पछतावा- प्रेमचंद  हिन्दी देवनागरी में पढ़ें।

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pndit durganath jab kalej se nikale to unhen jivan-nirvah ki chinta upasthit huee. ve dayalu aur dharmik the. ichchha thi ki aisa kam karana chahie jisase apana jivan bhi sadharanatah sukhapoorvak vyatit ho aur doosaron ke sath bhalaee aur sadacharan ka bhi avasar mile. ve sochane lage-yadi kisi karyalay men klark ban jaoon to apana nirvah ho sakata hai kintu sarvasadharan se kuchh bhi sambandh n rahega. vakalat men pravisht ho jaoon to donon baten sambhav hain kintu anekanek yatn karane par bhi apane ko pavitr rakhana kathin hoga. pulis-vibhag men din-palan aur paropakar ke lie bahut-se avasar milate rahate hain kintu ek svatntr aur sadvichar-priy manushy ke lie vahan ki hava haniprad hai. shasan-vibhag men niyam aur nitiyon ki bharamar rahati hai. kitana hi chaho par vahan kadaee aur dant-dapat se bache rahana asambhav hai. isi prakar bahut soch-vichar ke pashchath unhonne nishchay kiya ki kisi zamindar ke yahan mukhtaram ban jana chahie. vetan to avashy kam milega kintu din khetiharon se rat-din sambandh rahega unake sath sadvyavahar ka avasar milega. sadharan jivan-nirvah hoga aur vichar dridh honge.

kunvar vishalasinh ji ek sampattishali zamindar the. pn. durganath ne unake pas ja kar prarthana ki ki mujhe bhi apani seva men rakh kar kritarth kijie. kunvar sahab ne inhen sir se pair tak dekha aur kaha-pndit ji apako apane yahan rakhane men mujhe badi prasannata hoti kintu apake yogy mere yahan koee sthan nahin dekh padata.

durganath ne kaha-mere lie kisi vishesh sthan ki avashyakata nahin hai. main har ek kam kar sakata hoon. vetan ap jo kuchh prasannatapoorvak denge main svikar karoonga. mainne to yah snkalp kar liya hai ki siva kisi rees ke aur kisi ki naukari n karoonga. kunvar vishalasinh ne abhiman se kaha-rees ki naukari naukari nahin rajy hai. main apane chaparasiyon ko do rupaya mahavar deta hoon aur ve tnjeb ke angarakhe pahan kar nikalate hain. unake daravajon par ghode bndhe hue hain. mere karinde panch rupaye se adhik nahin pate kintu shadi-vivah vakilon ke yahan karate hain. n jane unaki kamaee men kya barakat hoti hai. barason tanakhvah ka hisab nahin karate. kitane aise hain jo bina tanakhvah ke karindagi ya chaparasagiri ko taiyar baithe hain. parntu apana yah niyam nahin. samajh lijie mukhtaram apane ilake men ek bade zamindar se adhik rob rakhata hai usaka that-bat aur usaki hukoomat chhote-chhote rajaon se kam nahin. jise is naukari ka chasaka lag gaya hai usake samane tahasiladari jhoothi hai.

pndit durganath ne kunvar sahab ki baton ka samarthan kiya jaisa ki karana unaki sabhyatanusar uchit tha. ve duniyadari men abhi kachche the bole-mujhe ab tak kisi rees ki naukari ka chasaka nahin laga hai. main to abhi kalej se nikala ata hoon. aur n main in karanon se naukari karana chahata hoon jinaka ki apane varnan kiya. kintu itane kam vetan men mera nirvah n hoga. apake aur naukar asamiyon ka gala dabate honge mujhase marate samay tak aise kary n honge. yadi sachche naukar ka samman hona nishchay hai to mujhe vishvas hai ki bahut shighr ap mujhase prasann ho jaynge.

kunvar sahab ne badi dridhata se kaha-han yah to nishchay hai ki satyavadi manushy ka adar sab kahin hota hai kintu mere yahan tanakhvah adhik nahin di jati.

jamidnar ke is pratishtha-shoony uttar ko sun kar pndit ji kuchh khinn hriday se bole-to phir majaboori hai. mere dvara is samay kuchh kasht apako ho to kshama kijiega. kintu main ap se kah sakata hoon ki eemanadar adami apako sasta n milega.

