पछतावा- प्रेमचंद

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

pandit durganath jab kalej se nikale to unhean jivan-nirvah ki chianta upasthit huee. ve dayalu aur dharmik the. ichchha thi ki aisa kam karana chahie jisase apana jivan bhi sadharanatah sukhapoorvak vyatit ho aur doosaroan ke sath bhalaee aur sadacharan ka bhi avasar mile. ve sochane lage-yadi kisi karyalay mean klark ban jaooan to apana nirvah ho sakata hai kintu sarvasadharan se kuchh bhi sambandh n rahega. vakalat mean pravisht ho jaooan to donoan batean sambhav haian kiantu anekanek yatn karane par bhi apane ko pavitr rakhana kathin hoga. pulis-vibhag mean din-palan aur paropakar ke lie bahut-se avasar milate rahate haian kiantu ek svatantr aur sadvichar-priy manushy ke lie vahaan ki hava haniprad hai. shasan-vibhag mean niyam aur nitiyoan ki bharamar rahati hai. kitana hi chaho par vahaan k daee aur daant-dapat se bache rahana asambhav hai. isi prakar bahut soch-vichar ke pashchath unhoanne nishchay kiya ki kisi zamiandar ke yahaan mukhtaram ban jana chahie. vetan to avashy kam milega kiantu din khetiharoan se rat-din sambandh rahega unake sath sadvyavahar ka avasar milega. sadharan jivan-nirvah hoga aur vichar dridh hoange.

kuanvar vishalasianh ji ek sampattishali zamiandar the. pan. durganath ne unake pas ja kar prarthana ki ki mujhe bhi apani seva mean rakh kar kritarth kijie. kuanvar sahab ne inhean sir se pair tak dekha aur kaha-pandit ji apako apane yahaan rakhane mean mujhe b di prasannata hoti kiantu apake yogy mere yahaan koee sthan nahian dekh p data.

durganath ne kaha-mere lie kisi vishesh sthan ki avashyakata nahian hai. maian har ek kam kar sakata hooan. vetan ap jo kuchh prasannatapoorvak deange maian svikar karooanga. maianne to yah sankalp kar liya hai ki siva kisi rees ke aur kisi ki naukari n karooanga. kuanvar vishalasianh ne abhiman se kaha-rees ki naukari naukari nahian rajy hai. maian apane chaparasiyoan ko do rupaya mahavar deta hooan aur ve tanjeb ke aangarakhe pahan kar nikalate haian. unake daravajoan par gho de bandhe hue haian. mere kariande paanch rupaye se adhik nahian pate kiantu shadi-vivah vakiloan ke yahaan karate haian. n jane unaki kamaee mean kya barakat hoti hai. barasoan tanakhvah ka hisab nahian karate. kitane aise haian jo bina tanakhvah ke kariandagi ya chaparasagiri ko taiyar baithe haian. parantu apana yah niyam nahian. samajh lijie mukhtaram apane ilake mean ek b de zamiandar se adhik rob rakhata hai usaka that-bat aur usaki hukoomat chhote-chhote rajaoan se kam nahian. jise is naukari ka chasaka lag gaya hai usake samane tahasiladari jhoothi hai.

pandit durganath ne kuanvar sahab ki batoan ka samarthan kiya jaisa ki karana unaki sabhyatanusar uchit tha. ve duniyadari mean abhi kachche the bole-mujhe ab tak kisi rees ki naukari ka chasaka nahian laga hai. maian to abhi kalej se nikala ata hooan. aur n maian in karanoan se naukari karana chahata hooan jinaka ki apane varnan kiya. kiantu itane kam vetan mean mera nirvah n hoga. apake aur naukar asamiyoan ka gala dabate hoange mujhase marate samay tak aise kary n hoange. yadi sachche naukar ka samman hona nishchay hai to mujhe vishvas hai ki bahut shighr ap mujhase prasann ho jayange.

