फातिहा -प्रेमचंद  हिन्दी देवनागरी में पढ़ें।

Icon-edit.gif is lekh ka punarikshan evn sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamen sahayata kar sakate hain. "sujhav"

sarakari anathalay se nikalakar main sidha fauj men bharati kiya gaya. mera sharir hrisht-pusht aur balishth tha. sadharan manushyon ki apeksha mere hath-pair kahin lambe aur snayuyukt the. meri lambaee poori chhah phut nau inch thi. palatan men ‘dev’ ke nam se vikhyat tha. jab se main fauj men bharati hua, tab se meri kismat ne bhi palata khana shuroo kiya aur mere hath se kee aise kam hue, jinase pratishtha ke sath-sath meri ay bhi badhati gee. palatan ka har ek javan mujhe janata tha. mejar saradar himmatasinh ki kripa mere oopar bahut thi; kyonki mainne ek bar unaki pran-raksha ki thi. isake atirikt n jane kyon unako dekh kar mere hriday men bhakti aur shraddha ka snchar hota. main yahi samajhata ki yah mere poojy hain aur saradar sahab ka bhi vyavahar mere sath snehayukt aur mitratapoorn tha.

mujhe apane mata-pita ka pata nahin hai, aur n unaki koee smriti hi hai. kabhi-kabhi jab main is prashn par vichar karane baithata hoon, to kuchh dhundhale-se drishy dikhati dete hain-bade-bade pahadon ke bich men rahata hua ek parivar, aur ek stri ka mukh, jo shayad meri man ka hoga. pahadi ke bich men to mera palan-poshan hi hua hai. peshavar se 80 mil door poorv ek gram hai, jisaka nam ‘kulaha’ hai, vahin par ek sarakari anathalay hai. isi men main pala gaya. yahan se nikal kar sidha fauj men chala gaya. himalay ki jalavayu se mera sharir bana hai, aur main vaisa hi dirghakriti adi barbar hoon, jaise ki simaprant ke rahane vale aphridi, gilajee, mahasoodi adi pahadi kabilon ke log hote hain. yadi unake aur mere jivan men kuchh antar hai to vah sabhyata ka. main thoda- bahut padh-likh leta hoon, batachit kar leta hoon, adab-kayada janata hoon,. chhote-bade़ ka lihaz kar sakata hoon, kintu meri akriti vaisi hi hai, jaisi ki kisi bhi sarahadi purush ki ho sakati hai.

kabhi-kabhi mere man men yah ichchha balavati hoti ki svachhnd hokar pahadon ki sair karoon; lekin jivika ka prashn meri ichchha ko daba deta. us sookhe desh men khane ka kuchh bhi thikana nahin tha. vahan ke log ek roti ke lie manushy ki hatya kar dalate, ek kapade ke lie murade ki lash chid-phad kar phenk dete aur ek bndook ke lie sarakari fauj par chhapa marate hain. isake atirikt un jngali jatiyon ka ek-ek manushy mujhe janata tha aur mere khoon ka pyasa tha. yadi main unhen mil jata, to zaroor mera nam-nishan duniya se mit jata. n jane kitane aphridiyon aur gilajiyon ko mainne mara tha, kitanon ko pakad-pakad kar sarakari jelakhanon men bhar diya tha aur n maloom unake kitane ganvon ko jala kar khak kar diya tha. main bhi bahut satark rahata, aur jahan tak hota, ek sthan par haphte se adhik kabhi n rahata.

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ek din main mejar saradar himmatasinh ke ghar ki or ja raha tha. us samay din ko do baje the. ajakal chhutti-si thi; kyonki abhi hal hi men kee ganv bhasmibhoot kar diye gaye the aur jaldi unaki taraph se koee ashnka nahin thi. ham log nishchint ho kar gapp aur hnsi-khel men din gujarate the. baithe-baithe dil ghabara gaya tha. sirph man bahalane ke lie saradar sahab ke ghar ki or chala; kintu raste men ek durghatana ho gayi. ek boodha aphridi, jo ab bhi ek hindustani javan ka sir marod dene ke lie kafi tha, ek fauji javan se bhida hua tha. mere dekhate-dekhate usane apani kamar se ek tej chhura nikala aur usaki chhati men ghused diya. us javan ke pas ek karatoosi bndook thi, bas usi ke lie yah sab ladaee thi. palak marate-marate, fauji javan ka kam tamam ho gaya aur boodha bndook le kar bhaga. main usake pichhe dauda; lekin daudane men vah itana tej tha ki bat-ki-bat men ankhon se ojhal ho gaya. main bhi betahasha usaka pichha kar raha tha. akhir sarahad par pahunchate-pahunchate usase bis hath ki doori par rah gaya. usane pichhe phir kar dekha, main akela usaka pichha kar raha tha. usane bndook ka nishana meri or sadha. main phauran hi zamin par let gaya aur bndook ki goli mere samane patthar par lagi. usane samajha ki main goli ka shikar ho gaya. vah dhire-dhire satark padon se meri or badha. main sans khinch kar let gaya. jab vah bilakul mere pas a gaya, sher ki tarah uchhal kar mainne usaki garadan pakadakar zamin par patak diya aur chhura nikal kar usaki chhati men ghused diya. aphridi ki jivan-lila samapt ho gayi. isi samay meri palatan ke kee log bhi a pahunche. charon taraph se log meri prashnsa karane lage. abhi tak main apane ape men n tha; lekin ab meri sudh-budh vapas ayi. n maloom kyon us buddhe ko dekhakar mera ji ghabarane laga. abhi tak n maloom kitane hi aphridiyon ko mara tha; lekin kabhi bhi mera hriday itana ghabaraya n tha. main zamin par baith gaya aur us buddhe ki or dekhane laga. palatan ke javan bhi pahunch gaye aur mujhe ghayal jan kar anek prakar ke prashn karane lage. dhire-dhire main utha aur chupachap shahar ki or chala. sipahi mere pichhe-pichhe usi buddhe ki lash ghasitate hue chale. shahar ke nivasiyon ne meri jay-jayakar ka tanta bandh diya. main chupachap mejar saradar himmatasinh ke ghar men ghus gaya.

