aankhoan ke samane, door...
dhanka hua kuhare se
kuhare mean se jhaankata-sa dikhata paha d...
syah!
apane mastishk ke pichhe akele mean
gahare akele mean
jiandagi ke gande n-kahe-sake-jane-vale anubhavoan ke dher ka
bhayankar vishalakar pratiroop!!
syah!
dekhakar chihuankate haian pran,
dar jate haian.
(pratidin ke vastavik jivan ki chattanoan se
joojhakar paryavasit pranoan ka hulas hai)
matr astitv hi ki raksha mean vyatit hue din ki
ki phalahin divas ki nirarthakata ki thasak ko dekhakar
shraddha bhi bhartsana ki mar sah leti hai,
jhukati hai lajja se devopam griv nij,
glani se nishtha ka ji dhans jata hai.
duniya ke badarang bhoorepan mean se jhaankakar
bhaiangi v kani-si aankhe do
(kisi jivit mrityu ki)
ashirvad deti haian...
kramashah mrityu ka.
subah se sham tak...
kam ki talash mean is gujare hue din ki
nirarthata ki ag mean
jalata-dhuaanta hua
jiandagi ki duniya ko kosata
maian raste par chalata hooan ki
bhayankar duahsvapn-sa, samane -
aankhoan ke samane vah
dhanka hua kuhare se...
dikhata paha d
syah - !
aj ke abhav ke v kal ke upavas ke
v parasoan ki mrityu ke...
dainy ke, maha-apaman ke, v kshobhapoorn
bhayankar chianta ke us pagal yatharth ka
dikhata paha d -
syah!
apane mastishk ke pichhe akele mean
gahare akele mean
n-kah-sake-jane-vale anubhavoan ke dher ka
bhayankar vishalakar pratiroop
dikhata paha d...
syah !
doosari or
kshudratam saphalata ki a d se
(nahian hai jo) nij ki suyogyata ka la d karata hua
pani huee chamak se chamakakar
chaand ka adhoora muanh
vyangy musakarata hai
phailata apar vah vyangy ki vishaili chaandani
kuhare se dhanke ghor dard-bhare yatharth ke deh par
- paha d ke deh par
jiandagi ke bhayankar svapnoan ke meh
rahate tairate, masani asaman mean.
raste par chalata hooan ki pairoan ke niche se
khisakata hai rasta - yah kaun kah sakata hai.
dikhate haian sate hue b de-b de aksharoan mean
musakarate vijnapan
sinema ke, dukanoan ke, rogoan ke prabhimatar
chamakate hue, shanadar.
chalata hooan ki dekhata hooan nagar ka musakarata vyaktitv mahakar,
damakati raunak ka ullas,
chahachahati s dakoan ki sa diyaan.
lagata hai -
ki samast svargiy chamachamate abhalok vale
is nagar ka nijatv jaduee
ki rangin mayaoan ka pradipt puanj yah
nagar hai ayatharth
manavi asha au' nirasha ke pare ki chij
roop mean aroop
athava akar mean nirakar
samoohikrit gunoan mean hai nirgun
apaurushay, jhooth,
bhayankar duahsvapn ka vishv roop,
karm ke phal par nahian - karm par hi adhikar
sikhanevale vachan ka adanbar
pavadar mean saphed athava gulabi
chhipe b de-b de chechak ke dag mujhe dikhate haian
sabhyata ke chehare par.
sanskriti ke suvasit adhunikatam vastroan ke
aandar ka vasi yah
nagn ati barbar deh
sookha hua rogila panjar mujhe dikhata hai
eks-re ki photo mean rog-jirn
rahasmayi asthiyoan ke chitr-sa vichitr aur
bhayanak.
(sapanoan ke tar par tootate hi nahian hai;)
shoshan ki sabhyata ke niyamoan ke anusar
bani huee sanskriti ke tilismi
siyah chakravyoohoan mean
phanse hue pran sab mujhe yad ate haian,
marmahat katar pukar sun p dati hai
meri hi pukar jaisi chiantatur samudvign.
aandhere mean chupachap
aantar se bahanevale dhulate hue rakt ki
(anadekhe anajane janoan ke)
mujhe yad ati hai;
aankhoan mean tairata hai chitr ek
ur mean sanbhale dard
garbhavati nari ka
ki jo pani bharati hai vajanadar gh doan se,
kap doan ko dhoti hai bha d-bha d,
ghar ke kam bahar ke kam sab karati hai,
apani sari thakan ke bavajood.