kuanvar sahab ne b di dridhata se kaha-haan yah to nishchay hai ki satyavadi manushy ka adar sab kahian hota hai kiantu mere yahaan tanakhvah adhik nahian di jati.

jamidanar ke is pratishtha-shoony uttar ko sun kar pandit ji kuchh khinn hriday se bole-to phir majaboori hai. mere dvara is samay kuchh kasht apako ho to kshama kijiega. kiantu maian ap se kah sakata hooan ki eemanadar adami apako sasta n milega.

kuanvar sahab ne man mean socha ki mere yahaan sada adalat-kachahari lagi hi rahati hai saik doan rupaye to digari aur tajavijoan tatha aur-aur aangreji kagajoan ke anuvad mean lag jate haian. ek aangreji ka poorn pandit sahaj hi mean mil raha hai. so bhi adhik tanakhvah nahian deni p degi. ise rakh lena hi uchit hai. lekin pandit ji ki bat ka uttar dena avashyak tha atah kaha-mahashay satyavadi manushy ko kitana hi kam vetan diya jaye vah saty ko n chho dega aur n adhik vetan pane se beeeman sachcha ban sakata hai. sachchaee ka rupaye se kuchh sambandh nahian. maianne eemanadar kuli dekhe haian aur beeeman b de-b de dhanadhy purush. parantu achchha ap ek sajjan purush haian. ap mere yahaan prasannatapoorvak rahie. maian apako ek ilake ka adhikari bana dooanga aur apaka kam dekh kar taraqqi bhi kar dooanga.

durganath ji ne 20 ru. masik par rahana svikar kar liya. yahaan se koee dhaee mil par kee gaanvoan ka ek ilaka chaandapar ke nam se vikhyat tha. pandit ji isi ilake ke kariande niyat hue.

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pandit durganath ne chaandapar ke ilake mean pahuanch kar apane nivas-sthan ko dekha to unhoanne kuanvar sahab ke kathan ko bilakul saty paya. yatharth mean riyasat ki naukari sukh-sampatti ka ghar hai. rahane ke lie suandar bangala hai jisamean bahumooly bichhauna bichha hua tha saik doan bighe ki sir kee naukar-chakar kitane hi chaparasi savari ke lie ek suandar taangan sukh that-bat ke sare saman upasthit. kiantu is prakar ki sajavat aur vilas ki samagri dekh kar unhean utani prasannata n huee. kyoanki isi saje hue bangale ke charoan or kisanoan ke jhoanp de the. phoos ke gharoan mean mitti ke baratanoan ke siva aur saman hi kya tha ! vahaan ke logoan mean vah bangala kot ke nam se vikhyat tha. l dake use bhay ki drishti se dekhate. usake chabootare par pair rakhane ka unhean sahas n p data. is dinata ke bich mean itana b da aishvaryayukt drishy unake lie atyant hriday-vidarak tha. kisanoan ki yah dasha thi ki samane ate hue thar-thar kaanpate the. chaparasi log unase aisa baratav karate the ki pashuoan ke sath bhi vaisa nahian hota.

pahale hi din kee sau kisanoan ne pandit ji ko anek prakar ke padarth bheant ke roop mean upasthit kiye kiantu jab ve sab lauta diye gaye to unhean bahut ashchary hua. kisan prasann hue kiantu chaparasiyoan ka rakt ubalane laga. naee aur kahar khidamat ko aye kiantu lauta diye gaye. ahiroan ke gharoan se doodh se bhara hua mataka aya vah bhi vapas hua. tamoli ek dholi pan laya kiantu vah bhi svikar n hua. asami apas mean kahane lage ki koee dharmatma purush aye haian. parantu chaparasiyoan ko to ye nayi batean asahy ho gayian. unhoanne kaha-huzoor agar apako ye chizean pasand n hoan to n lean magar rasm ko to n mitayean. agar koee doosara adami yahaan ayega to use naye sire se yah rasm baandhane mean kitani dikkat hogi yah sab sun kar pandit ji ne keval yahi uttar diya-jisake sir par p dega vah bhugat lega. mujhe isaki chinta karane ki kya avashyakata ek chaparasi ne sahas baandh kar kaha-in asamiyoan ko ap jitana garib samajhate haian utane garib ye nahian haian. inaka dhang hi aisa hai. bhesh banaye rahate haian. dekhane mean aise sidhe-sade mano besiang ki gay haian lekin sach manie inamean ka ek-ek adami haeekort ka vakil hai.