saradar sahab us samay apane khas kamare men baithe hue kuchh likh rahe the. unhonne mujhe dekh kar poochha-kyon, us aphridi ko mar aye ?

mainne baithate hue kaha-ji han, lekin saradar sahab, n jane kyon main kuchh bujadil ho gaya hoon.

saradar sahab ne ashchary se kaha-asadakhan aur bujadil ! yah donon ek jagah hona namumakin hai.

mainne uthate hue kaha-saradar sahab, yahan tabiyat nahin lagati, uthakar bahar baramade men baithie. n maloom kyon mera dil ghabadata hai.

saradar sahab uth kar mere pas aye aur sneh se meri pith par hath pherate hue kaha-asad, tum daudate-daudate thak gaye ho, aur koee bat nahin hai. achchha chalo baramade men baithen. sham ki thndi hava tumhen taja kar degi.

saradar sahab aur main, donon baramade men jakar kursiyon par baith gaye. shahar ke chaumuhane par usi vriddh ki lash rakhi thi aur usake charon or bhid lagi huee thi. baramade men jab mujhe baithe hue dekha, to log meri or ishara karane lage. saradar sahab ne yah drishy dekh kar kaha-asadakhan, dekha, logon ki nigah men tum kitane oonche ho ? tumhari virata ko yahan ka bachcha-bachcha sarahata hai. ab bhi tum kahate ho ki main bujadil hoon.

mainne muskara kar kaha-jab se is buddhe ko mara hai, tab se mera dil mujhe dhikkar raha hai.

saradar sahab ne hns kar kaha-kyonki tumane apane se nirbal ko mara hai.

mainne apani dilajamee karate hue kaha-mumakin hai, aisa hi ho.

isi samay ek aphridi ramani dhire-dhire a kar saradar sahab ke makan ke samane khadi ho gayi. jyon hi saradar sahab ne dekha, unaka munh saphed pad gaya. unaki bhayabhit drishti usaki or se phir kar meri or ho gayi. main bhi ashchary se unake munh ki or niharane laga. us ramani ka- sa sugathit sharir maradon ka bhi kam hota hai. khaki rng ke mote kapade ka payajama aur nile rng ka mota kurata pahane hue thi. baloochi auraton ki tarah sir par roomal bandh rakha tha. rng chnpee tha aur yauvan ki abha phoot-phoot kar bahar nikali padati thi. is samay usaki ankhon men aisi bhishanata thi, jo kisi ke dil men bhay ka snchar karati. ramani ki ankhen saradar sahab ki or se phir kar meri or ayin aur usane yon ghoorana shuroo kiya ki main bhi bhayabhit ho gaya. ramani ne saradar sahab ki or dekha aur phir zamin par thook diya aur phir meri or dekhati huee dhire-dhire doosari or chali gayi.

ramani ko jate dekh kar saradar sahab ki jan men jan ayi. mere sir par se bhi ek bojh hat gaya.

mainne saradar sahab se poochha-kyon, kya ap janate hain ? saradar sahab ne ek gahari thndi sans lekar kaha-han, bakhoobi. ek samay tha, jab yah mujh par jan deti thi aur vastav men apani jan par khel kar meri raksha bhi ki thi; lekin ab isako meri soorat se napharat hai. isi ne meri stri ki hatya ki hai. ise jab kabhi dekhata hoon mere hosh-havas kafoor ho jate hain aur vahi drishy meri ankhon ke samane nachane lagata hai.

mainne bhay-vihval svar men poochha-saradar sahab, usane meri or bhi to badi bhayanak drishti se dekha tha. n maloom kyon mere bhi roen khade ho gaye the.

saradar sahab ne sir hilate hue badi gambhirata se kaha-asadakhan, tum bhi hoshiyar raho. shayad is boodhe़ aphridi se isaka snpark hai. mumakin hai, yah usaka bhaee ya bap ho. tumhari or usaka dekhana koee mani rakhata hai. badi bhayanak stri hai.

saradar sahab ki bat sunakar meri nas-nas kanp uthi. mainne baton ka silasila doosari or pherate hue kaha-saradar sahab, ap isako pulis ke havale kyon nahin nkar dete ? isako phansi ho jayagi.

saradar sahab ne kaha-bhaee asadakhan, isane mere pran bachaye the aur shayad ab bhi mujhe chahati hai. isaki katha bahut lambi hai. kabhi avakash mila to kahoonga.

saradar ki baton se mujhe bhi kutoohal ho raha tha. mainne unase vah vrittnat sunane ke lie agrah karana shuroo kiya. pahale to unhonne talana chaha; par jab mainne bahut zor diya to vivash ho kar bole-asad, main tumhen apana bhaee samajhata hoon; isalie tumase koee parada n rakhoonga. lo, suno-

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asadakhan, panch sal pahale main itana vriddh n tha, jaisa ki ab dikhayi padata hoon. us samay meri ayu 40 varsh se adhik n thi. ek bhi bal saphed n hua tha aur us samay mujhamen itana bal tha ki do javanon ko main lada deta. jarmanon se mainne muthabhed ki hai aur n maloom kitanon ko yamalok ka rasta bata diya. jarman-yuddh ke bad mujhe yahan simaprnat par kali palatan ka mejar bana kar bheja gaya. jab pahale-pahal main yahan aya, to yahan kathinaiyan samane ayin; lekin mainne unaki jara paravah n ki aur dhire-dhire un sab par vijay payi. sabase pahale yahan akar mainne pashto sikhana shuroo kiya. pashto ke bad aur jabanen sikhin; yahan tak ki main unako badi asani aur muhaviron ke sath bolane laga; phir isake bad kee adamiyon ki toliyan bana kar desh ka antarbhag bhi chhan dala. is padatal men kee bar main marate-marate bacha; kintu sab kathinaiyan jhelate hue main yahan par sakushal rahane laga. us jamane men mere hath se aise-aise kam ho gaye, jinase sarakar men meri badi namavari aur pratishtha bhi ho gayi. ek bar karnal haimilatan ki memasahab ko main akele chhuda laya tha aur kitane hi deshi adamiyon aur auraton ke pran mainne bachaye hain. yahan par ane ke tin sal bad se meri kahani arambh hoti hai.

