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stri ki mrityu ke tin hi mas bad punarvivah karana mritatma ke sath aisa anyay aur usaki atma par aisa aghat hai jo kadapi kshamy nahin ho sakata. main yah kahoonga ki us svargavasini ki mujhase antim prerana thi aur n mera shayad yah kathan hi many samajha jay ki hamare chhote balak ke lie ‘man’ ki upasthiti paramavashyak thi. parantu is vishay men meri atma nirmal hai aur main asha karata hoon ki svargalok men mere is kary ki nirday alochana n ki jayagi. saransh yah ki mainne vivah kiya aur yadyapi ek nav-vivahita vadhoo ko matritv upadesh besura rag tha, par mainne pahale hi din amba se kah diya ki mainne tumase keval is abhipray se vivah kiya hai ki tum mere bhole balak ki man bano aur usake hriday se usaki man ki mrityu ka shok bhula do.

do mas vyatit ho gaye. main sndhya samay munnoo ko sath le kar vayu sevan ko jaya karata tha. lautate samay katipay mitron se bhent bhi kar liya karata tha. un sngaton men munnoo shyama ki bhanti chahakata. vastav men in sngaton se mera abhipray manovinod nahin, keval munnoo ke asadharan buddhi chamatkar ko pradarshit karana tha. mere mitragan jab munnoo ko pyar karate aur usaki vilakshan buddhi ki sarahana karate to mera hriday banson uchhalane lagata tha. ek din main munnoo ke sath baboo jvalasinh ke ghar baitha hua tha. ye mere param mitr the. mujhamen aur unamen kuchh bhedabhav n tha. isaka arth yah nahin hai ki ham apani kshudrataen, apane parivarik kalahadi aur apani arthik kathinaiyan bayan kiya karate the. nahin, ham in mulakaton men bhi apani pratishtha ki raksha karate the aur apani duravastha ka zikr kabhi hamari jaban par n ata tha. apani kalimaon ko sadaiv chhipate the. ekata men bhi bhed tha aur ghanishthata men bhi antar. achanak baboo jvalasinh ne munnoo se poochha ‘kyon tumhari amman tumhen khoob pyar karati hain n ?’’ mainne muskara kar munnoo ki or dekha. usake uttar ke vishay men mujhe koee sndeh n tha. main bhali-bhanti janata tha ki amman use bahut pyar karati hai. parantu mere ashchary ka thikana n raha jab munnoo ne is prashn ka uttar mukh se n de kar netron se diya. usake netron se ansoo ki boonden tapakane lagin. main lajja se gad gaya. is ashru-jal ne amba ke us sundar chitr ko nasht-bhrasht kar diya jo gat do mas se mainne hriday men ankit kar rakha tha. jvalasinh ne kuchh snshay ki drishti se dekha aur punah munnoo se poochha ‘kyon rote ho beta ?’ munnoo bola ‘rota nahin hoon, ankhon men dhuan lag gaya tha.’ jvalasinh ka vimata ki mamata par sndeh karana svabhavik bat thi; parantu vastav men mujhe bhi sandeh ho gaya ! amba sahridayata aur sneh ki vah devi nahin hai, jisaki sarahana karate meri jihna n thakati thi. vahan se utha to mera hriday bhara hua tha aur lajja se matha n uthata tha.

main ghar ki or chala to man men vichar karane laga ki kis prakar apane krodh ko prakat karoon. kyon n munh dhank kar so rahoon. amba jab poochhe to kathorata se kah doon ki sir men pida hai, mujhe tng mat karo. bhojan ke lie uthaye to jhidak kar uttar doon. amba avashy samajh jayagi ki koee bat meri ichchha ke pratikool huee hai. mere panv pakadane lagegi. us samay apani vyngyapoorn baton se usaka hriday bedh daloonga. aisa rulaoonga ki vah bhi yad kare. punah vichar aya ki usaka hnsamukh chehara dekh kar main apane hriday ko vash men rakh sakoonga ya nahin. usaki ek prem-poorn drishti, ek mithi bat, ek rasili chutaki meri shilatuly rushtata ke tukade-tukade kar sakati hai. parantu hriday ki is nirbalata par mera man jhunjhala utha. yah meri kya dasha hai, kyon itani jaldi mere chitt ki kaya palat gayi ? mujhe poorn vishvas tha ki main in mridul vakyon ki andhi aur lalit katakshon ke bahav men bhi achal rah sakata hoon aur kahan ab yah dasha ho gayi ki mujhamen sadharan jhonke ko bhi sahan karane ki samarthy nahin ! in vicharon se hriday men kuchh dridhata ayi, tis par bhi krodh ki lagam pag-pag par dhili hoti jati thi. ant men mainne hriday ko bahut dabaya aur banavati krodh ka bhav dharan kiya. than liya ki chalate hi chalate ekadam se baras padoonga.

