रहस्य- प्रेमचंद  हिन्दी देवनागरी में पढ़ें।

Icon-edit.gif is lekh ka punarikshan evn sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamen sahayata kar sakate hain. "sujhav"

vimal prakash ne sevashram ke dvar par pahunchakar jeb se roomal nikala aur balon par padi huee gard saf ki, phir usi roomal se jooton ki gard jhadi aur andar dakhil hua. subah ko vah roj tahalane jata hai aur lautati bar sevashram ki dekh-bhal bhi kar leta hai. vah is ashram ka bani bhi hai, aur snchalak bhi.

sevashram ka kam shuroo ho gaya tha. adhyapikaen ladakiyon ko padha rahi thin, mali phoolon ki kyariyon men pani de raha tha aur ek daraje ki ladakiyan hari-hari ghas par daud laga rahi thin. vimal ko ladakiyon ki sehat ka bada khayal hai.

vimal ek kshan vahin khada prasann man se ladakiyon ki bal-krida dekhata raha, phir akar daftar men baith gaya. klark ne kal ki ayi huee dak usake samane rakh di. vimal ne sare patr ek-ek karake khole aur sarasari taur par padhaqar rakh diye, usake mukh par chinta aur nirasha ka dhoomil rng daud gaya. usane dhan ke lie samachar-patron men jo apil nikali thi, usaka koee asar nahin hua? kaise yah snstha chalegi? log kya itane anudar hain? vah tan-man se is kam men laga hua hai. usake pas jo kuchh tha vah sab usane is ashram ko bhent kar di. ab log usase aur kya chahate hain? kya ab bhi vah unaki daya aur vishvas ke yogy nahin hai?

vah isi chinta men dooba hua utha aur ghar par akar sochane laga, yah snkat kaise tale? abhi sal ka adha bhi nahin gujara aur ashram par barah hazar ka karz ho gaya tha. sal poora-poora hote vah bis hazar tak pahunchega. agar vah ladakiyon ki fis ek-ek rupaya badha de, to panch sau rupaye ki amadani badh sakati hai. hostal ki phis do-do rupaye badha de, to panch sau rupaye aur a sakate hain. is tarah vah ashram ki amadani men barah hazar salana ki badhati kar sakata hai; lekin phir usaka vah adarsh kahan rahega ki garibon ki ladakiyon ko namamatr phis lekar oonchi shiksha di jae! kash, use aisi adhyapikaon ki kafi tadad mil jati jo keval gujare par kam karatin. kya itane bade desh men aisi das-bis padhi-likhi deviyan bhi nahin hain? usane kee bar akhabaron men yah zaroorat chhapavaee thi, magar aj tak kisi ne javab n diya. ab fis badhane ke siva usake lie kaun-sa rasta hai?

isi vakt usake dvar ke samane ek tanga akar ruka aur ek mahila utarakar baramade men ayi. vimal ne kamare se bahar nikalakar unaka svagat kiya aur unhen andar le jakar ek kurasi par baitha diya. deviji roopavati to n thin, par unake mukh par shishtata aur kulinata ki abha zaroor thi. ausat kad, komal gat, champee rng, prasann mukh, khoob bani-snvari huee; magar us banav-snvar men hi jaise abhav ki jhalak thi. vimal ke lie yah koee nee bat n thi. jab se usane sevashram khola tha, bhale gharon ki deviyan akasar usase milane ati rahati thin.

deviji ne kurasi par baithate hue kaha-pahale apana nam bata doon. mujhe mnjula kahate hain. mainne kuchh din hue, ‘lidar’ men apaki notis dekhi thi aur usi prayojan se apaki seva men ayi hoon. yon to apase milane ka shauq bahut dinon se tha; par koee avasar n nikal pati thi, aur barabas akar apaka kimati samay nasht n karana chahati thi. apane jis tyag aur tanmayata se nariyon ki seva ki hai, usane apake prati mere man men itani shraddha paida kar di hai ki main use prakat karoon to shayad ap khushamad samajhen. mere man men bhi isi tarah ki seva ki ichchha bahut dinon se hai; par jitana sochati hoon; utana kar nahin sakati. apake protsahan se sambhav hai; main bhi kuchh kar sakoon!

