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ab aur age nahin, is gandagi men kahan chalate ho, devanivas? thodi door aur—kahate hue devanivas ne apani saikil dhimi kar di; kintu virakt amaranath ne behrak dabakar thahar jana hi uchit samajha. devanivas age nikal gaya. maulasiri ka vah saghan vriksh tha, jo pokhare ke kinare apani andhakaramayi chhaya dal raha tha. pokhare se sadi huee durgandh a rahi thi. devanivas ne pichhe ghoomakar dekha, mitr ko vahin ruka dekhakar vah laut raha tha. usaki saikil ka laimp bujh chala tha. sahasa dhakka laga, devanivas to girate-girate bacha, aur ek durbal manushy ‘are ram’ kahata hua girakar bhi uth khada hua. balika usaka hath pakadakar poochhane lagi—kahin chot to nahin lagi, baba? nahin beti! main kahata n tha, mujhe motaron se utana dar nahin lagata, jitana is be-dum janavar ‘saikil’ se. motar vale to doosaron ko hi chot pahunchate hain, paidal chalane valon ko kuchalate hue nikal jate hain par ye bechare to ap bhi gir padate hain. kyon baboo sahab, apako to chot nahin lagi? ham log to chot-ghav sah sakate hain. devanivas kuchh jhenp gaya tha. usane boodhe se kaha—ap mujhe kshama kijie. apako.... kshama—main karoon? are, ap kya kah rahe hain! do-char hantar apane nahin lagaye. ghar bhool gaye, hantar nahin le aye! achchha mahoday! apako kasht hua n, kya karoon, bina bhikh mange is sardi men pet galiyan dene lagata hai! nind bhi nahin ati, char-chh: paharon par to kuchh-n-kuchh ise dena hi padata hai! aur bhi mujhe ek rog hai. do paison bina vah nahin chhootata—padhऩe ke lie akhabar chahie; pustakalayon men chithade pahanakar baithane n paoonga, isalie nahin jata. doosare din ka basi samachar-patr do paison men le leta hoon! amaranath bhi pas a gaya tha. usane yah kand dekhakar hnsate hue kaha—devanivas! main mana karata tha n! tum apani dhun men kuchh sunate bhi ho. chale to phir chale, aur ruke to adiyal tattoo bhi jhak mare! kya use kuchh chot a gee hai? kyon boodhe! lo, yah athanni hai. jao apani rah, tanik dekhakar chala karo! boodha masakhara bhi tha. athanni lete hue usane kaha—dekhakar chalata, to yah athanni kaise milati! to bhi babooji, ap logon ki jeb men akhabar hoga. mainne dekha hai, baisikil par chadhe hue babuon ki paket men nikala hua kagaz ka muttha; akhabar hi rahata hoga. chalo baba, jhopadi men, sardi lagati hai.—yah chhoti-si balika apane baba ko jaise is tarah baten karate huye dekhana nahin chahati thi. vah snkoch men doobi ja rahi thi. devanivas chup tha. buddhe ko jaise tamacha laga. vah apane dayaniy aur ghrinit bhiksha-vyavasay ko bahudha nira se chhipakar, banakar kahata. use akhabar sunata. aur bhi n jane kya-kya oonchi-nichi baten baka karata; nira jaise sab samajhati thi! vah kabhi boodhe se prashn nahin karati thi. jo kuchh vah kahata, chupachap sun liya karati thi. kabhi-kabhi buddha jhunjhala kar chup ho jata, tab bhi vah chup rahati. boodhe ko aj hi nira ne jhopadi men chalane ke lie kahakar pahale-pahal mithi jhidaqi di. usane socha ki athanni pane par bhi akhabar mangana nira n sah saki. achchha to babooji, bhagavanh yadi koee hon, to apaka bhala karen—buddha ladaqi ka hath pakadakar maulasiri ki or chala. devanivas sann tha. amaranath ne apani saikil ke ujjval alok men dekha; nira ek gori-si, sundari, patali-dubali karuna ki chhaya thi. donon mitr chup the. amaranath ne hi kaha—ab lautoge ki yahin gad gaye! tumane kuchh suna, amaranath! vah kahata tha—bhagavan yadi koee hon—kitana bhayanak avishvas! devanivas ne sans lekar kaha. daridrata aur lagatar du:khon se manushy avishvas karane lagata hai, nivas! yah koee nayi bat nahin hai—amaranath ne chalane ki utsukata dikhate hue kaha. kintu devanivas to jais atmavismrit tha. usane kaha—sukh aur sampatti se kya eeshvar ka vishvas