गोरा उपन्यास भाग-16

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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vinay yah samajh gaya tha ki lalita ke sath usake vivah ki batachit karane ke lie hi sucharita ne use bulaya hai. usane yah prastav apani or se samapt kar diya hai, itane se hi to mamala samapt nahian ho jaega. jab tak vah jianda rahega tab tak kisi paksh ko chhutakara nahian milega. ab tak vinay ki sabase b di chianta yahi thi ki 'gora ko kaise chot pahuanchaooan' gora se matalab keval gora nam ka vyakti hi nahian tha, jis bhav vishvas, jivan ka sanbal gora ne liya hai vah sab bhi tha. barabar inake sath milakar nibahate chalana hi vinay ka abhyas tha aur isi mean usako anand bhi tha, gora se kisi tarah ka virodh jaise apane hi se virodh tha.

lekin us aghat ka pahala sankoch to door ho jane se vinay ko bal mila tha. pho da katane se pahale rogi ke bhay aur ghabarahat ki koee sima nahian hoti, lekin chira lagane par rogi dekhata hai ki dard to hai par aram bhi hai aur mamala kalpana mean jitana bhayankar jan p data tha vastav mean utana nahian hai.

ab tak apane man ke sath bhi vinay tark nahian kar pa raha tha, lekin ab usake tark ka dvar khul gaya. ab man-hi-man gora ke sath usaka uttar-pratyuttar chalane laga. jo-jo yuktiyaan gora ki or se di ja sakati thian unhean vah man-hi-man uthakar kee or se unaka khandan karane laga. gora ke sath agar amane-samane hi bahas ho sakati to jahaan uttejana hoti vahaan sath-hi-sath shaanti bhi ho jati, lekin vinay ne dekha ki is mamale mean gora aant tak tark nahian karega. isase bhi vinay ke man mean ek khijh utpann huee. vah sochane laga-gora n samajhega, n samajhaega, kelav zabaradasti karega, zabaradasti! zabaradasti ke age kaise sir jhuka sakata hooan? usane kaha-jo bhi ho, mera paksh saty ka hai. yah kahata hua vah saty namak shabd ko mano hriday mean jak d lena chahane laga. gora ke virudhd ek bahut prabal paksh kh da karane ki zaroorat hogi, isalie bar-bar vinay apane man ko samajhane laga ki saty hi usaka sabase b da sanbal haian yahaan tak ki usake man mean is bat se apane hi prati b di shradhda utpann huee ki usane saty ko hi apana ashray man liya hai. isilie tisare pahar jab sucharita ke ghar ki or chala tak usaka sir kafi ooancha utha hua tha. is atmavishvas ka karan usaka saty ki or jhukav hai ya aur kisi chiz ki or, yah sochane-samajhane ki avastha us samay vinay ki nahian thi.

harimohini us samay rasoee mean vyast thian. vinay rasoee ke dvar par kh de hokar ek brahman-kumar ke madhayahn-bhojan ka dava manjoor karakar oopar chala gaya.

sucharita ne kuchh silaee lie baithe-baithe usi ki or aauankhean jhukae suee chalate-chalate bat shuroo ki; boli, "dekhie vinay baboo, jahaan man ki koee badha nahian hai vahaan bahar ke virodh ko kya manakar chalana hoga?"

jab gora se bahas huee thi tab vinay ne usake khilaf yuktiyaan di thian, ab jab sucharita se bahas hone lagi tab usane ulate paksh ki yuktiyaan dena shuroo kiya. us samay koee yah nahian soch sakata tha ki gora se usaka koee matabhed hai.

vinay ne kaha, "didi, bahar ki badha ko tum log bhi to kuchh chho dakar nahian dekhate."

sucharita ne kaha, "usaka karan hai, vinay baboo! ham logoan ki badha sirph bahari badha nahian hai. hamara samaj hamare dharm-vishvas par hi tika hai. lekin jis samaj mean ap haian vahaan apaka bandhan keval samajik bandhan hai. isalie lalita ko agar brahm-chho d jana p de to usamean usaki bahut b di hani hogi, apake samaj chho dane se apaka utana nukasan nahian hoga."

is bat ko lekar vinay bahas karane laga ki dharm manushy ki vyaktigat sadhana ki chiz hai, use kisi samaj ke sath baandhana thik nahian hai.

thik isi samay ek chitthi aur ek aangreji akhabar lekar satish kamare mean aya. vinay ko dekhakar vah atyant uttejit ho utha, shukravar ko hi kisi prakar ravivar bana dene ke lie usaka man utavala ho gaya. dekhate-hi-dekhate vinay aur satish ki sabha jut gee aur udhar sucharita lalita ki chitthi aur usake sath bheja gaya akhabar padhane lag gee.

is brahm akhabar mean ek khabar thi ki kisi prasidhd brahm-parivar aur hiandoo-samaj ke bich vivah-sanbandh hone ki jo ashanka ho rahi thi, hiandoo yuvak ki asammati ke karan vah tal gee hai is bat ko lekar us hiandoo yuvak ki nishtha ki tulana mean us brahm-parivar ki shochaniy durbalata par tika-tippani ki gee thi.

man-hi-man sucharita ne kaha-jaise bhi ho lalita ke sath vinay ka vivah hona hi chahie. lekin vah is yuvak se tark karake to karake to hoga nahian. sucharita ne lalita ko vahaan ane ke lie likh diya, par usamean yah nahian likha ki vinay bhi vahian hai.

kisi bhi patr mean kisi bhi grah-nakshatr ke yog se shukravar ko ravivar padhane ki vyavastha n hone ke karan satish ko skool ki taiyari ke lie uthana hi p da. snan ke lie tho di der ka avakash chahakar sucharita bhi chali gee.

tark ki uttejana mit jane par sucharita ke kamare mean akele baithe-baithe vinay ke bhitar ka yuva purush jag utha. tab nau-sadhe nau ka samay tha. gali mean logoan ka shor nahian tha. sucharita ke likhane ki mej par chhoti gh di tik-tik karati chal rahi thi. kamare ka ek khianchav dhire-dhire vinay ko apane mean gherane laga. kamare ka charoan or ka chhota-mota saj-saman jaise vinay ke sath batachit karane laga. mej par saji huee chijean, kadhe hue kursiposh, kursiyoan ke niche pairoan ki jagah bichhi huee kitaboan se saji huee chhoti shailph- sabhi vi‍nay ke man ke bhitar jaise ek ganbhir svar-spandan uthane lagian. mano kamare mean ek suandar rahasy bhara tha. isi kamare mean nirjan dopahari mean sakhi-sakhi ke bich jin batoan ki charcha hoti rahi hogi unaki salajj suandar satta mano ab bhi jahaan-jahaan chhipi huee hai. batachit ke samay kaun kahaan baitha hoga, kaise baitha hoga, yah kalpana ke sahare vinay dekhane laga. us din pareshababoo se usane jo suna tha, 'maianne sucharita se suna hai ki lalita ka man tumhari or se vimukh nahian hai', vahi bat anek roopoan mean anek tarah ki chhavi-si usake samane ghoom gee. ek anirvachaniy aveg vinay ke man mean ek atyant karuna udas ragini-sa bajane laga. jo sab chizean ese ekaki ganbhir roop se ek bhashahin abhas-si man ki gaharaee mean jhalak jati haian, unhean pratyaksh kar dene ki shakti n hone se arthath kavi ya chitrakar n hone ke karan, vinay ka man chanchal ho utha. use aisa lagane laga ki kuchh-n-kuchh karana chahie, par kuchh karane ka koee marg bhi nahian hai. yah jo ek parada usake samane jhool raha hai, jo usake bilh‍kul pas ki chiz ko itani door kie hue haian, kash use isi kshan uth kh de hokar pha d pheankane ki shakti usamean hoti!

kamare mean akar vinay se harimohini ne poochha ki vah kuchh jalapan to nahian karana chahata. vinay ne kaha, "nahian."

tab harimohini vahian baith geean.

jab tak harimohini paresh baboo ke ghar mean thian tab tak vinay ke prati unaka bahut akarshan tha. kiantu jab se unhoanne sucharita ko lekar alag grihasthi jamaee thi tab se in logoan ka ana-jana unake lie atyant aruchikar ho gaya tha. ajakal achar-vichar ke mamale mean sucharita jo poori tarah unake kahane par nahian chalati isaka karan in sab logoan se milana-julana hi hai, yahi unhoanne anishchit kiya tha. yadyapi vah janati thian ki vinay brahm nahian hai, phir bhi itana vah spasht anubhav karati thi ki vinay ke man mean hiandoo sanskaroan ki koee dridhata nahian hai. isilie ab vah pahale ki bhaanti utsah ke sath is brahman kumar ko bula le jakar us par devata ke prasad ka apavyay nahian karati thian.

harimohini ne aj batachit ke silasile mean vinay se poochha, "achchha beta, tum to brahman ke l dake ho, lekin sandhh‍ya-archana to kuchh nahian karate?"

vinay ne kaha, "mausi, din-rat padhaee ratate-ratate gayatri-sandhh‍ya sab bhool gaya hooan."

harimohini ne kaha, "pareshababoo bhi to padhe-likhe haian. lekin vah to apana dharm manakar sham-sabere kuchh-n-kuchh karate haian."

vinay ne kaha, "mausi, vah jo karate haian vah sirph mantr kanthasth karake nahian kiya jata. un jaisa kabhi ho sakata to maian bhi unhian ki tarah chalooanga."

kuchh rukhaee se harimohini ne kaha, "to utane din bap-dadoan ki tarah hi chalo n? yah kya thik hai ki n idhar n udhar? manushy ka kuchh to dharm hota hi hai. n ram, n ganga-maiya ri, yah kaise ho sakata hai!"

