गोरा उपन्यास -रविन्द्र नाथ टैगोर
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varsharaj shravan mas ki subah hai, badal barasakar chhant chuke the, nikhari chatak dhoop se kalakatta ka akash chamak utha hai. s dakoan par gho da-ga diyaan lagatar dau d rahi haian, pheri vale ruk-rukakar pukar rahe haian. jinhean daftar, k aaulej aur adalat jana hai unake lie ghar-ghar machhali-bhat-roti taiyar ki ja rahi hai. rasoeegharoan se aangithi jalane ka dhuaan uth raha hai. kiantu tab bhi is itane b de, pashan-hriday, kamakaji shahar kalakatta ki saikadoan s dakoan-galiyoan ke bhitar svarn-rashmiyaan aj mano ek apoorv yauvan ka pravah lie machal rahi hai.
vinayabhooshan aise din phurasat ke samay apane makan ki doosari manzil ke baramade mean akela kh da niche rah chalane valoan ko dekh raha tha. usaki k aaulej ki padhaee bahut din huee poori ho chuki thi, par sansari jivan se abhi usaka parichay nahian hua tha. sabha-samitiyoan ke sanchalan aur samachar-patroan mean likhane ki or usane man lagaya tha, kiantu usaka man usamean poora ram gaya ho, aisa nahian tha. isi karan aj sabere 'kya kiya jae' yah soch n pane se usaka man bechain ho utha tha. p dos ke ghar ki chhat par n jane kya lie tin-char kaue kaanv-kaanv kar rahe the, aur usake baramade ke ek kone mean ghoansala banane mean vyast chi diyoan ka jo da chahachahakar ek-doosare ko utsah de raha tha- aise hi anek asphut svar vinay ke man mean ek mishrit bhavaveg jaga rahe the.
pas ki ek dukan ke samane gud di lapete hue ek fakir kh da hokar gane laga :
khaanchar bhitar achinh pakhi kamane ase yay
dharate parale manobe di ditem pakhir pay.
vinay ka man hua, fakir ko bulakar anapahachane pakhi ka yah gan likh le. kiantu b de t dake jaise ja da lagate rahane par bhi chadar khianchakar odh lene ka hosh nahian rahata, vaise hi ek alas bhav ke karan n to fakir ko bulaya gaya, n gan hi likha gaya; keval anapahachane pakhi ka vah svar man mean gooanjata rah gaya. usake ghar ke thik samane achanak hi ek bagghi ek gho daga di se takarakar usaka ek pahiya to dati huee, bina rukakar tezi se age nikal gee. gho daga di palati to nahian, par ek or ko ludhak gee.
tezi se s dak par akar vinay ne dekha, ga di se satrah-atharah varsh ki ek l daki utar p di hai aur bhitar se ek adhe d vay ke bhadr-purush ko utarane ka prayatn kar rahi hai.
sahara dekar vinay ne bhadr-purush ko utara tatha unake chehare ka rang u da hua dekhakar poochha, "chot to nahian aee?"
"nahian-nahian, kuchh nahian hua", kahate hue unhoanne hansane ka prayatn kiya, par vah hansi turant vilin ho gee aur vah moorchchhit hote-se jan p de. vinay ne unhean pak d liya aur ghabaraee huee l daki se kaha, "yah samane hi mera ghar hai, bhitar chalie!"
vridhd ko bichhaune par lita diya gaya. ek bar l daki ne charoan or dekha kamare ke ek kone mean surahi rakhi thi- jaldi se usane surahi se gilas mean pani uan delakar vridhd ke muanh par chhiante die aur aanchal se pankha jhalati huee vinay se boli, "kyoan n kisi d aauktar ko bula liya jae?"
d aauktar pas hi rahate the; unhean bulane ke lie vinay ne baire ko bhej diya. kamare mean ek or mez par aeena, tel ki shishi aur bal sanvarane ka saman rakha th. l daki ke pichhe kh da vinay stabdh bhav se aine ki or dekhata raha.
bachapan se hi vinay kalakatta mean ghar par hi padhata-likhata raha hai. sansar se usaka jo kuchh parichay hai vah sab pustakoan ke dvara hi hai. paraee bhadr striyoan se usaka koee parichay nahian hua.
aeene ki or takataki lagae hue hi usane socha, jis chehare ka pratibianb usamean p d raha hai vah kitana suandar hai. chehare ki pratyek rekha ko alag karake pahachane, itana anubhav usaki aankhoan ko nahian tha. keval udvign sneh se jhuke hue tarun chehare ki komalata-mandit snigdh kaanti, srishti ke ek sady:prakashit vismay-si vinay ki aankhoan mean bas gee.
tho di der bad hi dhire-dhire vridhd ne aankhean kholate hue 'maan' kahakar lanbi saans li. l daki ki aankhean dabadaba aeean. vridhd ke chehare ke pas muanh lakar jhukate hue usane dravit svar se poochha, "baba, kahaan chot lagi hai?"
"yah maian kahaan a gaya?" kahate hue uth baithane ka prayatn karate vridhd ke samane akar vinay ne kaha, "uthie nahian.... aram se lete rahie, d aauktar a raha hai." tab sari ghatana unhean yad a gee aur unhoanne kaha, "sir mean yahaan tho da dard hai.... zyada kuchh nahian hai."
itane mean joote charamarate hue d aauktar bhi a pahuanche. unhoanne bhi kaha "aisi koee vishesh bat nahian hai." garm doodh mean tho di braandi milakar dene ka adesh dekar d aauktar chalane lage, to vridhd b de pareshan-se hokar uthane lage. l daki ne unake man ki bat samajhakar kaha, "baba, ap kyoan pareshan hote haian- d aauktar ki phis aur dava ke dam ghar se bhej die jaeange." kahakar usane vinay ki or dekh.
kaisi ashcharyamee aankhean! ve aankhean b di haian ki chhoti, kali ki bhoori, mano yah khyal hi man mean nahian uthata- pahali hi nazar mean jan p data hai, in aankhoan mean ek aniandit prabhav hai. unamean sankoch nahian hai, duvidha nahian hai, ek sthir shakti se ve bhari hai.