adhik hone lagata hai? kya manushy eeshvar ko pahachan leta hai? usaki vyapak satta ko malin vesh men dekhakar duradurata nahin—thukarata nahin, amaranath! abaki bar ‘alochak’ ke visheshank men tumane laute hue pravasi kuliyon ke sambandh men ek lekh likha tha n! vah sab kaise likha tha? akhabaron ke ankade dekhakar. mujhe thik-thik smaran hai. kab, kis dvip se kaun-kaun stimar kis tarikh men chale. ‘satalaj’, ‘pandit’ aur ‘eliphainta’ nam ke stimaron par kitane-kitane kuli the, mujhe thik-thik maloom tha, aur? aur ve sab kahan hain? suna hai, isi kalakatte ke pas kahin matiyaburj hai, vahi abhagon ka nivas hai. avadh ke navab ka vilas ya prayashchitt-bhavan bhi to matiyaburj hi raha. mainne us lekh men bhi ek vyng is par bade marke ka diya hai. chalo, khade-khade baten karane ki jagah nahin. tumane to kaha tha ki aj janakirn kalakatte se door tumako ek achchhi jagah dikhaoonga. yahin.... yahi matiyaburj hai. —devanivas ne badi gambhirata se kaha. aur ab tum kahoge ki vah buddha vahin se lauta hua koee kuli hai. ho sakata hai, mujhe nahin maloom. achchha, chalo ab lauten. —kahakar amaranath ne apani saikil ko dhakka diya. devanivas ne kaha—chalo usaki jhopadi tak, main usase kuchh bat karoonga. anichchhapoorvak ‘chalo’ kahate hue amaranath ne maulasiri ki or saikil ghuma di. saikil ke tivr alok men jhopadi ke bhitar ka drishy dikhaee de raha tha. buddha manoyog se laee phank raha tha aur nira bhi kal ki bachi huee roti chaba rahi thi. rookhe othon par do-ek dane chipak gaye the, jo us daridr mukh men jana asvikar kar rahe the. luk phera hua tin ka gilas apane khuradare rng ka nilapan nira ki ankhon men undel raha tha. alok ek ujjval saty hai, band ankhon men bhi usaki satta chhipi nahin rahati. buddhe ne ankhe khol kar donon babuon ko dekha. vah bol utha—babooji! ap akhabar dene aye hain? main abhi pathy le raha tha; bimar hoon n, isi se laee khata hoon, badi namakin hoti hai. akhabar vale ko kabhi-kabhi namakin baton ka svad de dete hain! isi se to, bechare kitani door-door ki baten sunate hain. jab main ‘morishas’ men tha, tab hindustan ki baten padha karata tha. mera desh sone ka hai, aisi bhavana jag uthi thi. ab kabhi-kabhi us tapoo ki baten padh pata hoon, tab yah mitti maloom padata hai; par sach kahata hoon babooji, ‘morishas’ men agar goli n chali hoti aur ‘nira’ ki man n mari hoti...han, goli se hi vah mari thi... to main ab tak vahin se janmabhoomi ka sone ka sapana dekhata; aur is abhage desh! nahin-nahin babooji, mujhe yah kahane ka adhikar nahin. main hoon abhaga! hay re bhag!! ‘nira’ ghabara uthi thi. usane kisi tarah do ghoont jal gale se utar kar in logon ki or dekha. usaki ankhe kah rahi thin ki ‘ao, meri daridrata ka svad lenevale dhani vicharakon! aur sukh to tumhen milate hi hain, ek n sahi!’ apane pita ko baten karate dekhakar vah ghabara uthati thi. vah darati thi ki buddha n-jane kya-kya kah baithega. devanivas chupachap usaka munh dekhane laga. nira balika n thi. stritv ke sab vynjan the, phir bhi jaise daridrata ke bhishan hathon ne use daba diya tha, vah sidhi oopar nahin uthane paee. kya tumako eeshvar men vishvas nahin hai?—amaranath ne gambhirata se poochha. ‘alochak’ men ek lekh mainne padha tha! vah isi prakar ke ulahane se bhara tha, ki ‘vartaman janata men eeshvar ke prati avishvas ka bhav badhata ja raha hai, aur isilie vah dukhi hai.’ yah padhaqar mujhe to hnsi a gee. buddhe ne avichal bhav se kaha. hnsi a gee! kaise du:kh ki bat hai. —amaranath ne kaha. du:kh ki bat soch kar hi to hnsi a gee. ham moorkh manushyon ne tran ki—sharan ki—asha se eeshvar par poorvakal men vishvas kiya tha, paraspar ke vishvas aur sadh‌bhav ko thukarakar. manushy, manushy ka vishvas nahin kar saka; isilie to ek sukhi doosare dukhi ki or ghrina se