isi samay lalita kamare mean akar vinay ko dekhakar chauank uthi. usane harimohini se poochha, "didi kahaan haian?"

harimohini ne kaha, "radharani nahane gee haian."

mano anavashyak roop se saphaee dete hue lalita ne kaha, "didi ne mujhe bula bheja tha."

harimohini ne kaha, "to zara baitho n, abhi a jaegi."

harimohini ka man lalita ke prati bhi kuchh anukool n tha. harimohini sucharita ko ab usake purane parivesh se chhu dakar poori tarah apane vash mean karana chahati thian. pareshababoo ki doosari l dakiyaan yahaan itani bar nahian atian, akeli lalita hi jab-tab akar sucharita ke sath batean karati rahati hai, yah harimohini ko achchha nahian lagata. aksar vah donoan ki batoan mean badha dekar sucharita ko kisi-n-kisi kam ke lie bula lene ki cheshta karati haian ya phir is bat ki shikayat karati haian ki sucharita ka likhana-padhana ab pahale ki tarah bina vyavadhan ke nahian chalata. lekin jab sucharita padhane-likhane mean man lagati hai tab harimohini yah kahane se bhi nahian chookatian ki adhik padhana-likhana l dakiyoan ke lie anavashyak aur anishtakar hota haian asal bat yah hai ki jaise bhi ho vah sucharita ko bilh‍kul apane mean gher lena chahati haian aur kisi tarah vah n kar pane se kabhi sucharita ke sangiyoan par aur kabhi usaki shiksha par usaka dosh madhati rahati haian.

lalita aur vinay ke sath baithe rahana harimohini ke lie sukhakar ho, yah bat nahian thi. apitu un donoan par gussa karake hi vah baithi rahian. unhoanne samajh liya tha ki vinay aur lalita ke bich ek rahasyamay sanbandh tha. tabhi unh‍hoanne man-hi-man kaha-tum logoan ke samaj mean chahe jaisi riti ho, mere is ghar mean yah sab nirlajj milana-julana, yah sab khristani chalan nahian chalega.

idhar lalita ke man mean bhi ek virodh ka bhav uth raha tha. kal jab sucharita anandamee ke ghar gee thi tab lalita ne bhi sath chalane ka nishchay kiya tha, lekin kisi tarah n ja saki. usamean gora ke prati shradhda bahut thi, lekin virodh ka bhav bhi utana hi prabal tha. yah bat kisi tarah vah apane man se nahian hata pati thi ki gora sabhi tarah usake pratikool haian. yahaan tak ki jis din gora jel se chhoota us din se vinay ke prati bhi lalita ke manobhav mean tho da parivartan a gaya. kuchh din pahale tak vah is bat par garv karati rahi thi ki vinay par usaka b da gahara prabhav hai. lekin vinay gora ke prabhav se kisi tarah bhi mukt nahian ho sakata, is kalpana se hi vinay ke virudhd bhi kamar kasakar vah taiyar ho rahi thi.

lalita ke kamare mean ate dekhakar vinay ke man mean b di halachal mach gee. vinay kabhi bhi lalita ke bare mean sahaj bhav nahian rakh saka tha. jab se un donoan ke vivah ki sanbhavana ki aphavahean samaj mean phail gee thian tab se lalita ko dekhate hi vinay ke man ki halat toofan ke samay idhar-udhar ghoomane vali kanpas ki suee-si ho jati thi.

vinay ko kamare mean baitha dekhakar lalita ko sucharita par gussa ho aya. vah samajh gee ki sucharita anichchhuk vinay ke man ko anukul banane ke lie hi prayatn kar rahi hai, aur lalita ki pukar aj isilie huee ki tedhe ko sidha karane ki koshish kare.

usane harimohini ki or dekhakar kaha, "didi se kah dijiega maian abhi nahian ruk sakati. phir kisi vakt a jaooangi."

yah kahakar vinay ki or nazar uthae bina tezi se vah chali gee. tab harimohini bhi vinay ke pas aur baithe rahana anavashyak samajhakar ghar ke kamakaj ke lie uth kh di hueean.

lalita yah sulagati ag jaisa chehara vinay ke lie aparichit n tha. par idhar kee dinoan se vaisa chehara dekhane ka avasar nahian mila tha. ek samay aisa bhi tha jab lalita vinay ke mamale mean hamesha apane agni-ban sadhe rahati thi. ve bure din bilh‍kul bit ge haian, yah sochakar vinay nishchiant ho chala tha. aj usane dekha ki ve hi purane ban phir astrashala se nikale ge haian- un par jang ka zara-sa bhi dag nahian p da hai. gussa sah liya ja sakata hai, lekin ghrina sahana vinay jaise vyakti ke lie b da mushkil hota hai. ek din lalita ne use gora nam ke grah ka upagrah matr manakar usake prati kaisi tivr avajna dikhaee thi, vah vinay ko yad ho aya. aj bhi usaki duvidha ke karan lalita use bilh‍kul kayar samajh rahi hogi, is kalpana se vah bhayakul ho utha. lalita usaki kartavy-budhdi se utpann sankoch ko usaka darapokan samajhegi, phir bhi is bare mean apani or se do batean kahane ka bhi mauqa use n milega, yah vinay ko asahy jan p da. tark karane ke adhikar se vanchit kar diya jana vinay ke lie bahut b di saza thi. kyoanki vah janata tha ki tark vah bahut achchha kar sakata hai. sulajhakar apani bat kahane aur kisi ek paksh ka samarthan karane ki usamean asadharan kshamata hai. lekin jab bhi lalita ne usase l daee ki hai, use dalilean dene ka mauqa kabhi nahian diya, aj bhi use isaka mauqa n milega.

vah akhabar abhi vahian p da hua tha. apani bechaini ki halat mean vinay ne use apani or khianchakar dekha ki usamean ek jagah peansil ka nishan laga hua tha. usane vah aansh padha aur samajh liya ki us sari charcha aur niti-upadesh ke lakshy vahi donoan haian. lalita pratidin apane samaj ke logoan se kitana apaman pa rahi hai, yah vah spasht samajh saka. is apaman se usaki raksha karane ke lie vinay koee prayas nahian kar raha hai aur keval samaj-tatv ko lekar tark ki barikiyaan dhooandhane mean vyast hai- lalita jaisi tejasvini nari ka is karan use upeksha ka patr samajhana use uchit hi jan p da. samaj ki sanpoorn upeksha karane ka lalita ne kitana sahas hai, yah yad karake aur us abhimanini ke sath apani tulana karake use sharm ane lagi.

snan karake aur satish ko bhojan khilakar skool bhejakar sucharita jab vinay ke pas aee tab vah udas baitha hua tha. sucharita ne pahali bat phir nahian uthaee. vinay bina muanh-hath dhoe aur kulla kie hi bhojan karane baith gaya.

harimohini ne kaha, "achchha beta, tum to hianduoan ka koee niyam hi nahian manate ho- tab phir tumhare brahm ho jane mean hi kya buraee thi?"

man-hi-man vinay ne kuchh ahat hokar kaha, "jis din samajh looan ki hiandoopan ka matalab sirph khan-pan aur chhuachhoot ke nirarthak niyam hi haian, us din chahe brahm, chahe khristan, chahe musalaman kuchh bhi ho jaooanga. lekin abhi hiandutv par itani ashradhda nahian huee hai."

jab vinay sucharita ke ghar se chala tab usaka man bahut hi ashaant tha. mano charoan or se dhakke khata hua vah ek nirashray shoony mean a gira tha. idhar gora ke nikat apana purana sthan pana usake lie kathin ho gaya tha, udhar lalita bhi use door dhakel de rahi thi- yahaan tak ki harimohini ke sath usaka apanepan ka sanbandh bhi itane kam samay mean hi vichchhinn hone laga tha. varadasuandari ek samay usase aantarik sneh karati thian, pareshababoo ab bhi usase sneh karate haian, lekin sneh ke badale mean unake ghar mean usane aisi ashaanti la di hai ki ab vahaan bhi usake lie jagah nahian rahi. jinase use prem hai unaki shradhda aur pyar ke lie vinay hamesha lalayit rahata hai, use kee prakar se apani or khianchane ki shakti bhi usamean bahut hai. vahi vinay aj achanak apani chir abhyast priti ki lik se kaise hat gaya, yahi bat vah man-hi-man sochane laga. sucharita ke ghar se bahar nikalakar ab vah kahaan jae, yahi vah soch nahian pa raha hai. ek samay tha jab vah bina kuchh soche sahaj hi gora ke ghar ki or chal p data tha, lekin vahaan jana aj usake lie pahale jaisa sahaj-svabhavik nahian raha. yadi jaega bhi to gora ke samane upasthit hokar use chup hi rahana hoga- vah niravata usase nahian sahi nahian jaegi. idhar pareshababoo ke ghar ka dvar bhi usake lie khula nahian hai.

yah maian kaise aur kyoan asvabhavik sthiti mean a p da? sir jhukae yah sochata hua dhire-dhire vinay chalata raha. hedua talab ke pas akar vah ek pe d ke niche baith gaya. ab tak usake jivan mean jo bhi chhoti-b di samasya a kh di huee hai usane apane bandhu ke sath usaki charcha karake usaka kuchh-n-kuchh samadhan kar liya hai, par aj vah marg khula nahian hai, aj use akele hi sochana hoga.