vinay ne kahana chaha, "phis bahut hi mamooli hai.... usake lie.... usaki ap.... vah maian...."
l daki ki aankhean usi par tiki thian, isalie apani bat vah thik se poori nahian kar paya. kiantu phis ke paise use lene hi hoange, is bare mean koee sandeh use nahian raha. vridhd ne kaha, "dekhie, mere lie braandi ki zaroorat nahian hai....."
kanya ne unhean tokate hue kaha, "kyoan baba, d aauktar sahab kah jo ge haian."
vridhd bole, "d aauktar log to aisa kahate hi rahate haian. vah unaki keval ek buri adat hai. jo tho di-si kamazori mujhe jan p dati hai vah garam doodh se hi thik ho jaegi."
doodh pikar kuchh sanbhalakar vridhd ne vinay se kaha, "ab ham log chalean. apako b da kasht diya."
vinay ki or dekhakar kanya ne kaha, "jara ek ga di...."
sakuchate hue vridhd ne kaha, "phir kyoan unhean kahati ho? hamara ghar to pas hi hai, itana to paidal chale jaeange."
l daki ne kaha, "nahian baba; aisa nahian ho sakata."
vridhd ne usaki bat ka virodh nahian kiya, aur vinay svayan jakar gho daga di bula laya. ga di par savar hone se pahale vridhd ne usase poochha, "apaka nam kya hai?" "mujhe vinayabhooshan chattopadhya'y kahate haian."
vridhd bole, "mera nam pareshababoochandr bhattachary hai. pas hi 78 nanbar ke makan mean rahata hooan. phurasat hone par kabhi ham logoan ke yahaan aean to hamean b di khushi hogi." vinay ke chehare ki or aankhean uthakar kanya e is anurodh ka maun samarthan kiya.
vinay tabhi usi ga di mean unake ghar jane ko atur tha, kiantu vah shishtachar ke anukool hoga ya nahian, soch n pakar kh da rah gaya. ga di chalane par l daki ne vinay ko ek chhota-sa namaskar kiya. is abhivadan ke lie vinay bilkual taiyar nahian tha, isalie hatabudhdi-sa hokar vah prati-namaskar bhi nahian kar saka. ghar ke bhitar akar vah bar-bar apani itani-si chook ke lie svayan ko dhikkarane laga. vinay in logoan ke milane se lekar vida hone tak ke apane acharan ki alochana karake dekhane laga- use laga, shuroo se aant tak usake sare vyavahar mean asabhyata jhalakati rahi hai. kaun-kaun-se samay kya-kya karana uchit tha, kya kahana uchit tha, vah man-hi-man isi ko lekar vyarth udhe d-bun karane laga. kamare mean lautakar usane dekha, jis roomal se l daki ne apane pita ka muanh poanchha tha vah roomal bistar par p da rah gaya hai. usane lapakakar use utha liya. fakir ke gane ke svar usake man mean gooanj uthe :
khaansar bhitar achinh pakhi kamane ase yay.
din kuchh aur chadh aya. barasat bad ki dhoop tez ho uthi thi. ga diyoan ki katar daftaroan ki or aur tezi se dau dane lagi. vinay ka man us din kisi kam mean nahian laga. aise apoorv anand ke sath aisi saghan vedana ka bodh use apane jivan mean kabhi nahian hua tha. usaka kshudr ghar aur usake as-pas ka kutsit kalakatta mayapuri-sa ho utha tha. jis rajy mean asanbhav sanbhav ho jata hai, asadhye sidhd hota hai, jisamean roopatit roop lekar samane dikhaee deta hai, mano kisi aise hi niyam-vihin rajy mean vinay ghoom raha tha. barasat bad ki subah ki dhoop ki dipt abha usake man mean bas gee thi, usake rakt mean dau d rahi thi, usake aant:karan ke sammukh ek jyotirmay chadar-si chhakar dainik jivan ki sari tuchchhata ko bilkural ojhal kar gee thi. vinay ka man chah raha tha ki apani paripoornata ko kisi acharaj-bhare roop mean prakat kar de, kiantu usake lie koee upay n pakar usaka chitt pi dit ho utha tha. apana parichay usane bahut hi samany logoan-jaisa hi diya- atyant kshudr ghar, idhar-udhar bikhara hua saman, bichhauna bhi saf nahian. kisi-kisi din apane kamare mean yah guladaste mean phool sajakar rakhata kiantu us din durbhay se kamare mean phool ki ek pankhu di bhi nahian thi. sabhi kahate haian ki sabhaoan mean vinay jaisi suandar vaktrita jabani hi de deta hai, usase ek din bahut b da vakta ho jaega, kiantu us din aisi ek bhi bat usane nahian kahi jisase usaki budhdi ka kuchh bhi praman mile. bar-bar use keval yahi soojhata ki yadi kahian aisa ho sakata, ki jab vah bagghi ga di se takarane ja rahi thi, us samay bijali ki tezi se s dak ke bich pahuanchakar maian anayas un muanhajor gho doan ki jo di ki lagam pak dakar unhean rok deta. apane us kalpanik paurush ki chhavi jab usake man mean moort ho uthi, tab aine ke samane jakar ek bar apana chehara dekhe bina usase raha nahian gaya.
tabhi usane dekha, s dak par kh da sat-ath baras ka ek l daka usake ghar ka nanbar dekh raha hai. vinay ne oopar se hi pukara, "yahi hai, thik yahi ghar hai." l daka usi ke ghar ka nanbar dhooandh raha hai, is bare mean use tho da bhi sandeh nahian tha. sidhiyoan par chattiyaan chatakata hua vinay tezi se niche utar gaya. b de pyar se l dake ko kamare mean lakar usake chehare ki or takane laga. vah bola, "didi ne mujhe bheja hai." kahate hue usane vinayabhooshan ke hath mean ek patr de diya.
chitthi lekar pahale vinay ne liphapha bahar se dekha. l dakiyoan ke hath ki likhavat mean usaka nam likha hua tha. bhitar chitthi-patri kuchh nahian thi, keval kuchh rupe the.
l daka jane ko hua to vinay ne use kisi tarah chho da hi nahian. usaka kandha pak dakar use doosari manzil mean le gaya.
l dake ka rang usaki bahan se adhik saanvala tha, kiantu chehare ki banavat kuchh milati thi. use dekhakar vinay ke man mean gahare sneh aur anand ka sanchar hua.
l daka kafi tez tha. kamare mean ghusate hi divar par laga hua chitr dekhakar bola, "yah kisaki tasavir hai?"
vinay ne kaha, "mere ek mitr ki hai."
l dake ne phir poochha, "mitr ki tasavir? kaun haian apake mitr?"
hansakar vinay ne uttar diya, "tum unhean nahian janate. mere mitr gaur mohan. unhean gora kahakar pukarata hooan. ham log bachapan se sath padhe haian."
