नीरा -जयशंकर प्रसाद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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ab aur age nahian, is gandagi mean kahaan chalate ho, devanivas? tho di door aur—kahate hue devanivas ne apani saikil dhimi kar di; kintu virakt amaranath ne behrak dabakar thahar jana hi uchit samajha. devanivas age nikal gaya. maulasiri ka vah saghan vriksh tha, jo pokhare ke kinare apani andhakaramayi chhaya dal raha tha. pokhare se s di huee durgandh a rahi thi. devanivas ne pichhe ghoomakar dekha, mitr ko vahian ruka dekhakar vah laut raha tha. usaki saikil ka laimp bujh chala tha. sahasa dhakka laga, devanivas to girate-girate bacha, aur ek durbal manushy ‘are ram’ kahata hua girakar bhi uth kh da hua. balika usaka hath pak dakar poochhane lagi—kahian chot to nahian lagi, baba? nahian beti! maian kahata n tha, mujhe motaroan se utana dar nahian lagata, jitana is be-dum janavar ‘saikil’ se. motar vale to doosaroan ko hi chot pahuanchate haian, paidal chalane valoan ko kuchalate hue nikal jate haian par ye bechare to ap bhi gir p date haian. kyoan baboo sahab, apako to chot nahian lagi? ham log to chot-ghav sah sakate haian. devanivas kuchh jheanp gaya tha. usane boodhe se kaha—ap mujhe kshama kijie. apako.... kshama—maian karooan? are, ap kya kah rahe haian! do-char hantar apane nahian lagaye. ghar bhool gaye, hantar nahian le aye! achchha mahoday! apako kasht hua n, kya karooan, bina bhikh maange is sardi mean pet galiyaan dene lagata hai! niand bhi nahian ati, char-chh: paharoan par to kuchh-n-kuchh ise dena hi p data hai! aur bhi mujhe ek rog hai. do paisoan bina vah nahian chhootata—padhऩe ke lie akhabar chahie; pustakalayoan mean chith de pahanakar baithane n paooanga, isalie nahian jata. doosare din ka basi samachar-patr do paisoan mean le leta hooan! amaranath bhi pas a gaya tha. usane yah kand dekhakar hansate hue kaha—devanivas! maian mana karata tha n! tum apani dhun mean kuchh sunate bhi ho. chale to phir chale, aur ruke to a diyal tattoo bhi jhak mare! kya use kuchh chot a gee hai? kyoan boodhe! lo, yah athanni hai. jao apani rah, tanik dekhakar chala karo! boodha masakhara bhi tha. athanni lete hue usane kaha—dekhakar chalata, to yah athanni kaise milati! to bhi babooji, ap logoan ki jeb mean akhabar hoga. maianne dekha hai, baisikil par chadhe hue babuoan ki paket mean nikala hua kagaz ka muttha; akhabar hi rahata hoga. chalo baba, jhop di mean, sardi lagati hai.—yah chhoti-si balika apane baba ko jaise is tarah batean karate huye dekhana nahian chahati thi. vah sankoch mean doobi ja rahi thi. devanivas chup tha. buddhe ko jaise tamacha laga. vah apane dayaniy aur ghrinit bhiksha-vyavasay ko bahudha nira se chhipakar, banakar kahata. use akhabar sunata. aur bhi n jane kya-kya ooanchi-nichi batean baka karata; nira jaise sab samajhati thi! vah kabhi boodhe se prashn nahian karati thi. jo kuchh vah kahata, chupachap sun liya karati thi. kabhi-kabhi buddha jhuanjhala kar chup ho jata, tab bhi vah chup rahati. boodhe ko aj hi nira ne jhop di mean chalane ke lie kahakar pahale-pahal mithi jhidaqi di. usane socha ki athanni pane par bhi akhabar maangana nira n sah saki. achchha to babooji, bhagavanh