vinay mean atm-vishleshan ki shakti ki kami nahian hai. sara dosh bahar ki ghatanaoan par madhakar khud chhutthi pa lena usake lie sahaj nahian hai. akele baithakar usane apane ko hi uttaradaee thaharaya. man-hi-man usane kaha-mal bhi rakhooanga aur usaka dam bhi n dooanga, aisi chaturaee duniya mean nahian chal sakati. koee ek chiz chun lena chahate hi kisi doosari ka tyag karana hi hota hai. jo vyakti man k da karake kisi ek ko chho d nahian pata hai usaki mere jaisi gati hoti hai- vah sabhi kuchh kho deta hai. duniya mean jo log apane jivan ka rasta sakht hokar chun sakate haian, ve hi nishchiant ho pate haian. jo abhage yah marg bhi pak dana chahate haian aur vah marg bhi chho dana nahian chahate, jo apane ko kisi se bhi vanchit nahian kar sakate ve apani manzil se bhi bhatak jate haian- keval rah ke kutte ki tarah mare-mare phirate haian.

rog ka nidan karana kathin hai, lekin nidan ho jane se hi usaka ilaj sahaj ho jata ho, yah bat bhi nahian hai. vinay ki samajhane ki shakti b di tivr thi, kuchh karane ki shakti ka hi usamean abhav tha. isilie vah ab tak apane se adhik prabal ichchha shakti vale apane bandhu par nirbhar karata aya tha. aant mean atyant musibat mean p dakar hi aj usane sahasa pahachana ki apani ichchhashakti n rahane par bhi chhote-mote kam to kisi tarah udhar par chala lie ja sakate haian, lekin asali zaroorat ke samay doosare ka havala dekar kam nahian chalaya ja sakata.

soory ke ot mean jane se jahaan ab tak chhaya thi vahaan dhoop a gee, tab vah pe d ke niche se uthakar phir s dak par a gaya. tho di door jate hi sahasa usane pukar suni, "vinay baboo, vinay baboo!" aur kshan-bhar bad hi satish ne akar usaka hath pak d liya. us samay vah skool se ghar laut raha tha.

satish ne kaha, "chalie vinay baboo, mere sath ghar chalie."

vinay ne kaha, "yah kaise ho sakata hai, satish baboo?"

satish ne kaha, "kyoan nahian ho sakata?"

vinay bola, 'aise bar-bar jane se tumhare ghar ke log mujhase oob nahian jaeange?"

satish ne vinay ki is dalil ko javab dene layaq bhi nahian samajha. bola, "nahian, chalie."

vinay ka usake parivar ke logoan ke sath jo sanbandh hai usamean kitani b di kraanti ho gee hai, balak satish yah sab kuchh nahian janata, vah to keval vinay se sneh karata hai, vinay ka hriday yah bat sochakar atyant vichalit ho utha. usake li‍e pareshababoo ke parivar ne jis svargalok ki srishti ki thi, usamean keval is balak ke anand ki hi sanpoornata akshunn hai. is pralay ke din mean bhi usake man par kisi sandeh ke badal ki chhaya nahian p di hai, samaj ke kisi var ne usamean koee darar nahian dali hai. satish ke gale mean baanh dalate hue vinay ne kaha, "chalo bhaee, tumhean tumhare ghar ke daravaze tak to pahuancha aooan!"

satish ko baanh se gherakar vinay jaise sucharita aur lalita ke us sneh aur dular ke madhury ko sparsh kar raha tha jo satish ke jivan mean shishukal se hi vanchit hota raha hoga.

satish sare raste jo bahut si-be-sir pair ki batean karata raha ve vinay ke kanoan ko bahut mithi lagian. us balak ke man ki saralata ke sanpark mean vah apane jivan ki jatil samasya ko tho di der ke lie bilh‍kul bhula pane mean samarth hua.

pareshababoo ke ghar ke age se hi sucharita ke ghar ka rasta tha. raste se hi pareshababoo ke ghar ki nichali manzil ka baithane ka kamara dikhata tha. vinay us kamare ke samane ate hi bar-bar udhar dekhe bina n rah saka. usane dekha mej ke samane pareshababoo baithe hue haian; kuchh kah rahe haian ya nahian, yah vah n samajh saka. lalita ki or pith kie pareshababoo ki kursi ke pas beant ke ek chhote moodhe par chhatr-si chupachap baithi huee thi.

sucharita ke ghar se lotane par lalita ka hriday jis kshobh se asahy roop se vyakul ho utha tha, usaka nivaran karane ka koee upay vah n janati thi, isilie lalita dhire-dhire akar pareshababoo ke pas baith gee thi. pareshababoo mean ek aisi shaanti jhalakati thi ki bechain lalita apani chanchalata ka daman karane ke lie bich-bich mean unake pas akar chupachap baithi rahati thi. pareshababoo poochh baithate, "kya hai, lalita?" to lalita uttar deti, "kuchh nahian, baba! tumhara yah kamara b da thanda jo hai."

lalita unake pas aj ghayal hriday lekar aee hai, yah pareshababoo spasht samajh ge the. svayan unake bhitar bhi ek vedana tis rahi thi. isilie unhoanne dhire-dhire aisi batean chhe d di thian jinase vyaktigat jivan ke chhote sukh-du:kh ka bhar halka ho jae.

vinay bap-beti ki is ekaant batachit ka drishy dekhakar kshan-bhar ke lie thithak gaya. satish kya kah raha tha, jaise usane yah suna hi nahian. us samay satish ne usase yuddh vidya ke bare mean ek b da kathin prashn poochha tha. agar bahut-se bagh pak dakar bahut dinoan tak unhean sikhaya jay aur phir apani sena ki agrim pankti mean rakhakar yuddh kiya jay to kya vijay nishchit n hogi, yahi usaka prashn tha. un donoan ka prashnottar ab tak bina badha ke hota raha tha, ab achanak badha ka anubhav karake satish ne vinay ke chehare ki or dekha. phir vinay ki drishti ka anusaran karate hue pareshababoo ke kamare ki or dekhate hi chilla utha, "lalita didi, yah dekho, maian vinay baboo ko raste se pak d laya hooan."

vinay pasina-pasina ho utha. kamare mean baithi lalita pal-bhar mean moodhe se uth kh di huee aur pareshababoo ne mu dakar raste ki or dekha. vinay b de asamanjas mean p d gaya.

vinay ne satish ko vida dekar pareshababoo ke ghar mean pravesh kiya. unake kamare mean pahuanchakar usane dekha, lalita chali gee thi. un sabako vah shaanti bhang karane vala ugravadi-sa lag raha hoga, yah sochakar vah sakuchata hua kursi par baith gaya.

vinay ne svasthy adi sadharan shishtachar ke bad sahasa bat shuroo ki, "maian jab hiandoo-samaj ke achar-vichar mean shradhda nahian rakhata aur roz-roj use to data hi rahata hooan, tab maian samajhata hooan ki brahm-samaj mean ashray lena hi mere lie uchit hoga. meri ichchha hai ki ap se hi diksha looan."

abhi pandrah minat pahale tak bhi is sankalp aur is ichchha ne vinay ke man mean spasht akar nahian liya tha. pareshababoo tho di der stabdh rahakar bole, "achchhi tarah sab batean sochakar dekh li haian?"

vinay ne kaha, "isamean aur to kuchh sochane ko nahian hai, bas itana hi sochana hai ki kya uchit hai aur kya anuchit? aur vah bahut sidhi bat hai. hamane jo shiksha paee hai usase maian kisi tarah eemanadari se achar-vichar ko hi param dharm ke roop mean svikar nahian kar sakata. isilie mere vyavahar mean kadam-kadam par visangati dikhati hai, aur jo hiandoo dharm mean poori shradhda rakhate haian unake sath ju da rahakar maian unhean barabar chot hi pahuanchata hooan. yah mere lie bilh‍kul anuchit hai, isamean koee sandeh nahian hai. aisi sthiti mean aur koee bat n sochakar is anyay ko door karane ke lie hi mujhe prastut hona chahie. nahian to mera atmasamman bana nahian rah sakata."

halaanki pareshababoo ko samajhane ke lie itani lanbi vyakhya ki zaroorat nahian thi, ye sab batean svayan apane ko bal dene ke lie thian. vah nyay aur anyay ke ek dvandv mean p da hua hai jisamean sab chho dakar nyay ka paksh lekar use jee hona hoga, yah sochakar usaki chhati garv se phool uthi. manushyatv ki maryada to rakhani hi hogi.

pareshababoo ne poochha, "dharm-vishvas ke bare mean brahm-samaj se tumhara mataiky to hai n?"

tho di der chup rahakar vinay bola, "apase sach kahooan, pahale maian sochata tha ki mera kuchh-n-kuchh dharm-vishvas hai. ise lekar kee logoan se mera kafi jhag da bhi hota raha hai, lekin aj maian nishchit janata hooan ki mere jivan mean abhi dharm-vishvas vikasit nahian hua hai. itana bhi samajh saka hooan to apako dekhakar. apane jivan mean dharm ki mujhe sachchi avashyakata nahian huee aur usamean sachcha vishvas nahian utpann hua, isilie kalpana aur yukti-kaushal se maian ab tak apane samaj mean chal rahe dharm ki tarah-tarah ki sookshm vyakhya karake keval apani tark karane ki yogyata badhata raha hooan. kaun dharm sachcha hai, yah sochane ki mujhe koee zaroorat nahian p di. jis dharm ko sachcha kahane se apani jit ho jae usi ko sachcha batakar sabit karane mean maian jut gaya hooan. praman dena jitana hi kathin hua hai utana hi praman de pane par maianne ahankar kiya hai. mere man mean kabhi dharm-vishvas sanpoorn saty aur svabhavik ho sakega ya nahian, yah maian aj bhi nahian kah sakata, lekin anukool avastha mean rahane par aur drishtaant samane hone par maian idhar badh sakata hooan, yah nishchit hai. kam-se-kam jo batean bhitar-hi-bhitar meri budhdi ko akharati haian, jivan-bhar unhian ka jhanda phaharate hue ghoomane ki glani se to mukti pa sakooanga."