vimal maun sevakon men tha. apani prashnsa usake lie sabase kathin pariksha thi. usaki thik vahi dasha ho jati thi, jaise koee pani men dubakiyan kha raha ho. vah khud kisi ke munh par usaki tarif n karata tha, isalie tarif ke bhookhe use tngadil samajhate the. vah pith ke pichhe tarif karata tha. han, buraiyan vah munh par karata tha aur doosaron se bhi yahi asha rakhata tha.

usane apana ukhada hua panv jamate hue kaha-yah to bahut achchhi bat hogi. ap shauq se aen. sevashram ki dasha to apako maloom hogi?

‘main is irade se yahan nahin ayi hoon.’

‘yah main pahale hi samajh gaya tha. meri yah asha n thi. yon hi kah diya. achchha, apaka makan yahin hai?

mnjula devi ka ghar lakhanoo men hai. jalandhar ke kanya-vidyalay men shiksha payi hai. angreji men achchhi liyakat hai. ghar ke kam-dhandhe men bhi kushal hain. aur sabase badi bat yah hai ki unake hriday men seva ka utsah hai. agar aisi stri sevashram ka bhar apane oopar le le, to kya kahana!

magar vimal ke man men ek prashn utha. poochha-apake pati bhi apake sath rahenge?

sadharan-sa saval tha; magar mnjuula ko nagavar laga. boli-ji nahin. vah apane ghar rahenge. vah ek baink men naukar hain aur achchha vetan pate hain.

vimal ke man ka prashn aur bhi jatil ho gaya. jo adami achchha vetan pata hai, usaki patni kyon usase alag, kashi men rahana chahati hai?

keval itana munh se nikala-achchha!

mnjula ne shayad unake man ka bhav tadaqar kaha-apako yah kuchh anokhi-si bat lagati hogi, lekin kya apake khyal men shadi ka ashay yah hai ki stri ko purush ke daman men chhipi rahana chahie?

vimal ne josh ke sath kaha-‘hargij nahin.’

‘jab main apani zarooraton ko ghatakar sifar tak pahuncha sakati hoon, to kisi par bhar kyon banoon?’

‘beshak!’

‘ham donon men matabhed hai aur usake anek karan hain. main bhakti aur pooja ko manav jivan ka saty samajhati hoon. vah ise lachar samajhate hain, yahan tak ki eeshvar men bhi unaka vishvas nahin hai. main hindoo snskriti ko sabase ooncha samajhati hoon. unhen hamari snskriti men aib-hi-aib najar ate hain. aise adami ke sath mera nibah kaise ho sakata hai.’

vimal khud bhakti aur pooja ko dhong samajhate the, aur itani si bat par kisi stri ka purush se alag ho jana unaki samajh men n aya. unhen aisi kee misalen yad thin, jahan striyon ne pati ke vidharmi ho jane par bhi apane vrat ka palan kiya. is samasya ka vyavaharik ang hi unake samane tha. poochha-unhen koee apatti to n hogi?

mnjula ne garv ke sath kaha-main aisi apattiyon ki paravah nahin karati. agar purush svatantr hai, to stri bhi svatantr hai.

phir usane narm hokar karun svar men kaha-yon kahie ki ham aur vah tin sal se alag hain. rahate hain ek hi makan men; lekin bolate nahin. jab kabhi vah bimar pade hain, mainne unaki timaradari ki hai. un par koee snkat aya hai, to mainne unase sachchi sahanubhooti ki hai; lekin main mar bhi jaoon to unhen du:kh n hoga. vah khush hi honge ki gala chhoot gaya. vah mera palan-poshan karate hain, isalie ......