ek rat ko main apane kaimp men leta hua tha. aphridiyon se ladaee ho rahi thi. din ke thake-mande sainik gaphil pade hue the. kaimp men sannata tha. lete-lete mujhe bhi nind a gayi. jab meri nind khuli to dekha ki chhati par ek aphridi-jisaki ayu meri ayu se lagabhag dooni hogi-savar hai aur meri chhati men chhura ghusedene hi vala hai. main poori tarah se usake adhin tha, koee bhi bachane ka upay n tha, kintu us samay mainne bade hi dhairy se kam liya aur pashto bhasha men kaha-mujhe maro nahin, main sarakari fauj men aphasar hoon, mujhe pakad le chalo, sarakar tumako rupaya de kar mujhe chhudayegi.

eeshvar ki kripa se meri bat usake man men baith gayi. kamar se rassi nikal kar mere hath-pair bandhe aur phir kndhe par bojh ki tarah lad kar kheme se bahar aya. bahar mar-kat ka bazar garm tha. usane ek vichitr prakar se chilla kar kuchh kaha aur mujhe kndhe par lade vah jngal ki or bhaga. yah main kah sakata hoon ki usako mera bojh kuchh bhi n maloom hota tha aur badi teji se bhaga ja raha tha. usake pichhe-pichhe kee adami, jo usi ke giroh ke the, loot ka mal liye hue bhage chale a rahe the.

pratahkal ham log ek talab ke pas pahunche. talab bade-bade pahadon se ghira hua tha. usaka pani bada nirmal tha aur jngali ped idhar-udhar ug rahe the. talab ke pas pahunch kar ham sab log thahare. buddhe ne, jo vastav men us giroh ka saradar tha, mujhe patthar par dal diya. meri kamar men badi zor se chot lagi, aisa maloom hua ki koee haddi toot gayi hai; lekin eeshvar ki kripa se haddi tooti n thi. saradar ne mujhe prithvi par dalane ke bad kaha-kyon, kitana rupaya dilayega ?

mainne apani vedana dabate hue kaha-panch sau rupaye.

saradar ne munh bigad kar kaha-nahin, itana kam nahin lega. do hazar se ek paisa bhi kam mila, to tumhari jan ki khair nahin.

mainne kuchh sochate hue kaha-sarakar itana rupaya kale adami ke lie nahin kharch karegi.

saradar ne chhura bahar nikalate hue kaha-tab phir kyon kaha tha ki sarakar inam degi ! le to phir yahin mar.

saradar chhura lie meri taraph badha.

main ghabada kar bola-achchha, saradar, main tumako do hazar dilava doonga.

saradar ruk gaya aur bade zor se hnsa. usaki hnsi ki prratidhvani ne nirjiv pahadon ko bhi knpa diya. mainne man hi man kaha-bada bhayanak adami hai.

giroh ke doosare adami apani-apani loot ka mal saradar ke samane rakhane lage. usamen kee bndooken, karatoos, rotiyan aur kapade the. meri bhi talashi li gayi. mere pas ek chhah phayar ka tamncha tha. tamncha pa kar saradar uchhal pada, aur use phira-phira kar dekhane laga. vahin par usi samay hissa-bant shuroo ho gaya. barabar ka hissa laga; lekin mera rivalvar usamen nahin shamil kiya gaya. vah saradar sahab ki khas chiz thi.

thodi der vishram karane ke bad, phir yatra shuroo huee. is bar mere pair khol diye gaye aur sath-sath chalane ko kaha-meri ankhon par patti bhi bandh di gayi, taki main rasta n dekh sakoon. mere hath rassi se bndhe hue the, aur usaka ek sira ek aphridi ke hath men tha.

chalate-chalate mere pair dukhane lage, lekin unaki mnzil poori n huee. sir par jeth ka sooraj chamak raha tha, pair jale ja rahe the, pyas se gala sookha ja raha tha; lekin ve barabar chale ja rahe the. ve apas men baten karate jate the; lekin ab main unaki ek bat bhi n samajh pata. kabhi-kabhi ek-adh shabd to samajh jata; lekin bahut anshon men main kuchh bhi n samajh pata tha. ve log is samay apani vijay par prasann the, aur ek aphridi ne apani bhasha men ek git gana shuroo kiya. git bada hi achchha tha.

asadakhan ne poochha-saradar sahab, vah git kya tha ?

saradar sahab ne kaha-us git ka bhav yad hai. bhav yah hai ki ek aphridi ja raha hai, usaki stri kahati hai-kahan jate ho ?

yuvak uttar deta hai-jate hain tumhare lie roti aur kapada lane.

stri poochhati hai-aur kuchh apane bachchon ke lie nahin laoge ?

yuvak uttar deta hai-bachche ke lie bndook laoonga, taki vah jab bada ho, to vah bhi lade aur apani premika ke lie roti aur kapada la sake.

stri kahati hai-yah kaho, kab aoge ?

yuvak uttar deta hai-aoonga tabhi, jab kuchh jit laoonga; nahin to vahin mar jaoonga.

stri kahati hai-shabash, jao, tum vir ho, tum zaroor saphal hoge.

git sun kar main mugdh ho gaya. git samapt hote-hote ham log bhi ruk gaye. meri ankhen kholi gayin. samane bada-sa maidan tha aur charon or guphaen bani huee thin, jo unhin logon ke rahane ki jagah thi.

phir meri talashi li gayi aur is daphe sab kapade utarava liye gaye, keval payajama rah gaya. samane ek bada-sa shilakhnd rakha hua tha. sab logon ne mil kar use hataya aur mujhe usi or le chale. meri atma kanp uthi. yah to jinda qabr men dal denge. mainne badi hi vedanapoorn drishti se saradar ki or dekh kar kaha-saradar, sarakar tumhen rupaya degi. mujhe maro nahin.

saradar ne hns kar kaha-tumhen marata kaun hai, kaid kiya jata hai. is ghar men bnd rahoge, jab rupaya a jayaga, chhod diye jaoge.

saradar ki bat sun kar mere pran men pran aye. saradar ne meri paketabuk aur pensil samane rakhate hue kaha-lo, isamen likh do. agar ek paisa bhi kam aya, to tumhari jan ki khair nahin.

mainne kamishnar sahab ke nam ek patr likh kar de diya. un logon ne mujhe usi andh koop men lataka diya aur rassi khinch li.