kunvar sahab ne man men socha ki mere yahan sada adalat-kachahari lagi hi rahati hai saikadon rupaye to digari aur tajavijon tatha aur-aur angreji kagajon ke anuvad men lag jate hain. ek angreji ka poorn pndit sahaj hi men mil raha hai. so bhi adhik tanakhvah nahin deni padegi. ise rakh lena hi uchit hai. lekin pndit ji ki bat ka uttar dena avashyak tha atah kaha-mahashay satyavadi manushy ko kitana hi kam vetan diya jaye vah saty ko n chhodega aur n adhik vetan pane se beeeman sachcha ban sakata hai. sachchaee ka rupaye se kuchh sambandh nahin. mainne eemanadar kuli dekhe hain aur beeeman bade-bade dhanadhy purush. parntu achchha ap ek sajjan purush hain. ap mere yahan prasannatapoorvak rahie. main apako ek ilake ka adhikari bana doonga aur apaka kam dekh kar taraqqi bhi kar doonga.

durganath ji ne 20 ru. masik par rahana svikar kar liya. yahan se koee dhaee mil par kee ganvon ka ek ilaka chandapar ke nam se vikhyat tha. pndit ji isi ilake ke karinde niyat hue.

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pndit durganath ne chandapar ke ilake men pahunch kar apane nivas-sthan ko dekha to unhonne kunvar sahab ke kathan ko bilakul saty paya. yatharth men riyasat ki naukari sukh-sampatti ka ghar hai. rahane ke lie sundar bngala hai jisamen bahumooly bichhauna bichha hua tha saikadon bighe ki sir kee naukar-chakar kitane hi chaparasi savari ke lie ek sundar tangan sukh that-bat ke sare saman upasthit. kintu is prakar ki sajavat aur vilas ki samagri dekh kar unhen utani prasannata n huee. kyonki isi saje hue bngale ke charon or kisanon ke jhonpade the. phoos ke gharon men mitti ke baratanon ke siva aur saman hi kya tha ! vahan ke logon men vah bngala kot ke nam se vikhyat tha. ladake use bhay ki drishti se dekhate. usake chabootare par pair rakhane ka unhen sahas n padata. is dinata ke bich men itana bada aishvaryayukt drishy unake lie atynt hriday-vidarak tha. kisanon ki yah dasha thi ki samane ate hue thar-thar kanpate the. chaparasi log unase aisa baratav karate the ki pashuon ke sath bhi vaisa nahin hota.

pahale hi din kee sau kisanon ne pndit ji ko anek prakar ke padarth bhent ke roop men upasthit kiye kintu jab ve sab lauta diye gaye to unhen bahut ashchary hua. kisan prasann hue kintu chaparasiyon ka rakt ubalane laga. naee aur kahar khidamat ko aye kintu lauta diye gaye. ahiron ke gharon se doodh se bhara hua mataka aya vah bhi vapas hua. tamoli ek dholi pan laya kintu vah bhi svikar n hua. asami apas men kahane lage ki koee dharmatma purush aye hain. parntu chaparasiyon ko to ye nayi baten asahy ho gayin. unhonne kaha-huzoor agar apako ye chizen pasnd n hon to n len magar rasm ko to n mitayen. agar koee doosara adami yahan ayega to use naye sire se yah rasm bandhane men kitani dikkat hogi yah sab sun kar pndit ji ne keval yahi uttar diya-jisake sir par padega vah bhugat lega. mujhe isaki chinta karane ki kya avashyakata ek chaparasi ne sahas bandh kar kaha-in asamiyon ko ap jitana garib samajhate hain utane garib ye nahin hain. inaka dhng hi aisa hai. bhesh banaye rahate hain. dekhane men aise sidhe-sade mano besing ki gay hain lekin sach manie inamen ka ek-ek adami haeekort ka vakil hai.

chaparasiyon ke is vad-vivad ka prabhav pndit ji par kuchh n hua. unhonne pratyek grihasth se dayaluta aur bhaeechare ka acharan karana arambh kiya. sabere se ath baje tak to garibon ko bina dam aushadhiyan dete phir hisab-kitab ka kam dekhate. unake sadacharan ne asamiyon ko moh liya. malagujari ka rupaya jisake lie prati varsh kuraki tatha nilami ki avashyakata hoti thi is varsh ek ishare par vasool ho gaya. kisanon ne apane bhag sarahe aur ve manane lage ki hamare sarakar ki dinondin badhati ho.