"ab bhi padhate haian?"
"nahian, ab aur nahian padhate."
"apaki sab padhaee ho gee hai?"
is chhote l dake ke samane bhi vinay garv karane ka lobh sanvaran n kar saka. bola, "haan, sab padhaee ho chuki."
vismit hokar l dake ne ek lanbi saans li. mano vah soch raha tha, vah itani vidya kitane din mean poori kar paega?
"tumhara nam kya hai?"
"mera nam shri satishachandr mukhopadhyanay hai."
vinay ne achanbhe se poochha, "mukhopadhyanay?"
phir tho da-tho da karake parichay poorn hua. pareshababoo inake pita nahian hai, unhoanne in donoan bhaee-bahan ko bachapan se pala-posa hai. didi ka nam pahale radharani tha; pareshababoo ki stri ne badalakar 'sucharita' nam rakh diya hai.
dekhate-dekhate satish vinay ke sath khoob ghul-mil gaya. jab vah ghar jane ke lie utha tab vinay ne poochha, "akele chale jaoge?"
garv se usane kaha, "maian to akela hi jata hooan."
vinay ne kaha, "chalo, maian tumhean pahuancha ata hooan."
apani shakti par vinay ko avishvas karate dekhakar satish ne khinn hokar kaha, "kyoan, maian to akela ja sakata hooan." apane akele ane-jane ke anek vismayakari udaharan usane de dale. phir bhi usake ghar ke dvar tak vinay usake sath kyoan gaya, usaka thik karan vah balak kisi tarah nahian samajh saka.
ghar pahuanchakar satish ne poochha, 'ab ap bhitar nahian aeange?"
vinay ne apani ichchha ka daman karate hue kaha, "phir kisi din aooanga."
ghar lautakar vinay vahi pata likha hua liphapha jeb se nikalakar b di der tak dekhata raha. pratyek akshar ki rekhaean aur banavat use yad ho aeean. phir rupayoan samet vah liphapha usane jatan se baks mean rakh diya. ye kuchh rupe kabhi hath tang hone par bhi kharch kie jaeange, isaki jaise koee sanbhavana nahian rahi.
varsha ki saanjh mean akash ka aandhakar bhi gar mano aur ghana ho gaya hai. rangahin, vaichitrayahin badaloan ke ni:shabd dabav ke niche kalakatta shahar jaise ek bahut b de udas kutte ki tarah pooanchh ke niche muanh chhipa kuandali baandhakar chupachap p da hua hai. pichhali saanjh se hi booanda-baandi hoti rahi hai; is varsha se khi daki ki dhool kich d ban gee hai, kiantu kich d ko dho dalane ya baha le jane layaq varsha nahian huee. aj tisare pahar char baje se barish band hai, lekin ghata ke asar achchhe nahian haian. varsha ane ki ashanka se bhari huee saanjh ki us bela mean, jab man n soone kamare mean tikata hai, n bahar rahat pata hai, ek timanzile makan ki sili huee chhat par do jane beant ke moodhoan par baithe haian.
bachapan mean ye donoan bandhu isi chhat par skool se lautakar dau d-dau dakar khele haian; pariksha se pahale donoan chilla-chillakar path ratate hue pagaloan ki tarah tezi se chakkar katate hue isi chhat par ghoome haian; garmiyoan mean k aaulij se lautakar sham ko isi chhat par bhojan karake tark-vitark karane mean aise kho ge ki rat ke do baj ge haian, aur sabere ki dhoop ne jab unake chehare par barasakar unhean jagaya hai tab chauankakar unhoanne jana hai ki donoan vahian chataee par p de-p de hi so ge the. k aaulej ki parikshaean jab aur baki n rahi, tab isi chhat par har mahine ek bar 'hiandoo hitaishi sabha' ka adhiveshan hota raha hai, in donoan bandhuoan mean ek usaka sabhapati hai, aur doosara usaka sekretari. sabhapati ka nam gauramohan. jan-pahachan ke log use 'gora' kahakar bulate haian. vah mano betahasha badhata hua as-pas ke logoan se oopar uth gaya hai. usake k aaulej ke panditaji use 'rajat-giri' kahakar pukarate the. usaki deh ka rang bahut hi ugr roop se chitta tha, use snigdh karane vali tanik-si matr bhi usamean nahian thi. qarib chhah phut lanba dil, chau di kathi, mano bagh ke panje ki tarah, gale ka svar aisa bhari aur ganbhir ki ekaek sunane par log chauankakar poochh baithate haian, yah kya hai? usake chehare ki gathan bhi anavashyak roop se b di aur atirikt kathor hai; gal aur tho di ka ubhar mano durg-dvar ki dridh argala ki bhaanti, aankhoan ke oopar bhauanhean jaise haian hi nahian aur vahaan se matha kanoan ki or phailata chala gaya hai. oth patale aur dabe hue; unake oopar nak mano khaande ki tarah uthi huee haian. aankhean chhoti kiantu tikshn, unaki drishti mano tir ki dhar ki tarah door adrishy mean apana lakshy tak rahi ho, kiantu kshan-bhar mean hi lautakar pas ki chiz par bhi bijali ki tezi se chot kar sakati ho. dekhane par gauramohan ko suandar nahian kaha ja sakata, kiantu use dekhe bina raha bhi nahian ja sakata- logoan ke bich hone par drishti barabas usaki or khianch jati hai. aur usaka mitr vinay sadharan bangali, padhe-likhe bhadrajan ki tarah namr kiantu tejas, svabhav ki sukumarata aur budhdi ki prakharata ke mel ne usake chahere ko ek vishesh kaanti de di hai. k aaulej mean vah barabar achchhe nanbar aur vritti pata raha hai; kisi tarah bhi gora usake sath nahian chal saka. pathy vishayoan ki or gora ki vaisi ruchi hi nahian rahi. vah vinay ki bhaanti bat ko n to jaldi samajh sakata tha, n yad rakh pata tha. vinay mano usaka vahan banakar use apane pichhe-pichhe k aaulej ki kee parikshaoan se par khianchata laya hai.