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saradar sahab ne ek lambi sans li aur kahana shuroo kiya-asadakhan, jis samay main us kuen men latakaya ja raha tha, meri antaratma kanp rahi thi. niche ghatatop andhakar ki jagah halaki chandani chhayi huee thi. bhitar se gupha n bahut chhoti aur n bahut badi thi. pharsh khuradara tha, aisa maloom hota tha ki barason yahan par pani ki dhara giri hai aur yah gadha tab ja kar taiyar hua hai. patthar ki moti divar se vah koop ghira hua tha aur usamen jahan-tahan chhed the, jinase prakash aur vayu ati thi. niche pahunch kar main apani dasha ka her-pher sochane laga. dil bahut ghabarata tha. kalakothari ki yntrana bhogana bhi bhagy men vidhata ne likh diya tha.

dhire-dhire sndhya ka agaman hua. un logon ne abhi tak meri kuchh khoj-khabar n li thi ! bhookh se atma vyakul ho rahi thi. bar-bar vidhata aur apane ko kosata. jab manushy nirupay ho jata hai, to vidhata ko kosata hai.

ant men ek chhed se char badi-badi rotiyan kisi ne bahar se phenkin. jis tarah kutta ek roti ke tukade par daudata hai, vaise hi main dauda aur utha kar us chhed ki or dekhane laga; lekin phir kisi ne kuchh n phenka, aur n kuchh adesh hi mila. main baith kar rotiyan khane laga. thodi der bad usi chhed par ek lohe ka pyala rakh diya gaya, jisamen pani bhara hua tha. mainne paramatma ko dhanyavad de kar pani utha kar piya. jab atma kuchh tript huee, to kaha-thoda pani aur chahie.

is par divar ki us or ek bhishan hnsi ki pratidhvani sunayi di aur kisi ne khanakhanate hue svar men kaha-pani ab kal milega. pyala de do, nahin to kal bhi pani nahin milega.

kya karata, har kar pyala vahin par rakh diya.

isi prakar kee din bit gaye. nity donon samay char rotiyan aur ek pyala pani mil jata tha. dhire-dhire main bhi is shushk jivan ka adi ho gaya. nirjanata ab utani n khalati. kabhi-kabhi main apani bhasha men aur kabhi-kabhi pashto men gata. isase tabiyat kuchh bahal jati aur hriday bhi shant ho jata.

ek din ratri ke samay main ek pashto git ga raha tha. majanoon jhulasane vale bagulon se kah raha tha-tumamen kya vah hararat nahin hai, jo kaphishlon ko jala kar khak kar deti hai ? akhir vah garami mujhe kyon nahin jalati ? kya isalie ki mere andar khud ek jvala bhari huee hai ?

dekho, jab laila dhoondhati huee yahan ave, to mera sharir baloo se dhak dena, nahin to shishe ki tarah laila ka dil toot jayaga.

mainne gana bnd kar diya. usi samay chhed se kisi ne kaha-kaidi, phir to gao !

main chaunk pada. kuchh khushi bhi huee, kuchh ashchary bhi, poochha-tum kaun ho ?

usi chhed se uttar mila-main hoon tooraya, saradar ki ladaki.

mainne poochha-kya tumako yah gana pasnd hai ?

tooraya ne uttar diya-han, kaidi gao, main phir sunana chahati hoon.

main harsh se gane laga. git samapt hone par tooraya ne kaha-tum roj yahi git mujhe sunaya karo. isake badale men main tumako aur rotiyan aur pani doongi.

tooraya chali gayi. isake bad main sada rat ke samay vahi git gata, aur tooraya sada divar ke pas akar sunati.

mere manornjan ka ek marg nikal aya.

dhire-dhire ek mas bit gaya, par kisi ne abhi tak mere chhudane ke lie rupaya n bheja. jyon-jyon din bitate jate main apane jivan se nirash hota jata.

thik ek mahine bad saradar ne akar kaha-kaidi, agar kal tak rupaya n ayega, to tum mar dale jaoge. ab rotiyan nahin khila sakata. mujhe jivan ki kuchh asha n rahi. us din n mujhase khaya gaya aur n kuchh piya hi gaya. rat huee, phir rotiyan phenk di gaynin; lekin khane ki ichchha nahin huee.

nishchit samay par tooraya ne akar kaha-kaidi, gana gao.

us din mujhe kuchh achchha n lagata tha. main chup raha.

tooraya ne phir kaha-kaidi, kya so gaya ?

mainne bade hi malin svar men kaha-nahin, aj so kar kya karoon, kal sooonga ki phir jagana n pade़ga.

tooraya ne prashn kiya-kyon, kya sarakar rupaya n bhejegi ?

mainne uttar diya-bhejegi to; lekin kal to main mar dala jaoonga, mere marane ke bad rupaya aya bhi, to mere kis kam ka !

tooraya ne santvanapoorn svar men kaha-achchha, tum gao, main kal tumhen marane n doongi.

mainne gana shuroo kiya. jate samay tooraya ne poochha-kaidi, tum kathaghare men rahana pasnd karate ho.

mainne saharsh uttar diya-han, kisi tarah is narak se to chhutakara mile.

tooraya ne kaha-achchha, kal main abba se kahoongi.