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kunvar vishalasinh apani praja ke palan-poshan par bahut dhyan rakhate the. ve bij ke lie anaj dete aur majoori aur bailon ke lie rupaye. phasal katane par ek ka dedh vasool kar lete ! chandapar ke kitane hi asami inake rini the. chait ka mahina tha. phasal kat-kat kar khaliyanon men a rahi thi. khaliyan men se kuchh anaj ghar men ane laga tha. isi avasar par kunvar sahab ne chandaparavalon ko bulaya aur kaha-hamara anaj aur rupaya bebak kar do. yah chait ka mahina hai. jab tak kadaee n ki jay tum log dakar nahin lete. is tarah kam nahin chalega. boodhe malooka ne kaha-sarakar bhala asami kabhi apane malik se bebak ho sakata hai ! kuchh abhi le liya jay kuchh phir de denge. hamari gardan to sarakar ki mutthi men hai.

kunvar sahab-aj kaudi-kaudi chuka kar yahan se uthane paoge. tum log hamesha isi tarah hila-havala kiya karate ho.

malooka (vinay ke sath)-hamara pet hai sarakar ki rotiyan hain hamako aur kya chahie jo kuchh upaj hai vah sab sarakar hi ki hai.

kunvar sahab se malooka ki yah vachalata sahi n gayi. unhen is par krodh a gaya raja-rees thahare. unhonne bahut kuchh khari-khoti sunayi aur kaha-koee hai jara is buddhe ka kan to garam karo vah bahut badh-badh kar baten karata hai. unhonne to kadachith dhamakane ki ichchha se kaha kintu chaparasi kadir khan ne lapak kar boodhe ki gardan pakadi aur aisa dhakka diya ki bechara zamin par ja gira. malooka ke do javan bete vahan chupachap khade the. bap ki aisi dasha dekh kar unaka rakt garam ho utha. ve donon jhapate aur kadir khan par toot pade. dhamadham shabd sunayi padane laga. khan sahab ka pani utar gaya safa alag ja gira. achakan ke tukade-tukade ho gaye. kintu jaban chalati rahi.

malooka ne dekha bat bigad gayi. vah utha aur kadir khan ko chhuda kar apane ladakon ko galiyan dene laga. jab ladakon ne usi ko danta tab daud kar kunvar sahab ke charanon par gir pada. par bat yatharth men bigad gayi thi. boodhe ke is vinit bhav ka kuchh prabhav n hua. kunvar sahab ki ankhon se mano ag ke angare nikal rahe the. ve bole-beeeman ankhon ke samane se door ho ja. nahin to tera khoon pi jaoonga.

boodhe ke sharir men rakt to ab vaisa n raha tha kintu kuchh garmi avashy thi. samajhata tha ki ye kuchh nyay karenge parntu yah phatakar sun kar bola-sarakar budhape men apake daravaze par pani utar gaya aur tis par sarakar hami ko dantate hain. kunvar sahab ne kaha-tumhari ijjat abhi kya utari hai ab utaregi.

donon ladake sarosh bole-sarakar apana rupaya lenge ki kisi ki ijjat lenge

kunvar sahab (ainth kar)-rupaya pichhe lenge pahale dekhenge ki tumhari ijjat kitani hai !

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chandapar ke kisan apane ganv par pahunch kar pndit durganath se apani ramakahani kah hi rahe the ki kunvar sahab ka doot pahuncha aur khabar di ki sarakar ne apako abhi-abhi bulaya hai.

durganath ne asamiyon ko paritosh diya aur ap ghode par savar ho kar darabar men hajir hue.

kunvar sahab ki ankhen lal thin. mukh ki akriti bhaynkar ho rahi thi. kee mukhtar aur chaparasi baithe hue ag par tel dal rahe the. pndit ji ko dekhate hi kunvar sahab bole-chandaparavalon ki harakat apane dekhi

pndit ji ne namr bhav se kaha-ji han sun kar bahut shok hua. ye to aise sarakash n the.

kunvar sahab-yah sab ap hi ke agaman ka phal hai. ap abhi skool ke ladake hain. ap kya janen ki snsar men kaise rahana hota hai. yadi apaka baratav asamiyon ke sath aisa hi raha to phir main jamindari kar chuka. yah sab apaki karani hai. mainne isi daravaze par asamiyon ko bandh-bandh kar ulate lataka diya hai aur kisi ne choon tak n ki. aj unaka yah sahas ki mere hi adami par hath chalayen.