yadi koee hoan, to apaka bhala karean—buddha ladaqi ka hath pak dakar maulasiri ki or chala. devanivas sann tha. amaranath ne apani saikil ke ujjval alok mean dekha; nira ek gori-si, sundari, patali-dubali karuna ki chhaya thi. donoan mitr chup the. amaranath ne hi kaha—ab lautoge ki yahian g d gaye! tumane kuchh suna, amaranath! vah kahata tha—bhagavan yadi koee hoan—kitana bhayanak avishvas! devanivas ne saans lekar kaha. daridrata aur lagatar du:khoan se manushy avishvas karane lagata hai, nivas! yah koee nayi bat nahian hai—amaranath ne chalane ki utsukata dikhate hue kaha. kintu devanivas to jais atmavismrit tha. usane kaha—sukh aur sampatti se kya eeshvar ka vishvas adhik hone lagata hai? kya manushy eeshvar ko pahachan leta hai? usaki vyapak satta ko malin vesh mean dekhakar duradurata nahian—thukarata nahian, amaranath! abaki bar ‘alochak’ ke visheshaank mean tumane laute hue pravasi kuliyoan ke sambandh mean ek lekh likha tha n! vah sab kaise likha tha? akhabaroan ke aank de dekhakar. mujhe thik-thik smaran hai. kab, kis dvip se kaun-kaun stimar kis tarikh mean chale. ‘satalaj’, ‘pandit’ aur ‘eliphainta’ nam ke stimaroan par kitane-kitane kuli the, mujhe thik-thik maloom tha, aur? aur ve sab kahaan haian? suna hai, isi kalakatte ke pas kahian matiyaburj hai, vahi abhagoan ka nivas hai. avadh ke navab ka vilas ya prayashchitt-bhavan bhi to matiyaburj hi raha. maianne us lekh mean bhi ek vyang is par b de marke ka diya hai. chalo, kh de-kh de batean karane ki jagah nahian. tumane to kaha tha ki aj janakirn kalakatte se door tumako ek achchhi jagah dikhaooanga. yahian.... yahi matiyaburj hai. —devanivas ne b di gambhirata se kaha. aur ab tum kahoge ki vah buddha vahian se lauta hua koee kuli hai. ho sakata hai, mujhe nahian maloom. achchha, chalo ab lautean. —kahakar amaranath ne apani saikil ko dhakka diya. devanivas ne kaha—chalo usaki jhop di tak, maian usase kuchh bat karooanga. anichchhapoorvak ‘chalo’ kahate hue amaranath ne maulasiri ki or saikil ghuma di. saikil ke tivr alok mean jhop di ke bhitar ka drishy dikhaee de raha tha. buddha manoyog se laee phaank raha tha aur nira bhi kal ki bachi huee roti chaba rahi thi. rookhe othoan par do-ek dane chipak gaye the, jo us daridr mukh mean jana asvikar kar rahe the. luk phera hua tin ka gilas apane khuradare rang ka nilapan nira ki aankhoan mean uan del raha tha. alok ek ujjval saty hai, band aankhoan mean bhi usaki satta chhipi nahian rahati. buddhe ne aankhe khol kar donoan babuoan ko dekha. vah bol utha—babooji! ap akhabar dene aye haian? maian abhi pathy le raha tha; bimar hooan n, isi se laee khata hooan, b di namakin hoti hai. akhabar vale ko kabhi-kabhi namakin batoan ka svad de dete haian! isi se to, bechare kitani door-door ki batean sunate haian. jab maian ‘morishas’ mean tha, tab hindustan ki batean padha karata tha. mera desh sone ka hai, aisi bhavana jag uthi thi. ab kabhi-kabhi us tapoo ki batean padh pata hooan, tab yah mitti maloom p data hai; par sach kahata hooan babooji, ‘morishas’ mean agar goli n chali hoti aur ‘nira’ ki maan n mari hoti...haan, goli se hi vah mari thi... to maian ab tak vahian se janmabhoomi ka sone ka sapana dekhata; aur is