doosare hi din mujhe andh koop se bahar nikala gaya. mere donon pair do moti shahatiron ke chhedon men bnd kar diye gaye. aur vah kath ki hi kilon se prakritik gaddhon men kas diye gaye.

saradar ne mere pas a kar kaha-kaidi, pandrah din ki avadhi aur di jati hai, isake bad tumhari gardan tan se alag kar di jayagi. aj doosara khat apane ghar ko likho. agar eed tak rupaya n aya, to tumhin ko halal kiya jayaga.

mainne doosara patr likh kar de diya.

saradar ke jane ke bad tooraya ayi. yah vahi ramani thi, jo abhi gayi hai. yahi us saradar ki ladaki thi. yahi mera gana sunati thi aur isi ne sipharish karake meri jan bachayi thi.

tooraya ne akar mujhe dekhane lagi. main bhi usaki or dekhane laga.

tooraya poochha-kaidi ghar men tumhare kaun-kaun hain ?

mainne bade hi katar svar men kaha-do chhote-chhote balak; aur koee nahin.

mujhe maloom tha ki aphridi bachchon ko bahut pyar karate hain.

tooraya ne poochha-unaki man nahin hai ?

mainne keval daya upajane ke lie kaha-nahin, unaki man mar gayi hai. ve akele hain. maloom nahin, jite hain ya mar gaye, kyonki mere sivay unaki dekh-rekh karane vala aur koee n tha.

kahate-kahate meri ankhon men ansoo bhar aye. tooraya ki bhi ankhen sookhi n rahin. tooraya ne apana aveg snbhalate hue kaha-to tumhare koee nahin hai ? bachche akele hain ? ve bahut rote honge !

mainne man hi man prasann hote hue kaha-han, rote zaroor honge. kaun janata hai, shayad mar bhi gaye hon?

tooraya ne bat kat kar kaha-nahin, abhi mare n honge. achchha, tum rahate kahan ho ? main ja kar pata laga aoongi.

mainne apane ghar ka pata bata diya. usane kaha-us jagah to main kee bar ho ayi hoon. bazar se sauda lene main aksar jati hoon, ab jaoongi to tumhare bachchon ki bhi khabar le aoongi.

mainne shnkit hriday se poochha-kab jaogi ?

usane kuchh soch kar kaha-us jumerat ko jaoongi. achchha tum vahi git gao.

mainne aj badi umng aur utsah se gana shuroo kiya. mainne aj dekha ki usaka asar tooraya par kaisa padata hai. usaka sharir kanpane laga, ankhen dabadaba ayin, gal pile pad gaye aur vah kanpati huee baith gayi. usaki dasha dekhakar mainne doone utsah se gana shuroo kiya aur ant men kaha-tooraya, agar main mara jaoon, to mere bachchon ko mere marane ki khabar dena.

meri bat ka poora asar pada. tooraya ne bharraye hue svar men kaha-kaidi, tum maroge nahin. main tumhare bachchon ke lie tumhen chhod doongi.

mainne nirash ho kar kaha-tooraya, tumhare chhod dene se bhi main bach nahin sakata. is jngal men main bhatak-bhatak kar mar jaoonga, aur phir tum par bhi musibat a sakati hai. apani jan ke lie tumako musibat men n daloonga.

tooraya ne kaha-mere lie tum chinta n karo. mere oopar koee shak n karega. main saradar ki ladaki hoon, jo kahoongi vahi sab man lenge, lekin kya tum ja kar rupaya bhej doge.

mainne prasann ho kar kaha-han tooraya, main rupaya bhej doonga.

tooraya ne jate hue kaha-to main bhi tumhen chhutakara dila doongi.

is ghatana ke bad tooraya sadaiv mere bachchon ke sambandh men baten karati. asadakhan, sachamuch in aphridiyon ko bachche bahut pyare hote hain. vidhata ne yadi unhen barbar hinsak pashu banaya hai, to manushyochit prakriti se vnchit bhi nahin rakha hai. akhir jumerat ayi aur abhi tak saradar vapas n aya. n koee us giroh ka adami hi vapas aya. us din sndhya samay tooraya ne a kar kaha-kaidi, ab main nahin ja sakati; kyonki mera pita abhi tak nahin aya. yadi kal bhi n aya, to main tumhen rat ko chhod doongi. tum apane bachchon ke pas jana; lekin dekho, rupaya bhejana n bhoolana. main tum par vishvas karati hoon.

mainne us din bade utsah se gana gaya. adhi rat tak tooraya sunati rahi, phir sone chali gayi. main bhi eeshvar se manata raha ki kal aur saradar n aye. kath men bndhe-bndhe mera pair bilakul nikamma ho gaya tha. tamam sharir duahkh raha tha. isase to main kalakothari men hi achchha tha, kyonki vahan hath-pair to hila-dula sakata tha.

doosare din bhi giroh vapas n aya. us din tooraya bahut chintit thi. sham ko a kar tooraya ne mere pair khol kar kaha-kaidi, ab tum jao. chalo, main tumhen thodi door pahuncha doon.

thodi der tak main avash leta raha. dhire-dhire mere paire thik hue aur eeshvar ko dhanyavad deta hua main tooraya ke sath chal diya.

tooraya ko prasann karane ke lie main raste bhar git gata aya. tooraya bar-bar sunati aur bar-bar roti. adhi rat ke qarib main talab ke pas pahuncha. vahan pahunch kar tooraya ne kaha-sidhe chale jao; tum peshavar pahunch jaoge. dekho hoshiyari se jana, nahin to koee tumhen apani goli ka shikar bana dalega. yah lo, tumhare kapade hain; lekin rupaya zaroor bhej dena. tumhari jamanat main loongi. agar rupaya n aya, to mere bhi pran jayngee, aur tumhare bhi. agar rupaya a jayaga, to koee bhi aphridi tum par hath n uthayega, chahe tum kisi ko mar bhi daloe. jao, eeshvar tumhari raksha kare aur tumako apane bachchon se milaye.