chaparasiyoan ke is vad-vivad ka prabhav pandit ji par kuchh n hua. unhoanne pratyek grihasth se dayaluta aur bhaeechare ka acharan karana arambh kiya. sabere se ath baje tak to gariboan ko bina dam aushadhiyaan dete phir hisab-kitab ka kam dekhate. unake sadacharan ne asamiyoan ko moh liya. malagujari ka rupaya jisake lie prati varsh kuraki tatha nilami ki avashyakata hoti thi is varsh ek ishare par vasool ho gaya. kisanoan ne apane bhag sarahe aur ve manane lage ki hamare sarakar ki dinoandin badhati ho.

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kuanvar vishalasianh apani praja ke palan-poshan par bahut dhyan rakhate the. ve bij ke lie anaj dete aur majoori aur bailoan ke lie rupaye. phasal katane par ek ka dedh vasool kar lete ! chaandapar ke kitane hi asami inake rrini the. chait ka mahina tha. phasal kat-kat kar khaliyanoan mean a rahi thi. khaliyan mean se kuchh anaj ghar mean ane laga tha. isi avasar par kuanvar sahab ne chaandaparavaloan ko bulaya aur kaha-hamara anaj aur rupaya bebak kar do. yah chait ka mahina hai. jab tak k daee n ki jay tum log dakar nahian lete. is tarah kam nahian chalega. boodhe malooka ne kaha-sarakar bhala asami kabhi apane malik se bebak ho sakata hai ! kuchh abhi le liya jay kuchh phir de deange. hamari gardan to sarakar ki mutthi mean hai.

kuanvar sahab-aj kau di-kau di chuka kar yahaan se uthane paoge. tum log hamesha isi tarah hila-havala kiya karate ho.

malooka (vinay ke sath)-hamara pet hai sarakar ki rotiyaan haian hamako aur kya chahie jo kuchh upaj hai vah sab sarakar hi ki hai.

kuanvar sahab se malooka ki yah vachalata sahi n gayi. unhean is par krodh a gaya raja-rees thahare. unhoanne bahut kuchh khari-khoti sunayi aur kaha-koee hai jara is buddhe ka kan to garam karo vah bahut badh-badh kar batean karata hai. unhoanne to kadachith dhamakane ki ichchha se kaha kintu chaparasi kadir khaan ne lapak kar boodhe ki gardan pak di aur aisa dhakka diya ki bechara zamin par ja gira. malooka ke do javan bete vahaan chupachap kh de the. bap ki aisi dasha dekh kar unaka rakt garam ho utha. ve donoan jhapate aur kadir khaan par toot p de. dhamadham shabd sunayi p dane laga. khaan sahab ka pani utar gaya safa alag ja gira. achakan ke tuk de-tuk de ho gaye. kintu jaban chalati rahi.

malooka ne dekha bat big d gayi. vah utha aur kadir khaan ko chhu da kar apane l dakoan ko galiyaan dene laga. jab l dakoan ne usi ko daanta tab dau d kar kuanvar sahab ke charanoan par gir p da. par bat yatharth mean big d gayi thi. boodhe ke is vinit bhav ka kuchh prabhav n hua. kuanvar sahab ki aankhoan se mano ag ke aangare nikal rahe the. ve bole-beeeman aankhoan ke samane se door ho ja. nahian to tera khoon pi jaooanga.

boodhe ke sharir mean rakt to ab vaisa n raha tha kintu kuchh garmi avashy thi. samajhata tha ki ye kuchh nyay kareange parantu yah phatakar sun kar bola-sarakar budhape mean apake daravaze par pani utar gaya aur tis par sarakar hami ko daantate haian. kuanvar sahab ne kaha-tumhari ijjat abhi kya utari hai ab utaregi.

donoan l dake sarosh bole-sarakar apana rupaya leange ki kisi ki ijjat leange

kuanvar sahab (aianth kar)-rupaya pichhe leange pahale dekheange ki tumhari ijjat kitani hai !