pareshababoo se bat karate-karate vinay apani vartaman paristhiti ke anukool yuktiyoan ko roop dene laga. vah aise utsah se batean karane laga jaise bahut din ke tark-vitark ke bad vah is dridh sidhdaant par pahuanch saka hai.

phir pareshababoo ne usase kuchh din aur soch lene ke lie agrah kiya. isase vinay ne samajha ki pareshababoo ko usaki dridhata par shanka hai, jisase usaka hath aur bhi prabal ho utha. bar-bar vah yah jatane laga ki usaka man ek asandigdh biandu par a pahuancha hai jahaan se usake zara bhi hilane-dulane ki koee sanbhavana nahian hai. lalita se vivah ki bat donoan pakshoan mean se kisi ki or se nahian uthi.

isi samay varadasuandari ghar ke kisi kam ke bahane vahaan aeean aur vinay mano vahaan ho hi nahian, is dhang se apana kam karake jane lagian. vinay ne socha tha ki pareshababoo avashy varadasandari ko bulakar vinay ka naya samachar unhean deange. lekin pareshababoo ne kuchh nahian kaha. vastav mean unhoanne yah socha hi nahian ki abhi batane ka samay hua hai. vah is bat ko abhi sabase chhipae hi rakhana chahate the. lekin jab varadasuandari vinay ke prati spasht avajna aur krodh prakat karake jane lagian tab vinay se aur n raha gaya. usane jane ko udyat varadasuandari ke pairoan se sir jhukakar kaha, "maian brahm-samaj mean diksha lene ka prastav lekar ap logoan ke pas aya hooan. maian ayogy hooan, lekin ap log mujhe yogy bana leange isaka mujhe vishvas hai.

varadasuandari yah sunakar vismay se thithak geean aur dhire-dhire mu dakar kamare mean baith geean. jijnasu drishti se unhoanne pareshababoo ke muanh ki or dekha.

pareshababoo bole, "vinay diksha grahan karane ke lie anurodh kar rahe haian."

varadasuandari ke man mean yah sunakar vijay ka garv to udit hua, lekin sanpoorn anand nahian hua. bhitar-hi-bhitar unaki yah ichchha thi ki abaki bar pareshababoo ko ek achchha sabak mil jay. svami ko bhi bhari anutap bhogana hoga, unhoanne yah bhavishyavani bar-bar bahut zor dekar ki thi, isilie yah dekhakar ki samajik aandolan se pareshababoo kuchh vichalit nahian ho rahe haian, man-hi-man vah adhir bhi ho rahi thian. ab sare sankat ka sucharu roop se samadhan ho jaega, yah bat unake lie bahut adhik pritikar nahian thi. ganbhir chehara banakar unhoanne kaha, "diksha ka yah prastav yadi kuchh din pahale hi a gaya hota to hamean itana du:kh aur apaman n sahana p data."

pareshababoo ne kaha, "hamare du:kh, kasht aur apaman ki to koee bat nahian ho rahi hai, vinay diksha lena chahate haian."

varadasuandari bol uthian, "sirph diksha?"

vinay ne kaha, "aantaryami janate haian ki apaka du:kh-apaman sab mera bhi hai."

pareshababoo ne kaha, "dekho vinay, tum jo dharm ki diksha lena chahate ho usaki zimmedari doosaroan par n dalo. maian tumhean pahale bhi kah chuka hooan, ham log kisi samajik sankat mean p d rahe haian, aisa sochakar tum koee bhari zimmedari apane sir par n lena."

varadasuandari ne kaha, "so to thik hai. kiantu maian yah bhi kahooangi ki ham sabako jal mean phansakar chup baithe rahana bhi unaka kartavy nahian hai."

pareshababoo ne kaha, "chup n baithakar chanchal ho uthane se to phande mean aur bhi gaanthean p d sakati haian. kuchh karane ko hi kartavy kaha jay yah zaroori nahian hai, kuchh n karana hi kee bar sabase b da kartavy hota hai."

varadasuandari ne kaha, "vah hoga. maian to nirbudhdi hooan, achchhi tarah sab bat nahian samajh sakati. ab tay kya hua, yah sunakar chali jana chahati hooan, mujhe bahut kam hai."

vinay ne kaha, "parasoan ravivar ko maian diksha looanga. meri ichchha hai ki pareshababoo.... "

ekaek vinay ka man doob gaya. niyamanusar brahm-samaj mean avedan karane jaisi to usake man ki halat nahian thi- visheshataya jis brahm-samaj mean lalita ki bat ko lekar usaki itani charcha ho chuki thi vah kis muanh se kin shabdoan mean chitthi likhega? jab vah chitthi brahm-samaj patrika mean prakashit hogi, tab kaise vah sir utha sakega? vah chitthi gora padhega, anandamee padheangi. usake sath aur koee itihas to nahian diya jaega- usamean keval itani bat prakashit ki jaegi ki vinay ka man achanak brahm-dharm mean diksha lene ke lie bechain ho utha hai. sach bat utani hi to nahian hai- use aur bahut kuchh ke sath milakar n dekhane se vinay ke lie to kahian kuchh chhipane ka sthan n rahega.

varadasuandari vinay ko chup rahate dekhakar darian. bolian, "vah brahm-samaj mean to kisi ko pahachanate nahian, hamako hi sab bandobast kar dena hoga. maian aj hi abhi panoo baboo ko bula bhejati hooan. ab to samay bhi adhik nahian hai, parasoan hi to ravivar hai."

isi samay dikhaee diya ki sudhir kamare ke samane se oopar ki manzil ki or ja raha hai. use pukarakar varadasuandari ne kaha, "sudhir, vinay parasoan hi hamare samaj mean diksha leange."

sudhir ath‍yant praphullit ho utha. man-hi-man vah vinay ka b da prashansak tha, vinay ko brahm-samaj mean le liya ja sakega, yah sunakar vah bahut utsahit hua. vinay jaisi badhiya aangreji likh sakata tha, usaki jaisi vidya-budhdi thi, use dekhate usaka brahm-samaj mean shamil n hona hi sudhir ko vinay ke lie asangat jan p data tha. vinay jaisa vyakti kisi tarah brahm-samaj ke bahar rah hi nahian sakata, isaka praman pakar usaki chhati phool uthi. usane kaha, "lekin parasoan ravivar tak hi kaise sab ho sakega? bahutoan to khabar hi nahian pahuanch sakegi."

sudhir chahata tha ki vinay ki is diksha ko ek udaharan ke roop mean sarvasadharan ke sammukh ghoshit kiya jay.

varadasuandari ne kaha, "nahian, nahian, ravivar tak sab ho jaega. sudhirar, tum dau dakar jao, panoo baboo ko turant bula lao."

sudhir jis abhage ke udaharan dvara brahm-samaj ki ajey shakti ka sarvatr prachar karane ki kalpana se uttejit ho raha tha, vah man-hi-man apane ko bahut hin anubhav kar raha tha. jo chiz man-hi-man tark karate samay bilh‍kul mamooli dikhati thi, bahar usaka chehara dekhakar vinay vyakul ho utha.

panoo baboo ke bulae jane par vinay uth kh da hua. varadasuandari ne kaha, "jara baitho, panoo baboo abhi a jaeange, der nahian lagegi."

vinay ne kaha, "nahian-mujhe to maph kijie."

kisi tarah vah is vatavaran se nikalakar khule mean sari bat shaanti poorvak sochane ka avasar pa lena chahata tha.

vinay ke uthate hi pareshababoo bhi uth kh de hue aur usake kandhe par hath rakhate hue bole, "vinay, jaldabazi mean kuchh mat karo- shaanti se sthir hokar sari bat sochakar dekh lo. apane man ko thik-thik samajhe bina jivan ke itane b de mamale mean qadam mat badhao."

man-hi-man varadasuandari ne pati ke prati atyant asantusht hokar kaha, "shuroo mean to koee soch-samajhakar kam karata nahian, baval kh da kar deta hai, phir jab jan par ati hai tab kahata hai, 'baithakar socho.' tum log aram se baithakar soch sakate ho, lekin hamari to jan nikal rahi hai."

vinay ke sath sudhir bhi s dak par a gaya. dhang se baithakar khane se pahale tho da chakhakar dekhane ki jaisi ichchha hoti hai, kuchh usi dhang ki utavali sudhir ko ho rahi thi. vah chahata tha, usi samay vinay ko apane dostoan mean le jakar unhean yah shubh-sanvad sunakar khushiyaan manana shuroo kar de. lekin sudhir ke is uchchhvasit ullas dekhakar vinay ka man aur bhi sankuchit hota ja raha tha. jab sudhir ne prastav kiya, "vinay baboo, chalie n ham donoan sath-sath panoo baboo ke pas chalean", tab usaki bat anasuni karake jhatakakar apana hath chhu dakar vinay chala gaya.

tho di door jane par vinay ne dekha, avinash apane gut ke do-ek logoan ko sath lie b di tezi se lapakata hua kahian ja raha haian vinay ko dekhate hi avinash bola, "are, yah rahe vinay baboo! bahut achchha hua- chalie hamare sath!"

vinay ne poochha, "kahaan ja rahe ho?"

avinash ne kaha, "kashipur ka bagicha thik karane ja rahe haian, vahian gauramohan baboo ke prayashchit ki sabha hogi."