abhage desh! nahian-nahian babooji, mujhe yah kahane ka adhikar nahian. maian hooan abhaga! hay re bhag!! ‘nira’ ghabara uthi thi. usane kisi tarah do ghooant jal gale se utar kar in logoan ki or dekha. usaki aankhe kah rahi thian ki ‘ao, meri daridrata ka svad lenevale dhani vicharakoan! aur sukh to tumhean milate hi haian, ek n sahi!’ apane pita ko batean karate dekhakar vah ghabara uthati thi. vah darati thi ki buddha n-jane kya-kya kah baithega. devanivas chupachap usaka muanh dekhane laga. nira balika n thi. stritv ke sab vyanjan the, phir bhi jaise daridrata ke bhishan hathoan ne use daba diya tha, vah sidhi oopar nahian uthane paee. kya tumako eeshvar mean vishvas nahian hai?—amaranath ne gambhirata se poochha. ‘alochak’ mean ek lekh maianne padha tha! vah isi prakar ke ulahane se bhara tha, ki ‘vartaman janata mean eeshvar ke prati avishvas ka bhav badhata ja raha hai, aur isilie vah dukhi hai.’ yah padhaqar mujhe to hansi a gee. buddhe ne avichal bhav se kaha. hansi a gee! kaise du:kh ki bat hai. —amaranath ne kaha. du:kh ki bat soch kar hi to hansi a gee. ham moorkh manushyoan ne tran ki—sharan ki—asha se eeshvar par poorvakal mean vishvas kiya tha, paraspar ke vishvas aur sadh‌bhav ko thukarakar. manushy, manushy ka vishvas nahian kar saka; isilie to ek sukhi doosare dukhi ki or ghrina se dekhata tha. dukhi ne eeshvar ka avalamban liya, to bhi bhagavanh ne sansar ke dukhoan ki srishti band kar di kya? manushy ke boote ka n raha, to kya vah bhi...? kahate-kahate boodhe ki aankhoan se chinagariyaan nikalane lagian; kintu ve agnikan galane lage aur usake kapoloan ke gadhe mean vah drav ikattha hone laga. amaranath krodh se buddhe ko dekh raha tha; kintu devanivas us malina nira ki utkantha aur khed-bhari mukhakriti ka adhyayan kar raha tha. apako krodh a gaya, kyoan mahashay! ane ki bat hi hai. le lijiye apani athanni. athanni dekar eeshvar mean vishvas nahian karaya jata. us chot ke bare mean pulis se jakar n kahane ke lie bhi athanni ki avashyakata nahian. maian yah manata hooan ki srishti vishamata se bhari hai, cheshta karake bhi isamean arthik ya sharirik samy nahian laya ja sakata. haan, to bhi aishvaryavaloan ko, jin par bhagavanh ki poorn kripa hai, apani sahridayata se eeshvar ka vishvas karane ka prayatn karana chahie. kahie, is tarah bhagavanh ki samasya sulajhane ke lie ap prastut haian? is boodhe nastik aur tarkik se amaranath ko tivr virakti ho chali thi. ab vah chalane ke lie devanivas se kahanevala tha; kintu usane dekha, vah to jhop di mean asan jamakar baith gaya hai. amaranath ko chup dekhakar devanivas ne boodhe se kaha—achchha, to ap mere ghar chalakar rahie. sambhav hai ki maian apaki seva kar sakooan. tab ap vishvasi ban jayan, to koee ashchary nahian. is bar to vah buddha buri tarah devanivas ko ghoorane laga. nivas vah tivr drishti sah n saka. usane samajha ki maianne chalane ke lie kahakar boodhe ko chot pahuanchaee hai. vah bol utha—kya ap....? thaharo bhaee! tum b de jaldabaj maloom hote ho—boodhe ne kaha. kya sachamuch tum meri seva kiya chahate ho ya....? ab boodha nira ki or dekh raha tha aur nira ki aankhe boodhe ko age n bolane ki shapath dila rahi thian; kintu usane phir kaha hi—ya nira