अँधेरे में (कहानी) -गजानन माधव मुक्तिबोध  हिन्दी देवनागरी में पढ़ें।

Icon-edit.gif is lekh ka punarikshan evn sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamen sahayata kar sakate hain. "sujhav"

ek rat ko barah baje, tren se ek yuvak utara. steshan par log ek katar men khade the aur jh‍yada nahin the. isalie tren se niche ane men usako jh‍yada kathinaee nahin huee. sh‍teshan par bijali ki roshani thi; parntu vah rat ke andhiyare ko chir n sakati thi, aur isalie mano rat apane saghan reshami andhiyare se tnboonuma ghar ho gee thi, jisamen bijali ke diye jalate hon. utarate hi yuvak ko ph‍letaphaaurm ki parichit gndh ne, jisamen garam dhuan aur thndi hava ke jhonke, garam chay ki bas aur portaron ke kale lohe men bnd mote kanchon se surakshit pili jh‍valaon ke kndile par se ati huee ajib ugr bas, ith‍yadi sari parichit dhh‍vaniyan aur gndh the, usaki sngya se bhent ki. yuvak ke hriday men jaise ek daravaja khul gaya tha, ek dhh‍vani ke sath aur mano vah dhh‍vani kah rahi thi - a gaya, apana a gaya

yuvak jhatapat utara. u‍sake pas kuchh bhi saman nahin tha, koyale ke kanon se bhare hue lnbe balon men hathon se knghi karata hua vah chala. panch sal pahale vah yahin rahata tha. in panch salon ki avadhi men duniya men kafi parivartan ho gaya; parntu us sh‍teshan par parivartan ana pasnd nahin karata tha. yuvak ne apane poorvapriy nagar ki khushi men ek kap chay pina sh‍vikar kiya. aur vahin sh‍taaul par khada ho kar kapabashi ki avaj sunata hua idhar-udhar dekhane laga. sab purana vatavaran tha. parntu is nagar ke muhalh‍le men bis sal bita chukane vala yah pachh‍chis sal ka yuvak purana nahin rah gaya tha. usaki ath‍ma ek ne mahin chashh‍me se sh‍teshan ko dekh rahi thi.

tikit de kar sh‍teshan par age badha to dekhata hai ki tange nirjal alasae badalon ki bhanti nishh‍prabh aur sh‍phoortihin oonghate hue chale ja rahe hain. yuvak ne isi se pahachan liya ki yah visheshata is nagar ki apani chij hai.

dukanen sab bnd ho chuki thin, jinake pas niche sadak par adami silasilevar so rahe the. unake sathi aur unh‍hin ke saman sabhh‍y pashuon men se nirvasit shh‍van-jati dubaki idhar-udhar padi huee thi. yuvak ne pair badhane shuroo kar die. ukhadi huee damar ki kali sadak par bijali ki dhundhali roshani bikhar rahi thi. ek or dukanen, phir saray, phir aphim-godam, phir ek tutapunjiya mh‍yoonisipal park, phir ek chhota chauraha jahan danalap taauyar ke vigyapanavali dukan aur usake samane lal pnp, phir usake bad kaaulej! aur is tarah is chhote shahar ki bauni imaraten aur nakali adhunikata isi sadak ke kinare-kinare ek or chali gee thi. doosari or rel ka hish‍sa, jahan shnting ka silasila is samay kuchhek ghnton ke lie chup tha.

yuv‍k ko rat ka yah vatavaran atynt priy maloom hua. garami ke din the. phir bhi hava bahut thndi chal rahi thi. sadak ke khule hish‍se me jahan rel ke tar ja rahe the, nim aur pipal ke vriksh ke path‍te jhiramir-jhiramir kar saghan am ke bade-bade darakht door se hi dikh rahe the. usi maidan par, ek or, ek navin muhalh‍la, shahar ke amiron, vh‍yapariyon, aphasaron ka upanivesh sikuda hua tha.

sab door shanti thi. rat ka gadha maun tha. yuvak ke rojamarra ke karmapradhan jivan men roj rat ka ek sone ka samay tha, aur subah ke sadhe ath ke anntar jagane ka samay tha. vaidik rishi-manishiyon ke ush:sookh‍t se laga kar to ath‍yadhunik chhayavadiyon ke 'biti vibhavari jag ri, anbar panaghat oosha nagari' ka darshan is yuvak ne is ge panch salon men bahut kam kiya hai.

apane us karm-jatil kshetr ko pichhe chhod kar jaise manushh‍y apani aruchikar yadon se bachana chahata ho - yah yuvak is rat men pa raha tha ki vatavaran men pathar-maidan se uth kar ane vali hava ki uth‍phulh‍l aur mithi tajagi ke sath-hi-sath mano manushh‍yon ki soee huee chupachap ath‍maen apani gadh niravata men adhik madhur ho kar van ki sugndh aur vriksh ke marmar men mil gee hain.