usaka gala bhar aya tha. ek kshan tak vah chupachap zamin ki or takati rahi. phir use bhay hua ki kahin vimal use halaka aur ochhi n samajh raha ho, jo apane jivan ke gupt rahasyon ka dhindhora pitati phirati hai. is bhram ko vimal ke man se nikalana zaroori tha. usane unhen yakin dilaya ki aj tak kisi ne usake munh se ye shabd nahin sune, yahan tak ki usane apane man ki vyatha kabhi apani mata se bhi nahin kahi. vimal vah pahale vyakti haiai jinase usane ye baten kahane ka sahas kiya hai aur isaka karan yahi hai ki vah janati hai; unake dil men dard hai aur ek stri ki vivashata ka andaja kar sakate hain.

vimal ne lajate hue kaha-yah apaki kripa hai, jo mere bare men aisa khayal karati hain.

aur unake man men mnjula ke prati shraddha utpann huee. bahut dinon ke bad use ek devi najar ayi, jo siddhant ke lie itana sahas kar sakati hai. vah khud man-hi-man samaj se vidroh karata rahata tha. sevashram bhi unake manasik vidroh ka hi phal tha. aisi stri ke hathon men vah sevashram badi khushi se saunp dega. mnjula isake lie taiyar hokar ayi thi.

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mnjula ke jivan men atmadan ki matra hi zyada thi. deh ko vah is bhavana ki poorti ka sadhan-matr samajhati thi. duniya ki badi se badi vibhooti bhi use shanti n de sakati thi. mistar mehara se use keval isalie aruchi thi ki vah bhi sadharan praniyon ki bhanti bhog-vilas ke premi the. jivan unake lie ichchhaon men bahane ka nam tha. svarth ki siddhi men niti ya dharm ki badha unake lie asahy thi. agar unamen kuchh udarata hoti aur mnjula se matabhed hone par bhi vah usaki bhavanaon ka adar karate aur kam-se-kam mukh se hi usamen sahayog karate, to mnjula ka jivan sukhi hota; par us bhale adami ko patni se jara bhi sahanubhooti n thi aur vah har ek avasar par usake marg men akar khade ho jate the aur mnjula man-hi-man simatakar rah jati thi. yahan tak ki usaki bhavanaen vikas ka marg n pakar tedhe-medhe raston par jane lagin. agar vah is abhav ko kala ka roop de sakati, to usaki atma ko usamen shanti milati. jivan men jo kuchh n mila, use kala men pakar vah prasann hoti; magar usamen vah pratibha, vah rachana-shakti n thi. aur usaki atma pinjade men band pakshi ki bhanti hamesha bechain rahati thi. usaka ahambhav itana prachchhann ho gaya tha ki vah jivan se virakt hokar baith sakati thi. vah apane vyaktitv ko svatantr aur prithakh rakhana chahati thi. use isamen garv aur ullas hota tha ki vah bhi kuchh hai. vah keval kisi vriksh par phailane vali aur usake sahare jine vali bel nahin hai. usaki apani alag hasti hai, apana alag karyakshetr hai.

lekin yatharthataon ke is snsar men akar use maloom hua ki atmadan ka jo ashay usane samajh rakha tha, vah sarasar galat tha. sevashram men aise log akasar ate rahate the, jinase thodi-si khushamad karake bahut kuchh sahayata li ja sakati thi; lekin mnjula ka atmabhiman khushamad kar kisi tarah raji n hota tha. unake yash-gan se bhare hue abhinandan-patr padhऩa, unake bhavanon par jakar unhen sevashram ke muayane ka nevata dena, ya relave steshan par jakar unaka svagat karana, ye aise kam the jinase use hardik ghrina hoti thi; lekin sevashram ke snchalan ka bhar us par tha aur use apane man ko dabakar aur kartavy ka adarsh samane rakhakar yah sari najabaradariyan karani padati thin, yadyapi vah in vidrohi bhavon ko maqadoor-bhar chhipati thi. par jis kam men man n ho, vahan ullas aur utsah kahan se aye? jin samajhauton se ghabarakar vah bhagi thi, vah yahan aur bhi vikrit roop men usaka pichha kar rahe the. usake man men katuta ati jati thi aur ekagr-seva ki dhun mitati jati thi.