gora kah raha tha, "jo kahata hooan, suno! avinash jo brahman logoan ki buraee kar raha tha usase yahi jan p data hai ki vah thik, svasth, svabhavik avastha mean hai. is par achanak tum aise kyoan big d uthe?"
"kya ajib bat hai! us bare mean koee saval bhi ho sakata hai, maian to soch hi nahian sakata tha."
"aisa hai to khot kahian tumhare hi man mean hai. logoan ka ek gut samaj ke bandhan to dakar har bat mean ulta chalane lage, aur samaj ke log avichalit bhav se unaki batoan par vichar karate rahean, yah svabhavik niyam nahian hai. samaj ke log unako galat samajhean hi. vah jo sidha kareange inaki nazaroan mean vah tedha dikhega hi, unaka achchha inake nikat bura hoga hi aur aisa hona uchit bhi hai. samaj to dakar manamane dhang se nikal jane ki jo-jo sazaean haian, yah bhi unamean se ek hai."
vinay, "jo svabhavik hai vah achchha bhi hai, yah to nahian kaha ja sakata."
kuchh garam hokar gora ne kaha, "hamean achchheai se matalab nahian hai. duniya mean do-char jane achchhe rahean to rahean; par baki sab svabhavik hi rahean to hi thik hai. jinhean brahm banakar bahaduri dikhane ka shauq hai, abrahm log unake sab kamoan ko ulta samajhakar unaki nianda karean, itana kasht unhean sahana hi hoga. ve svayan bhi chhati phulakar itarate phirean, aur unake virodh bhi pichhe-pichhe vah-vah karate chalean, aisa duniya mean nahian hota. yadi hota bhi to duniya ka kuchh bhala n hota."
"maian gut ki nianda ki bat nahian kahata. vyaktigat...."
"gut ki nianda koee nianda tho de hi hai? vah to apani-apani ray dene ki bat hai. nianda to vyaktigat hi ho sakati hai. achchha sadhoo maharaj, apane kya kabhi nianda nahian ki?"
"ki hai. bahut ki hai. par usake lie maian lajjit hooan."
dahine hath ki mutthi baandhate hue gora ne kaha, "nahian vinay, yah nahian ho sakata, kisi tarah nahian ho sakata."
tho di der vinay chup raha. phir bola, "kyoan, kya hua? tumhean bhay kis bat ka hai?"
gora, "maian saf dekh raha hooan, tum apane ko kamazor bana rahe ho!"
tho da uttejit hote hue vinay ne kaha, "kamazor! tum janate ho, maian chahooan to unake ghar abhi ja sakata hooan.... unhoanne mujhe nimantrit bhi kiya hai.... par maian gaya nahian." gora, "haan; kiantu tum ge nahian, tum isi bat ko kisi prakar bhool nahian pa rahe ho! din-rat yahi sochate ho ki 'maian gaya nahian, maian unake ghar gaya nahian' isase to ho ana hi achchha hai."
vinay, "to kya tum jane ko kah rahe ho?"
ghutane par hath patakate hue gora ne kaha, "nahian, maian jane ko nahian kahata. maian tumhean yahi shiksha de raha hooan ki tum jis din jaoge us din bilkul poore chale jaoge. agale din se unake ghar khana-pina shuroo kar doge aur brahm-samaj ke khate mean nam likhakar ekadam shreshth pracharak ho jaoge!" vinay, "kya bat karate ho! aur usase age?"
gora, "usase age? marane se b di durgati aur kya hogi? brahman ke l dake hokar tum chamaroan mean jakar maroge, achar-vichar kuchh nahian rahega. dishahin nav ki tarah poorab-pashchim ki jnan lupt ho jaega.... tab tumhean lagega ki jahaz ko bandaragah par lana hi galat hai, sankirnata hai.... keval bematalab bahate rahana hi vastav mean jahaz chalana hai. kiantu yah sab phijool ki bab-bak karane ka mujhamean dhiraj nahian hai.... maian kahata hooan, tum jao! adh:patan ke pank ki or paanv badhakar kh de-kh de hamean bhi kyoan dara rahe ho!"
vinay hans p da. bola, "d aauktar ke nirash ho jane se hi to rogi hamesha mar nahian jata. maut samane kh di hone ke mujhe to koee lakshan nahian dikhate."
gora, "nahian dikhate?"
vinay, "nahian."
gora, "ga di chhootati nahian jan p dati?"
vinay, "nahian, bahut achchhi chal rahi hai."
gora, "aisa nahian lagata ki parosane vala hath agar suandar hoan to mlechchh ka ann bhi devata ka prasad ho jata hai?"
vinay atyant sankuchit ho utha. bola, "bas, ab chup ho jao!"
gora, "kyoan, kisi ke apaman ki to isamean koee bat nahian hai. vah suandar hath koee asprishy to hai nahian. jis pavitr kar-pallav ko parae purushoan ke sath shekahaiand bhi chalata hai, usaka ullekh bhi tumhean sahan nahian hota, 'tadanashanse maranay sanjay'!"
vinay, "dekha gora, maian stri-jati mean shradhda rakhata hooan. hamare shastroan mean bhi.... "
gora, "stri-jati mean tum jaisi shradhda rakhate ho, usake lie shastroan ki duhaee mat do! usako shradhda nahian kahate. jo kahate haian yadi vah zaban par laooanga to marane dau dege." vinay, "yah tumhari jyadati hai."