rel ki patariyon ke par - relave yard men hi vahan ke madhh‍yamavargiy naukaron ke kh‍vartars bane hue the. bahar hi, jo usaka angan kaha ja sakata hai; do khaten samanantar bichhi huee thin jinake bich men ek chhota-sa tebal rakha hua tha. us par ek adhunik lainp apani adhh‍yayan samarpit roshani dal raha tha. ek khat par ek purush koee push‍tak padh raha tha aur doosari par ghor nidra thi. lainp ki dhundhali roshani men ghar ke samanevale bajoo par ek kala-sa adhakhula daravaja or bans ki chimatiyon se banae ge bnd baramade ke lete-se chatushh‍kon saph dikh rahe the. us ghar ki pnkti men hi kee kh‍vartars aur dikh rahe the, usi tarah pnktibaddh khaten barabar yathash‍than lagi huee chali gee thin.

yuvak ke man men ek ph‍yar umad aya! ye ghar use atynt ath‍miy-jaise lage, mano ve usake abhinh‍n ang hon!

yahi bat usaki samajh men nahin aee. is ajib anndamay bhavana ne usake man ke sntulit tarajoo ko jhatake dene shuroo kar die. vah bhavanaon se ab itana abhh‍yash‍t nahin rah gaya tha ki unaka adarshikaran kar sake. roj ka kathin, shushh‍k, jivan use ek vishesh tarah ka ath‍mavishh‍vas-sa deta tha. parntu... aj...

vah baithane vala jiv n tha. rash‍te par pair chal rahe the. man kahin ghoom raha tha. doosare use atynt ath‍miy ekant, jahan usaki sahaj pravrittiyon ka khula balish khilavad ho bahut dinon se nahin mila tha!

usane sochana shuroo kiya ki akhir kh‍yon yah ajib jal ke nirmalin sahash‍tr sroton-si bhavana usake man men a gee!

usako jahan jana tha, vahan ka rash‍ta use mil nahin sakata tha. ek to yah ki panch sal ke bad shahar ki galiyon ko vah bhool chuka tha. doosare jis sh‍than par use jana tha, vah kisi khas dhng se use aruchikar maloom ho raha tha! isalie lakshh‍yash‍than ki bat hi usake dimag se gayab ho gee thi.

pair chal rahe the ya usake pair ke niche se rash‍ta khisak raha tha, yah k‍hana snbhav nahin, parntu yah zaroor hai ki kuchh kuth‍te-chir jagrat rakshak ki bhanti khade hue - bhoonk rahe the.

usake man men kisi ajan sh‍trot se ek ghar ka nakh‍sha aya. usaka bhi baramada isi tarah bans ki chimatiyon se bana hua tha. vahan bhi vasnti raton men nim ke jhirir-mirir ke niche khaten padi rahati thin. yuvak ko ek dhundhali soorat yad ati hai, usaki bahan ki-aur ate hi phauran chali jati hai. bas chitr itana hi. yah mat samajhie ki usake mata-pita mar ge! usake bhaee hain, mata-pita hain. ve sab vahin rahate hain jis shahar men vah rahata hai.

yuv‍k hns pada. use samajh men a gaya ki kh‍yon un kh‍vartaron ko dekh kar ek ath‍miyata umad aee. mazadoor chalon men, jahan vah nith‍y jata hai, ya usake amir dosh‍ton ke sh‍vachh‍chh sundar makanon men, jahan se vah chnda i‍kattha karata, chay pita, vad-vivad karata aur man-hi-man apane mahath‍v ko anubhav karata hai - vahan se to koee ath‍miyata ki phasaphasahat nahin huee. hamara yuvak apane par hi hnsane laga. ek sookshh‍m, mitha aur katu hash‍y.

door, ek dukan par sath nnbar ka khas belajiyam ka bijali ka lattoo jal raha tha. sadak par hi kurasiyan padi thin, bich me tebal tha. ek aramakurasi par lal bhairogadhi tahamat bandhe hue tangevale sahab baithe hue bish‍kut kha rahe the. doosari kurasi par ek nihayat gnda, pichhe se phati huee chaddhi pahane, ughade badan, ladaka kabhi bish‍kuton ke choore khane ki taraph ya bhap uthate hue tebal par rakhe chay ke kap‍ ki taraph dekhata hua baitha tha! doosari kurasi par doosare musalaman sajh‍jan roti aur mans ki koee patali vash‍tu kha rahe the aur bahut prasanh‍n maloom ho rahe the. jo hotal ka malik tha vah ek pair par adhik dabav dale - usako khoonta kie khada tha, sigaret pi raha tha aur kuchh khas buddhimani ki baten karata tha jisako sun kar roti aur mans ki patali vash‍tu ko donon hathon ka upayog kar khane vale musalaman sajh‍jan 'alh‍laho akabar' 'alh‍la raham kare, ith‍yadi bhavanaph‍lut udgaron se usaka samarthan karate jate the. sigaret ka kash vah itani jor se khinchata tha ki usaka jh‍valnt bhag bijali ki bhayanak roshani men bhi chamak raha tha. usaka hath aram se jngha-kshetr men bhraman kar raha tha.