isake viruddh vah vimal ko dekhati thi ki usake chehare par kabhi shikan nahin ati. vahi sahasy mukh, vahi utsarg se bhara hua udbhav, vahi kriyashil tanmayata. chhote-se-chhote kam ke lie hamesha hazir, sevashram ki koee kanya ya adhyapika bimar pad jae, vimal usaki timaradari ke lie maujood hai. sahanubhooti ka n jane kitana bada kosh usake pas hai ki usamen jara bhi kshati nahin ati. usake man men kisi prakar ka sandeh ya snshay nahin hai. usane ek rasta pakad liya hai, or us par qadam badhata chala ja raha hai. use vishvas hai, isi raste se vah apane dhyey par pahunchega. rah men jo yatri mil jate hain, unhen apana sngi bana leta hai. jo kaleva lekar chala hai, vah sngiyon ko bantakar khane men anand pata hai. use nity pareshaniyan uthani padati hain, khushamaden karani padati hain, apaman sahane padate hain, ayogy vyaktiyon ke samane sir jhukana padata hai, bhikh mangani padati hai; magar use gam nahin. vah kabhi nirash nahin hota, kabhi bura nahin manata. usake andar koee aisi chiz hai, jo hajaron thokaren khane par bhi jyon-ki-tyon uchhalati aur daudati rahati hai. adhyapikaen akasar sadharan-si baton par shikayaten karane lagati hain, kabhi-kabhi rooth jati hain aur sevashram se vida ho jana chahati hain. agar dhoban ne kapade kharab dhoye ya kaharin ne unaki sadi men dag dal diye ya chaukidar ne unake kutte ko dutkar diya, ya unake kamare men jhadoo nahin lagi, ya gvale ne doodh men pani mila diya, to isamen sevashram ke adhikariyon ka kya dosh? magar inhin baton par yahan rona-gana mach jata hai, duniya sir par utha li jati hai. aur vimal sevak ki bhanti anunay-vinay karake unaka gussa thanda karata hai. unaki ghudakiyan sunata hai aur hnsakar rah jata hai. phal yah hai ki adhyapikaon ki us par shraddha hoti jati hai. vah use apana afasar nahin, apana mitr aur bandhu samajhati hain.

magar mnjula vimal se kuchh khinchi rahati hai. kabhi usase koee shikayat nahin karati, kabhi usase kisi muamale men salah nahin leti. yadyapi vah dil men samajhati hai ki jis duniyadari ko vah atma ka patan kahakar use hey samajhati hai, vah vastav men vikasit manavata ka hi roop hai, phir bhi apane siddhant-prem ke abhiman ko tod dalana usake lie kathin hai. aur is abhiman ke hote hue bhi vimal ki vishuddh, ni:svarth vyavaharikata use jabaradasti apani or khinchati hai. usane sadharan manushyon ke vishay men anubhav se man men jo simaen khinch li thin, vimal unase oopar tha. usamen svarth ka lesh bhi nahin hai. abhiman use chhoo bhi nahin gaya hai. usake tyag ki koee sima nahin. mnjula ke adhyatmik jivan men manushy ka yahi sabase ooncha adarsh tha; lekin vimal ko us adarsh ke samip dekhakar use ek prakar ka har ka bodh hota tha. adarsh ka mahatv isi men hai ki vah pahunch ke bahar ho. agar vah sadhy ho jae, to adarsh hi kyon rahe? mnjula apani adarsh-bhavana ko aur ooncha banakar is vichar men santosh pana chahati hai ki vimal abhi us adarsh se bahut door hai; lekin vimal jaise jabaran unaka shraddhapatr banata jata hai, vah apane ko pravah men bahane se rokane ke lie lakadi ka sahara leti hai; par usake pairon ke sath vah lakadi bhi ukhad jati hai, aur vah phir kisi doosari rok ki talash karane lagati hai. aur ant men use yah sahara mil jata hai.