ko, jise tum b di der se dekh rahe ho, apane ghar liva jane ki b di utkantha hai! kshama karana! maian avishvasi ho gaya hooan n! kyoan, janate ho? jab kuliyoan ke lie isi sili, gandi aur durgandhamayi bhoomi mean ek sahanubhooti utpann huee thi, tab mujhe yah katu anubhav hua tha ki vah sahanubhooti bhi chirayandh se khali n thi. mujhe ek sahayak mile the aur maian yahaan se tho di door par unake ghar rahane laga tha. nira se ab n raha gaya. vah bol uthi—baba, chup n rahoge; khaansi ane lagegi. thahar nira! haan to mahashay ji, maian unake ghar rahane laga tha. aur unhoanne mera atithy sadharanat: achchha hi kiya. ek aisi hi kali rat thi. bijali badaloan mean chamak rahi thi aur maian pet bharakar us thandi rat mean sukh ki jhapaki lene laga tha. is bat ko barasoan hue; to bhi mujhe thik smaran hai ki maian jaise bhayanak sapana dekhata hua chauank utha. nira chilla rahi thi! kyoan nira? ab nira hatash ho gee thi aur usane boodhe ko rokane ka prayatn chho d diya tha. vah ekatak boodhe ka muanh dekh rahi thi. buddhe ne phir kahana arambh kiya—haan to nira chilla rahi thi. maian uthakar dekhata hooan, to mere vah param sahayak mahashay isi nira ko donoan hath se pak dakar ghasit rahe the aur yah bechari chhootane ka vyarth prayatn kar rahi thi. maianne apane donoan durbal hathoan ko uthakar us nich upakari ke oopar de mara. vah nira ko chho dakar ‘paji, badamash, nikal mere ghar se’ kahata hua mera akianchan saman bahar pheankane laga. bahar ole-si booandean p d rahi thian aur bijali kauandhati thi. maian nira ko liye sardi se daant kitakitata hua ek thooanthe vriksh ke niche rat bhar baitha raha. us samay vah mera aishvaryashali sahayak bijali ke laimpoan mean mulayam gadde par sukh ki niand so raha tha. yadyapi maian use lautakar dekhane nahian gaya, to bhi maian nishchayapoorvak kahata hooan ki usake sukh mean kisi prakar ki badha upasthit karane ka dand dene ke lie bhagavanh ka nyay apane bhishan roop mean nahian prakat hua. maian rota tha—pukarata tha; kintu vahaan sunata kaun hai! tumhara badala lene ke lie bhagavanh nahian aye, isilie tum avishvas karane lage! lekhakoan ki kalpana ka sahityik nyay tum sarvatr pratyaksh dekhana chahate ho n! nivas ne tatparata se kaha. kyoan n maian aisa chahata? kya mujhe itana bhi adhikar n tha? tum samachar-patr padhate ho n? avashy! to usamean kahaniyaan bhi kahian-kahian padh lete hoge aur unaki alochanaean bhi? haan, to phir! jaise ek sadharan alochak pratyek lekhak se apane man ki kahani kahalaya chahata hai aur hath karata hai ki nahian, yahaan to aisa n hona chahie tha; thik usi tarah tum srishtikarta se apane jivan ki ghatanavali apane manonukool sahi karana chahate ho. mahashay! maian bhi isaka anubhav karata hooan ki sarvatr yadi papoan ka bhishan dand tatkal hi mil jaya karata, to yah srishti pap karana chho d deti. kintu vaisa nahian hua. ulate yah ek vyapak aur bhayanak manovritti ban gee hai ki mere kashtoan ka karan koee doosara hai. is tarah manushy apane karmoan ko saralata se bhool sakata hai. kya tumane apane aparadhoan par vichar kiya hai? nivas b de veg mean bol raha tha. buddha, n jane kyoan kaanp utha. saikil ka tivr alok usake vikrit mukh par p d raha tha. buddhe ka sir