vinay ne kaha, "nahian, mujhe abhi jane ki phursat nahian hai."

avinash ne kaha, "yah kaisi bat kahate haian? yah kitani b di bat hai, ap kya samajh sakate haian? nahian to gauramohan baboo kya aisa anavashyak prastav karate. ajakal ke zamane mean hiandoo-samaj ko apani takat dikhani hogi. goramohan baboo ke prayashchit se desh ke logoan ke man mean kya koee mamooli halachal machegi? ham log desh-videsh ke brahman-pandit sabhi ko nimantrit kareange. isase sare hiandoo-samaj par b da gahara asar p dega. log samajh sakeange ki ham abhi zianda haian. samajh sakeange ki hiandoo-samaj marane vala nahian hai."

kisi tarah avinash se chhutakara pakar vinay age badh gaya.

haranababoo ko bulakar jab varadasuandari ne unase sari bat kahi tab tho di der vah ganbhir hokar baithe rahe aur phir bole, "is bare mean ek bar lalita ke sath batachit kar lena bhi hamara kartavy hai."

haranababoo ne lalita ke ane par apani ganbhirata ki matra ko aantim svar tak chadhakar kaha, "dekho lalita, tumhare jivan mean ek bahut b di zimmedari ka samay a pahuancha hai. ek taraph tumhara dharm hai, doosari taraph tumhari pravritti. dano mean se tumhean ek marg chun lena hoga."

itana kahane ke bad kuchh ruk kar haranababoo ne lalita ke chehare par aauankhean g da dian. haranababoo ka khayal tha ki unaki is nyayagni se dipt drishti ke samane bhiruta kaanp jaegi, kapat rakh ho jaega-unaki yah tejasvi adhh‍yatmik drishti brahm-samaj ki moolyavan sanpatti hai.

lalita ne kaha, "tumane suna hi hoga, tumhari avastha ki or dhh‍yan dekar ya jis karan se ho vinay baboo akhir hamare samaj mean diksha lene ko razi ho ge haian."

yah bat lalita ne pahale nahian suni thi. sunakar unake man par kya asar hua, yah usane prakat nahian hone diya. usaki aauankhean chamak uthian par vah patthar ki moorti-si sthir baithi rahi.

haranababoo kahate hi ge, "pareshababoo nishchay hi vinay ki is majaboori se bahut prasann hue haian. lekin vastav mean isamean prann hone ki koee bat hai ya nahian, isaka nishchay to tumhian ko karana hoga. isilie maian aj brahm-samaj ke nam par tumase anurodh karata hooan, apani unmatt pravritti ko ek taraph hatakar or keval dharm ki or nazar rakhakar apane hriday se yah prashn poochho ki kya isamean prasann hone ka vastavik karan hai?"

lalita ab bhi chup rahi. haranababoo ne samajha ki unaki batoan ka b da asar ho raha hai; unhoanne dugane utsah ke sath kaha, "diksha! diksha jivan ka kitana pavitr muhoort hai, yah kya aj mujhe batana hoga? us diksha ko kalushit karana! sukh-suvidha ya asakti ke lalach mean p dakar kya ham brahm-samaj ko asaty ke path par chho d deange- pakhand ko adar poorvak apane bich bula leange? bolo lalita, brahm-samaj ki is durgati ka itihas kya tumhare jivan ke sath hamesha ke lie ju d jaega?"

lalita ne ab bhi kuchh nahian kaha, kursi ke hatthe kasakar pak de hue chupachap baithi rahi. haranababoo bole, "asakti ki shah se durbalata manushy par kaise durnivar hokar hamala karati hai yah maianne kee bar dekha hai. aur manushy ki durbalata ko kaise kshama karana hota hai vah bhi maian janata hooan. lekin jo durbalata keval apane jivan ko nahian, saik doan-hazaroan logoan ke jivan ke sahare ki ekadam j d par jakar chot kare, use kya pal-bhar ke lie bhi kshama kiya ja sakata hai- lalita, tumhian batao. use kshama karane ka adhikar kya eeshvar ne hamean diya hai?"

kursi chho dakar lalita uth kh di huee. boli, "nahian, nahian, panoo baboo, ap kshama n karean! sari duniya ke logoan ko apake akraman ka hi abhyas ho gaya hai-shayad apaki kshama ham sabake lie bilh‍kul asahy ho jaegi." yah kahakar lalita kamare se chali gee.

varadasuandari haranababoo ki batoan se udvign ho uthian. vah kisi tarah bhi vinay ko chho d dena nahian chahati thi. haranababoo se unhoanne bahut anunay-vinay ki, kiantu sab bekar. aant mean unhoanne kshubdh hokar unhean vida kiya. unaki samasya yah thi ki vah n to pareshababoo ko apane paksh mean kar sakian aur n haranababoo ko hi. unhoanne aisi avastha ki kabhi kalpana bhi nahian ki thi. ek bar phir haranababoo ke bare mean varadasuandari ki ray badalane ka samay a gaya tha.

diksha lene ka mamala jab tak vinay ke samane dhuandhala-sa hi dikhata tha tab tak vah b de zor-shor so apana sankalp ugal kar raha tha. lekin jab usane dekha ki usake lie use brahm-samaj mean avedan karana hoga, aur haranababoo se salah bhi li jaegi, tab is khule prachar ki vibhishika se vah atyant kuanthi‍t ho utha. vah kahaan jakar kisake sath salah kare, yah nahian soch saka. anandamee ke pas jana bhi use asanbhav jan p da. s dak par ghoomane ki shakti bhi usamean nahian thi. vah apane soone ghar mean jakar oopar ke kamare mean takhtaposh par let gaya.

sham ho gee thi. naukar aandhere me batti lekar aya to vinay use mana karane hi ja raha tha ki niche se usane pukar suni, "vinay baboo, vinay baboo!"

vinay ki jan mean jan aee. mano marubhoomi mean pyase ko pani mil gaya. is halat mean satish ko chho dakar doosara koee use aram n pahuancha sakata. vinay ki shithilata door ho gee. "kaho bhaee satish", kahata hua vah lapakakar bistar se utha aur joota pahane bina hi tezi se sidhiyaan utar gaya.

vinay ne dekha, niche sidhiyoan ke samane chhote aauangan mean satish ke sath varadasuandari bhi kh di hai. phir vahi samasya, vahi chakh-chakh! ghabaraya hua-sa vinay satish aur varadasuandari ko oopar ke kamare mean le gaya.

varadasuandari ne satish se kaha, "satish, too ja, tho di der jakar vahaan baramade mean baith."

satish ke is niras nirvasan se du:khi hokar vinay ne use tasaviroan vali kuchh pustakean nikalakar dian aur sath ke kamare mean batti jalakar bitha diya.

varadasanduri ne jab kaha, "vinay, brahm-samaj mean tum to kisi ko janate nahian, ek chitthi likhakar tum mujhe hi de do, maian kal sabere svayan jakar use mantri mahashay ko dekar sab prabandh kara dooangi taki parasoan ravivar ko tumhari diksha ho jay- tumhean aur koee chianta nahian karani p degi." tab vinay kuchh uttar hi n de saka. unake adesh ke anusar usane ek chitthi likhakar varadasuandari ko de di. use is bat ki ichchha thi ki jo bhi ho, kisi ek aise raste par chal p de jis par lautane ya duvidha karane ka koee karan hi n rahe.

chalate-chalate lalita ke sath vivah ki bat ka zikr bhi varadasuandari ne kar diya.

varadasuandari ke chale jane par vinay ke hriday mean ek bhari vitrishna jag uthi. yahaan tak ki lalita ki smriti se bhi usake man mean ek besura rag gooanj gaya. use aisa laga ki varadasuandari ki is ashobhaniy h dab di mean kahian-kahian mano sabhi ke prati usaki shradhda kam hone lagi.

udhar varadasuandari ne ghar pahuanchate hi socha ki aj vah lalita ko khush kar sakegi. yah unhoanne nishchayapoorvak samajh liya tha ki lalita vinay ko chahati hai, isilie to unake vivah ki bat ko lekar samaj mean itani charcha thi. isake lie svayan ko chho d varadasuandari aur sabhi ko doshi manati thi. unhoanne pichhale kuchh dinoan se lalita se bolana bhi lagabhag band kar diya tha. isilie aj jab bat kahian kinare lagati dikh p di tab lalita ko yah jatakar ki aisa unhian ke karan sanbhav ho saka, vah sandhi karane ko atur ho uthian. lalita ke bap ne to mitti hi kar diya tha. lalita khud bhi vinay ko sidha n kar saki aur panoo baboo se bhi to koee madad nahian mili. akeli varadasuandari ne hi sari gutthi ko sulajha diya. haan, haan! paanch-paanch purush jo nahian kar sakate, ek akeli aurat kar dikhati hai.

lekin ghar lautakar varadasuandari ne suna, lalita jaldi hi sone chali gee thi, usaki tabiyat thik nahian thi. man-hi-man vah hansakar boli, "maian abhi tabiyat thik kie deti hooan."

hath mean batti lie aandhere shayanakaksh mean jakar unhoanne dekha, lalita abhi soee nahian thi, ek takie ke sahare adh-leti p di thi.

lalita phauran uth baithi aur boli, "maan, tum kahaan gee thian?"

usaka svar tikha tha. use yah khabar mil chuki thi ki maan satish ko lekar vinay ke ghar gee thi.

varadasuandari ne kaha, "maian vinay ke yahaan gee thi."