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chaandapar ke kisan apane gaanv par pahuanch kar pandit durganath se apani ramakahani kah hi rahe the ki kuanvar sahab ka doot pahuancha aur khabar di ki sarakar ne apako abhi-abhi bulaya hai.

durganath ne asamiyoan ko paritosh diya aur ap gho de par savar ho kar darabar mean hajir hue.

kuanvar sahab ki aankhean lal thian. mukh ki akriti bhayankar ho rahi thi. kee mukhtar aur chaparasi baithe hue ag par tel dal rahe the. pandit ji ko dekhate hi kuanvar sahab bole-chaandaparavaloan ki harakat apane dekhi

pandit ji ne namr bhav se kaha-ji haan sun kar bahut shok hua. ye to aise sarakash n the.

kuanvar sahab-yah sab ap hi ke agaman ka phal hai. ap abhi skool ke l dake haian. ap kya janean ki sansar mean kaise rahana hota hai. yadi apaka baratav asamiyoan ke sath aisa hi raha to phir maian jamiandari kar chuka. yah sab apaki karani hai. maianne isi daravaze par asamiyoan ko baandh-baandh kar ulate lataka diya hai aur kisi ne chooan tak n ki. aj unaka yah sahas ki mere hi adami par hath chalayean.

durganath (kuchh dabate hue)-mahashay isamean mera kya aparadh maianne to jab se suna hai tabhi se svayan soch mean p da hooan.

kuanvar sahab-apaka aparadh nahian to kisaka hai ap hi ne to inako sir chadhaya. begar band kar di ap hi unake sath bhaeechare ka baratav karate haian unake sath hansi-majak karate haian. ye chhote adami is baratav ki qadar kya janean kitabi batean skooloan hi ke lie haian. duniya ke vyavahar ka qanoon doosara hai. achchha jo hua so hua. ab maian chahata hooan ki in badamashoan ko is sarakashi ka maja chakhaya jay. asamiyoan ko apane malagujari ki rasidean to nahian di haian

durganath (kuchh darate hue)-ji nahian rasidean taiyar haian lekin apake hastaksharoan ki der hai.

kuanvar sahab (kuchh santusht ho kar)-yah bahut achchha hua. shakun achchhe haian. ab ap in rasidoan ko chiragali ke sipurd kijie. in logoan par bakaya lagan ki nalish ki jayagi phasal nilam kar looanga. jab bhookhe mareange tab soojhegi. jo rupaya ab tak vasool ho chuka hai vah bij aur rrin ke khate mean chadha lijie. apako keval yah gavahi deni hogi ki yah rupaya malagujari ke mad mean nahian karz mean vasool hua hai. bas !

durganath chiantit ho gaye. sochane lage ki kya yahaan bhi usi apatti ka samana karana p dega jisase bachane ke lie itane soch-vichar ke bad is shaanti-kutir ko grahan kiya tha kya jan-boojh kar in gariboan ki gardan par chhuri pherooan isalie ki meri naukari bani rahe nahian yah mujhase n hoga. bole-kya meri shahadat bina kam n chalega

kuanvar sahab (krodh se)-kya itana kahane mean bhi apako koee ujr hai

durganath (dvividha mean p de hue)-ji yoan to maianne apaka namak khaya hai. apaki pratyek ajna ka palan karana mujhe uchit hai kiantu nyayalay mean maianne gavahi nahian di hai. sanbhav hai ki yah kary mujhase n ho sake atah mujhe to kshama hi kar diya jay.