durganath (kuchh dabate hue)-mahashay isamen mera kya aparadh mainne to jab se suna hai tabhi se svayn soch men pada hoon.

kunvar sahab-apaka aparadh nahin to kisaka hai ap hi ne to inako sir chadhaya. begar band kar di ap hi unake sath bhaeechare ka baratav karate hain unake sath hnsi-majak karate hain. ye chhote adami is baratav ki qadar kya janen kitabi baten skoolon hi ke lie hain. duniya ke vyavahar ka qanoon doosara hai. achchha jo hua so hua. ab main chahata hoon ki in badamashon ko is sarakashi ka maja chakhaya jay. asamiyon ko apane malagujari ki rasiden to nahin di hain

durganath (kuchh darate hue)-ji nahin rasiden taiyar hain lekin apake hastaksharon ki der hai.

kunvar sahab (kuchh sntusht ho kar)-yah bahut achchha hua. shakun achchhe hain. ab ap in rasidon ko chiragali ke sipurd kijie. in logon par bakaya lagan ki nalish ki jayagi phasal nilam kar loonga. jab bhookhe marenge tab soojhegi. jo rupaya ab tak vasool ho chuka hai vah bij aur rin ke khate men chadha lijie. apako keval yah gavahi deni hogi ki yah rupaya malagujari ke mad men nahin karz men vasool hua hai. bas !

durganath chintit ho gaye. sochane lage ki kya yahan bhi usi apatti ka samana karana padega jisase bachane ke lie itane soch-vichar ke bad is shanti-kutir ko grahan kiya tha kya jan-boojh kar in garibon ki gardan par chhuri pheroon isalie ki meri naukari bani rahe nahin yah mujhase n hoga. bole-kya meri shahadat bina kam n chalega

kunvar sahab (krodh se)-kya itana kahane men bhi apako koee ujr hai

durganath (dvividha men pade hue)-ji yon to mainne apaka namak khaya hai. apaki pratyek agya ka palan karana mujhe uchit hai kintu nyayalay men mainne gavahi nahin di hai. snbhav hai ki yah kary mujhase n ho sake atah mujhe to kshama hi kar diya jay.

kunvar sahab (shasan ke dhng se)-yah kam apako karana padega isamen han-nahin ki koee avashyakata nahin. ag apane lagayi hai. bujhayega kaun

durganath (dridhata ke sath)-main jhooth kadapi nahin bol sakata aur n is prakar ki shahadat de sakata hoon !

kunvar sahab (komal shabdon men)-kripanidhan yah jhooth nahin hai. mainne jhooth ka vyapar nahin kiya hai. main yah nahin kahata ki ap rupaye ka vasool hona asvikar kar dijie. jab asami mere rini hain to mujhe adhikar hai ki chahe rupaya rin ki mad men vasool karoon ya malagujari ki mad men. yadi itani-si bat ko ap jhooth samajhate hain to apaki jabaradasti hai. abhi apane snsar dekha nahin. aisi sachchaee ke lie snsar men sthan nahin. ap mere yahan naukari kar rahe hain. is sevak-dharm par vichar kijie. ap shikshit aur honahar purush hain. abhi apako snsar men bahut din tak rahana hai aur bahut kam karana hai. abhi se ap yah dharm aur satyata dharan karenge to apane jivan men apako vipatti aur nirasha ke siva aur kuchh prapt n hoga. satyapriyata avashy uttam vastu hai kintu usaki bhi sima hai ati sarvatravarjayeth ! ab adhik soch-vichar ki avashyakata nahin. yah avasar aisa hi hai.

kunvar sahab purane khurrat the. is phainkanait se yuvak khiladi har gaya.

