आँसुओं की होली -प्रेमचंद  हिन्दी देवनागरी में पढ़ें।

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namon ko bigadane ki pratha n-jane kab chali aur kahan shuroo huee. is snsaravyapi rog ka pata lagaye to aitihasik snsar men avashy hi apana nam chhod jae. pndit ji ka nam to shrivilas tha; par mitr log silabil kaha karate the. namon ka asar charitra par kuchh n kuchh pad jata hai. bechare silabil sachamuch hi silabil the. daftar ja rahe hain; magar pajame ka ijarabnd niche latak raha hai. sir par phelt-kaip hai; par lambi-si chutiya pichhe jhank rahi hai, achakan yon bahut sundar hai. n jane unhen tyoharon se kya chidh thi. divali gujar jati par vah bhalamanas kaudi hath men n leta. aur holi ka din to unaki bhishan pariksha ka din tha. tin din vah ghar se bahar n nikalate. ghar par bhi kale kapade pahane baithe rahate the. yar log toh men rahate the ki kahin bacha phns jaen magar ghar men ghus kar to faujadari nahin ki jati. ek-adha bar phnse bhi, magar ghighiya-pudiya kar bedag nikal gaye. lekin abaki samasya bahut kathin ho gayi thi. shastron ke anusar hm varsh tak brahmachary ka palan karane ke bad unhonne vivah kiya tha. brahmachary ke paripakv hone men jo thodi-bahut kasar rahi, vah tin varsh ke gaune ki muddat ne poori kar di. yadyapi stri se koee shnka n thi, tathapi vah auraton ko sir chadhane ke hami n the. is mamale men unhen apana vahi purana-dhurana dhng pasnd tha. bibi ko jab kas kar daaut diya, to usaki majal hai ki rng hath se chhue. vipatti yah thi ki sasural ke log bhi holi manane anevale the. purani masal hai : 'bahan andar to bhaee sikndar'. in sikndaron ke akraman se bachane ka unhen koee upay n soojhata tha. mitr log ghar men n ja sakate the; lekin sikndaron ko kaun rok sakata hai ? stri ne ankh phad kar kaha —are bhaiya ! kya sachamuch rng n ghar laoge ? yah kaisi holi hai, baba ? silabil ne tyoriyan chadha kar kaha —bas, mainne ek bar kah diya aur bat doharana mujhe pasnd nahin. ghar men rng nahin ayega aur n koee chhuega ? mujhe kapadon par lal chhinte dekh kar machali ane lagati hai. hamare ghar men aisi hi holi hoti hai. stri ne sir jhuka kar kaha —to n lana rng-sng, mujhe rng le kar kya karana hai. jab tumhin rng n chhuoge, to main kaise chhoo sakati hoon. silabil ne prasann ho kar kaha —nissndeh yahi sadhavi stri ka dharm hai. 'lekin bhaiya to anevale hain. vah kyon manenge ?' 'unake lie bhi mainne ek upay soch liya hai. use saphal banana tumhara kam hai. main bimar ban jaoonga. ek chadar odh kar let rahoonga. tum kahana inhen jvar a gaya. bas; chalo chhutti huee.' stri ne ankh nacha kar kaha —ai nauj; kaisi baten munh se nikalate ho ! jvar jae muddee ke ghar, yahan aye to munh jhulas doon nigode ka. 'to phir doosara upay hi kya hai ?' 'tum ooparavali chhoti kothari men chhip rahana, main kah doongi, unhonne julab liya hai. bahar nikalenge to hava lag jayagi.' pndit ji khil uthe , bas, bas, yahi sabase achchha. 1389 holi ka din hai. bahar hahakar macha hua hai. purane jamane men abir aur gulal ke siva aur koee rng n khela jata tha. ab nile, hare, kale, sabhi rngon ka mel ho gaya hai aur is sngathan se bachana adami ke lie to snbhav nahin. han, devata bachen. silabil ke donon sale muhalle bhar ke mardon, auraton, bachchon aur boodhon ka nishana bane hue the. bahar ke divanakhane ke pharsh, divaren , yahan tak ki tasaviren bhi rng uthi thin. ghar men bhi yahi hal tha. muhalle ki nanaden bhala kab manane lagi thin. paranala tak rngin ho gaya tha. bade sale ne poochha—kyon ri champa, kya sachamuch unaki tabiyat achchhi nahin ? khana khane bhi n aye ? champa ne sir jhuka kar kaha —han bhaiya, rat hi se pet men kuchh dard hone laga. daktar ne hava men nikalane ko mana kar diya