dukan ke andar se pani ko jhadoo se phenkane ki kriya men jhadoo ki karkash dant pisati-si avaj aur pani ke dhakele jane ke balish dhh‍vani a rahi thi, sath hi usake chhote-chhote knkadon ki bhanti lagatar bahar unh‍nat-vakr rekha-marg se chale a rahe the. bijali ka lattoo daravaje ke oopar lage hue kavar ke bahut niche latak raha, tha jis par lagatar girane vale chhinte sookh kar dhabh‍be ban rahe the.

itane men pulis ke ek gashh‍tavan sipahi lal pagadi pahane aur khaki poshak men a kar baith ge! ve bhi musalaman hi the. unaki dadhi par chhah bal the, aur othon par to the hi nahin. chalis sal ki umr ho chuki thi par balon ne un par kripa nahin ki thi. nak unaki buddhi se vh‍yapak thi, kale dore ki gundi ki bhanti cham‍k rahi thi. ankh men ek chupachap day‍niyata jhank uthati. vah koee musibatajada prani tha - shayad use soojak tha - ya usaki gharavali doosare ke sath pharar ho gee thi! ya vah kisi abhagi badasoorat-veshh‍ya ka sharir-jat tha. use n jane kaun-si pida thi jo char adamiyon men prakat nahin ki ja s‍kati thi. vah pida-thida to doosaron ke annd aur nirbadh hash‍y ko dekh kar chupachap nibid ankhon men chamak uthati thi! vah is samay bhi chamak rahin thi, kisi ne usaki taraph dhh‍yan nahin diya. usake samane kramanusar chay a gee aur vah phur-phur karate hue pine laga.

tangevale mahashay ka tanga vahin dukan ke samane sadak ke doosare kinare khada tha. ghoda apane malik ki bhanti bada chadhail aur gush‍sail tha. ek or to vah bijali ki roshani men chamakanevali hari ghas ko badashah ki bhanti kha raha tha, to doosari or adh ghnte men ek bar apani tang tange men mar deta tha. usake ghas khane ki avaj lagatar a rahi thi aur usaka bhavh‍y saphed gnbhir chehara hotal ko apeksha ki drishti se dekh raha tha.

tangevale mahashay ne chay pini shuroo ki. tagada munh tha. belaus sidhi nak thi aur ujala rng tha. thathadar motiya safa ab bhi bndha hua tha. bolo-chal nihayat shush‍ta aur salike se bhari thi. chehara par mardav tha jo ki kisi akh‍khad bahadur sipahi men hi s‍‍kata hai. aj din men unh‍honne kafi kamaee ki thi; isilie rat men jagane ka uth‍sah bahut adhik maloom ho raha tha.

dukan ke andar jhadoo ki karkash avaj aur pani ki khalakhal dhh‍vani bnd ho gee. chhoti-chhoti boonden tapakanevali maili jhadoo lie ek pndrah sal ka ladaka, ek ghutane par se phate pajame ko kamar par ikattha kie khada tha ki malik ka ab age kh‍ya hukh‍m hota hai. parntu bahar majalis jami thi. lal saphevala sipahi badi ruchi ke sath use sun raha tha. chahata tha ki vah bhi kuchh kahe....

itane men in logon ko door se ek chhaya ati huee dikhaee di. sab logon ne socha ki is bat par dhh‍yan dene ki zaroorat nahin! par dhire-dhire anevali us chhaya ka sirph paint hi dikhaee diya aur kuchh thaki-si chal! yuvak chupachap unh‍hin ki or aya aur halaki-si avaj men bola 'chay hai?' uth‍tar men 'han' pa kar aur baithane ke lie ek achh‍chhi aramadeh kurasi pa kar vah khush maloom hua. logon ne jab dekha ki chehare se koee khas a‍karshak ya asadharan adami maloom nahin hota, tab ashh‍vash‍t ho, sans le kar baten karane lage!

lal pagadivala dayaniy prani kuchh bolana chahata tha! itane me usake do sathi door se dikhaee die! unh‍‍hen dekh kar vah atynt anichh‍chha se vahan se uthane laga. usane socha tha ki shayad hai koee, baithane ko kahe. parntu logon ko maloom bhi nahin hua ki koee aya tha aur ja raha hai!