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is ghatana ke tisare din chandapar ke asamiyon par bakaya lagan ki nalish huee. samman aye. ghar-ghar udasi chha gayi. samman kya the yam ke doot the. devi-devataon ki minnaten hone lagin. striyan apane gharavalon ko kosane lagin aur purush apane bhagy ko. niyat tarikh ke din ganv ke gnvar kndhe par lota-dor rakhe aur angochhe men chabena bandhe kachahari ko chale. saikadon striyan aur balak rote hue unake pichhe-pichhe jate the. mano ab ve phir unase n milenge.

pndit durganath ke tin din kathin pariksha ke the. ek or kunvar sahab ki prabhavashalini baten doosari or kisanon ki hay-hay parantu vichar-sagar men tin din nimagn rahane ke pashchath unhen dharati ka sahara mil gaya. unaki atma ne kaha-yah pahali pariksha hai. yadi isamen anuttirn rahe to phir atmik durbalata hi hath rah jayagi. nidan nishchay ho gaya ki main apane labh ke lie itane garibon ko hani n pahunchaoonga.

das baje din ka samay tha. nyayalay ke samane mela-sa laga hua tha. jahan-tahan shyamavastrachchhadit devataon ki pooja ho rahi thi. chandapar ke kisan jhund ke jhund ek ped ke niche akar baithe. unase kuchh door par kunvar sahab ke mukhtaram sipahiyon aur gavahon ki bhid thi. ye log atynt vinod men the. jis prakar machhaliyan pani men pahunch kar kilolen karati hain usi bhanti ye log bhi annd men choor the. koee pan kha raha tha. koee halavaee ki dookan se pooriyon ki pattal liye chala ata tha. udhar bechare kisan ped ke niche chupachap udas baithe the ki aj n jane kya hoga kaun aphat ayegi ! bhagavan ka bharosa hai. mukadame ki peshi huee. kunvar sahab ki or ke gavah gavahi dene lage ki asami bade sarakash hain. jab lagan manga jata hai to ladaee-jhagade par taiyar ho jate hain. abaki inhonne ek kaudi bhi nahin di.

kadir khan ne ro kar apane sir ki chot dikhayi. sabase pichhe pndit durganath ki pukar huee. unhin ke bayan par nipatara hona tha. vakil sahab ne unhen khoob tote ki bhanti padha rakha tha kintu unake mukh se pahala vaky nikala hi tha ki maijistret ne unaki or tivr drishti se dekha. vakil sahab bagalen jhankane lage. mukhtaram ne unaki or ghoor kar dekha. ahalamad peshakar adi sabake sab unaki or ashchary ki drishti se dekhane lage.

nyayadhish ne tivr svar se kaha-tum janate ho ki maijistret ke samane khade ho

durganath (dridhatapoorvak)-ji han bhali-bhanti janata hoon.

nyaya.-tumhare oopar asaty bhashan ka abhiyog lagaya ja sakata hai.

durganath-avashy yadi mera kathan jhootha ho.

vakil ne kaha-jan padata hai kisanon ke doodh ghi aur bhent adi ne yah kaya-palat kar di hai. aur nyayadhish ki or sarthak drishti se dekha.

durganath-apako in vastuon ka adhik tajurba hoga. mujhe to apani rookhi rotiyan hi adhik pyari hain.

nyayadhish-to in asamiyon ne sab rupaya bebak kar diya hai

durganath-ji han inake jimme lagan ki ek kaudi bhi baki nahin hai.

nyayadhish-rasiden kyon nahin din

durganath-mere malik ki agya.

maijistret ne nalishen disamis kar din. kunvar sahab ko jyon hi is parajay ki khabar mili unake kop ki matr sima se bahar ho gayi. unhonne pndit durganath ko saikadon kuvaky kahe-namakaharam vishvasaghati dusht. mainne usaka kitana adar kiya kintu kutte ki poonchh kahin sidhi ho sakati hai ! ant men vishvasaghat kar hi gaya. yah achchha hua ki pn. durganath maijistret ka phaisala sunate hi mukhtaram ko kunjiyan aur kagajapatr supurd kar chalate hue. nahin to unhen is kary ke phal men kuchh din haldi aur gud pine ki avashyakata padati.

kunvar sahab ka len-den vishesh adhik tha. chandapar bahut bada ilaka tha. vahan ke asamiyon par kee sau rupaye baki the. unhen vishvas ho gaya ki ab rupaya doob jayaga. vasool hone ki koee asha nahin. is pndit ne asamiyon ko bilakul bigad diya. ab unhen mera kya dar apane karindon aur mntriyon se sammati li. unhonne bhi yahi kaha-ab vasool hone ki koee soorat nahin. kagajat nyayalay men pesh kiye jayn to inakam taiks lag jayaga. kintu rupaya vasool hona kathin hai. ujaradariyan hongi. kahin hisab men koee bhool nikal ayi to rahi-sahi sakh bhi jati rahegi aur doosare ilakon ka rupaya bhi mara jayaga.

doosare din kunvar sahab pooja-path se nishchint ho apane chaupal men baithe to kya dekhate hain ki chandapar ke asami jhund ke jhund chale a rahe hain. unhen yah dekh kar bhay hua ki kahin ye sab kuchh upadrav to n karenge kintu kisi ke hath men ek chhadi tak n thi. malooka age-age ata tha. usane door hi se jhuk kar vndana ki. thakur sahab ko aisa ashchary hua mano ve koee svapn dekh rahe hon.