hai. jara der bad chhote sale ne kaha —kyon jiji ji, kya bhaee sahab niche nahin ayenge ? aisi bhi kya bimari hai ! kaho to oopar ja kar dekh aoon. champa ne usaka hath pakad kar kaha —nahin-nahin, oopar mat jaiyo ! vah rng-vng n khelenge. daktar ne hava men nikalane ko mana kar diya hai. donon bhaee hath mal kar rah gaye. sahasa chhote bhaee ko ek bat soojhi , jija ji ke kapadon ke sath kyon n holi khelen. ve to nahin bimar hain. bade bhaee ke man men yah bat baith gayi. bahan bechari ab kya karati ? sikndaron ne kunjiyan usake hath se lin aur silabil ke sare kapade nikal-nikal kar rng dale. roomal tak n chhoda. jab champa ne un kapadon ko angan men alagani par sookhane ko dal diya to aisa jan pada, mano kisi rngarej ne byah ke jode rnge hon. silabil oopar baithe-baithe yah tamasha dekh rahe the; par jaban n kholate the. chhati par sanp-sa lot raha tha. sare kapade kharab ho gaye, daftar jane ko bhi kuchh n bacha. in dushton ko mere kapadon se n jane kya bair tha. ghar men nana prakar ke svadisht vynjan ban rahe the. muhalle ki ek brahmani ke sath champa bhi juti huee thi. donon bhaee aur kee any sajjan angan men bhojan karane baithe, to bade sale ne champa se poochha—kuchh unake lie 1390 : manasarovar bhi khichadi-vichadi banayi hai ? pooriyan to bechare aj kha n sakenge ! champa ne kaha —abhi to nahin banayi, ab bana loongi. 'vah ri teri akl ! abhi tak tujhe itani fikr nahin ki vah bechare khayenge kya. too to itani laparavah kabhi n thi. ja nikal la jaldi se chaval aur moong ki dal.' lijie , khichadi pakane lagi. idhar mitron ne bhojan karana shuroo kiya. silabil oopar baithe apani kismat ko ro rahe the. unhen is sari vipatti ka ek hi karan maloom hota tha , vivah ! champa n ati, to ye sale kyon ate, kapade kyon kharab hote, holi ke din moong ki khichadi kyon khane ko milati ? magar ab pachhatane se kya hota hai. jitani der men logon ne bhojan kiya, utani der men khichadi taiyar ho gayi. bade sale ne khud champa ko oopar bheja ki khichadi ki thali oopar de aye. silabil ne thali ki or kupit netron se dekh kar kaha —ise mere samane se hata le jav. 'kya aj upavas hi karoge ?' 'tumhari yahi ichchha hai, to yahi sahi.' 'mainne kya kiya. sabere se juti huee hoon. bhaiya ne khud khichadi dalavayi aur mujhe yahan bheja.' 'han, vah to main dekh raha hoon ki main ghar ka svami nahin. sikndaron ne us par qabza jama liya hai, magar main yah nahin man sakata ki tum chahatin to aur logon ke pahale hi mere pas thali n pahunch jati. main ise pativrat dharm ke viruddh samajhata hoon, aur kya kahoon !' 'tum to dekh rahe the ki donon jane mere sir par savar the.' 'achchhi dillagi hai ki aur log to samose aur khaste udayen aur mujhe moong ki khichadi di jae. vah re nasib !' 'tum ise do-char kaur kha lo, mujhe jyon hi avasar milega, doosari thali laoongi.' 'sare kapade rngava dale, daftar kaise jaoonga ? yah dillagi mujhe jara bhi nahin bhati. main ise badamashi kahata hoon. tumane sndook ki kunji kyon de di ? kya main itana poochh sakata hoon ?' 1391 'jabaradasti chhin li. tumane suna nahin ? karati kya ?' 'achchha, jo hua so hua, yah thali le jav. dharm samajhana to doosari thali lana, nahin to aj vrat hi sahi.' ekaek pairon ki ahat pa kar silabil ne samane dekha, to donon sale a rahe hain. unhen dekhate hi bichare ne munh bana liya, chadar se sharir dhnk liya aur karahane lage. bade sale ne kaha —kahie, kaisi tabiyat hai ? thodi-si khichadi kha lijie. silabil ne munh bana kar kaha —abhi to kuchh khane ki ichchha nahin hai. 