kuanvar sahab (shasan ke dhang se)-yah kam apako karana p dega isamean haan-nahian ki koee avashyakata nahian. ag apane lagayi hai. bujhayega kaun

durganath (dridhata ke sath)-maian jhooth kadapi nahian bol sakata aur n is prakar ki shahadat de sakata hooan !

kuanvar sahab (komal shabdoan mean)-kripanidhan yah jhooth nahian hai. maianne jhooth ka vyapar nahian kiya hai. maian yah nahian kahata ki ap rupaye ka vasool hona asvikar kar dijie. jab asami mere rrini haian to mujhe adhikar hai ki chahe rupaya rrin ki mad mean vasool karooan ya malagujari ki mad mean. yadi itani-si bat ko ap jhooth samajhate haian to apaki jabaradasti hai. abhi apane sansar dekha nahian. aisi sachchaee ke lie sansar mean sthan nahian. ap mere yahaan naukari kar rahe haian. is sevak-dharm par vichar kijie. ap shikshit aur honahar purush haian. abhi apako sansar mean bahut din tak rahana hai aur bahut kam karana hai. abhi se ap yah dharm aur satyata dharan kareange to apane jivan mean apako vipatti aur nirasha ke siva aur kuchh prapt n hoga. satyapriyata avashy uttam vastu hai kiantu usaki bhi sima hai ati sarvatravarjayeth ! ab adhik soch-vichar ki avashyakata nahian. yah avasar aisa hi hai.

kuanvar sahab purane khurrat the. is phaiankanait se yuvak khila di har gaya.

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is ghatana ke tisare din chaandapar ke asamiyoan par bakaya lagan ki nalish huee. samman aye. ghar-ghar udasi chha gayi. samman kya the yam ke doot the. devi-devataoan ki minnatean hone lagian. striyaan apane gharavaloan ko kosane lagian aur purush apane bhagy ko. niyat tarikh ke din gaanv ke ganvar kandhe par lota-dor rakhe aur aangochhe mean chabena baandhe kachahari ko chale. saik doan striyaan aur balak rote hue unake pichhe-pichhe jate the. mano ab ve phir unase n mileange.

pandit durganath ke tin din kathin pariksha ke the. ek or kuanvar sahab ki prabhavashalini batean doosari or kisanoan ki hay-hay parantu vichar-sagar mean tin din nimagn rahane ke pashchath unhean dharati ka sahara mil gaya. unaki atma ne kaha-yah pahali pariksha hai. yadi isamean anuttirn rahe to phir atmik durbalata hi hath rah jayagi. nidan nishchay ho gaya ki maian apane labh ke lie itane gariboan ko hani n pahuanchaooanga.

das baje din ka samay tha. nyayalay ke samane mela-sa laga hua tha. jahaan-tahaan shyamavastrachchhadit devataoan ki pooja ho rahi thi. chaandapar ke kisan jhuand ke jhuand ek pe d ke niche akar baithe. unase kuchh door par kuanvar sahab ke mukhtaram sipahiyoan aur gavahoan ki bhi d thi. ye log atyant vinod mean the. jis prakar machhaliyaan pani mean pahuanch kar kilolean karati haian usi bhaanti ye log bhi anand mean choor the. koee pan kha raha tha. koee halavaee ki dookan se pooriyoan ki pattal liye chala ata tha. udhar bechare kisan pe d ke niche chupachap udas baithe the ki aj n jane kya hoga kaun aphat ayegi ! bhagavan ka bharosa hai. mukadame ki peshi huee. kuanvar sahab ki or ke gavah gavahi dene lage ki asami b de sarakash haian. jab lagan maanga jata hai to l daee-jhag de par taiyar ho jate haian. abaki inhoanne ek kau di bhi nahian di.