gora, "shastr striyoan ke bare mean kahate hai, 'poojarha grihadiptay:'. ve pooja ki patr haian kyoanki grih ko dipti deti haian vilayati vidhan mean unako vo man isalie diya jata hai ki ve purushoan ke hriday ko dipt kar deti haian, use pooja n kahana hi achchha hai."
vinay, "kahian-kahian kuchh vikriti dekhi jati hai, isi se kya ek b de varg par aise chhiante kasana uchit hai?"
adhir hokar gora ne kaha, "vinoo, ab kyoanki tumhari sochane-vicharane ki budhdi nasht ho gee hai at: meri bat man lo! maian kahata hooan, vilayati shastr mean stri-jati ke bare mean b di-b di jo sab batean haian, unaki j d mean hai vasana. stri-jati ki pooja karane ka sthan hai mata ka pad, sati-lakshmi grihini ka asan.... vahaan se unhean hatakar unaka jo gunagan kiya jata hai usamean apaman chhipa hua hai. tumhara man jis karan se patange-sa pareshababoo ke ghar ke as-pas chakkar kat raha hai, aangrezi mean use 'lav' kahate haian.... kiantu aangrez ki ho d mean isi lav ko hi sansar ka charam purusharth manakar usaki upasana karane baith jane ko behoodapan kahian tum par bhi n savar ho jae!"
chabuk khae gho de ki tarah tilamilakar vinay ne kaha, "oh, gora! rahane do, bahut ho gaya."
gora, "bahut kahaan hua? kuchh bhi nahian hua. stri aur purush ko unaki apani-apani jagah sahaj bhav se dekhana hamane nahian sikha, tabhi to bahut-si kavy kala un par madh di hai."
vinay ne kaha, "achchha, mana ki stri-purush ka sanbandh jahaan rahakar sahaj ho sakata, ham pravritti ki sanak mean p dakar usase age badh jate haian, aur is tarah use jhootha kar dete haian. kiantu kya yah aparadh videsh ka hi hai? is sanbandh mean aangrezi ki kavy kala agar jhoothi hai, to ham jo hamesha 'kamini-kanchan-tyag'
mean aangrez ki kavy kala agar jhoothi hai, to ham jo hamesha 'kamini-kaanchan-tyag' ko lekar b di-b di batean karate rahe haian, ve bhi to mithya haian? manushy ki prakriti jin chizoan mean sahaj hi apane ko bhula deti hai, unase manushy ko bachane ke lie koee prem ke suandar paksh ko hi kavitv ke sahare sajjval kar deta hai aur usaki buraeeyoan ko dhank deta hai; aur koee usaki buraiyoan ko hi b di karake dikhata hai aur 'kamini-kaanchan-tyag' kinara de deta hai. donoan keval do tarah ke logoan ki do tarah ki padhdati hai; ek ki buraee karake doosare ka samarthan karana thik nahian hai."
gora, "nahian, tumhean maianne galat samajha. abhi tumhari halat itani kharab nahian huee! agar tumhare dimag mean philasaphi bhar rahi hai, tab to tum nirbhay hokar 'lav' kar sakate ho! kiantu samay rahate hi sanbhal jana, tumhare hitaishi mitr ka yahi nivedan hai."
vyast bhav se vinay ne kaha, "are, kya tum pagal hue ho? maian, aur lav! lekin itana to maian svikar karata hooan ki pareshababoo vagaira ko jitana maianne dekha hai, aur jo kuchh un logoan ke bare mean suna hai, usase unake prati mujhe kafi shradhda ho gee hai mai. samajhata hooan isi karan yah janane ka akarshan bhi mujhamean jaga hoga ki ghar ke bhitar unaki jivan-charya kaisi chalati hai."
gora, "thik hai. us akarshan se hi bachakar chalana hoga. un logoan ke jivan-vrittaant ka adhyatay yadi jane bina hi rah gaya, to kya? ve thahare shikari jiv; unaki bhitari batean janane chalane par itane gahare jana p dega ki tumhari chutiya bhi aant mean nahian dikhaee degi!"
vinay, "tumamean yahi ek dosh hai. tum samajhate ho jo kuchh shakti hai eeshvar ne akele tumhian ko di hai, aur baki sab bilkumal durbal prani haian.'
gora ko mano yah bat bilkukal nahian maloom huee ho. utsah se vinay ki pith thokata hua bola, "thik kahate ho.... vahi mera dosh hai.... bahut b da dosh!"
"ophh! tumhara usase bhi b da ek aur dosh hai. kisaka man kitani chot sah sakata hai, isaka kuchh bhi aandaza tumhean nahian hai!"
isi samay gora ke sautele b de bhaee mahim, apane bhari-bharakam sharir ko dhokar oopar lane ke shram mean haanphate-haanphate akar bole, "gora!"
jaldi se kursi chho dakar uth kh da hua gora aur bola, "ji!"
mahim, "yahi dekhane aya tha ki barasat ki ghata kahian hamari chhat par hi to nahian utar aee garajane ke lie! aj majara kya hai? is bich agrez ko sagar adha par kara diya kya? vaise aangrez ka to khas nukasan hua nahian jan p data, sirph nichali manzil mean jo sir pak dakar baithe haian unhian ko sher ki daha d se tho di takaliph ho rahi hai." yah kah mahim lautakar niche chale ge.
lajjit hokar gora kh da raha. lajja ke sath-sath usake bhitar gussa bhi ubalane laga, kiantu vah apane oopar tha ya kisi aur par, yah nahian kaha ja sakata. tho di der bad dhire-dhire mano vah apane hi se kahane laga, "sabhi batoan mean jitana hona chahie usase kahian zyada zor maian apani bat par deta hooan doosare ke lie vah asahy hoga, isaka mujhe dhyathan nahian rahata."
vinay ne gauramohan ke pas akar pyar se usaka hath tham liya.
gora aur vinay chhat se utarane ki taiyari kar rahe the ki tabhi gora ki maan oopar a geean. vinay ne unake pairoan ki dhool lekar pranam kiya.