"kyoan?"

kyoan!-man-hi-man varadasuandari ko gussa aya. lalita samajhati hai ki mera usase koee bair hai. akritajn kahian ki!

vah bolian, "yah dekho, kyoan!" kahate hue vinay ki vah chitthi unhoanne lalita ki aauankhoan ke samane kar di. chitthi padhakar lalita ka muanh lal ho utha. varadasuandari ne apani bahaduri jatane ke lie badha-chadhakar kaha, "yah chitthi kya vinay se sahaj hi likhaee ja saki!" vah dave ke sath kah sakati haian, yah kam aur kisi se nahian ho sakata tha.

lalita donoan hathoan se muanh dhakakar let gee. varadasuandari ne samajha, unake samane apane hriday ka aveg prakat karane mean lalita sakucha rahi hai. vah kamare se bahar chali geean.

doosare din sabare chitthi lekar brahm-samaj ke lie taiyar hone par unhoanne dekha, vah chitthi kisi ne pha dakar tuk de-tuk de kar di hai.

tisare pahar sucharita pareshababoo ke pas jane ke lie taiyar ho rahi thi ki baire ne akar khabar di, "ek baboo ae haian."

"kaun baboo? vinay baboo haian?"

baire ne kaha, "nahian, bahut gore lanbe-chau de, ek baboo haian."

chauankakar sucharita ne kaha, "baboo ko oopar kamare mean lakar bithao."

aj sucharita ne kya kap de pahan rakhe the, kaise pahan rakhe the, isaki or ab tak dhh‍yan nahian diya tha. ab shishe ke samane kh de hone par use apani poshak bilh‍kul pasand nahian aee, lekin badalane ka samay bhi kahaan tha. kaanpate hathoan se aauanchal aur bal idhar-udhar se thik karake dh dakate hue hriday se sucharita baithane ke kamare mean pahuanchi. usake mez par gora ki rachanavali p di huee hai, yah bat use yad nahian rahi thi. aur thik usi mez ke samane kursi par gora baitha hua tha. kitabean besharami se thik gora ki aauankhoan ke samane bichhi thian- unhean dhakane ya hatane ka koee upay nahian tha.

"mausi apako dekhane ke lie bahut dinoan se utsuk haian, maian unhean khabar de aooan." kahakar sucharita ulte paanv laut aee- akeli gora se batachit karane ka sahas usamean n tha.

kuchh der bad vah harimohini ko sath lekar a gee. kuchh dinoan se vinay se harimohini gora ke mat, vishvas aur nishtha ki aur usake jivan ki batean sunati a rahi thian. unake kahane par bich-bich mean sucharita dopahar ko unhean gora ke lekh bhi padhakar sunati bhi rahi thi. yadyapi ve sab lekh thik-thik vah samajh nahian pati thian aur unase unhean niand ane ki bhi suvidha ho jati thi, phir bhi mote taur par itana vah samajh sakati thian ki gora shastr aur lokachar ka paksh lekar ajakal ki acharahinata ke khilaf l d raha hai. adhunik aangreji padhe-likhe l dake ke lie isase zyada acharaj aur tariph ki bat aur kya ho sakati hai. jab unhoanne brahm parivar ke bich pahale-pahal vinay ko dekha tha tab vinay se hi unhean yathesht tripti mili thi. kiantu dhire-dhire usaka abhyas ho jane ke bad jab unhoanne apane ghar par vinay ko dekha tab usake achar ki kamiyaan hi unhean zyada akharane lagian. vinay par vah bahut kuchh nirbhar karane lagi thian isilie usake prati unaka dhikkar bhi pratidin aur tivr hota jata tha, aur isilie gora ki pratiksha vah b di utsukata se kar rahi thi.

ek nazar gora ki or dekhakar hi harimohani chakit ho geean. haan, yah hota hai brahman! jaise bilh‍kul hom ki agni ho. jaise sakshath shubhrakay mahadev! unake man mean aise bhaktiras ka sanchar hua ki jab gora unhean pranam karane ke lie jhuka tab use grahan karate vah jhijhak geean.

harimohini ne kaha, "tumhari bat bahut sunati rahi hooan, beta! tumhian gaur ho. gaur hi to ho! vah jo kirtan ke bol haian-

'chaandera amiya sane chandan baantiya go

ke majil gorar dehakhani-'

vah aj aauankhoan se dekh liya. kaise tumhean koee jel mean dal saka maian to yahi soch rahi hooan."

hansakar gora ne kaha, "ap jaise log agar majistret hote to jel mean sirph choohe aur chamagad d hi rahate."

harimohini ne kaha, "nahian beta, duniya mean chor-juariyoan ki kya kami hai. lekin majistret ki kya aauankhean nahian thian? tum koee aise-vaise adami nahian ho, tum to bhagavan ke adami ho, yah to tumhare chehare ki or dekhane se hi pata lag jata hai. jel hai isilie kya kisi ko bhi usamean bhar dena hoga? bap re- yah kaisa nyay hai!"

gora ne kaha, "adami ke chehare ki or dekhane se unhean kahian bhagavan ka roop n dikh jay, isalie majistret log sirph qanoon ki kitab ki or dekhakar hi phaisala karate haian. nahian to logoan ko ko de, jel, kala pani, phaansi ki saza dekar kya unhean niand ati ya kuchh khate banata!"

harimohini ne kaha, "mujhe to jab bhi phursat milati hai, radharani se tumhari kitabean padhavakar sunati hooan. kab tumhare apane muanh se achchhi-achchhi batean sun sakooangi, itane dinoan se yahi sadh lagae baithi thi. maian moorakh anapadh aurat hooan, b di dukhiya hooan, sab bat samajha bhi nahian sakati aur sab batoan mean chitt bhi nahian laga sakati. par beta, tumase kuchh jnan pa sakooangi, isaka mujhe poora vishvas hai."

vinay gora ne unaki bat ka khandan nahian kiya, chup rah gaya.

harimohini bolian, "beta, tumhean aj kuchh khakar jana hoga. tum jaise brahman l dake ko maianne bahut dinoan se nahian khilaya. aj jo kuchh hai usi se muanh mitha kar lo lekin aur ek din ke lie tumhean mera nimantran pakka raha."

itana kahakar harimohini khane ki kuchh vyavastha karane chali geean to sucharita ko phir ghabarahat hone lagi.

ekaek gora ne bat shuroo kar di, "vinay apake yahaan aya tha?"

sucharita ne kaha, "haan"

gora ne kaha, "usake bad meri vinay se bheant to nahian huee, lekin maian janata hooan ki vah kyoan aya tha."

gora kuchh ruka. sucharita chup rahi.

gora ne kaha, "ap log jo brahm matanusar vinay ka vivah karane ki koshish kar rahi haian yah kya achchha kar rahi haian?"

is tane se sucharita ke man se lajja aur sankoch ki j data ekaek door ho gee. usane gora ke chehare ki or aauankhean uthate hue kaha, "brahm vivah ko maian achchha n samajhooan, ap kya mujhase yahi asha karate haian?"

gora ne kaha, "apase maian kisi chhoti bat ki asha nahian karooanga, yah ap avashy janati hi hoangi. jitani asha sampraday ke logoan se ki ja sakati hai, apase maian usase kahian zyada ki asha karata hooan. kisi ek gut ki sankhya badha dena hi jin thekedaroan ka kam hota hai ap us star ki nahian haian yah maian yakin se kah sakata hooan. meri ichchha yahi hai ki ap apane-apako sahi-sahi janean, doosare char-chh: logoan ki batoan mean akar apane ko chhota karake n dekhean. ap keval kisi ek gut ki sadasya-bhar nahian haian, yahi bat apako apane man mean bahut spasht karake samajh leni hogi."

sucharita apane man ki sari shakti ikatthi karake sanbhalakar baith gee. vah boli, "ap bhi kya kisi gut ke hi vyakti nahian haian?"

gora ne kaha, "maian hidoo hooan. hiandoo to koee gut nahian hua, hiandoo to ek jati hai. yah jati itani vishal hai ki isaka jatitv kisamean hai yah kisi paribhasha mean baandha hi nahian ja sakata. samudr, jaise usaki lahar nahian hai. vaise hi hiandoo kaee gut nahian hai."

sucharita ne kaha, "hiandoo agar gut nahian hai to itani gutabandi kyoan hoti hai?"

gora ne kaha, "kisi adami ko yadi marane jaean to vah apana bachav kyoan karata hai? usamean pran haian isilie to. sab tarah ke aghat sahakar to patthar hi chup p da rah sakata hai."

sucharita ne kaha, "jise maian dharm kahakar janati hooan use agar hiandoo akraman karana samajhean to aisi halat mean ap mujhe kya karane ko kaheange."