'madhav maharaj ke jamane men tangevalon ko ye aphat nahin thi maulavi saaub! mainne bahut jamana dekha hai! kee suparadnt ae, chale ge, kotaval ae, nikal ge. par ab pulisavala tange men muft baithega bhi, aur nnbar bhi not karega...' tangevale ne kaha.

hotalavala jo ab tak maulavi sahab se kuchh khas buddhimani ki bat kar raha tha, usane ab jor se bolana shuroo kiya! dhoti ki tahamat bandhe, bahut dubala, nate kad ka ek adhed hnsamukh adami tha. vah bahut batooni, aur bahut khushamijaj adami aur ashh‍lil baton se ghrina karane vala, ek khas dhng se snsh‍karashil aur mehanati maloom hota tha. usane kaha, 'maulavi saaub, duniya yon hi chalati rahegi. mainne kee karobar kie. dekha, sabamen makh‍kari hai. aur karobari ki nigah men makh‍kari ka nam duniyadari hai. pulisavale bhi makh‍kar hain - tangevale kam makh‍kar nahin hain. vah jainul abedin-mirjavadi men rahane vala... suna hai apane kish‍sa!'

maulavi sahab thahaka mar kar hns pade. 'ya alh‍lah' kahate hue dadhi par do bar hath phera aur apani ukatahat ko chhipate hue - maulavi sahab ko ek kap chay aur bish‍kut muft ya udhar lena tha - ankhon men manornjan vish‍may - kudh kar hotalavale ki bat sunane lage.

hotalavale ne apane jivan ka rahash‍yodghatan karane se dar kar bat ko badalate hue kaha, 'main apako kish‍sa sunata hoon. duniya men badamashi hai, badatamiji hai. hai, par karana kh‍ya? galiyon se to kam nahin chalata, kh‍yon rahimabakh‍sh (tangevale ki or snket kar) tangevale bahut galiyan dete hain! doosare, sadak par se gujarati huee auraton ko dekh - chahe ve maravadiniyan hi hon dhilh‍lamadhal petavali, bas inh‍hen phauran laila yad a jati hai! yah dekh kar meri rooh kanpati hai. maulavi saaub, mera dil ek sachh‍che saiyad ka dil hai! ek dapha kh‍ya hua ki hajarat ali apane mahal men baithe hue the. aur raj-kaj dekh rahe the ki itane men daraban ne kaha ki kuchh mish‍tri saudagar ae hain, apase milana chahate hain. ab unamen ka ek saudagar alim tha.'

maulavi sirph usake chehare ko dekh rahe the jis par anek bhavanaen umad rahin thin, jisase usaka chipaka - kala che‍hara aur bhi vikrit maloom hota tha. doosare vah yah anubhav kar rahe the ki yah apana gyan baghar raha hai aur gyan ka adhikar to unh‍hen hai. tisare, unh‍honne yah yogh‍y samay jan kar kaha, 'bhaee, ek kap chay aur bulava do.'

chay ka nam sun kar kurasi par baithe hue yuvak ne kaha, 'ek kap yahan bhi.'

pichhe se phati chaddhi pahane hue gnda ladaka oongh raha tha! vah oonghata hua hi chay lane laga. tangevala rahimabakhh‍sh baton ko gaur se sun raha tha. vah janana chahata tha ki is kahani ka tangevalon se kh‍ya snbndh hai!

hotalavale ne kahana shuroo kiya, unamen ka ek saudagar alim tha. usane hajarat ali ka nam sun rakha tha ki garibon ke ye sabase bade himayati hain. shano-shaukat bilakul pasnd nahin karate. aur ab dekhata kh‍ya hai ki mahal ki divaren sngamaramar se bani huee hain, jisamen khh‍vab-kohake hire daravajon ke meharabon par jade hue hain aur chabootara kale chikane sngamoose ka bana hua hai. hare-hare bag hain aur phavh‍vare chhoot rahe hain. vah man-hi-man musakaraya. garami pad rahi thi, aur roomal se bndhe hue sir se pasina chhoot raha tha.

hajarat ali ke samane jab mal ki kimat nakh‍ki ho chuki, to saudagar unaki meharaban soorat se khinch kar bola, 'badashah salamat! suna tha ki hajarat ali garibon ke gulam hain. par mainne kuchh aur hi dekha hai. ho sakata hai, galat dekha ho.'

saudagar apana gattha bandhate-bandhate kah rahe the. hajarat ali ki ankh se ek bilaji-si nikali. saudagar ne dekha nahin, usaki pith udhar thi, vah apane mal ka gattha bandh raha tha!

hajarat ali ne kaha, 'jh‍yada baten main apase nahin kahana chahata. ap mujhe is vakh‍t mahal men dekhate hain, par hamesha yahan nahin rahata. bazar men anaj ke bore uthate hue mujhe kisi ne nahin dekha hai.' hajarat ali ki ankhen kisi khas bechaini se chamak rahi thin!

