"mujhe bhi jana hoga gusaeean. nirdoshi ko door karake yadi khud bana rahooan, to phir mithya hi is path par aya aur mithya hi unaka nam itane dinoan tak liya."

"tab phir use hi kyoan jana p dega? math ke kartta to tum ho, tum to use rakh sakate ho?"

dvarikadas 'guru! guru! guru!' kahakar muanh nicha kiye baithe rahe. samajha ki isake alava guru ka aur adesh nahian hai.

"aj maian ja raha hooan gusaeean." kahakar kamare se bahar nikalate samay unhoanne muanh oopar uthakar meri or taka. dekha ki unaki aauankhoan se aauansoo gir rahe haian. unhoanne mujhe hath uthakar namaskar kiya aur maian pratinamaskar karake chala aya.

aparahn bela kramash: sandhyak mean parinat ho gayi, sandhyath uttirn hokar rat ayi, kintu kamalalata najar nahian ayi. navin ka adami mujhe steshan par pahuanchane ke lie a pahuancha. sir par baig rakkhe kisan jaldi macha kar kah raha hai- ab vakt nahian hai- par kamalalata nahian lauti. padma ka vishvas tha ki tho di der bad hi vah aegi, par mera sandeh kramash: vishvas ban gaya ki vah nahian ayegi aur shesh vidaee ki kathor pariksha se vimukh hokar vah poorvahn mean hi bhag gayi hai, doosara vastr bhi sath nahian liya hai. kal usane bhikshuni vairagini batakar jo atm-parichay diya tha, vah parichay hi aj akshunn rakha.

jane ke vakt padma rone lagi. use apana pata dete hue kaha, "didi ne tumase mujhe chitthi likhate rahane ke lie kaha hai- tumhari jo ichchha ho vah mujhe likhakar bhejana padma."

"par maian to achchhi tarah likhana nahian janati, gusaeean."

"tum jo likhogi maian vahi padh looanga."

"didi se milakar nahian jaoge?"

"phir mulakat hogi padma, ab to maian jata hooan." kahakar bahar nikal p da.

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aauankhean jise sare raste andhakar mean bhi khoj rahi thian, usase mulakat huee relave steshan par. vah logoan ki bhi d se door kh di thi, mujhe dekh najadik akar boli, "ek tikit kharid dena hoga gusaeean."

"tab kya sachamuch hi sabako chho dakar chal dian?"

"isake alava aur to koee upay nahian hai."

"kasht nahian hota kamalalata?"

"yah bat kyoan poochhate ho gusaeean, sab to janate ho."

"kahaan jaogi?"

"vrindavan jaooangi. par itani door ka tikit nahian chahie. tum pas ki hi kisi jagah ka kharid do."

"matalab yah ki mera rrin jitana bhi kam ho utana achchha. isake bad doosaroan se bhiksha maangana shuroo kar dogi, jab tak ki path shesh nahian ho. yahi to?"

"bhiksha kya yah pahali bar hi shuroo hogi gusaeean? kya kabhi aur nahian maangi?"

chup raha. usane meri or aauankhean phirakar kaha, "to vrindavan ka tikit hi kharid do."

"to chalo ek sath hi chalean?"

"tumhara bhi kya yahi rasta hai?"

kaha, "nahian, yahi to nahian hai- to bhi jitani door tak hai, utani hi door tak sahi."

ga di ane par donoan usamean baith gaye. pas ki beanch par maianne apane hathoan se hi usaka bichhauna bichha diya.

kamalalata vyast ho uthi, "yah kya kar rahe ho gusaeean?"

"vah kar raha hooan jo kabhi kisi ke lie nahian kiya- hamesha yad rakhane ke lie."

"sachamuch hi kya yad rakhana chahate ho?"

"sachamuch hi yad rakhana chahata hooan kamalalata. tumhare alava yah bat aur koee nahian janega."

"par mujhe to dosh lagega gusaeean."

"nahian, koee dosh nahian lagega- tum maje se baitho."

kamalalata baithi, par b de sankoch ke sath. kitane gaanv, kitane nagar aur kitane prantoan ko par karati huee tren chal rahi thi. najadik baithakar vah dhire-dhire apane jivan ki anek kahaniyaan sunane lagi. jagah-jagah ghoomane ki kahaniyaan, mathura, vrindavan, govaradhan, radhakund-nivas ki batean, anek tirth-bhramanoan ki kathaean, aur ant mean dvarikadas ke ashray mean muraripur ashram mean ane ki bat. mujhe us vakt us vyakti ki vida ke vakt ki batean yad a gayian. kaha, "janati ho, kamalalata, b de gusaeean tumhare kalank par vishvas n hi karate?"'