gora ne kaha, "tab maian apako kahooanga ki jise ap dharm samajh rahi haian vah agar hiandoo jati nam ki itani b di virat satta ko ek kasht dene vala akraman jan p data hai, to apako achchhi tarah sochakar dekhana chahie ki kahian apamean koee bhram, koee aandhata to nahian hai, ki apane sab or se sab tarah ka vichar kar liya hai ki nahian. gut ke logoan ke sanskaroan ko keval ho d ya alasy ke karan saty manakar itana b da upadrav karane ko taiyar ho jana uchit nahian hai. chooha jab jahaz ke tal mean bil khodane lagata hai tab vah apani suvidha aur pravritti ki hi sochata hai- vah yah nahian dekhata ki itane b de ashray mean chhed karane se use jitani suvidha hogi usaki tulana mean aur sabaka kitana b da nukasan hoga. isi tarah apako bhi yah sochakar dekh lena hoga ki kya ap keval apane gut ki bat soch rahi haian ya ki samoochi manavata ki. samoochi manavata se kya abhipray hai, yah ap samajhati haian? usamean kitani tarah ki prakritiyaan haian-kaisi-kaisi pravrittiyaan, kya-kya zarooratean? sabhi manushy ek hi marg par ek sthan par kh de nahian haian- kisi ke samane paha d haian, kisi ke samane samudr, kisi ke samane jangal, phir bhi kisi ke lie baithe rahane ka avasar nahian hai, sabhi ko age badhate hi jana hai. ap keval apane hi gut ke niyamoan ko sabhi par lagoo karana chahati haian? aauankhean band karake man lena chahati haian ki manushyoan ke bich koee vaichitray nahian hai, ki sabhi ne keval brahm-samaj ki bahi mean nam likhane ke lie sansar mean janm liya hai? tab phir jo dasyu jatiyaan duniya ki sabhi jatiyoan ko yuddh mean parajit kar apana ek chhatr raj phailane mean hi duniya ka kalyan samajhati haian, jo apani takat ke garoor mean yah nahian manatian ki doosari jatiyoan ki visheshataean bhi vishv ke hit ke lie moolyavan haian, unamean aur apamean aantar hi kya rah gaya?"

sucharita tho di der ke lie sab bahas aur tark bhool gee, gora ke ganbhir svar ki ashcharyajanak prabalata ne usake sare aant:karan ko jhanajhana diya. gora kisi ek bat ko lekar bahas karata raha hai yah jaise vah bhool hi gee, usake samane keval itana hi saty rah gaya ki gora bol raha haian

gora kahata gaya, "bharat ke bis karo d logoan ko apake samaj ne hi nahian banaya. in bis karo d logoan ke lie kaun-sa marg upayogi hai- kaun-sa vishvas, kaun-sa achar unaki bhookh mitaega, unhean shakti dega, yah tay karane ka bhar zabaradasti apane oopar lekar itane b de bharatavarsh ko ap kyoan ek-sa sapat-samatal kar dena chahati haian? is asanbhav kam mean jitani a dachan ati hai, utana hi ap logoan ko sare desh par gussa ata hai, ashradhda hoti hai, jitana hi ap jinaka hit karana ahate haian usase adhik ghrina karake unhean paraya bana dete haian. phir bhi ap yah manana chahate haian ki jis eeshvar ne manushy ko vichitr hi banaya hai aur vichitr hi rakhana chaha hai, usi ki ap pooja karate haian. agar sachamuch ap log usi ko manate haian, to usake vidhan ko ap log spasht kyoan nahian dekh pate, apani budhdi aur apane gut ke ahankar mean kyoan usaka asal abhipray nahian grahan karate?"

kuchh bhi uttar dene ki cheshta n karake sucharita chupachap gora ki bat sunati ja rahi hai, yah dekhakar gora ke man mean karuna upaji. tho di der rukakar usane dhime svar mean kaha, "meri batean shayad apako kathor jan p deangi- lekin mujhe ek virodh paksh ka adami samajhakar man mean vidroh ka bhav n rakhean. maian agar apako virodh paksh ka samajhata to koee bat n kahata. apake man mean jo ek svabhavik udar shakti hai, vah gut ki sima mean bandhi ja rahi hai isase mujhe du:kh hota hai."

sucharita ke chehare par lali phail gee. vah boli, "nahian-nahian, ap meri bilh‍kul paravah n karean. ap kahate jaie, maian samajhane ki koshish kar rahi hooan."

gora ne kaha, "mujhe isake siva aur kuchh nahian kahana hai ki bharatavarsh ko ap apani sahaj budhdi se, sahaj man se dekhean, use prem karean. bharatavarsh ke logoan ko ap yadi keval abrahm manakar dekheangi to unhean vikrit karake dekheangi aur unaki avajna kareangi, tab unhean barabar galat hi samajhati raheangi. jahaan se dekhane par unhean sanpoorn dekha ja sakata hai, vahaan se unhean ap dekheangi hi nahian. eeshvar ne unhean manushy banaya hai, vah tarah-tarah se chalate haian, unake tarah-tarah ke vishvas aur sanskar haian- lekin sabake mool mean ek hi manushyata hai, sabake bhitar aisa kuchh hai jo hamari apani chiz hai, jisako sahi sachchi drishti se dekhane par usaki sari kshudrata aur adhoorepan ka avaran chirakar ek ashcharyamay mahanh satta aauankhoan ke samane ati hai. bahut dinoan ki anek sadhanaean usamean chhipi huee haian, usaki rakh mean ab bhi bahut dinoan ke hom ki agni jal rahi haian aur yahi ag ek din apake kshudr desh-kal ke oopar uthakar sari duniya mean apani shikha prajjavalit kar degi isamean tho da bhi sandeh nahian hai isi bharatavarsh ke log bahut dinoan se bahut b di bat kahate ae haian, bahut b de kam karate rahe haian, vah sab ekaek mithya ho gaya hai aisi kalpana karana bhi saty ke prati ashradhda hai- vahi to nastikata hai."

sir jhukae sucharita sun rahi thi. ab chehara uthakar boli, "ap mujhe kya karane ko kahate haian?"

gora ne kaha, "aur kuchh nahian kahata, matr itana hi kahata hooan ki apako yah sochakar dekhana chahie ki hiandoo dharm maan ki tarah anek mat-vishvasi ke logoan ko apani god mean lene ka yatn karata raha hai, arthath duniya mean keval hiandoo dharm ne manushy ko manushy kahakar jana hai, keval gut ka vyakti nahian samajha. hiandoo dharm moodh ko bhi manata hai, jnani ko bhi manata hai- aur jnan ki bhi keval ek moorti ko nahian manata, usake anek prakar ke vikas ko manata hai. khristan vaichitray ko svikar karana nahian chahate. ve kahate haian, ek taraph khristan dharm hai aur doosari taraph anant vinash, aur inake bich koee vichitrata nahian hai. ham logoan ne aise hi khristan se shiksha paee hai, isalie hiandoo dharm ki vichitrata par ham lajjit hote haian. isi vichitrata ke aandar se hi hiandoo dharm ekata ko dekhane ki sadhana karata hai, yah ham dekh nahian pate. man ke charoan or p da isi khristani shiksha ka phanda katakar nikale bina ham kisi hiandoo dharm ka sachcha parichay pane ke gaurav ke adhikari nahian hoange."

gora ki bat sucharita keval sun hi nahian rahi thi, mano pratyaksh dekh rahi thi. gora ki aauankhoan mean bhavishy ki jo dhh‍yan-moorti basi huee thi, usake shabdoan se vahi mano sucharita ke samane prakat ho rahi thi. lajja ko bhoolakar, svayan apane ko bhoolakar vicharoan ke utsah se dipt gora ke chehare ko sucharita ekatak dekhati rahi. us chehare mean sucharita ko kuchh aisi shakti dikhi jo yog-bal se duniya mean b de-b de sankalpoan ko poora kar deti hai. sucharita ne apane samaj ke kee vidvanh aur budhdiman logoan se bahut-si tatv vivechana suni hai. sucharita aj mano vajrapani iandr ko dekh rahi thi-usake vaky jab prabal mand svar se kanoan par aghat karake usake aantash ko spandit kar rahe the tab sath-hi-sath usake rakt mean mano bijali ki tivr lahar bhi kshan-kshan par nach uthati thi. gora ke mat se usaka mat kahaan kitana milata hai ya nahian milata, yah spasht taur par dekhane ki shakti sucharita mean n rahi. isi samay satish ne kamare mean pravesh kiya. gora se use bhay lagata tha, isilie usase bachata hua vah apani didi se satakar ja kh da hua aur dhire se bola, "panoo baboo ae haian."

sucharita chauank uthi- mano kisi ne use pit diya ho. usake man ki halat aisi thi ki panoo baboo ke ane ko vah kisi tarah thelakar, kuchalakar mitakar radd kar sake to use shaanti mile. satish ki dhimi bat gora ne n suni hogi, aisa sochakar jaldi se sucharita uth kh di huee. sidhi sidhiyoan se utarakar haranababoo ke samane jakar vah boli, "mujhe maph kijie, aj apase batachit nahian ho sakegi."

haranababoo ne poochha, "kyoan nahian ho sakegi?"

prashn ka uttar n dekar sucharita ne kaha, "kal sabere ap udhar baba ke yahaan a jaean to maian vahian mil jaooangi."

haranababoo ne poochha, "shayad aj tumhare yahaan koee aya hua hai?"

is prashn ko bhi talakar sucharita ne kaha, "aj mujhe suvidha nahian hai, aj daya karake ap mujhe kshama kar dean."

haranababoo bole, "lekin raste se hi to gauramohan baboo ki avaz sunaee p di thi, vahian haian kya?"

sucharita is prashn ko tal n saki, lal hoti huee boli, "haan, haian!"

haranababoo ne kaha, "achchha hi hua, unase bhi mujhe kuchh bat karani thi. tum kuchh khas kam kar rahi ho to maian tab tak gauramohan baboo se batachit kar looanga." yah kahakar sucharita ki sammati ki pratiksha kie bina vah sidhiyaan chadhane lage. kamare mean pahuanchakar sucharita ne pas kh de haranababoo ko dekhe bina sidhe gora se kaha, "mausi apake lie kuchh jalapan taiyar karane gee haian, maian zara unhean dekh aooan." aur tezi se chali gee. haranababoo ganbhir chehara banakar ek kursi par baith ge.

haranababoo ne kaha, "kuchh dubale dikh rahe haian.... "

gora ne kaha, "ji haan, kuchh din dubale hone ke lie hi upachar chal raha tha."