aisa n ho ki vilambaroopi vayu is krodharoopi megh ko uda le jay, parntu jyon hi ghar pahuncha, amba ne daud kar munnoo ko godi men le liya aur pyar se sane hue komal svar se boli ‘aj tum itani der tak kahan ghoomate rahe ? chalo, dekho, mainne tumhare lie kaisi achchhi-achchhi phulaudiyan banayi hain.’ mera kritrim krodh ek kshan men ud gaya. mainne vichar kiya, is devi par krodh karana bhari atyachar hai. munnoo abodh balak hai. sambhav hai ki vah apani man ka smaran kar ro pada ho. amba isake lie doshi nahin thaharayi ja sakati. hamare manobhav poorv vicharon ke adhin nahin hote, ham unako prakat karane ke nimitt kaise-kaise shabd gadhate hain, parntu samay par shabd hamen dhokha de jate hain aur ve hi bhavanaen svabhavik roop se prakat hoti hain. mainne amba ko n to koee vyngyapoorn baten hi kahin aur n krodhit ho mukh dhank kar soya hi, balki atynt komal svar men bola munnoo ne aj mujhe atynt lajjit kiya. khajanachi sahab ne poochha tumhari nayi amman tumhen pyar karati hain ya nahin, to ye rone laga. main lajja se gad gaya. mujhe to svapn men bhi yah vichar nahin ho sakata ki tumane ise kuchh kaha hoga. parntu anath bachchon ka hriday us chitr ki bhanti hota hai jis par ek bahut hi sadharan parada pada hua ho. pavan ka sadharan jhonka bhi use hata deta hai.

ye baten kitani komal thin, tis par bhi amba ka vikasit mukhamndal kuchh murajha gaya. vah sajal netr ho kar boli is bat ka vichar to mainne yathasadhy pahale hi din se rakha hai. parntu yah asambhav hai ki main munnoo ke hriday se man ka shok mita doon. main chahe apana sarvasv arpan kar doon, parntu mere nam par jo sautelepan ki kalima lagi huee hai, vah mit nahin sakati.

mujhe bhay tha ki is vartalap ka parinam kahin viparit n ho, parantu doosare hi din mujhe amba ke vyavahar men bahut antar dikhayi dene laga. main use pratah-saynkal parynt munnoo ki hi seva men lagi huee dekhata, yahan tak ki us dhun men use meri bhi chinta n rahati thi. parntu main aisa tyagi n tha ki apane aram ko munnoo par arpan kar deta. kabhi-kabhi mujhe amba ki yah ashraddha n bhati, parntu main kabhi bhool kar bhi isaki charcha n karata. ek din main aniyamit roop se daftar se kuchh pahale hi a gaya. kya dekhata hoon ki munnoo dvar par bhitar ki or mukh kiye khada hai. mujhe is samay ankh-michauni khelane ki soojhi. mainne dabe panv pichhe se ja kar usake netr moond liye. par shok ! usake donon gal ashrupoorit the. mainne turnt donon hath hata liye. aisa pratit hua mano sarp ne das liya ho. hriday par ek chot lagi. munnoo ko god men lekar bola munnoo, kyon rote ho ? yah kahate-kahate mere netr bhi sajal ho aye.

munnoo ansoo pi kar bola- ji nahin, rota nahin hoon.