tooraya phir thahari nahin. gunagunati huee laut padi. rat do-pahar bit chuki thi. charon or bhayanak nistabdhata chhayi huee thi, keval vayu sany-sany karati huee bah rahi thi, akash ke bichobich chndrama apani solahon kala se chamak raha tha. talab ke tat par rukana surakshit n tha. main dhire-dhire dakshin ki or badha. bar-bar charon or dekhata jata tha. eeshvar ki kripa se pratahkal hote-hote main peshavar ki sarahad par pahunch gaya.

sarahad par sipahiyon ka pahara tha. mujhe dekhate hi tamam fauj bhar men halachal mach gayi. sabhi log mujhe mara samajhe hue the. jita-jagata lauta hua dekh kar sabhi prasann ho gaye.

karnal haimilatan sahab bhi samachar pakar usi samay milane aye aur sab hal poochh kar kaha-mejar sahab, main apako mara hua samajhata tha. mere pas tumhare do patr aye the, lekin mujhe svapn men bhi vishvas n hua tha ki ye tumhare likhe hue hain. main to unhen jali samajhata tha. eeshvar ko dhanyavad hai ki tum jite bach kar a gaye.

mainne karnal sahab ko dhanyavad diya aur man hi man kaha-kale adami ka likha hua jali tha aur kahin agar gora adami likhata, to do ki kaun kahe, char hazar rupaya pahunch jata. kitane hi ganv jala diye jate, aur n jane kya-kya hota.

main chupachap apane ghar aya. bal-bachchon ko pakar atma sntusht huee. usi din ek vishvasi anuchar ke dvara do hazar rupaye tooraya ke pas bhej diya.

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saradar ne ek thndi sans lekar kaha-asadakhan, abhi meri kahani samapt nahin huee. abhi to duahkhant bhag avashesh hi hai. yahan akar main dhire-dhire apani sab musibaten bhool gaya, lekin tooraya ko n bhool saka. tooraya ki kripa se hi main apani stri aur bachchon se mil paya tha, yahi nahin, jivan bhi paya tha; phir bhala main use kaise bhool jata !

mahinon aur salon bit gaye. mainne tooraya ko aur n usake bap ko hi dekha. tooraya ne ane ke lie kaha bhi lekin vah ayi nahin, vahan se a kar mainne apani stri ko usake mayake bhej diya tha; kyonki khayal tha ki shayad tooraya aye, to phir main jhootha banoonga. lekin jab tin sal bit gaye aur tooraya n ayi, to main nishchint ho gaya aur stri ko mayake se bula liya. ham log sukhapoorvak din kat rahe the ki achanak phir durdasha ki ghadi ayi.

ek din sndhya ke samay isi baramade men baitha hua apani stri se baten kar raha tha ki kisi ne bahar ka daravaza khatakhataya. naukar ne daravaza khol diya aur bedhadak jina chadhati huee ek kabuli aurat oopar chali ayi. usane baramade men a kar vishuddh pashto bhasha men poochha-saradar sahab kahan hain?

mainne kamare ke bhitar a kar poochha-tum kaun ho, kya chahati ho ?

usi stri ne kuchh moonge nikalate hue kaha-yah moonge main bechane ke lie ayi hoon, kharidiega ?

yah kah kar usane bade-bade moonge nikal kar meej par rakh diye.

meri stri bhi mere sath kamare ke bhitar ayi thi. vah moonge utha kar dekhane lagi. usi kabuli stri ne poochha-saradar sahab, yah kaun hai apaki ?

mainne uttar diya-meri stri hai, aur kaun hai ?

kabuli stri ne kaha-apaki stri to mar chuki thi, kya apane doosara vivah kiya hai ?

mainne roshapoorn svar men kaha-chup bevakooph kahin ki, too mar gayi hogi.

meri stri pashto nahin janati thi, vah tanmay hokar moonge dekh rahi thi.

kintu meri bat sun kar n maloom kyon kabuli aurat ki ankhen chamakane lagin. usane bade hi tivr svar men kaha-han, bevakooph n hoti, to tumhen chhod kaise deti ? dojakhi pille, mujhase jhooth bola ! le, agar teri stri n mari thi, to ab mar gayi !

kahate-kahate sherani ki tarah lapak kar usane ek tej chhura meri stri ki chhati men ghused diya. main use rokane ke lie age badha; lekin vah kood kar angan men chali gayi aur boli-ab pahachan le, main tooraya hoon. main aj tere ghar men rahane ke lie ayi thi. main tujhase vivah karati aur teri ho kar rahati. tere lie mainne bap, ghar, sab kuchh chhod diya tha, lekin too jhootha hai, makkar hai. too ab apani bivi ke nam ko ro, main aj se tere nam ko rooongi. yah kah kar vah teji se niche chali gayi !

ab main apani stri ke pas pahuncha. chhura thik hriday men laga tha. ek hi var ne usaka kam tamam kar diya tha. daktar bulavaya; lekin vah mar chuki thi.

kahate-kahate saradar sahab ki ankhon men ansoo bhar aye. unhonne apani bhigi huee ankhon ko ponchh kar kaha-asadakhan, mujhe svapn men bhi anuman n tha ki tooraya itani pishach-hriday ho sakegi. agar main pahale use pahachan leta to yah aphat n ane pati; lekin kamare men andhakar tha; aur isake atirikt main usaki or se nirash ho chuka tha.

tab se phir kabhi tooraya nahin ayi. ab jab kabhi mujhe dekhati hai, to meri or dekh kar nagin ki bhanti phuphakarati huee chali jati hai. ise dekhakar mera hriday kanpane lagata hai aur main avash ho jata hoon. kee bar koshish ki, main ise pakadava doon, lekin use dekh kar main bilakul nikamma ho jata hoon, hath-pair bekaboo ho jate hain, meri sari virata hava ho jati hai.

yahi nahin, tooraya ka moh ab bhi mere oopar hai. mere bachchon ko hamesha vah koee n koee bahumooly chiz de jati hai. jis din bachche use nahin milate daravaze ke bhitar phenk jati hai. unamen ek kagaz ka tukada bndha hota hai jisamen likha rahata hai-saradar sahab ke bachchon ke lie.

main abhi tak is stri ko nahin samajh paya. jitana hi samajhane ka yatn karata hoon, utani hi yad kathin hoti jati hai. nahin samajh men ata ki yah manavi hai ya rakshasi !

isi samay saradar sahab ke ladake ne a kar kaha-dekhie, vahi aurat yah sone ka tavij de gayi hai.

saradar ne meri or dekh kar kaha-dekha, asadakhan, main tumase kahata n tha. dekho, aj bhi yah tavij de gayi. n maloom kitane hi tavij aur kitani hi doosari chizen arjun aur nihal ko de gayi hogi. kahata hoon ki tooraya badi hi vichitr stri hai.