dekhata tha. dukhi ne eeshvar ka avalamban liya, to bhi bhagavanh ne snsar ke dukhon ki srishti band kar di kya? manushy ke boote ka n raha, to kya vah bhi...? kahate-kahate boodhe ki ankhon se chinagariyan nikalane lagin; kintu ve agnikan galane lage aur usake kapolon ke gadhe men vah drav ikattha hone laga. amaranath krodh se buddhe ko dekh raha tha; kintu devanivas us malina nira ki utkantha aur khed-bhari mukhakriti ka adhyayan kar raha tha. apako krodh a gaya, kyon mahashay! ane ki bat hi hai. le lijiye apani athanni. athanni dekar eeshvar men vishvas nahin karaya jata. us chot ke bare men pulis se jakar n kahane ke lie bhi athanni ki avashyakata nahin. main yah manata hoon ki srishti vishamata se bhari hai, cheshta karake bhi isamen arthik ya sharirik samy nahin laya ja sakata. han, to bhi aishvaryavalon ko, jin par bhagavanh ki poorn kripa hai, apani sahridayata se eeshvar ka vishvas karane ka prayatn karana chahie. kahie, is tarah bhagavanh ki samasya sulajhane ke lie ap prastut hain? is boodhe nastik aur tarkik se amaranath ko tivr virakti ho chali thi. ab vah chalane ke lie devanivas se kahanevala tha; kintu usane dekha, vah to jhopadi men asan jamakar baith gaya hai. amaranath ko chup dekhakar devanivas ne boodhe se kaha—achchha, to ap mere ghar chalakar rahie. sambhav hai ki main apaki seva kar sakoon. tab ap vishvasi ban jayn, to koee ashchary nahin. is bar to vah buddha buri tarah devanivas ko ghoorane laga. nivas vah tivr drishti sah n saka. usane samajha ki mainne chalane ke lie kahakar boodhe ko chot pahunchaee hai. vah bol utha—kya ap....? thaharo bhaee! tum bade jaldabaj maloom hote ho—boodhe ne kaha. kya sachamuch tum meri seva kiya chahate ho ya....? ab boodha nira ki or dekh raha tha aur nira ki ankhe boodhe ko age n bolane ki shapath dila rahi thin; kintu usane phir kaha hi—ya nira ko, jise tum badi der se dekh rahe ho, apane ghar liva jane ki badi utkantha hai! kshama karana! main avishvasi ho gaya hoon n! kyon, janate ho? jab kuliyon ke lie isi sili, gandi aur durgandhamayi bhoomi men ek sahanubhooti utpann huee thi, tab mujhe yah katu anubhav hua tha ki vah sahanubhooti bhi chirayndh se khali n thi. mujhe ek sahayak mile the aur main yahan se thodi door par unake ghar rahane laga tha. nira se ab n raha gaya. vah bol uthi—baba, chup n rahoge; khansi ane lagegi. thahar nira! han to mahashay ji, main unake ghar rahane laga tha. aur unhonne mera atithy sadharanat: achchha hi kiya. ek aisi hi kali rat thi. bijali badalon men chamak rahi thi aur main pet bharakar us thandi rat men sukh ki jhapaki lene laga tha. is bat ko barason hue; to bhi mujhe thik smaran hai ki main jaise bhayanak sapana dekhata hua chaunk utha. nira chilla rahi thi! kyon nira? ab nira hatash ho gee thi aur usane boodhe ko rokane ka prayatn chhod diya tha. vah ekatak boodhe ka munh dekh rahi thi. buddhe ne phir kahana arambh kiya—han to nira chilla rahi thi. main uthakar dekhata hoon, to mere vah param sahayak mahashay isi nira ko donon hath se pakadakar ghasit rahe the aur yah bechari chhootane ka vyarth prayatn kar rahi thi. mainne apane donon durbal hathon ko uthakar us nich upakari ke oopar de mara. vah nira ko chhodakar ‘paji, badamash, nikal mere ghar se’ kahata hua mera akinchan saman bahar phenkane laga. bahar ole-si boonden pad rahi thin aur bijali kaundhati thi. main nira ko liye sardi se dant kitakitata hua ek thoonthe vriksh ke niche rat bhar baitha raha. us samay vah mera aishvaryashali sahayak bijali ke laimpon men mulayam gadde par sukh ki nind so raha tha. yadyapi main use lautakar dekhane nahin gaya, to bhi main nishchayapoorvak kahata hoon ki usake sukh men kisi prakar ki badha upasthit karane ka dand dene ke lie bhagavanh ka nyay apane bhishan roop