mazadoori karati hai
ghar ki girasti ke lie hi
putroan ke bhavishy ke lie sab.
usake pile avasad-bhare krish mukh par
jane kis (dhokhe-bhari?) asha ki dridhata hai.
karati vah itana kam
kyoan kis asha par?
prashn poochhata hooan maian;
aankhoan ke konoan par uttar ke praranbhik
k due-se aansoo ye mithas chhoo hi lete haian.
mithya ka prabalatam
rahasyodghatan drut
shraddha ka aanchal tham leta hai
dard-bhari yachanaean aankhoan mean darasakar.
yadi us shramashil nari ki atma
sab abhavoan ko sahakar
kashtoan ko lat mar, nirashaean thukarakar
kisi dhruv-lakshy par
khianchati-si jati hai,
jivit rah sakata hooan maian bhi to vaise hi!
jivan ke kshubdh antahkaran mean yug-saty ka
jo ate bhayanak
vedanarth bhar hai
usake hi lie to yah -
kashtajivi pranoan ki apar shramashilata.
vishal shramalata ki jivant
moortiyoan ke cheharoan par
jhulasi huee atma ki anagin lakirean
mujhe jak d leti haian apane mean, apana-sa janakar
bahut purani kisi niji pahachan se.
mata-pita ke sang bite hue
bhayanak chiantaoan ke lanbe-lanbe kal-khand
mean se uth-uthakar
karuna mean mili huee gili huee gooanjean kuchh
mujhe dila deti haian nee hi biradari,
hiye ki dharitri ki
b di ajib (aansuoan-si namakin)
vah mitti ki sugandh
mere hiye mean samati hai,
dil bhar uthata hai
os-gili jhulasi huee chameli ki ahoan se.
door-door muphalisi ke toote-phoote gharoan mean
sunahale chirag bal uthate haian;
lalaee mean nilaee se nahakar
poori jhuk jati hai
thoohar ke jhuramutoan se lasi huee meri is rah par!
dhuandhalake mean khoe is
raste par ate-jate dikhate haian
lath-dhari boodhe-se patel baba
uanche-se kisan dada
ve dadhi-dhari dehati musalaman chacha aur
bojha uthae hue
maean, bahanean, betiyaan...
sabako hi salam karane ki ichchha hoti hai,
sabako hi ram-ram karane ko chahata hai ji
aansuoan se tar hokar pyar ke...
(sabaka pyara putr ban)
sabhi hi ka gila-gila mitha-mitha ashirvad
pane ke lie hoti akulahat.
kiantu anapekshit aansuoan ki nav dhara se
kanth mean dard hone lagata hai.
kuchh paloan bad -
hiye mean prakash-sa hota hai...
khulati hai dishaean ujala aanchal pasare hue
raste par rat hote hue bhi man mean prat
naha-sa maian uthata bhavy kisi nav-sphoorti se
asahy-sa svayan-bodh vishv-chetana-sa kuchh
navashakti deta hai
nij uttar-dayitv ki vishesh savisheshata
raste par chalate hue gahari gati deti hai.
nagar ka amoort-sa tilismi abhalok
shoshan ki sabhyata ka rakshasi durg-roop
yatharth ki bhitti par
samudghatit karata hai.
kiantu usake sammukh n nissahay -
- niravalanb pahale-jaisa anubhav maian karata hooan,
nahian kar pata hooan.
maulik jal-dhara mere vaksh ka shail-garbh
dhoti hi rahati hai
rasta khatm hota hai ki sangharshoan ke aangare
lal-lal sitaroan se
bulate mujhe pas nij
kabhi maans-peshiyoan ke lauh-karm-rat
majoor lohar ke athah-bal
prakaand hathau de ki
dikh p dati hai chot.
nihaee se uthati huee lal-lal
aangari tarikaean barasati hai jisake ujale mean ki
ek ati-bhavy deh,
prachand purush shyam
mujhe dikh p data hai
kshem mean, shakti mean muskarata kh da-sa!
...lagata hai mujhe vah -
kal moorti,
kraanti-shakti, jan yug!!
ghar a hi jata hai ki dvar khatakhatata
aantar se 'aee' ki dhvani sunaee p dati hai
apana ur-dvar khatakhatata hua
nishchay-sa, sankalp-sa karata hooan!