dhire-dhire niche jhukane laga. nira chauank uthi aur ek phata-sa kambal us buddhe ko odhane lagi. sahasa buddhe ne sir uthakar kaha—maian ise man leta hooan ki apake pas b di achchhi yuktiyaan haian aur vartaman dasha ka karan ap mujhe hi pramanit kar sakate haian. kintu vriksh ke niche pual se dhanki huee meri jhop di ko aur usamean p de hue anahar, sardi aur rogoan se jirn mujh abhage ko mera hi bhram batakar ap kisi b de bhari saty ka avishkar kar rahe haian, to kijie. jaie, mujhe kshama kijie. devanivas kuchh bolane hi vala tha ki nira ne dridhata se kaha—ap log kyoan baba ko tang kar rahe haian? ab unhean sone dijie. nivas ne dekha ki nira ke mukh par atmanirbharata aur santosh ki gambhir shanti hai. striyoan ka hriday abhilashaoan ka, sansar ke sukhoan ka, kri dasthal haian; kintu nira ka hriday, nira ka mastishk is kishor avastha mean hi kitana udasin aur shant hai. vah man-hi-man nira ke samane pranat hua. donoan mitr us jhop di se nikale. rat adhik bit chali thi. ve kalakatta mahanagari ki ghani basti mean dhire-dhire saikil chalate hue ghuse. donoan ka hriday bhari tha. ve chup the. devanivas ka mitr kachcha nagarik nahian tha. usako apane aank doan ka aur unake upayog par poora vishvas tha. vah sukh aur du:kh, daridrata aur vibhav, katuta aur madhurata ki pariksha karata. jo usake kam ke hote, unhean samhal leta; phir apane marg par chal deta. sarvajanik jivan ka dhoang rachane mean vah poora khila di tha. devanivas ke atithy ka upabhog karake apane lie kuchh masala jutakar vah chala gaya. kintu nivas ki aankhoan mean, us ratri mean boodhe ki jhop di ka drishy, apani chhaya dhalata hi raha. ek saptah bitane par vah phir usi or chala. jhop di mean buddha pual par p da tha. usaki aankhean kuchh b di ho gee thian, jvar se lal thian. nivas ko dekhate hi ek rugn hansi usake muanh par dikhaee di. usane dhire se poochha—babooji, aj phir...... nahian, maian vad-vivad karane nahian aya hooan. tum kya bimar ho? haan, bimar hooan babooji, aur yah apaki kripa hai. meri? haan, usi din se apaki batean mere sir mean chakkar katane lagi haian. maian eeshvar par vishvas karane ki bat sochane laga hooan. baith jaie, suniye. nivas baith gaya tha. buddhe ne phir kahana arambh kiya—maian hindoo hooan. kuchh samany pooja-path ka prabhav mere hriday par p da raha, jinhe maian balyakal mean apane ghar parvoan aur utsavoan par dekh chuka tha. mujhe eeshvar ke bare mean kabhi kuchh bataya nahian gaya. achchha, jane dijie, vah meri lambi kahani hai, mere jivan ki sansar se jhag date rahane ki katha hai. apani ghor avashyakataoan se l data-jhag data maian kuli ban kar ‘morishas’ pahuancha. vahaan ‘kulasam’ se, nira ki maan se, mujhase bheant ho gee. mera usaka byah ho gaya. ap hansie mat, kuliyoan ke lie vahaan kisi qaziya purohit ki utani avashyakata nahian. ham donoan ko ek doosare ki avashyakata thi. ‘kulasam’ ne mera ghar basaya. pahile vah chahe jaisi rahi—kintu mere sath sambandh hone ke bad se ajivan vah ek sadhvi grihini bani rahi. kabhi-kabhi vah apane dhang par eeshvar ka vichar karati aur mujhe bhi isake lie prerit karati; kintu mere man mean jitana ‘kulasam’ ke prati akarshan tha, utana hi usake eeshvar sambandhi-vicharoan se