haranababoo ne svar kuchh namr karake kaha, "tabhi to. apako bahut kasht bhogana p da."

gora ne kaha, "jitani asha ki thi, usase adhik to nahian."

haranababoo bole, "ap se vinay baboo ke bare mean kuchh batachit karani hai. apane shayad suna hoga, agale ravivar ko vah brahm-samaj mean diksha lene ka ayojan kar rahe haian."

gora ne kaha, "nahian, maianne to nahian suna."

haranababoo ne poochha, "apaki isamean sammati hai?"

gora ne kaha, "vinay ne to meri sammati nahian maangi."

haranababoo ne kaha, "ap kya samajhate haian, vinay baboo sachche man se yah diksha lene ke lie taiyar hue haian?"

gora ne kaha, "jab vah diksha lene ko razi hue haian, tab apaka yah prashn bilh‍kul nirarthak hai."

haranababoo bole, "pravritti jab sabal ho uthati hai tab ham yah sochakar dekhane ka avakash hi nahian pate ki ham kya vishvas karate haian aur kya nahian karate. ap manav-charitr to janate hi haian."

gora ne kaha, "nahian, maian manav-charitr ke bare mean anavashyak charcha nahian karata."

haranababoo ne kaha, "mera mat aur samaj apase bhinn hai, lekin maian apaka samman karata hooan. maian nishchay janata hooan ki ap mean jo vishvas hai, vah sahi ho ya mithya, koee pralobhan apako usase iga nahian sakata. "lekin.... "

bat katakar gora ne kaha, "mere lie apane yah jo zara-sa samman bacha rakha hai, usaka aisa kya mooly hai ki usase vanchit hokar vinay ka koee bhari nukasan ho jaega! duniya mean achchhaee-buraee nam ki chiz avashy hai, lekin usaka mooly agar ap apani shradhda aur ashradhda ke adhar par lagana chahean to laga lean, kiantu phir sabako vahi manane ko n kahean."

haranababoo ne kaha, "achchha, khair, is bat ka nirnay abhi n bhi ho to koee harj nahian. lekin maian apase poochhata hooan, vinay jo pareshababoo ke yahaan vivah karane ka prayatn kar rahe haian, ap kya usamean badha nahian deange?"

lal hote hue gora ne kaha, "haranababoo, vinay ke bare mean ye sab batean kya maian apake sath kar sakata hooan? ap jo hamesha manav-charitr ki bat lie rahate haian, to apako yah bhi samajhana chahe ki vinay mera bandhu hai aur apaka bandhu vah nahian hai."

haranababoo bole, "is mamale se brahm-samaj ka bhi sanbandh hai isilie maianne yah bat uthaee hai, nahian to.... "

gora ne kaha, "lekin maian to brahm-samaj ka koee nahian hooan, mere lie apaki is dushchiantata ka kya mooly hai?"

isi samay sucharita kamare mean aee. haranababoo ne usase kaha, "sucharita, tumase mujhe kuchh khas bat kahani hai."

yah kahane ki koee zaroorat ho aisa nahian tha; haranababoo ne khamakhah gora ko yah jatane ke lie yah bat kahi ki sucharita se unaki vishesh ghanishthata hai. sucharita ne unhean koee javab nahian diya, gora bhi apani jagah atal baitha raha. haranababoo ko ekaant batachit ka mauqa dene ke lie uth kh de hone ka koee upakram usane nahian dikhaya.

haranababoo ne phir kaha, "sucharita, zara us kamare mean chalana to, tumase ek bat kahani hai."

sucharita ne unhean koee uttar die bina gora ki or dekhakar poochha, "apaki maan achchhi tarah haian?"

gora ne kaha, "aisa to kabhi hua hi nahian ki vah achchhi tarah n hoan."

sucharita ne kaha, "achchhi tarah rahane ki shakti unake lie kitani sahaj vastu haian, yah maian dekh aee hooan."

gora ko dhh‍yan aya ki jab vah jel mean tha, tab sucharita anandamee ko dekhane gee thi. is bich haranababoo ne ekaek mej par se ek kitab uthakar use kholakar pahale lekhak ka nam dekha, phir kitab ko idhar-udhar ulat-palatakar dekhane lage.

sucharita ka chehara lal ho utha. kaun-si pustak hai, yah gora janata tha, isalie vah man-hi-man hansa.

haranababoo ne poochha, "gauramohan baboo, yah sab shayad apake bachapan ki rachanaean haian."

hansakar gora bola, "vah bachapan ab bhi chaloo hai. kisi-kisi prani ka bachapan jalchhi samapt ho jata hai, kiantu kisi-kisi ka bahut din tak bana rahata hai."

kursi se uthate hue sucharita ne kaha, "gauramohan baboo, apake lie jalapan taiyar ho gaya hoga. ap zara us kamare mean chalie- mausi panoo ke samane to aeangi nahian, vah apaki pratiksha kar rahi hoangi."

sucharita ne yah aantim bat vishesh roop se haranababoo ko chot pahuanchane ke lie hi kahi. aj vah bahut sah chuki thi, kuchh javab die bina n rah saki.

gora uth kh da hua. haranababoo parast hue bina bole, "to maian yahian pratiksha karata rahooan."

sucharata ne kaha, "phijool pratiksha karake kya hoga, aj samay milana mushkil hi hai."

lekin haranababoo nahian hile. sucharita aur gora kamare se chale ge.

is ghar mean gora ko dekhakar aur usake prati sucharita ka vyavahar lakshy karake haranababoo ka man astr sanbhalata hua satark ho utha. brahm-samaj se sucharita kya aise vimukh ho jaegi? usako maryadit karane vala kya koee nahian hai? jaise bhi ho usaka pratirodh karana hi hoga. haranababoo ek kagaz lekar sucharita ko chitthi likhane baith ge. haranababoo ke kuchh-ek nishchit vishvas the, jinamean se ek yah bhi tha ki saty ka nam lekar jab vah kisi ko phatakarate haian to unake tejasvi vaky kabhi nishphal nahian ja sakate. keval vaky hi sab kuchh nahian haian, manushy ka man nam ki bhi ek chiz hai, isaki or unaka dhh‍yan hi nahian jata tha.

jalapan ke bad harimohini ke sath kafi der tak batachit karake gora jab apani chh di lene ke lie sucharita ke kamare mean aya tab sham ho gee thi. sucharita ki desk par batti jal rahi thi. haranababoo chale ge the. sucharita ke nam ek chitthi mez par is tarah rakhi thi ki kamare mean pravesh karate hi us par nazar ja p de.

gora ka hriday us chitthi ko dekhakar bhitar-hi-bhitar kathor ho aya. chitthi haranababoo ki likhi huee hai, isamean use sandeh n tha. sucharita par haranababoo ka kuchh khas adhikar hai yah gora janata tha, us adhikar mean koee rukavat a gee hai yah vah nahian janata th. aj jab satish ne haranababoo ke ane ki bat sucharita ke man mean kahi aur sucharita chakit hokar jaldi se niche chali gee aur phauran unhean sath lekar laut aee tab use kuchh betuka-sa laga. phir jab haranababoo ko kamare mean akela chho dakar sucharita gora ko khilane le gee, tab usaka yah vyavahar gora ko kuchh khataka avashy tha, lekin jahaan ghanishthata ho vahaan aisa rookha vyavahar bhi chal sakata hai, yahi sochakar gora ne ise atmiyata ka hi chinh man liya tha. isake siva mez par yah chitthi dekhakar gora ko aur dhakka laga. chitthi ek b di hi rahasyamay chiz hai. bahar keval nam dikhakar vah asal bat bhitar rakh leti hai isase vah kisi ko bilh‍kul bina karan vyakul kar de sakati hai.

gora ne sucharita ke chehare ki or dekhakar kaha, "maian kal aooanga."

sucharita ne aauankhean milae bina kaha, "achchha."

vida lete samay gora ne sahasa thithakar kaha, "bharatavarsh ke sauramandal mean hi tumhara nishchit sthan hai- tum mere apane desh ki ho- koee dhoomaketu akar tumhean apani pooanchh ki lapet mean lekar shoony mean chala jae, yah kisi tarah sanbhav nahian ho sakega. jahaan tumhara asan haian vahian tumhean dridhata se pratishthit karake hi maian chho dooanga. ye log tumhean samajhate rahe haian ki tumhara saty aur dharm us jagah tumhara parityag kar dega maian tumh‍hean saf bata dooanga ki tumhara saty aur dharm keval tumhara ya aur do-char logoan ka mat ya vaky nahian hai, vah charoan or se asankhy pranoan ke sootr se bandha hai, chahane se hi use van se ve ukha dakar gamale mean nahian rop diya ja sakata. use agar ujjval aur pran rakhana chahati ho, use sanpoorn roop se sarthak karana chahati ho to tumhean lok-samaj ke hriday mean us jagah asan lena hi hoga jo tumhare lie tumhare janm ke bhi bahut pahale se nirdisht hai. kisi tarah tum yah nahian kah sakogi ki- ye parae haian, maian inaki koee nahian hooan- aisa kahogi to tumhara saty, dharm, shakti sab ekaek chhaya-si dhuandhali ho jaeangi. bhagavan ne tumhean jis jagah bhej diya hai vah chahe jaisi ho, kiantu tumhara mat agar tumhean vahaan se khianchakar hata le jaega to usase kabhi tumhare mat ki jit nahian hogi, yah bat maian tumhean thik tarah samajha dooanga. kal maian phir aooanga."

itana kahakar gora vahaan se chala gaya. kamare ke bhitar ki hava mano bahut der tak kaanpati rahi. sucharita moorti-si stabdh baithi rahi.