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saradar sahab se vida ho kar main ghar chala. chauraste se buddhe ki lash hata di gayi thi; par vahan pahunch kar mere roen khade ho gaye. main ap hi ap ek minat vahan khada ho gaya. sahasa pichhe dekha. chhaya ki bhanti ek stri mere pichhe-pichhe chali a rahi thi. mujhe khada dekh kar vah stri ruk gayi aur ek dookan men kuchh kharidane lagi.

mainne apane hriday se prashn kiya-kya vah tooraya hai.

hriday ne uttar diya-han, shayad vahi hai.

tooraya mera pichha kyon kar rahi hai ? yah sochata hua main ghar pahuncha aur khana kha kar leta; par aj ki ghatanaon ka mujh par aisa asar pada tha ki kisi tarah bhi nind n ati thi. jitana hi main sone ka yatn karata utani hi nind mujhase door bhagati.

fauji ghadiyal ne barah bajaye, ek bajaye, do bajaye; lekin mujhe nind n thi. main karavaten badalata hua sone ka upakram kar raha tha. isi udhedabun men kab nind ne mujhe dhar dabaya; mujhe jara bhi yad nahin.

yadyapi main so raha tha; lekin mera gyan jag raha tha. mujhe aisa maloom hua ki koee stri, jisaki akriti tooraya se bahut kuchh milati thi lekin usase kahin adhik bhayavani thi, divar phod kar bhitar ghus ayi hai. usake hath men ek tej chhura hai, jo lalaten ke prakash men chamak raha hai. vah dabe panv satark netron se takati huee dhire-dhire meri or badh rahi hai. main use dekh kar uthana chahata hoon, lekin hath-pair mere kaboo men nahin hain. mano unamen jan hai hi nahin. vah stri mere pas pahunch gayi. thodi der tak meri or dekha, aur phir apane chhurevale hath ko oopar uthaya. main chillane ka upakram karane laga; lekin meri ghiggi bndh gayi. shabd knth se phoota hi nahin. usane mere donon hathon ko apane ghutane ke niche dabaya aur meri chhati par savar ho gayi. main chhatapatane laga aur meri ankhen khul gayin! sachamuch ek kabuli aurat meri chhati par savar thi. usake hath men chhura tha. aur vah chhura marana hi chahati thi.

mainne kaha-kaun, tooraya ?

yah vastav men tooraya hi thi . usane mujhe balapoorvak dabate hue kaha-han, main tooraya hi hoon. aj toone mere bap ka khoon kiya hai, usake badale men teri jan jayagi.

yah kah kar usane apana chhura oopar uthaya. is samay mere samane jivan aur maran ka prashn tha. jivan ki lalasa ne mujhamen sahas ka snchar kiya main marane ke lie taiyar n tha. mere araman aur umngen ab bhi baki thin. mainne balapoorvak apana dahina hath chhudane ka prayatn kiya aur ek hi jhatake men mera hath chhoot gaya. mainne apani poori takat se tooraya ka chhuravala hath pakad liya. n maloom kyon tooraya ne kuchh bhi virodh n kiya. vah mere hath ko dekhati huee meri chhati se utar ayi. usaki ankhen patharayi huee thin aur vah ekatak mere hath ki or dekh rahi thi.

mainne hns kar kaha-tooraya, ab to pasa palat gaya. ab tere marane ki pari hai. tere bap ko mara aur ab tujhe bhi marata hoon.

tooraya ab bhi ekatak mere hath ki or dekh rahi thi. usane kachh bhi uttar n diya.

mainne use jhnjhodate hue kaha-bolati kyon nahin ? ab to teri jan meri mutthi men hai.

tooraya ka moh toota. usane bade gambhir aur dridh knth se kaha-too mera bhaee hai. toone apane bap ko mara hai aj !

tooraya ki bat sun kar mujhe us avasar par bhi hnsi a gayi.

mainne hnsate hue kaha-aphridi makkar bhi hote hain, yah aj hi mujhe maloom hua.

tooraya ne shant svar men kaha-too mera khoya hua bada bhaee najir hai. vah jo tere hath men nishan hai, vahi batala raha hai ki too mera khoya hua bhaee hai.

bachapan se hi mere hath men ek sanp guda hua tha. aur yahi meri pahachan fauji rajistar men bhi likhi huee thi.

mainne hns kar kaha-tooraya, too mujhe bhulava nahin de sakati. main ab tujhe kisi tarah n chhodoonga.

tooraya ne apane hath se chhura phenk kar kaha-sachamuch too mera bhaee hai. agar tujhe vishvas nahin hota, to dekh, mere dahine hath men bhi aisa hi sanp guda hua hai.

mainne tooraya ke hath par drishti dali, to vahan bhi bilakul mera hi jaisa sanp guda hua tha.

mainne kuchh sochate hue kaha-tooraya, main tera vishvas nahin kar sakata, yah ittaphak ki bat hai.

tooraya ne kaha-mera hath chhod de. main tujh par var n karoongi ! aphridi jhooth nahin bolate.

mainne usaka hath chhod diya, vah prithvi par baith gayi aur meri or dekhane lagi. thodi der bad usane kaha-achchha, tujhe apane man-bap ka pata hai ?

mainne sir hilakar uttar diya-nahin, main sarakari anathalay men pala gaya hoon.