ve resham ka lnba shahi labada pahane hue the. unh‍honne usake bnd khole. saudagar ne ashh‍chary se dekha ki hajarat ali mote bore ke kapade andar se pahane hue hain.

saudagar ne sir nicha kar liya.

saiyad hotalavale ki ankhon men ansoo a ge. maulavi sahab ne sir nicha kar liya, mano unh‍hen sau joote pad ge hon. chay ki garami sab khatam ho gee. tangevale ko isamen khas maja nahin aya. yuvak apani kurasi par baitha hua dhh‍yan se sun raha tha.

hotalavale ne kaha, 'asali majahab ise kahate hain. mere pas muslim ligi ate hain! chnda mangate hain. muslim kaum nihayat garib hai! mujhase pakish‍tan nahin mangate. mujhase pakish‍tan ki baten bhi nahin karate. hindoo-muslim ith‍tehad par mera vishvas hai. lekin main zaroor de deta hoon. 'kaumi-jng' akhabar dekha hai apane? usaki paaulisi mujhe pasnd hai. lal bavate valon ka hai. main unh‍hen bhi chnd deta hoon. mera mamera bhaee 'birala mil' men hai. khata kameti ka sekretari hai. vah mujhase chnda le jata hai.'

yuvak ab vahan baithana nahin chahata tha. phir bhi, saiyad sahab ki baton ko poora sun lene ki ichh‍chha thi. maloom hota tha, aj ve maje men a rahe hain.

rat kafi age badh chuki thi. hotal ke samane mh‍yunisipal bagiche ke bade-bade darakhh‍t rat ki gaharaee men oongh-se rahe the, jinake pichhe adha chand, muslim navavadhoo ke bhal par latakate hue alnkar ke saman lag raha tha.

navayuvak jab aur chalane laga to maloom hua ki usake pichhe bhi koee chal raha hai. un donon ke pairon ki avaj goonj rahi thi. parntu chand ki taraph (jisaki kali prishh‍thabhoomi bhi kuchh arunh‍y lie thi, mano kisi mugh‍dh ruchir chehare par khili huee lal mithas ho), jo ghane darakhh‍ton ke pichhe se uth raha tha, vah yuvak munh uthae dekhata ja raha tha. vishal, gahara kala, shukratarakalokit akash aur niche nish‍tabh‍dh shanti jo darakhh‍ton ki pattiyon men bhatakane vale pavan ki krida men ga uthati thi.

yuvak aisi lnbi ekant rat men ardh-aparichit nagar ki rah men anubhav kar raha tha ki mano nagh‍n asaman, mukh‍t disha aur (ekaki sh‍vapathachari saundary ke uth‍sa-sa, vh‍yaktinirapeksh mash‍t ath‍madhara ke khumar-sa) nith‍y navin chand se lakhon shakti-dharaen phoot kar navayuvak ke hriday men mil rahi hon. nagh‍n, thnde pashan-asaman aur chand ki bhanti hi - usi prakar, usaka hriday nagh‍n aur shubhr shital ho gaya hai. dravh‍y ki gatimayi dhara hi usake hriday men bah rahi hai. pashan jis prakar prakriti ka avibhajh‍y ang hai, manushh‍y prakriti par adhikar karake bhi apane roop se usaka avibhajh‍y ang hai.

chand dhire-dhire asaman men oopar sarak raha tha. vrikshon ka marmar rat ke sunasan andhere men sh‍vaph‍n ki bhanti chal raha tha, parash‍par-virodhi vichitragati tal ke snyog-sa.

jo chhaya do kadam pichhe chal rahi thi, vah navayuvak ke sath ho gee. navayuvak ne dekha ki saphed, najuk, lathi ke hilate trikon par chand ki chandani khel rahi hai; lnbi aur surekh nak ki najuk kagar par chand ka tukada chamak raha hai, jisase munh ka qarib-qarib adha bhag chhayachh‍chhanh‍n hai. aur do gahari chhoti ankhen chandani aur harsh se pratibinbit hain. us vriddh maulabi ke chehare ko dekh kar navayuvak ko di.ech. laaurenh‍s ka chitr yad a gaya! us arddh-vriddh ne ate hi apani theth prakriti se uth‍suk ho kar poochha, 'ap kahan rahate hai?'

vriddh ke chehare par sh‍vabhavik achh‍chhaee hns rahi thi. is ne shahar ke (yadyapi navayuvak panch sal pahale yahin rahata tha) ajanabipan men use is maulavi ka sh‍vabhavik achh‍chhaee se hnsata chehara priy maloom hua. usane kaha, 'main is shahar se bhalibhanti vakik nahin hoon. saray men utara hoon. nind a rahi thi, isalie bahar nikal pada hoon.'

hotal men baitha hua yah vriddh maulavi saiyad se har gaya tha, mano usaki vidvath‍ta bhi har gee thi. is har se man men uth‍panh‍n hue abhav aur ath‍malin jalan ko vah shant karana chahata tha. 'saiyad saaub bahut achh‍chhe adami hain, ham logon par unaki badi me‍harabani hai.'

nayuvak ne bat kat kar poochha, 'ap kahan kam karate hain?'