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malooka ne samane a kar vinayapoorvak kaha-sarakar ham logon se jo kuchh bhool-chook huee ho use kshama kiya jay. ham log sab huzoor ke chakar hain sarakar ne hamako pala-posa hai. ab bhi hamare oopar yahi nigah rahe.

kunvar sahab ka utsah badha. samajhe ki pndit ke chale jane se in sabon ke hosh thikane hue hain. aj kisaka sahara lenge. usi khurrat ne in sabon ko bahaka diya tha. kadak kar bole-ve tumhare sahayak pndit kahan gaye ve a jate to jara unaki khabar li jati.

yah sun kar malooka ki ankhon men ansoo bhar aye. vah bola-sarakar unako kuchh n kahen. ve adami nahin devata the. javani ki saugndh hai jo unhonne apaki koee ninda ki ho. ve bechare to ham logon ko bar-bar samajhate the ki dekho malik se bigad karana achchhi bat nahin. hamase kabhi ek lota pani ke ravadar nahin hue. chalate-chalate hamase kah gaye ki malik ka jo kuchh tumhare jimme nikale chuka dena. ap hamare malik hain. hamane apaka bahut khaya-piya hai. ab hamari yahi vinati sarakar se hai ki hamara hisab-kitab dekh kar jo kuchh hamare oopar nikale bataya jay. ham ek-ek kaudi chuka denge tab pani piyenge.

kunvar sahab prasann ho gaye. inhin rupayon ke lie kee bar khet katavane pade the. kitani bar gharon men ag lagavayi. anek bar mar-pit ki. kaise-kaise dnd diye. aj ye sab ap se ap sara hisab-kitab saf karane aye hain. yah kya jadoo hai.

mukhtaram sahab ne kagajat khole aur asamiyon ne apani-apani potaliyan. jisake jimme jitana nikala be-kan-poonchh hilaye utana dravy samane rakh diya. dekhate-dekhate samane rupayon ka dher lag gaya. chhah sau rupaya bat ki bat men vasool ho gaya. kisi ke jimme kuchh baki n raha. yah satyata aur nyay ki vijay thi. kathorata aur nirdayata se jo kam kabhi n hua vah dharm aur nyay ne poora kar dikhaya.

jab se ye log mukadama jit aye tabhi se unako rupaya chukane ki dhun savar thi. pndit ji ko ve yatharth men devata samajhate the. rupaya chuka dene ke lie unaki vishesh agya thi. kisi ne bail kisi ne gahane bndhak rakhe. yah sab kuchh sahan kiya parntu pndit ji ki bat n tali. kunvar sahab ke man men pndit ji ke prati jo bure vichar the sab mit gaye. unhonne sada se kathorata se kam lena sikha tha. unhin niyamon par ve chalate the. nyay tatha satyata par unaka vishvas n tha. kintu aj unhen pratyaksh dekh pada ki satyata aur komalata men bahut badi shakti hai.

ye asami mere hath se nikal gaye the. main inaka kya bigad sakata tha avashy vah pndit sachcha aur dharmatma purush tha. usamen dooradarshita n ho kal-gyan n ho kintu isamen sndeh nahin ki vah niahsprih aur sachcha purush tha.