dekhane mean gora ki maan nahian jan p datian. vah bahut hi dubali-patali aur sanyat haian. bal yadi kuchh-kuchh pake bhi hoan to bahar se maloom nahian hota; achakan dekhane par yahi jan p data hai ki unaki umr chalis se kam hi hogi. chehare ki banavat atyant sukumar; nak, oth, tho di aur lalat ki rekhaean sab mano b de yatn se ukeri hueean; sharir ka pratyek aang napa-tula; chehare par hamesha ek mamatv aur tejasvi budhdi ka bhav jhalakata rahata hai. shyam-varn rang, jisaka gora ke rang se koee mel nahian hai. unako dekhate hi ek bat ki or har kisi ka dhyachan jata hai ki sa di ke sath kamiz pahane rahati haian. jis samay ki ham bat kar rahe haian un dinoan yadyapi adhunik samaj mean striyoan mean shamiz ya oopar ke vastr pahanen ka chalan shuroo ho gaya tha tathapi shalin grihiniyaan ise nirakhristanipan kahakar isaki avajna karati thian. anandamee ke pati, krishnadayal baboo kamisariyat mean kam karate the. javani se hi anandamee unake sath pashchim mean rahian thi. isi karan yah sanskar unake man par nahian p da tha ki achchhi tarah badan dhankana, ya aise kap de pahanana lajja ki ya hansi ki bat hai. bartan maanj-ghisakar, ghar-bar dho-poanchhakar, raandhana-banana, silaee-kadhaee aur hisab-ginati karake, kap de dhokar dhoop dikhakar a dos-p dos ki khoj-khabar lekar bhi unaka samay chukata hi nahian. asvasth hone par bhi vah sharir se kisi tarah ki dhilaee nahian baratatian. kahati haian, "bimari se to mera kuchh nahian big dega, lekin kam kie bina kaise chalega?"
gora ki maan bolian, "gora ki avaz jab niche sunaee p dati hai to maian phoran jan jati hooan ki zaroor vinoo aya hoga. pichhale kee din se ghar mean bilku.l shaanti thi. kya hua tha beta, too itane din aya kyoan nahian? kuchh bimar-eemar to nahian raha?"
sakuchate hue vinay ne kaha, "nahian maan, bimar nahian.... lekin yah aandhi-pani.... "
gora bola, "kyoan nahian! isake bad barasat jab khatm ho jaegi tab vinay baboo kaheange, k di dhoop p d rahi hai! devata ko dosh dene se ve koee saphaee to de nahian sakate. inake man ka asali bhed to aantaryami hi janate haian."
vinay bola, "kya phijool bakate ho, gora?"
anandamee bolian, "thik to hai beta, aise nahian kaha karate. manushy ka man kabhi thik rahata hai, kabhi nahian rahata.... sab din ek jaise tho de hi hote haian? isako lekar ulajhane se aur jhanjhat kh da hota hai. chal vinoo, mere kamare mean chal, tere lie kuchh parosakar aee hooan."
sir hilakar gora ne zor se kaha, "nahian maan, yah nahian hone ka. tumhare kamare mean vinay ko nahian khane dooanga."
anandamee, "vah re! kyoan re, tujhe to maianne kabhi khane ko nahian kaha.... idhar tere pita bhi maha shudhdachari ho ge haian, khud ka banaya chho dakar kuchh khate nahian. mera inoo achchha l daka hai, teri tarah kattatar nahian hai.... too ise zabaradasti baandhakar rakhana chahata hai?'
gora, "bilkuhal thik! maian ise baandhakar hi rakhooanga. tum jab tak us khristan naukarani lachhamiya ko bhaga nahian detian tab tak tumhare kamare mean khana nahian ho sakega!" anandamee, "are gora, aisi bat tujhe zaban par nahian lani chahie. hamesha se too usake hath ka bana khata raha hai; usi ne tujhe bachapan se pal-posakar b da kiya hai. abhi us din tak usake hath ki banaee chatani ke bina tujhe khana nahian ruchata tha. jab bachapan mean tujhe mata nikali thi tab lachhamiya ne hi teri seva karake tujhe bachaya, vah maian kabhi nahian bhool sakooangi."
gora, "use peanshan de do, zamin kharid do, ghar banava do, jo chaho kar do.... kiantu use aur nahian rakha ja sakata, maan!"
anandamee, "gora, too samajhata hai, paisa dekar hi sab rrin chukata ho jate haian! vah zamin bhi nahian chahati, ghar nahian chahati; tujhe nahian dekh paegi to mar jaegi." gora, "tumhari jaisi marzi.... rakhe raho use! par vinoo tumhare kamare mean nahian kha sakega. jo niyam hai vah manana hi hoga, usase idhar-udhar kisi tarah nahian hua ja sakata. maan, tum itane b de adhyarapak vansh ki ho, tum jo achar ka palan nahian karatian yah.... "
anandamee, "re, pahale teri maan achar manakar hi chalati thi; isi ke lie use kitane aansoo bahane p de.... tab too kahaan tha? roz shiv ki pratishtha karake pooja karane baithati thi aur tere pita uthakar sab pheank dete the! un dinoan aparichit brahman ke hath ka khate bhi mujhe ghrina hoti thi. un dinoan har jagah rel nahian jati thi.... bailaga di mean, dakaga di mean, palaki mean, ooant ki savari mean kitane hi din maianne upavas mean kate! kya sahaj hi tumhare pita mera achar bhang kar sake? vah sab jagah mujhako sath lekar ghoomate-phirate the, isilie unake sahab-aphasar unase khush the, aur unaki tanakhvah bhi badhati gee.... isilie unhean bahut dinoan tak ek hi jagah rahane diya jata, koee badali karana n chahata. ab to budhape mean naukari se chhutti pakar bahut-sa paisa jama karake sahasa vah b de acharavan ho uthe haian. kiantu mujhase vah nahian hoga. meri sat pidhi ke sanskar ek-ek karake ukha d pheanke ge.... ab kya kah dene bhar se hi phir jam jaeange?"
gora, "achchha, pichhali pidhiyoan ki bat to chho do.... ve log apatti karane ane vale nahian, kiantu ham logoan ki khatir tumhean kuchh batean manakar hi chalana hoga. shastr ki maryada nahian rakhata to n sahi, sneh ka man to rakhana hoga."