kadir khaan ne ro kar apane sir ki chot dikhayi. sabase pichhe pandit durganath ki pukar huee. unhian ke bayan par nipatara hona tha. vakil sahab ne unhean khoob tote ki bhaanti padha rakha tha kiantu unake mukh se pahala vaky nikala hi tha ki maijistret ne unaki or tivr drishti se dekha. vakil sahab bagalean jhaankane lage. mukhtaram ne unaki or ghoor kar dekha. ahalamad peshakar adi sabake sab unaki or ashchary ki drishti se dekhane lage.

nyayadhish ne tivr svar se kaha-tum janate ho ki maijistret ke samane kh de ho

durganath (dridhatapoorvak)-ji haan bhali-bhaanti janata hooan.

nyaya.-tumhare oopar asaty bhashan ka abhiyog lagaya ja sakata hai.

durganath-avashy yadi mera kathan jhootha ho.

vakil ne kaha-jan p data hai kisanoan ke doodh ghi aur bheant adi ne yah kaya-palat kar di hai. aur nyayadhish ki or sarthak drishti se dekha.

durganath-apako in vastuoan ka adhik tajurba hoga. mujhe to apani rookhi rotiyaan hi adhik pyari haian.

nyayadhish-to in asamiyoan ne sab rupaya bebak kar diya hai

durganath-ji haan inake jimme lagan ki ek kau di bhi baki nahian hai.

nyayadhish-rasidean kyoan nahian dian

durganath-mere malik ki ajna.

maijistret ne nalishean disamis kar dian. kuanvar sahab ko jyoan hi is parajay ki khabar mili unake kop ki matr sima se bahar ho gayi. unhoanne pandit durganath ko saik doan kuvaky kahe-namakaharam vishvasaghati dusht. maianne usaka kitana adar kiya kiantu kutte ki pooanchh kahian sidhi ho sakati hai ! aant mean vishvasaghat kar hi gaya. yah achchha hua ki pan. durganath maijistret ka phaisala sunate hi mukhtaram ko kuanjiyaan aur kagajapatr supurd kar chalate hue. nahian to unhean is kary ke phal mean kuchh din haldi aur gu d pine ki avashyakata p dati.

kuanvar sahab ka len-den vishesh adhik tha. chaandapar bahut b da ilaka tha. vahaan ke asamiyoan par kee sau rupaye baki the. unhean vishvas ho gaya ki ab rupaya doob jayaga. vasool hone ki koee asha nahian. is pandit ne asamiyoan ko bilakul biga d diya. ab unhean mera kya dar apane kariandoan aur mantriyoan se sammati li. unhoanne bhi yahi kaha-ab vasool hone ki koee soorat nahian. kagajat nyayalay mean pesh kiye jayan to inakam taiks lag jayaga. kiantu rupaya vasool hona kathin hai. ujaradariyaan hoangi. kahian hisab mean koee bhool nikal ayi to rahi-sahi sakh bhi jati rahegi aur doosare ilakoan ka rupaya bhi mara jayaga.

doosare din kuanvar sahab pooja-path se nishchiant ho apane chaupal mean baithe to kya dekhate haian ki chaandapar ke asami jhuand ke jhuand chale a rahe haian. unhean yah dekh kar bhay hua ki kahian ye sab kuchh upadrav to n kareange kiantu kisi ke hath mean ek chh di tak n thi. malooka age-age ata tha. usane door hi se jhuk kar vandana ki. thakur sahab ko aisa ashchary hua mano ve koee svapn dekh rahe hoan.