'main masjid madarase men padhata hoon. ji han, gujar karane ke lie kafi ho jata hai.' usaki ankhen sahasa mh‍lan ho geen aur vah chup ho kar, garadan jhuka kar, niche dekhane laga. phir kaha, 'ji han, das sal pahale shadi ho chuki thi. maloom nahin tha ki vah gahane samet karake chnpat ho jaegi. ...tab se is masjid men hoon.'

yuvak ne dekha ki boodha ek aisi bat kah gaya hai jo ek aparichit se kahana nahin chahie. boodhe ne kuchh jh‍yada nahin kaha. parntu itane naikaty ki bat sun kar yuvak ki sahanubhooti ke dvar khul ge. usane boodhe ki soorat se hi kee baten jan lin, vahi du:kh jo kisi-n-kisi roop men prath‍yek kuchale madhh‍yavargiy ke jivan men munh phade khada hua hai.

'ji han, masjid men panch sal ho ge, pndhara rupaya milate hain, gujar kar leta hoon. lekin ab man nahin lagata. duniya sooni-sooni-si lagati hai. is ladaee ne ek bat aur paida kar di hai - dilachash‍pi! rediyo sunane men kabhi naga nahin karata. roj kee akhabar tatol leta hoon. ji han, ek nee dilachash‍pi. kitab padhane ka mujhe shauk zaroor hai. par main talimayaphta hoon nahin. to, garje ki samajh men nahin ati.'

boodha apani narm, reshami, sitar ke halake taron ki goonj-si avaj men kahata ja raha tha. baten mamooli tathh‍yath‍mak thin, parntu unake as-pas bhavana ka alokavalay tha. usaki jindagi men ahat bhavanaon ki jo tarkahin shakti thi, vah usaki baton ki sadharanata men apoorv vaiyaktik rng bhar deti thi.

yuvak ko yah achh‍chha laga. priy maloom hua. ek kshan men usane apani sahanubhooti ki jaduee ankh se jan liya ki koee asngat (ajib) masjid hogi, jahan roj chupachap log yntrachalit-si katar men prarthana padhate honge. aur usaki sooni, khali, doosari mnjil par yah asntushh‍t aur jivanapoorn arddh-vriddh chhote-chhote maile-kuchaile ladake-ladakiyon ko dupahar men padhata hoga. apane ladakon ki oodham se pareshan man-bap unh‍hen kam men jutae rakhane ke lie madarase men bhej dete honge, aur y‍h anamane bhav se padhata hoga aur apani jindagi, duniya aur dupahar ka sara kruddh soonapan isake dil men bechaini se tadapata hoga....

usane maulavi se poochha, 'apaki umr kh‍ya hogi!'

yuvak ne dekha ki maulavi ko yah saval achh‍chha laga. usaka chehara aur bhi komal hota-sa dikhaee diya. usane kaha, 'sirph chalis. yadyapi main pachas sal ke oopar maloom hota hoon. aji, in panch salon ne mujhako kha dala. phir bhi main kamazor nahin hoon. kafi hatta-katta hoon.'

maulavi yah siddh karana chahata tha ki abhi vah yuvak hai. jivan ki sh‍vabhavik, sh‍vatntryarn, uchh‍chhrinkhal akanksha-shaktiyan usake sharir men taralh‍y bhar deti thin. usake chalane men, batachit men vah antimata nahin thi jo shaithilh‍y aur udasi men pakh‍vata ka abhas paida kar deti hain. usane chalis thik kaha tha aur navayuvak ko bhi usaki bat par avishh‍vas karane ki ichh‍chha n huee.

'ophpho, to ap javan hain.' yuvak ne tham kar age kaha, 'to apaka dimag ladaee par zaroor chalata hoga...'

'are, sahab! kuchh n poochhie, saiyad sahab mujhase pareshan hain.'

'ap 'kaumi jng' padhate hain? apake hotal men to mainne abhi hi dekha hai.'

'kaumi-jng to hamari masjid men bhi ata hai! hamare sabase bade maulavi parajamndal ke karyakarta hain. jamiyat-ul-ulema hind ke muajjij hain. vahin ke ulema hain. sab tarah ke akhabar kharidate hain. yahan unh‍honne muslim-pharavard bh‍laauk khol rakha hai.'

yuvak ko yahan ki rajaniti men ulajhane ki koee zaroorat nahin thi. phir bhi, usase alag rahane ki bhi koee ichh‍chha nahin thi. itane men ek gali a gee jisamen mudane ke lie maulavi taiyar dikhaee diya. yuvak ne sirph itana hi kaha, 'kitabon ke lie ham apaki madad karenge. ab to main yahan hoon kuchh dinon ke lie. kahan mulakat hogi apase?'