anandamee, "too mujhe itana kya samajha raha hai? mere man mean kya hota hai vah maian hi janati hooan. yadi mere karan svami aur putr ko pag-pag par mushkil hi hone lagi to mujhe kya sukh milega? kiantu tujhe god lete hi maianne achar ko baha diya tha. yah too janata hai? chhote bachche ko chhati se lagakar hi samajh mean ata hai ki duniya mean jat lekar kaee nahian janmata. jis din yah bat meri samajh mean a gee, usi din se maianne yah nishchit roop se jan liya ki yadi maian khristan ya chhoti jat kahakar kisi se ghrina karooangi to eeshvar tujhe bhi mujhase chhin leange. too meri god bharakar mere ghar mean prakash kie rahe, to maian duniya ki kisi bhi jat ke logoan ke hath ka pani pi looangi." vinay ke man mean aj anandamee ki bat sunakar hathath ek dhuandhale sandeh ka abhas hua. ek bar usane anandamee ke aur ek bar gora ke muanh ki or dekha; kiantu phir tatkshan hi tark ka bhav man se nikal diya.
gora ne kaha, "maan, tumhara tark thik samajh mean nahian aya. jo log achar-vichar karate haian aur shastr manakar chalate haian unake ghar mean bhi to bachche bane rahate haian. tumhare lie hi eeshvar alag qanoon banaeange, aisi bat tumhare man mean kyoan aee?"
anandamee, "jisane mujhe tumhean diya usi ne aisi budhdi bhi di, isaka maian kya karooan? isamean mera koee bas nahian. kiantu pagale, tera pagalapan dekhakar maian hooansoo ya roooan, kuchh samajh mean nahian. khair, vah sab bat jane do! to vinay mere kamare mean nahian khaega?"
gora, "use to mauqa milane ki der hai.... abhi dau dega. vah brahman ka l daka hai, do tuk de mithaee dekar yah bat use bhula dene se nahian chalega. use bahut tyag karana hoga, pravritti ko dabana hoga tabhi vah apane janm ke gaurav ki raksha kar sakega. lekin maan, tum bura mat manana.... maian tumhare paanv p data hooan."
anandamee, "bura kyoan manooangi? too jo kar raha hai janakar nahian kar raha hai, yah maian tujhe batae deti hooan. mere man mean yahi klesh rah gaya ki tujhe maianne adami to banaya kiantu.... khair, chho d ise. too jise dharm kahata phirata hai use maian nahian man sakooangi. too mere kamare mean mere hath ka nahian khaega, n sahi.... kiantu tujhe donoan bela dekhati rah sakooan yahi meri ichchha hai.... vinay beta, tum aise udas n hoo.... tumhara man komal hai, tum soch rahe ho ki mujhe chot pahuanchi, lekin aisa nahian hai, beta! phir kisi din nyauta dekar kisi achchhe brahman ke hath se bana tumhean khilava dooangi.... usamean a dachan kaun-si hai! maian dhith hooan, lachhamiya ke hath ka pani piooangi, yah maian sabhi se kahe deti hooan."
gora ki maan niche chali geean. kuchh der vinay chup kh da raha. phir dhire-dhire bola, "gora, yah to kuchh jyadati ho rahi hai."
gora, "kisaki jyadati?"
vinay, "tumhari."
gora "ratti-bhar bhi nahian. jisaki jo sima hai use thik manate hue hi maian chalana chahata hooan. chhuachhoot ke mamale mean suee ki nok-bhar hatane se bhi aant mean kuchh baki nahian rahega.
vinay, "kiantu maan jo hai."
gora, "maan kise kahate haian yah maian janata hooan. usako mujhe batane ki zaroorat nahian hai. meri maan-jaisi maanean kitani hi hoangi! kiantu achar ko n manana shuroo karooan to shayad ek din maan ko bhi nahian manooanga. dekho vinay, ek bat tumhean batata hooan, yad rakho! hriday b di uttam chiz hai, kiantu sabase uttam nahian hai."
tho di der bad vinay kuchh jhijhakata hua bola, "dekho gora, aj maan ki bat sunakar mere man mean ek halachal-si mach gee hai. mujhe lagata hai maan ke man mean koee bat hai jo vah hamean samajha nahian pa rahi haian, isi se kasht pa rahi haian."
adhir hokar gora ne kaha, "are vinay, kalpana ko itani dhil mat do.... isase keval samay nasht hota hai aur hath kuchh nahian ata."
vinay, "tum duniya ki kisi chiz ki or kabhi sidhi tarah dekhate hi nahian; tabhi jo tumhean nazar nahian p data usi ko tum kalpana kahakar u da dena chahate ho! kiantu maian tumase kahata hooan, maianne kee bar dekha hai, mano maan kisi bat ko lekar soch rahi haian.... kisi bat ko thik tarah sulajha nahian pa rahi haian, aur isilie unake man mean ek ghutan hai. gora, unaki bat tumhean zara dhyaan dekar sunani chahie."
gora, "dhyan dekar jitana suna ja sakata hai utana to sunata hooan. usase adhik sunane ki koshish karane mean galat sunane ki ashanka rahati hai. isalie usaki koshish nahian karata."
sidhdaant ke roop mean jaise koee bat many hoti hai, manushyoan par prayog karate use sada usi nishchit bhav se nahian mana ja sakata. kam-se-kam vinay jaise logoan ke lie yah asanbhav hai. vinay ki chanchal-vritti bahut prabal hai. isilie bahas ke samay ek sidhdaant ka vah b di prabalata se samarthan karata hai, kiantu vyavahar ke samay manushy ko sidhdaant se oopar mane bina nahian rah sakata. yahaan tak ki gora dvara pracharit jo bhi sidhdaant usane svikar kie haian unamean se kitane svayan ke sidhdaant ke karan aur kitane gora ke prati apane anany sneh ke dabav se, yah kahana kathin haian
gora ke ghar se bahar a, apane ghar lautate samay barasati saanjh mean vah kich d se bachata hua dhire-dhire chala ja raha tha, is samay usake man mean sidhdaant aur manushy ke bich ek dvandv chhi da hua tha.