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malooka ne samane a kar vinayapoorvak kaha-sarakar ham logoan se jo kuchh bhool-chook huee ho use kshama kiya jay. ham log sab huzoor ke chakar haian sarakar ne hamako pala-posa hai. ab bhi hamare oopar yahi nigah rahe.

kuanvar sahab ka utsah badha. samajhe ki pandit ke chale jane se in saboan ke hosh thikane hue haian. aj kisaka sahara leange. usi khurrat ne in saboan ko bahaka diya tha. k dak kar bole-ve tumhare sahayak pandit kahaan gaye ve a jate to jara unaki khabar li jati.

yah sun kar malooka ki aankhoan mean aansoo bhar aye. vah bola-sarakar unako kuchh n kahean. ve adami nahian devata the. javani ki saugandh hai jo unhoanne apaki koee nianda ki ho. ve bechare to ham logoan ko bar-bar samajhate the ki dekho malik se biga d karana achchhi bat nahian. hamase kabhi ek lota pani ke ravadar nahian hue. chalate-chalate hamase kah gaye ki malik ka jo kuchh tumhare jimme nikale chuka dena. ap hamare malik haian. hamane apaka bahut khaya-piya hai. ab hamari yahi vinati sarakar se hai ki hamara hisab-kitab dekh kar jo kuchh hamare oopar nikale bataya jay. ham ek-ek kau di chuka deange tab pani piyeange.

kuanvar sahab prasann ho gaye. inhian rupayoan ke lie kee bar khet katavane p de the. kitani bar gharoan mean ag lagavayi. anek bar mar-pit ki. kaise-kaise dand diye. aj ye sab ap se ap sara hisab-kitab saf karane aye haian. yah kya jadoo hai.

mukhtaram sahab ne kagajat khole aur asamiyoan ne apani-apani potaliyaan. jisake jimme jitana nikala be-kan-pooanchh hilaye utana dravy samane rakh diya. dekhate-dekhate samane rupayoan ka dher lag gaya. chhah sau rupaya bat ki bat mean vasool ho gaya. kisi ke jimme kuchh baki n raha. yah satyata aur nyay ki vijay thi. kathorata aur nirdayata se jo kam kabhi n hua vah dharm aur nyay ne poora kar dikhaya.

jab se ye log mukadama jit aye tabhi se unako rupaya chukane ki dhun savar thi. pandit ji ko ve yatharth mean devata samajhate the. rupaya chuka dene ke lie unaki vishesh ajna thi. kisi ne bail kisi ne gahane bandhak rakhe. yah sab kuchh sahan kiya parantu pandit ji ki bat n tali. kuanvar sahab ke man mean pandit ji ke prati jo bure vichar the sab mit gaye. unhoanne sada se kathorata se kam lena sikha tha. unhian niyamoan par ve chalate the. nyay tatha satyata par unaka vishvas n tha. kiantu aj unhean pratyaksh dekh p da ki satyata aur komalata mean bahut b di shakti hai.

ye asami mere hath se nikal gaye the. maian inaka kya biga d sakata tha avashy vah pandit sachcha aur dharmatma purush tha. usamean dooradarshita n ho kal-jnan n ho kiantu isamean sandeh nahian ki vah niahsprih aur sachcha purush tha.

kaisi hi achchhi vastu kyoan n ho jab tak hamako usaki avashyakata nahian hoti tab tak hamari drishti mean usaka gaurav nahian hota. hari doob bhi kisi samay asharphiyoan ke mol bik jati hai. kuanvar sahab ka kam ek niahsprih manushy ke bina nahian ruk sakata tha. atev pandit ji ke is sarvottam kary ki prashansa kisi kavi ki kavita se adhik n huee. chaandapar ke asamiyoan ne to apane malik ko kabhi kisi prakar ka kasht n pahuanchaya kiantu any ilakoanvale asami usi purane dhang se chalate the. un ilakoan mean rag d-jhag d sadaiv machi rahati thi. adalat mar-pit daant-dapat sada lagi rahati thi. kiantu ye sab to zamiandar ke shrriangar haian. bina in sab batoan ke jamiandari kaisi kya din bhar baithe-baithe ve makkhiyaan marean

kuanvar sahab isi prakar purane dhang se apana prabandh sanbhalate jate the. kee varsh vyatit ho gaye. kuanvar sahab ka karobar dinoandin chamakata hi gaya. yadyapi unhoanne paanch l dakiyoan ke vivah b di dhoomadham ke sath kiye parantu tis par bhi unaki badhati mean kisi prakar ki kami n huee. haan sharirik shaktiyaan avashy kuchh-kuchh dhili p dati gayian. b di bhari chianta yahi thi ki itani b di sampatti aur aishvary ko bhoganevala koee utpann n hua. bhanaje bhatije aur navase is riyasat par daant lagaye hue the.