men nahin prakat hua. main rota tha—pukarata tha; kintu vahan sunata kaun hai! tumhara badala lene ke lie bhagavanh nahin aye, isilie tum avishvas karane lage! lekhakon ki kalpana ka sahityik nyay tum sarvatr pratyaksh dekhana chahate ho n! nivas ne tatparata se kaha. kyon n main aisa chahata? kya mujhe itana bhi adhikar n tha? tum samachar-patr padhate ho n? avashy! to usamen kahaniyan bhi kahin-kahin padh lete hoge aur unaki alochanaen bhi? han, to phir! jaise ek sadharan alochak pratyek lekhak se apane man ki kahani kahalaya chahata hai aur hath karata hai ki nahin, yahan to aisa n hona chahie tha; thik usi tarah tum srishtikarta se apane jivan ki ghatanavali apane manonukool sahi karana chahate ho. mahashay! main bhi isaka anubhav karata hoon ki sarvatr yadi papon ka bhishan dand tatkal hi mil jaya karata, to yah srishti pap karana chhod deti. kintu vaisa nahin hua. ulate yah ek vyapak aur bhayanak manovritti ban gee hai ki mere kashton ka karan koee doosara hai. is tarah manushy apane karmon ko saralata se bhool sakata hai. kya tumane apane aparadhon par vichar kiya hai? nivas bade veg men bol raha tha. buddha, n jane kyon kanp utha. saikil ka tivr alok usake vikrit mukh par pad raha tha. buddhe ka sir dhire-dhire niche jhukane laga. nira chaunk uthi aur ek phata-sa kambal us buddhe ko odhane lagi. sahasa buddhe ne sir uthakar kaha—main ise man leta hoon ki apake pas badi achchhi yuktiyan hain aur vartaman dasha ka karan ap mujhe hi pramanit kar sakate hain. kintu vriksh ke niche pual se dhnki huee meri jhopadi ko aur usamen pade hue anahar, sardi aur rogon se jirn mujh abhage ko mera hi bhram batakar ap kisi bade bhari saty ka avishkar kar rahe hain, to kijie. jaie, mujhe kshama kijie. devanivas kuchh bolane hi vala tha ki nira ne dridhata se kaha—ap log kyon baba ko tng kar rahe hain? ab unhen sone dijie. nivas ne dekha ki nira ke mukh par atmanirbharata aur santosh ki gambhir shanti hai. striyon ka hriday abhilashaon ka, snsar ke sukhon ka, kridasthal hain; kintu nira ka hriday, nira ka mastishk is kishor avastha men hi kitana udasin aur shant hai. vah man-hi-man nira ke samane pranat hua. donon mitr us jhopadi se nikale. rat adhik bit chali thi. ve kalakatta mahanagari ki ghani basti men dhire-dhire saikil chalate hue ghuse. donon ka hriday bhari tha. ve chup the. devanivas ka mitr kachcha nagarik nahin tha. usako apane ankadon ka aur unake upayog par poora vishvas tha. vah sukh aur du:kh, daridrata aur vibhav, katuta aur madhurata ki pariksha karata. jo usake kam ke hote, unhen samhal leta; phir apane marg par chal deta. sarvajanik jivan ka dhong rachane men vah poora khiladi tha. devanivas ke atithy ka upabhog karake apane lie kuchh masala jutakar vah chala gaya. kintu nivas ki ankhon men, us ratri men boodhe ki jhopadi ka drishy, apani chhaya dhalata hi raha. ek saptah bitane par vah phir usi or chala. jhopadi men buddha pual par pada tha. usaki ankhen kuchh badi ho gee thin, jvar se lal thin. nivas ko dekhate hi ek rugn hnsi usake munh par dikhaee di. usane dhire se poochha—babooji, aj phir...... nahin, main vad-vivad karane nahin aya hoon. tum kya bimar ho? han, bimar hoon babooji, aur yah apaki kripa hai. meri? han, usi din se apaki baten mere sir men chakkar katane lagi hain. main eeshvar par vishvas karane ki bat sochane laga hoon. baith jaie, suniye. nivas baith gaya tha. buddhe ne phir kahana arambh kiya—main hindoo hoon. kuchh samany pooja-path ka prabhav mere hriday par pada raha, jinhe main balyakal men apane ghar parvon aur utsavon par dekh chuka tha. mujhe eeshvar ke bare men kabhi kuchh bataya nahin gaya. achchha, jane dijie, vah meri lambi kahani hai, mere jivan ki snsar se jhagadate rahane ki katha hai. apani ghor avashyakataon se