meri bat sun kar tooraya uth khadi huee aur boli-tab too mera khoya hua bada bhaee najir hi hai. mere paida hone ke ek sal pahale too khoya tha ! mere man-bap tab sarakari fauj par chhapa dalane ke lie aye the aur too bhi sath tha. meri man ladane men badi hoshiyar thi. too unaki pith se bndha hua tha aur ve lad rahi thin. isi samay ek goli unake pair men lagi aur ve gir kar behosh ho gayin. bas, koee tujhe khol le gaya. meri man ko mera bap apane kndhe par utha laya; lekin tujhe khoj n saka. bahut talash ki; lekin kahin bhi tera pata n laga. amman aksar teri charcha kiya karati thin. unake hath men bhi nishan tha.

yah kah kar usane phir vahi hath mujhe dikhalaya. main usaka aur apana sanp milane laga. vastav men donon sanp hoobahoo ek-se the, bal bhar bhi antar n tha. main hatash-sa ho kar charapaee par gir pada.

tooraya mere pas baith kar sneh se mere mathe ka pasina ponchhane lagi. usane kaha-najir, man kahati thin ki too mara nahin, zinda hai. ek din zaroor too ham logon se milega.

tooraya ki bat par ab mujhe vishvas ho chala tha. jane kaun mere hriday men baitha hua kah raha tha ki tooraya jo kahati hai, thik hai. mainne ek lambi sans le kar kaha-kyon tooraya, mainne jise aj mara hai, vah ham logon ka bap tha ?

tooraya ke munh par shok ka ek chhota-sa badal ghir aya. usane bade hi duahkh poorn svar men kaha-han najir, vah abhaga hamara bap hi tha. kaun janata tha ki vah apane pyare ladake ke hathon halal hoga.

phir santvanapoorn svar men boli-lekin najir, toone to anajan men yah kam kiya hai. bap ke marane se main bilakul akeli ho gayi thi; lekin ab tujhe pa kar bap ke rnj ko bhool jaoongi. najir, too rnj n kar. tujhe kya maloom tha ki kaun tera bap hai aur kaun teri man hai. dekh, main hi tujhe marane ke lie ayi thi. tujhe mar dalati; lekin khuda ki meharabani se mainne apana khanadani nishan dekh liya. khuda ki aisi hi maraji thi.

tooraya se maloom hua ki mere bap ka nam haidar khan tha, jo aphridiyon ke ek giroh ka saradar tha. mainne saradar himmatasinh ke sambandh men bhi tooraya se baten kin to maloom hua ki tooraya saradar sahab ko pyar karane lagi thi. vah hamare bap se lad-bhid kar saradar sahab se nikah karane ayi thi; lekin vahan inaki stri ko pa kar vah eershya aur krodh se pagal ho gayi, aur usane unaki stri ki hatya kar dali. kabuli aurat ke bhesh men ja kar vah kuchh majak karana chahati thi; lekin ghatana-chakr use doosari or le gaya.

mainne saradar sahab ki dasha ka varnan kiya. sun kar vah kuchh sochati rahi aur phir kaha-nahin vah adami jhootha aur dagabaj hai. main usase nikah nahin karoongi. lekin teri khatir ab sab bhool jaoongi. kal unake bachchon ko le ana, main pyar karoongi.

pratahkal tooraya ko dekh kar mera naukar ashchary karane laga. mainne usase kaha-yah meri bahan hai.

naukar ko meri bat par vishvas n hua. tab mainne vistarapoorvak sab hal kaha aur usi samay apane bap ki lash ki khabar lene ke lie bheja. naukar ne a kar kaha-lash abhi tak thane par rakhi huee hai.

mainne bade sahab ke nam ek patr likh kar sab hal bata diya aur lash pane ke lie darakhvast ki. usi samay sahab ke yahan se svikriti a gayi.

ek patr likh kar mejar sahab ko bhi bulavaya.

mejar sahab ne a kar kaha-kya bat hai asad ? itani jaldi ane ke lie kyon likha ?

mainne hnsate hue kaha-mejar sahab, mera nam ab asad nahin raha, mera asali nam hai najir.

mejar sahab ne sashchary meri or dekhate hue kaha-rat bhar men tum pagal to nahin ho gaye.

mainne hnsate hue kaha-nahin saradar sahab, abhi aur sunie. tooraya meri sagi bahan hai, aur jise kal mainne mara vah mera bap tha.

saradar sahab meri bat sun kar mano akash se gir pade. unaki ankhen kapal par chadh gayin. unhonne kaha-kyon asad, tum mujhe pagal kar daloge ?

mainne saradar sahab ka hath pakad kar kaha-aie, tooraya ke munh se hi sab hal sun lijie. tooraya mere yahan baithi huee apaki pratiksha kar rahi hai.

saradar sahab sakate ki halat men mere pichhe-pichhe chale. tooraya unhen ate dekh kar uth khadi huee aur hnsati huee boli-kaidi, tum vahi git phir gao. tooraya ki bat sun kar main aur saradar sahab bhi hnsane lage.

saradar sahab ko bitha kar mainne vistarapoorvak sab hal kaha. kahani sun kar saradar sahab ne mujhase kaha-najir, ab tumhen najir hi kahoonga. tooraya ko main tumase mangata hoon ! main isake sath vivah karoonga.

mainne hns kar kaha-lekin ap hindoo hain, aur ham log musalaman.

saradar sahab ne hns kar kaha-palataniyon ki koee jati-panti nahin hoti hai.

tooraya ne usi samay kaha-lekin saradar sahab, main tumase vivah nahin karoongi. han, agar tum apane donon bachchon ko mere pas bhej do to main unaki man ban jaoongi.

saradar sahab hnsate hue vida hue.

usi din sham ko hamane saradar sahab, tooraya aur doosare palataniyon ke sath ja kar apane bap ki lash daphanayi.

sooraj doob raha tha. dhire-dhire andhera ho raha tha; aur ham donon, tooraya aur main, apane bap ki qabr par phatiha padh rahe the.


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