kuanvar sahab ka man ab in saansarik jhag doan se phirata jata tha. akhir yah rona-dhona kisake lie ab unake jivan-niyam mean ek parivartan hua. dvar par kabhi-kabhi sadhu-sant dhooni ramaye hue dekh p date. svayan bhagavadgita aur vishnusahònam padhate the. paralaukik chianta ab nity rahane lagi. paramatma ki kripa aur sadhu-santoan ke ashirvad se budhape mean unako ek l daka paida hua. jivan ki ashaean saphal hueean par durbhagyavash putr ke janm hi se kuanvar sahab sharirik vyadhiyoan se grast rahane lage. sada vaidyoan aur daktaroan ka taanta laga rahata tha lekin davaoan ka ulta prabhav p data. jyoan-tyoan karake unhoanne dhaee varsh bitaye. aant mean unaki shaktiyoan ne javab de diya. unhean maloom ho gaya ki ab sansar se nata toot jayaga. ab chianta ne aur dhar dabaya yah sara mal-asabab itani b di sampatti kis par chho d jaooan man ki ichchhaean man hi man rah gayian. l dake ka vivah bhi n dekh saka. usaki totali batean sunane ka bhi saubhagy n hua. hay ab is kaleje ke tuk de ko kise sauanpooan jo ise apana putr samajhe. l dake ki maan stri-jati n kuchh jane n samajhe. usase karabar sanbhalana kathin hai. mukhtaram gumashte kariande kitane haian parantu sab ke sab svarthi-vishvasaghati. ek bhi aisa purush nahian jis par mera vishvas jame ! kort aph vards ke supurd karooan to vahaan bhi ve hi sab apattiyaan. koee idhar dabayega koee udhar. anath balak ko kaun poochhega hay maianne adami nahian pahachana. mujhe hira mil gaya tha maianne use thikara samajha ! kaisa sachcha kaisa vir dridhapratijn purush tha ! yadi vah kahian mil jaye to is anath balak ke din phir jayan. usake hriday mean karuna hai daya hai. vah anath balak par taras khayaga. haan ! kya mujhe usake darshan mileange maian us devata ke charan dho kar mathe par chadhata. aansuoan se usake charan dhota. vahi yadi hath lagaye to yah meri doobati nav par lage.

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thakur sahab ki dasha din par din big dati gayi. ab aantakal a pahuancha. unhean pandit durganath ki rat lagi huee thi. bachche ka muanh dekhate aur kaleje se ek ah nikal jati. bar-bar pachhatate aur hath malate. hay ! us devata ko kahaan paooan jo koee usake darshan kara de adhi jayadad us par nyochhavar kar dooan-pyare pandit ! mere aparadh kshama karo. maian aandha tha ajnani tha. ab meri baanh pak do. mujhe doobane se bachao. is anath balak par taras khao.

hitarthi aur sambandhiyoan ka samooh samane kh da tha. kuanvar sahab ne unaki or adhakhuli aankhoan se dekha. sachcha hitaishi kahian dekh n p da. sabake chehare par svarth ki jhalak thi. nirasha se aankhean mooand lian. unaki stri phoot-phootakar ro rahi thi. nidan use lajja tyagani p di. vah roti huee pas ja kar boli-prananath mujhe aur is asahay balak ko kis par chho de jate ho

kuanvar sahab ne dhire se kaha-pandit durganath par. ve jald ayeange. unase kah dena ki maianne sab kuchh unako bheant kar diya. yah aantim vasiyat hai.

sanbandhit lekh

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