'nahin, upavas karana to hanikar hoga. khichadi kha lijie.' bechare silabil ne man men in donon shaitanon ko khoob kosa aur vish ki bhanti khichadi knth ke niche utari. aj holi ke din khichadi hi bhagy men likhi thi ! jab tak sari khichadi samapt n ho gayi, donon vahan date rahe, mano jel ke adhikari kisi anashan vratadhari kaidi ko bhojan kara rahe hon. bechare ko thoons-thoons kar khichadi khani padi. pakavanon ke lie gunjayash hi n rahi. das baje rat ko champa uttam padarthon ka thal liye patidev ke pas pahunchi ! mahashay man hi man jhunjhala rahe the. bhaiyon ke samane meri paravah kaun karata hai. n jane kahan se donon shaitan phat pade. din bhar upavas karaya aur abhi tak bhojan ka kahin pata nahin. bare champa ko thal late dekh kar kuchh agni shant huee. bole —  ab to bahut sabera hai, ek-do ghnte bad kyon n ayin ? champa ne samane thali rakh kar kaha —tum to n hari hi manate ho, n jiti. ab akhir ye do mehaman aye hue hain, inaki seva-satkar n karoon to bhi to kam nahin chalata. tumhin ko bura lagega. kaun roj ayenge. 'eeshvar n kare ki roj ayen, yahan to ek hi din men badhiya baith gayi.' thal ki sugndhamay, tarabatar chizen dekh kar sahasa pndit ji ke mukharavind 139hm : manasarovar par muskan ki lali daud gayi. ek-ek chiz khate the aur champa ko sarahate the , sach kahata hoon, champa; mainne aisi chizen kabhi nahin khayi thin. halavaee sala kya banayega. ji chahata hai, kuchh inam doon. 'tum mujhe bana rahe ho. kya karoon jaisa banana ata hai, bana layi.' 'nahin ji, sach kah raha hoon. meri to atma tak tript ho gayi. aj mujhe gyat hua ki bhojan ka sambandh udar se itana nahin, jitana atma se hai. batalao, kya inam doon ?' 'jo magoon, vah doge ?' 'doonga , janeoo ki kasam kha kar kahata hoon !' 'n do to meri bat jae.' 'kahata hoon bhaee, ab kaise kahoon. kya likha-padhi kar doon ?' 'achchha, to mangati hoon. mujhe apane sath holi khelane do.' pndit ji ka rng ud gaya. ankhen phad kar bole —  holi khelane doon ? main to holi khelata nahin. kabhi nahin khela. holi khelana hota, to ghar men chhip kar kyon baithata. 'aur ke sath mat khelo; lekin mere sath to khelana hi padega.' 'yah mere niyam ke viruddh hai. jis chiz ko apane ghar men uchit samajhoon use kis nyay se ghar ke bahar anuchit samajhoon, socho.' champa ne sir nicha karake kaha —ghar men aisi kitani baten uchit samajhate ho, jo ghar ke bahar karana anuchit hi nahin pap bhi hai. pndit ji jhenpate hue bole —  achchha bhaee, tum jiti, main hara. ab main tum se yahi dan mangata hoon... 'pahale mera puraskar de do, pichhe mujhase dan mangana' , yah kahate hue champa ne lote ka rng utha liya aur pndit ji ko sir se panv tak nahala diya. jab tak vah uth kar bhagen usane mutthi bhar gulal le kar sare munh men pot diya. pndit ji roni soorat bana kar bole—  abhi aur kasar baki ho, to vah bhi poori kar lo. main janata tha ki tum meri astin ka sanp banogi. ab aur kuchh rng baki nahin raha ? champa ne pati ke mukh ki or dekha, to us par manovedana ka gahara rng jhalak raha tha. pachhata kar boli—  kya tum sachamuch bura man gaye ho ? main to samajhati thi ki tum keval mujhe chidha rahe ho. shrivilas ne kanpate hue svar men kaha— nahin champa, mujhe bura nahin laga. han, tumane mujhe us kartavy ki yad dila di, jo main apani kayarata ke karan bhula baitha tha. vah samane jo chitr dekh rahi ho, mere param mitr manaharanath ka hai, jo ab snsar men nahin hai. tumase kya kahoon, kitana saras, kitana bhavuk, kitana sahasi adami tha ! desh ki dasha dekh-dekh kar usaka khoon jalata rahata tha. hm bhi koee umr hoti hai, par vah usi umr men apane jivan ka marg nishchit kar chuka tha. seva karane ka avasar pa kar vah is tarah use pakadata tha, mano sampatti ho. janm ka viragi tha. vasana to use chhoo hi n gayi thi. hamare aur sathi sair-sapate karate the; par usaka marg sabase alag tha. saty ke lie pran dene ko taiyar, kahin anyay dekha aur bhaven tan gayin, kahin