vidroh. maian kulasam ke eeshvar ko to kadapi nahian samajh saka. maian purush hone ki dharana se yah to sochata, tha ki ‘kulasam’ vaisa hi eeshvar mane jaisa use maian samajh sakooan aur vah mera eeshvar hindoo ho! kyoanki maian sab chho d sakata tha, lekin hindoo hone ka dambhapoorn vichar mere man mean dridhata se jam gaya tha; to bhi samajhadar ‘kulasam’ ke samane eeshvar ki kalpana apane dhang ki upasthit karane ka mere pas koee sadhan n tha. mere man ne dhoang kiya ki maian nastik ho jaooan. jab kabhi aisa avasar ata, maian ‘kulasam’ ke vicharoan ki khilli u data hua hansakar kah deta—‘mere lie to tumhian eeshvar ho, tumhian khuda ho, tumhian sab kuchh ho.’ vah mujhe chapaloosi karate hue dekhakar hans deti thi, kintu usaka roaan-roaan rone lagata. maian apani gadhi kamaee ke rupaye ko sharab ke pyale mean galakar mast rahata! mere lie vah bhi koee vishesh bat n thi, n to mere lie astik banane mean hi koee visheshata thi. dhire-dhire maian uchchhriankhal ho gaya. kulasam roti, bilakhati aur mujhe samajhati; kintu mujhe ye sab batean vyarth ki-si jan p datian. maian adhik avichari ho utha. mere jivan ka vah bhayanak parivartan b de veg se arambh hua. kulasam us kasht ko sahan karane ke lie jivit n rah saki. us din jab goli chali thi, tab kulasam ke vahaan jane ki avashyakata n thi. maian sach kahata hooan babooji, vah atmahatya karane ka usaka ek naya dhang tha. mujhe vishvas hota hai ki maian hi isaka karan tha. isake bad meri vah sab uddandata to nasht ho gee, jivan ki pooanji jo mera nij ka abhiman tha—vah bhi choor-choor ho gaya. maian nira ko lekar bharat ke lie chal p da. tab tak to maian eeshvar ke sambandh mean ek udasin nastik tha; kintu is du:kh ne mujhe vidrohi bana diya. maian apane kashtoan ka karan eeshvar ko hi samajhane laga aur mere man mean yah bat jam gee ki yah mujhe dand diya gaya hai. buddha uttejit ho utha tha. usaka dam phoolane laga, khaansi ane lagi. nira mitti ke gh de mean jal liye hue jhop di mean aee. usane devanivas ko aur apane pita ko anveshak drishti se dekha. yah samajh lene par ki donoan mean se kisi ke mukh par katuta nahian hai, vah prakritisth huee. dhire-dhire pita ka sir sahalate hue usane poochha—baba, lava le aee hooan, kuchh kha lo. buddhe ne kaha—thaharo beti! phir nivas ki or dekhakar kahane laga—babooji, us din bhi jab nira ke lie maianne bhagavanh ko pukara tha, tab usi katuta se. sambhav hai, isilie ve n ae hoan. aj kee dinoan se maian bhagavanh ko samajhane ki cheshta kar raha hooan. nira ke lie mujhe chinta ho rahi hai. vah kya karegi? kisi atyachari ke hath p dakar nasht to n ho jayagi? nivas kuchh bolane hi ko tha ki nira kah uthi—baba, tum meri chinta n karo, bhagavanh meri raksha kareange. nivas ki antaratma pulakit ho uthi. buddhe ne kaha—kareange beti? usake mukh par ek vyakul prasannata jhalak uthi. nivas ne boodhe ki or dekh kar vinit svar mean kaha—maian nira se byah karane ke lie prastut hooan. yadi tumhean— boodhe ko abaki khaansi ke sath dher-sa rakt gira, to bhi usake muanh par santosh aur vishvas ki prasann-lila khelane lagi. usane apane donoan hath nivas aur nira par phailakar rakhate hue kaha-he mere bhagavanh!

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