kaisi hi achchhi vastu kyon n ho jab tak hamako usaki avashyakata nahin hoti tab tak hamari drishti men usaka gaurav nahin hota. hari doob bhi kisi samay asharphiyon ke mol bik jati hai. kunvar sahab ka kam ek niahsprih manushy ke bina nahin ruk sakata tha. atev pndit ji ke is sarvottam kary ki prashnsa kisi kavi ki kavita se adhik n huee. chandapar ke asamiyon ne to apane malik ko kabhi kisi prakar ka kasht n pahunchaya kintu any ilakonvale asami usi purane dhng se chalate the. un ilakon men ragad-jhagad sadaiv machi rahati thi. adalat mar-pit dant-dapat sada lagi rahati thi. kintu ye sab to zamindar ke shrringar hain. bina in sab baton ke jamindari kaisi kya din bhar baithe-baithe ve makkhiyan maren

kunvar sahab isi prakar purane dhng se apana prabndh snbhalate jate the. kee varsh vyatit ho gaye. kunvar sahab ka karobar dinondin chamakata hi gaya. yadyapi unhonne panch ladakiyon ke vivah badi dhoomadham ke sath kiye parntu tis par bhi unaki badhati men kisi prakar ki kami n huee. han sharirik shaktiyan avashy kuchh-kuchh dhili padati gayin. badi bhari chinta yahi thi ki itani badi sampatti aur aishvary ko bhoganevala koee utpann n hua. bhanaje bhatije aur navase is riyasat par dant lagaye hue the.

kunvar sahab ka man ab in sansarik jhagadon se phirata jata tha. akhir yah rona-dhona kisake lie ab unake jivan-niyam men ek parivartan hua. dvar par kabhi-kabhi sadhu-snt dhooni ramaye hue dekh padate. svayn bhagavadgita aur vishnusahònam padhate the. paralaukik chinta ab nity rahane lagi. paramatma ki kripa aur sadhu-snton ke ashirvad se budhape men unako ek ladaka paida hua. jivan ki ashaen saphal hueen par durbhagyavash putr ke janm hi se kunvar sahab sharirik vyadhiyon se grast rahane lage. sada vaidyon aur daktaron ka tanta laga rahata tha lekin davaon ka ulta prabhav padata. jyon-tyon karake unhonne dhaee varsh bitaye. ant men unaki shaktiyon ne javab de diya. unhen maloom ho gaya ki ab snsar se nata toot jayaga. ab chinta ne aur dhar dabaya yah sara mal-asabab itani badi sampatti kis par chhod jaoon man ki ichchhaen man hi man rah gayin. ladake ka vivah bhi n dekh saka. usaki totali baten sunane ka bhi saubhagy n hua. hay ab is kaleje ke tukade ko kise saunpoon jo ise apana putr samajhe. ladake ki man stri-jati n kuchh jane n samajhe. usase karabar snbhalana kathin hai. mukhtaram gumashte karinde kitane hain parantu sab ke sab svarthi-vishvasaghati. ek bhi aisa purush nahin jis par mera vishvas jame ! kort aph vards ke supurd karoon to vahan bhi ve hi sab apattiyan. koee idhar dabayega koee udhar. anath balak ko kaun poochhega hay mainne adami nahin pahachana. mujhe hira mil gaya tha mainne use thikara samajha ! kaisa sachcha kaisa vir dridhapratigy purush tha ! yadi vah kahin mil jaye to is anath balak ke din phir jayn. usake hriday men karuna hai daya hai. vah anath balak par taras khayaga. han ! kya mujhe usake darshan milenge main us devata ke charan dho kar mathe par chadhata. ansuon se usake charan dhota. vahi yadi hath lagaye to yah meri doobati nav par lage.

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thakur sahab ki dasha din par din bigadati gayi. ab antakal a pahuncha. unhen pndit durganath ki rat lagi huee thi. bachche ka munh dekhate aur kaleje se ek ah nikal jati. bar-bar pachhatate aur hath malate. hay ! us devata ko kahan paoon jo koee usake darshan kara de adhi jayadad us par nyochhavar kar doon-pyare pndit ! mere aparadh kshama karo. main andha tha agyani tha. ab meri banh pakado. mujhe doobane se bachao. is anath balak par taras khao.

hitarthi aur sambandhiyon ka samooh samane khada tha. kunvar sahab ne unaki or adhakhuli ankhon se dekha. sachcha hitaishi kahin dekh n pada. sabake chehare par svarth ki jhalak thi. nirasha se ankhen moond lin. unaki stri phoot-phootakar ro rahi thi. nidan use lajja tyagani padi. vah roti huee pas ja kar boli-prananath mujhe aur is asahay balak ko kis par chhode jate ho

kunvar sahab ne dhire se kaha-pndit durganath par. ve jald ayenge. unase kah dena ki mainne sab kuchh unako bhent kar diya. yah antim vasiyat hai.

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