patron men atyachar ki khabar dekhi aur chehara tamatama utha. aisa to mainne adami hi nahin dekha. eeshvar ne akal hi bula liya, nahin to vah manushyon men ratn hota. kisi musibat ke mare ka uddhar karane ko apane pran hatheli par liye phirata tha. stri-jati ka itana adar aur samman koee kya karega ? stri usake lie pooja aur bhakti ki vastu thi. panch varsh hue, yahi holi ka din tha. main bhng ke nashe men choor, rng men sir se panv tak nahaya hua, use gana sunane ke lie bulane gaya, to dekha ki vah kapade pahane kahin jane ko taiyar hai. poochha—kahan ja rahe ho ? usane mera hath pakad kar kaha —tum achchhe vakt par a gaye, nahin to mujhe jana padata. ek anath budhiya mar gayi hai, koee use kndha denevala nahin milata. koee kisi mitr se milane gaya hua hai, koee nashe men choor pada hua hai, koee mitron ki davat kar raha hai, koee mahaphil sajaye baitha hai. koee lash ko uthanevala nahin. brahman-kshatri us chamarin ki lash kaise chhuenge, unaka to dharm bhrasht hota hai, koee taiyar nahin hota ! badi mushkil se do kahar mile hain. ek main hoon, chauthe adami ki kami thi, so eeshvar ne tumhen bhej diya. chalo, chalen. hay ! agar main janata ki yah pyare manahar ka adesh hai, to aj meri atma ko itani glani n hoti. mere ghar kee mitr aye hue the. gana ho raha tha. us vakt lash utha kar nadi jana mujhe apriy laga. bola —  is vakt to bhaee, main nahin ja sakoonga. ghar par mehaman baithe hue hain. main tumhen bulane aya tha. manahar ne meri or tiraskar ke netron se dekh kar kaha —achchhi bat hai, tum jao; main aur koee sathi khoj loonga. magar tumase mujhe aisi asha nahin thi. tumane bhi vahi kaha, jo tumase pahale auron ne kaha tha. koee nayi bat nahin thi. agar ham log apane kartavy ko bhool n gaye hote, to aj yah dasha hi kyon hoti ? aisi holi ko dhikkar hai ! tyohar, tamasha dekhane, achchhi-achchhi chizen khane aur achchhe-achchhe kapade pahanane ka nam nahin hai. yah vrat hai, tap hai, apane bhaiyon se prem aur sahanubhooti karana hi tyohar ka khas matalab hai aur kapade lal karane ke pahale khoon ko lal kar lo. saphed khoon par yah lali shobha nahin deti. yah kah kar vah chala gaya. mujhe us vakt yah phatakaren bahut buri maloom hueen. agar mujhamen vah seva-bhav n tha, to use mujhe yon dhikkarane ka koee adhikar n tha. ghar chala aya; par ve baten barabar mere kanon men goonjati rahin. holi ka sara maja bigad gaya. ek mahine tak ham donon ki mulakat n huee. kalej imtahan ki taiyari ke lie bnd ho gaya tha. isalie kalej men bhi bhent n hoti thi. mujhe kuchh khabar nahin, vah kab aur kaise bimar pada, kab apane ghar gaya. sahasa ek din mujhe usaka ek patr mila. hay ! us patr ko padhakar aj bhi chhati phatane lagati hai. shrivilas ek kshan tak gala ruk jane ke karan bol n sake. phir bole —  kisi din tumhen phir dikhaoonga. likha tha, mujhase akhiri bar mil ja, ab shayad is jivan men bhent n ho. khat mere hath se chhoot kar gir pada. usaka ghar merath ke zile men tha. doosari gadi jane men adha ghnte ki kasar thi. turnt chal pada. magar usake darshan n bade the. mere pahunchane ke pahale hi vah sidhar chuka tha. champa, usake bad mainne holi nahin kheli, holi hi nahin, aur sabhi tyohar chhod diye. eeshvar ne shayad mujhe kriya ki shakti nahin di. ab bahut chahata hoon ki koee mujhase seva ka kam le. khud age nahin badh sakata; lekin pichhe chalane ko taiyar hoon. par mujhase koee kam lenevala bhi nahin; lekin aj vah rng dal kar tumane mujhe us dhikkar ki yad dila di. eeshvar mujhe aisi shakti de ki main man men hi nahin, karm men bhi manaharan banoon. yah kahate hue shrivilas ne tashtari se gulal nikala aur use chitr par chhidak kar pranam kiya.

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