'saiyad sahab ki hotal men. ji han, subah aur sham!'

maulavi sahab ke sath yuvak ka kuchh samay achh‍chha kata. vah kritgy tha. usane dhanh‍yavad diya nahin. usaki jindagi men n maloom kitane hi aise adami ae hain jinh‍honne us par sahaj vishh‍vas kar liya, usaki jindagi men ek nirvaiyaktik gilapan pradan kiya. jab kabhi yuvak un par sochata hai. unake jharanon ne unaki jindagi ko ek nadi bana diya. unamen se sab ek sarikhe nahin the. aur n un sabako usane apana vh‍yaktith‍v de diya tha. parntu unake vh‍yaktitv ki kali chhayaon, kntakon aur jalate hue phash‍phorik dravh‍yon, unake doshon se usane nak-bhaun nahin sikodi thi. agar vah sh‍vayn kabhi ahat ho jata, to ek bar apana dhuan ugal chukane ke bad unake vranon ko choomane aur unaka vish nikal phenkane ke lie taiyar hota. unake vh‍yaktith‍v ki barik se barik baton ko sahanubhooti ke mayakrosh‍kop (brihaddarshak tal) se bada karake dekhane men use vahi annd milata tha, jo ki ek daaukh‍tar ko. aur usaka uddeshh‍y bhi ek daaukh‍tar ka hi tha. usamen ka chikith‍sak ek aisa sidha-sada hakim tha, jo duniya ki petent davaiyon ke chakh‍kar men n pad kar apane marijon se roj subah uthane, vh‍yayam karane, dimag ko thnda rakhane aur usako do paise ki do pudiya shahad ke sath chat lene ki salah deta tha. sahanubhooti ki ek kiran, ek sahaj sh‍vash‍thh‍yapoorn nirvikar musakan ka chikith‍sa-snbndhi mahath‍v sahanubhooti ke lie ph‍yasi, lngadi duniya ke lie kitana ho s‍kata hai - yah vah janata tha! isalie vah matabhed aur parash‍par paida hone vali vishishh‍t visnvadi katutaon ko bacha kar nikal jata tha. vah unh‍hen janata tha aur usaki use zaroorat nahin thi! duniya ki koee aisi kalushata nahin thi jis par ulati ho jay - siva vish‍trit samaji‍k shoshanon aur unake uth‍panh‍n dnbhon aur adarshavad ke nam par kie ge andh ath‍yacharon, yantrik naitikataon aur adhh‍yatmik ahntaon ki tanashahiyon ko chhod kar! duniya ke madhh‍yavargiy janon ke anek vishon ko chupachap vah pi gaya tha, aur rah dekh raha tha sirph kranti-shakti ki! parntu isase usako ek nukasan bhi hua tha! vh‍yakti usake lie mahath‍vapoorn nahin tha, vh‍yaktith‍v adhik, chahe vah vh‍yaktith‍v mamooli hi ho aur vah bhi tabhi jab tak usaki jigyasa aur ushh‍nata ka talab sookh n jae. usaki ushh‍nata ka drishtikon bhi kafi amoort tha kh‍yonki usake vh‍yaktith‍v ka uddeshh‍y amoort tha. isalie apane ap men vh‍yakti usase yada-kada chhoot jata tha, siva unake jo usaki dhadakanon aur rakh‍t ke sath mil ge hain! hakim marijon ko phauran bhool jate hain, aur maje ke lie aur marj ke sath-sath ve yad ate hai. parinamat: usaki sahaj ushh‍nata pa kar vh‍yakti usake sath ek ho jate, apane ko nagh‍n kar dete; aur phir usase nana prakar ki apekshaen karane lagate jo snbhav hona asnbhav tha.

mau‍lavi jab gali men mud kar gaya to yuvak ki ankhen us par thin. maulavi ka lnba, dubala aur shh‍vet vash‍travrit sara sharir use ek chalata-phirata itihas maloom hua. usaki dadhi ka trikon, ankhon ki chapal-chamak aur bhavana-shaktiyon se hilate kapolon ka itihas jan lene ki ichh‍chha usamen duguni ho gee.

tab sadak ke adhe bhag par chandani bichhi thi aur adha bhag chndr ke tirachhe hone ke karan chhayachh‍chhanh‍n ho kar kala ho gaya tha. usaka kalapan chandani se adhik utha hua maloom ho raha tha.

yuvak ke samane samash‍yaen do thin. ek aram ki, doosari aram ke sh‍than ki. aur do rash‍te the. ek, ki rat-bhar ghooma jae - rat ke samaph‍t hone men sirph sadhe tin ghnte the aur doosare, sh‍teshan par kahin bhi so liya jae!