mainne use hriday se laga liya aur kaha- amman ne kuchh kaha to nahin ?

munnoo ne sisakate hue kaha- ji nahin, mujhe vah bahut pyar karati hain.

mujhe vishvas n hua, poochha- vah pyar karati to tum rote kyon ? us din khajanachi ke ghar bhi tum roye the. tum mujhase chhipate ho. kadachith tumhari amman avashy tumase kuchh kruddh huee hain.

munnoo ne meri or katar drishti se dekh kar kaha- ji nahin, vah mujhe pyar karati hain isi karan mujhe barambar rona ata hai. meri amman mujhe atynt pyar karati thin. vah mujhe chhodakar chali gayin. nayi amman usase bhi adhik pyar karati hain. isilie mujhe bhay lagata hai ki usaki tarah yah bhi mujhe chhodakar n chali jay.

yah kah kar munnoo punah phoot-phootakar rone laga. main bhi ro pada. amba ke is snehamay vyavahar ne munnoo ke sukomal hriday par kaisa aghat kiya tha. thodi der tak main stambhit rah gaya. kisi kavi ki yah vani smaran a gayi ki pavitr atmaen is snsar men chirakal tak nahin thaharatin. kahin bhavi hi is balak ki jihna se to yah shabd nahin kahala rahi hai. eeshvar n kare ki vah ashubh din dekhana pade. parantu mainne tark dvara is shnka ko dil se nikal diya. samajha ki mata ki mrityu ne prem aur viyog men ek manasik sambandh utpann kar diya hai aur koee bat nahin hai. munnoo ko god men liye hue amba ke pas gaya aur muskara kar bola ‘inase poochho kyon ro rahe hain ?’ amba chaunk padi. usake mukh ki kanti malin ho gayi. boli tumhin poochho. mainne kaha yah isalie rote hain ki tum inhen atynt pyar karati ho aur inako bhay hai ki tum bhi inaki mata ki bhanti inhen chhodakar n chali jao. jis prakar gard saf ho jane se darpan chamak uthata hai, usi bhanti amba ka mukhamndal prakashit ho gaya. usane munnoo ko meri god se chhin liya aur kadachith yah pratham avasar tha ki usane mamatapoorn sneh se munnoo ke panv ka chumban kiya.

shok ! maha shok ! ! main kya janata tha ki munnoo ki ashubh kalpana itani shighr poorn ho jayagi. kadachith usaki bal-drishti ne honahar ko dekh liya tha, kadachith usake bal shravan mrityu dooton ke vikaral shabdon se parichit the.

chhah mas bhi vyatit n hone paye the ki amba bimar padi aur enfluenja ne dekhate-dekhate use hamare hathon se chhin liya. punah vah upavan marutuly ho gaya, punah vah basa hua ghar ujad gaya. amba ne apane ko munnoo par arpan kar diya tha han, usane putr-sneh ka adarsh roop dikha diya. shitakal tha aur vah ghadi ratri shesh rahate hi munnoo ke lie pratahkal ka bhojan banane uthati thi. usake is sneh-bahuly ne munnoo par svabhavik prabhav dal diya tha. vah hathila aur natakhat ho gaya tha. jab tak amba bhojan karane n baithe, munh men kaur n dalata, jab tak amba pnkha n jhale, vah charapaee par panv n rakhata. use chhedata, chidhata aur hairan kar dalata. parntu amba ko in baton se atmik sukh prapt hota tha. enfluenja se karah rahi thi, karavat lene tak ki shakti n thi, sharir tava ho raha tha, parntu munnoo ke pratahkal ke bhojan ki chinta lagi rahati thi. hay! vah niahsvarth matri-sneh ab svapn ho gaya. us svapn ke smaran se ab bhi hriday gadh‌gad ho jata hai. amba ke sath munnoo ka chulabulapan tatha bal krida vida ho gayi. ab vah shok aur nairashy ki jivit moorti hai, vah ab bhi nahin rota. aisa padarth kho kar ab use koee khataka, koee bhay nahin rah gaya.

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bahari kadiyan

snbndhit lekh

varnamala kramanusar lekh khoj

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