"nahian karate?"

"qatee nahian. mere ane ke vakt unaki aauankhoan se aauansoo girane lage, bole- "nirdoshi ko door karake yadi maian yahaan khud bana raha naye gusaeean, to unaka nam lena mithya hai aur mithya hai mera is path par ana.' math mean ve bhi n raheange kamalalata aur tab aisa nishpap madhur ashram tootakar bilkuthal nasht ho jayega."

"nahian, nahian nasht hoga, bhagavan ek n ek rasta avashy dikha deange."

"agar kabhi tumhari pukar ho, to phir vahaan lautakar jaogi?"

"nahian."

"yadi ve pashchattap karake tumako lautaya chahean?"

"to bhi nahian."

"par ab tumase kahaan mulakat hogi?"

is prashn ka usane uttar nahian diya, chup rahi. kafi vakt khamoshi mean kat gaya, pukara, "kamalalata?' uttar nahian mila, dekha ki ga di ke ek kone mean sir rakhakar usane aauankhean band kar li haian. yah sochakar ki sare din ki thakan se so gayi haian, jagane ki ichchha nahian huee. usake bad phir, maian khud kab so gaya, yah pata nahian, hathath kanoan mean avaz ayi, "naye gusaeean?" dekha ki vah mere sharir ko hilakar pukar rahi haian. boli, "utho, tumhari saaneethiya ki tren kh di hai."

jaldi se uth baitha, pas ke dibbe mean kisan sianh tha, pukarane ke sath hi usane akar baig utar diya. bichhauna baandhate vakt dekha ki jin do chadaroan se usaki shayya banaee thi, usane unako pahile se hi tahakar meri beanch par ek or rakh diya hai. kaha, "yah jara-sa bhi tumane lauta diya- nahian liya?"

"n jane kitani bar chadhana-utarana p de, yah bojha kaun uthaega?"

"doosara vastr bhi sath nahian layi, vah bhi kya bojha hota? ek-do vastr nikalakar dooan?"

"tum bhi khoob ho! tumhare kap de bhikharini ke sharir par kaise phabeange?"

"khair, kap de achchhe nahian lageange, par bhikhari ko bhi khana to p data hai? pahuanchane mean aur bhi do-tin din lageange, tren mean kya khaogi? jo khane ki chizean mere pas haian, unhean bhi kya pheank jaooan- tum nahian chhuogi?"

kamalalata ne is bar hansakar kaha, "are vah, gussa ho gaye! aji unhean chhuooangi. rahane do unhean, tumhare chale jane ke bad maian petabhar ke kha looangi."

vakt khatm ho raha tha, mere utarane ke vakt boli, "jara thaharo to gusaeean, koee hai nahian- aj chhipakar tumhean ek bar pranam kar looan." yah kahakar, usane jhukakar mere pairoan ki dhool le li.

utarakar pletapharm par kh da ho gaya. us vakt rat samapt nahian huee thi, niche aur oopar andhakar ke staroan mean bantavara shuroo ho gaya tha. akash ke ek prant mean krishna trayodashi ka kshin shirn shashi aur doosare prant mean usha ki agamani. us din ki bat yad a gayi, jis din aise hi vakt devata ke lie phool to dane jane ke lie usaka sathi hua tha. aur aj?

siti bajakar aur hare rang ki lalaten hilakar gard sahab ne yatra ka sanket kiya. kamalalata ne khi daki se hath badhakar pratham bar mera hath pak d liya. usake kampan mean vinati ka jo sur tha vah kaise samajhaooan? boli, "tumase kabhi kuchh nahian maanga hai, aj ek bat rakhoge?"

"haan rakkhooanga." kahakar usaki or dekhane laga.

kahane mean use ek kshan ki der huee, boli, "janati hooan ki maian tumhare kitane adar ki hooan. aj vishvasapoorvak unake pad-padmoan mean mujhe sauanpakar tum nishchint hoo, nirbhay hoo. mere lie soch-sochakar ab tum apana man kharab mat karana gusaeean, tumhare nikat meri yahi prarthana hai."

tren chal di. usaka vahi hath apane hath mean liye kuchh door agrasar hote-hote kaha, "kamalalata, tumhean maianne unhian ko sauanpa, ve hi tumhara bhar lean. tumhara path, tumhari sadhana nirapad ho- apani kahakar ab maian tumhara asamman nahian karooanga."

hath chho d diya, ga di door se door hone lagi. gavakshapath se dekha, usake jhuke hue muanh par steshan ki prakash-mala kee bar akar p di aur phir andhakar mean mil gayi. sirph yahi maloom hua ki hath uthakar mano vah mujhe shesh namaskar kar rahi hai.

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