kuchh soch-vichar kar usane sh‍teshan ka rash‍ta liya.

usake sharir men tin din ke lagatar shram ki thakan thi. aur usake pair sharir ka bojh dhone se inakar kar rahe the. parntu jis prakar jindagi men akele adami ko apani thakan ke bavajood bhojan khud hi taiyar karana padata hai - tabhi to pet bhar sakata hai - usi prakar usake pair chupachap, apane du:kh ki katha apane se hi kahate hue apane kary men snlagh‍n the.

usako ek bar mudana pada. vah ek kam chauda rash‍ta tha jisake donon or badi-bada attalikaen chupachap khadi thin, jisake pairon-niche bichha hua rash‍ta do pahadiyon men se gujare hue rash‍te ki bhanti gaddhe men pada hua maloom hota tha. baeen or ki attalikaon ke oopari bhag par chandani bichhi huee thi.

thakan se shoonh‍y man men nind ke jhonke a rahe the, parntu ek dar tha pulisavale ka jo agar rash‍te men mil jae jo usake sndehon ko shant karana mushkil hai! dar isalie bhi adhik hai ki rash‍ta andhere se dhnka hua hai, sirph attalikaon par giri huee chandani ke kuchh-kuchh prath‍yavartit prakash se rash‍te ka akar soojh raha hai.

man men shoonh‍yata ki ek aur badh. nind ka ek aur jhonka. rash‍ta donon or se bnd hone ke karan shit se bacha hua hai - usamen adhik garami hai.

yuvak kaise to bhi chal raha hai! nind ke garam lihaph men sona chahata hai. nind ka ek aur jhonka! man men shoonh‍yata ki ek aur badh.

yuvak ke pairon men kuchh to bhi naram-naram laga - ajib, samanh‍yat: apraph‍y, manushh‍y ke ushh‍n sharir-sa komal! usane do-tin kadam aur age rakhe. aur usaka sndeh nishh‍chat men parivartit ho gaya. usaka sharir kanp gaya. usaki buddhi, usaka vivek kanp gaya. vah yadi kadam nahin rakhata hain to ek hi sharir par - n jane vah bachh‍che ka hai ya sh‍tri ka, boodhe ka ya javan ka - usaka sara vajan ek hi par ja gire. vah kh‍ya kare? vah bhagane laga ek kinare ki or. parntu kahan-vahan tak adami soe hue the usake sharir ki garam komalata usake pairon se chipak gee thi. vahin ek path‍thar mila; vah us par khada ho gaya, hanphata hua. usake pair kanp rahe the. vah ankhe phad-phad kar dekh raha tha. parntu andhere ke us samudr men use kuchh nahin dikha. yah usake lie aur bhi bura hua. usaka pap yon hi andhere men chhipa rah jaega! usaki vivek-bhavana sitapita kar rah gee; usako aisa dhakh‍ka laga ki vah snbhalane bhi nahin paya. vah punh‍yath‍ma vivek shakti keval kanp rahi thi!

yuvak ke man men ek prashh‍n, bijali ke nrith‍y ki bhanti mud kar matak-matak kar, ghoomane laga - kh‍yon n‍hin itane sab bhookhe bhikhari jag kar, jagrat ho kar, usako dnde mar kar choor kar dete hain - kh‍yon use ab tak jinda rahane diya gaya?

parntu isaka javab kh‍ya ho sakata hai?

vah hara-sa, sadak ke kinare-kinare chalane laga! mano us gahare andhere men bhi bhookhi ath‍maon ki hajar-hajar ankhen usaki bujadili, pap aur kalnk ko dekh rahin hon. sh‍teshan ki or janevali sidhi sadak milate hi yuvak ne patari badal li.

lnbi sidhi sadak par chandani adhi nahin thi kh‍yonki donon or attalikaen nahin thin; keval kinare par kuchh-kuchh dooriyon se chhote-chhote ped lage hue the. maun, shital chandani saphed kafan ki bhanti rash‍te par bichhati huee do kshitijon ko chhoo rahi thi. ek vish‍trit, shant khulapan yuvak ko dhnk raha tha aur use sirph apani avaj sunaee de rahi thi - pap, hamara pap, ham dhile-dhale, sush‍t, madhh‍yavargiy ath‍m-sntoshiyon ka ghor pap. bngal ki bhookh hamare charitr-vinash ka sabase bada saboot. usaki yad ate hi, jisako bhulane ki tivr cheshh‍ta kar raha tha, usaka hriday kanp jata tha, aur vivek-bhavana hanphane lagati thi.

us lnbi sudirgh shh‍vet sadak par vah yuvak ek chhoti-si naganh‍y chhaya ho kar chala ja raha tha.



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