aj ke zamane mean tarah-tarah ke prakat aur aprakat aghatoan se atmaraksha karane ke lie samaj ko khan-pan aur chhua-chhoot ke sabhi mamaloan mean vishesh roop se satark rahana hoga, yah sidhdaant vinay ne gora ke muanh se sunakar sahaj hi svikar kar liya hai aur ise lekar virodhiyoan ke sath bahas bhi ki hai. vah kahata raha hai, kile ko charoan or se gherakar jab shatru akraman kar raha ho tab kile ke pratyek gali-dvar-jharokhe, pratyek soorakh ko band karake pran-pan se usaki raksha karane ko udarata ki kami nahian kaha ja sakata.
kiantu gora ne aj jo anandamee ke kamare mean usake khane ka nishedh kar diya, isaki pi da use bhitar-hi-bhitar salane lagi.
vinay ke pita nahian the. maan bhi bachapan mean chho d gee thian. gaanv mean chacha haian. bachapan se hi padhaee ke lie vinay kalakatta ke is ghar mean akela rahata hua b da hua hai. gora ke sath maitri ke karan jab se vinay ne anandamee ko jana hai, usi din se vah unhean maan kahata aya hai. kitani bar unake yahaan jakar usane chhina-jhapati aur oodham machate hue khaya hai; khana parosane mean gora ke sath anandamee pakshapat karati haian, yah ulahana dekar kitani bar usane jhooth-mooth apani eershya prakat ki hai. do-char din vinay ke n ane se anandamee kitani bechaini ho uthati hai, vinay ko pas bithakar khilane ki ash mean kitani bar unaki sabha tootane ki pratiksha karati huee baithi rahati haian, yah sab vinay janata hai. vahi vinay aj samajik nianda ke karan anandamee ke kamare mean kuchh kha n sakega, ise kya anandamee sah sakeangi.... ya vinay bhi sah sah paega?
age se achchha bahman ke hath ka hi mujhe khilaeangi, apane hath ka ab kabhi nahian khilaeangi.... yah bat hansakar hi maan kah geean, kiantu yah bat to bhayankar vyatha ki hai. isi bat par soch-vichar karata hua vinay kisi tarah ghar pahuancha.
soone kamare mean aandhera phaila tha. charoan or kagaz aur kitabean astavyast bikhari thian. diyasalaee se vinay ne tel ka diya jalaya.... divat par baire ki karigari ke anek chidd the. jo saphed chadar se dhanki huee likhane ki mez thi us par kee jagah syahi aur tel ke dag the. kamare mean aj jaise usake pran sahasa chhatapata uthe. kisi ke sang aur sneh ki kami usaki chhati par bojh-sa jan p dane lagi. desh ka udhdar, samaj ki raksha ityadi kartavyoan ko vah kisi tarah bhi spasht aur saty karake apane samane nahian kh da kar sak.... inase bhi kahian adhik saty vah anapahachana pakhi hai jo ek din savan ki ujjval suandar subah mean pianjare ke pas tak akar pianjara chho dakar chala gaya hai. kiantu us pakhi ki bat ko vinay kisi tarah bhi man mean jagah nahian dega, kisi tarah nahian. isilie, man ko dhadhas dene ke lie, anandamee ke jis kamare se use gora ne lauta diya, usi kamare ka chitr vah man par aankane laga.
saph-suthari pachchikari kiya pharsh mano jhilamila raha hai; ek taraph takht par saphed rajahans ke pankh-sa komal svachchh bichhauna hai, usake pas hi ek chhoti chauki par arandi ke tel ki dhibari ab tak jala di gee hogi. maan nishchay hi rang-birange dhage lie dhibari ke pas niche jhukakar phool kadh rahi hoangi. niche pharsh par baithi lachhaminiya apane ajib uchcharan vali bangala mean bakavas karati ja rahi hogi, aur maan usaka adhikaansh anasuna karati ja rahi hoangi. jab bhi maan ke man ko koee chot pahuanchati hai vah kadhaee lekar baith jati hai. vinay apane man ki aankhoan ko unake usi kam mean lage stabdh chehare par sthir karane laga. man-hi-man vah bola, isi chehare ki sneh-dipti mere man ki sari ulajhan se meri raksha kare.... yahi chehara meri matribhoomi ki pratima ho jae, mujhe kartavy ki prerana de aur kartavy-path par dridh rakhe.... usane man-hi-man ek bar 'maan kahakar unhean pukara aur kaha, "tumhara ann mere lie amrit nahian hai, yah bat maian kisi bhi shastr ke praman se kabhi nahian manooanga." soone kamare mean divar gh di ki tikh-tikh gooanjane lagi. vahaan baithana vinay ke lie asahy ho utha. divat ke pas divar par ek chhipakali patangoan ki or lapak rahi thi, kuchh der vinay usaki or dekhate-dekhate uth kh da hua aur chhata uthakar bahar nikal p da.
vah kya karane ghar se nikala hai, usake man mean yah spsht nahian tha. shayad anandamee ke pas hi laut jaega, kuchh aisa hi usaka bhav tha. kiantu n jane kaise achanak usake man mean a gaya-aj ravivar hai, aj brahm-sabha mean keshav baboo ka vyakhyan suna jae-yah bat man mean ate hi duvidha chho d vinay tezi se udhar chalane laga. vyakhyan sunane ka samay adhik nahian bacha hai, vah janata tha, phir bhi usaka nishchay vichalit nahian hua.
niyat sthan pahuanchakar usane dekha, upasak uthakar bahar a rahe haian. chhata lagae-lagae ek or hatakar vah kone mean kh da ho gaya. thik usi samay mandir se pareshababoo shaant aur prasann mudra mean bahar nikale. unake sath char-paanch unake parijan bhi the; vinay ne unamean se keval ek ke tarun mukh ko s dak par lage gais laianp ke prakash mean kshan-bhar ke lie dekha, phir ga di ke pahiyoan ke shabd ke sath sara drishy aandhakar ke mahasamudr mean vilin ho gaya.
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sanbandhit lekh