ladata-jhagadata main kuli ban kar ‘morishas’ pahuncha. vahan ‘kulasam’ se, nira ki man se, mujhase bhent ho gee. mera usaka byah ho gaya. ap hnsie mat, kuliyon ke lie vahan kisi qaziya purohit ki utani avashyakata nahin. ham donon ko ek doosare ki avashyakata thi. ‘kulasam’ ne mera ghar basaya. pahile vah chahe jaisi rahi—kintu mere sath sambandh hone ke bad se ajivan vah ek sadhvi grihini bani rahi. kabhi-kabhi vah apane dhng par eeshvar ka vichar karati aur mujhe bhi isake lie prerit karati; kintu mere man men jitana ‘kulasam’ ke prati akarshan tha, utana hi usake eeshvar sambandhi-vicharon se vidroh. main kulasam ke eeshvar ko to kadapi nahin samajh saka. main purush hone ki dharana se yah to sochata, tha ki ‘kulasam’ vaisa hi eeshvar mane jaisa use main samajh sakoon aur vah mera eeshvar hindoo ho! kyonki main sab chhod sakata tha, lekin hindoo hone ka dambhapoorn vichar mere man men dridhata se jam gaya tha; to bhi samajhadar ‘kulasam’ ke samane eeshvar ki kalpana apane dhng ki upasthit karane ka mere pas koee sadhan n tha. mere man ne dhong kiya ki main nastik ho jaoon. jab kabhi aisa avasar ata, main ‘kulasam’ ke vicharon ki khilli udata hua hnsakar kah deta—‘mere lie to tumhin eeshvar ho, tumhin khuda ho, tumhin sab kuchh ho.’ vah mujhe chapaloosi karate hue dekhakar hns deti thi, kintu usaka roan-roan rone lagata. main apani gadhi kamaee ke rupaye ko sharab ke pyale men galakar mast rahata! mere lie vah bhi koee vishesh bat n thi, n to mere lie astik banane men hi koee visheshata thi. dhire-dhire main uchchhrinkhal ho gaya. kulasam roti, bilakhati aur mujhe samajhati; kintu mujhe ye sab baten vyarth ki-si jan padatin. main adhik avichari ho utha. mere jivan ka vah bhayanak parivartan bade veg se arambh hua. kulasam us kasht ko sahan karane ke lie jivit n rah saki. us din jab goli chali thi, tab kulasam ke vahan jane ki avashyakata n thi. main sach kahata hoon babooji, vah atmahatya karane ka usaka ek naya dhng tha. mujhe vishvas hota hai ki main hi isaka karan tha. isake bad meri vah sab uddandata to nasht ho gee, jivan ki poonji jo mera nij ka abhiman tha—vah bhi choor-choor ho gaya. main nira ko lekar bharat ke lie chal pada. tab tak to main eeshvar ke sambandh men ek udasin nastik tha; kintu is du:kh ne mujhe vidrohi bana diya. main apane kashton ka karan eeshvar ko hi samajhane laga aur mere man men yah bat jam gee ki yah mujhe dand diya gaya hai. buddha uttejit ho utha tha. usaka dam phoolane laga, khansi ane lagi. nira mitti ke ghade men jal liye hue jhopadi men aee. usane devanivas ko aur apane pita ko anveshak drishti se dekha. yah samajh lene par ki donon men se kisi ke mukh par katuta nahin hai, vah prakritisth huee. dhire-dhire pita ka sir sahalate hue usane poochha—baba, lava le aee hoon, kuchh kha lo. buddhe ne kaha—thaharo beti! phir nivas ki or dekhakar kahane laga—babooji, us din bhi jab nira ke lie mainne bhagavanh ko pukara tha, tab usi katuta se. sambhav hai, isilie ve n ae hon. aj kee dinon se main bhagavanh ko samajhane ki cheshta kar raha hoon. nira ke lie mujhe chinta ho rahi hai. vah kya karegi? kisi atyachari ke hath padakar nasht to n ho jayagi? nivas kuchh bolane hi ko tha ki nira kah uthi—baba, tum meri chinta n karo, bhagavanh meri raksha karenge. nivas ki antaratma pulakit ho uthi. buddhe ne kaha—karenge beti? usake mukh par ek vyakul prasannata jhalak uthi. nivas ne boodhe ki or dekh kar vinit svar men kaha—main nira se byah karane ke lie prastut hoon. yadi tumhen— boodhe ko abaki khansi ke sath dher-sa rakt gira, to bhi usake munh par santosh aur vishvas ki prasann-lila khelane lagi. usane apane donon hath nivas aur nira par phailakar rakhate hue kaha-he mere bhagavanh!

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