usane apani tivr drishti men dekh liya hai ki vimal usaki karagujariyon se santusht nahin hai. phir vah usase shikayat kyon nahin karata, usase javab kyon nahin mangata? usi tivr drishti se usane yah bhi tad liya hai ki vimal usake roop-rng se aprabhavit nahin hai. phir yah shitalata aur udasinata kyon? kya isase yah siddh nahin hota ki vah kapati ya kayar hai? auron se vah kitana khulakar milata hai, kitani hamadardi se pesh ata hai, to mnjula se vah kyon door-door rahata hai? kyon usase oopari man se baten karata hai? vah pahale din ka nishkapat vyavahar kahan gaya? kya vah yah dikhana chahata hai ki mnjula ki use bilakul parava nahin hai ya usase keval isalie naraz hai ki dhaniyon ki chaukhat par sir nahin jhukati? yah khushamad use mubarak rahe. mnjula seva karegi; par apane atmabhiman ko achhoota rakhakar.

ek din prat:kal mnjula bagiche men tahal rahi thi ki vimal ne akar use pranam kiya aur use soochana di ki sevashram ka varshikotsav nikat a raha hai. usake lie taiyari karani chahie.

mnjula ne udasin bhav se poochha-yah jalasa to har sal hi hota hai.

vimal ne kaha-ji han, har sal; magar abaki zyada samaroh se karane ka vichar hai.

‘mere kiye jo kuchh ho sakata hai, vah main bhi karoongi, halanki ap janate hain, main is vishay men zyada nipun nahin hoon.’

‘isaki saphalata ka sara bhar ap hi ke oopar hai.’

‘mere oopar?’

‘ji han, ap chahen to yah ashram kahin-se-kahin pahunch jae’

‘mere vishay men apaka anuman galat hai.’

vimal ne vishvas-bhare svar men kaha-mera anuman galat hai ya apaka anuman galat hai; yah to jald hi maloom hua jata hai.

aj yah pahali prerana thi, jo vimal ne mnjula se ki. jis din se usane sevashram usake hath men saunpa tha, us din se kabhi is vishay men koee adesh n diya tha. use kabhi isaka sahas hi n hua. mulakaton men idhar-udhar ki baten hokar rah jatin. shayad vimal samajhata tha ki mnjula ne jo tyag kiya hai, vah kafi se zyada hai. aur us par ab aur bojh dalana julm hoga. ya shayad vah dekh raha tha ki mnjula ka man is snstha men ram jae to kuchh kahe. aj jo usane vinay aur agrah se bhara hua yah adesh diya to mnjula men ek nee sphoorti daud gayi. sevashram se aisa nijatv use kabhi n hua tha. vimal se use jo durbhavanaen thin, sab jaise kaee ki tarah phat geen aur vah poorn tanmayata ke sath taiyariyon men lag gayi. ab tak vah kyon ashram se itani udasin thi is par use ashchary hone laga. ek saptah tak vah rat-din mehamanon ke adar-satkar men vyast rahi. khane tak ki phurasat n milati. dopahar ka khana tisare pahar milata. koee mehaman kisi gadi se ata, koee kisi gadi se. aksar use rat ko bhi steshan jana padata. us par tarah-tarah ke karatabon ka riharsal bhi karana padata. apane bhashan ki taiyari alag. is sadhana ka puraskar to mila, ki jalasa har ek drishti se saphal raha aur kee hazar ki rakam chande men mil gayi. magar jis din mehaman rukhsat hue usi din mnjula ko naye mehaman ka svagat karana pada, jisane tin din tak use sir n uthane diya. aisa bukhar use kabhi n aya tha. tin hi din men aisi ho gayi, jaise barason ki bimar ho.

vimal bhi daud-dhoop men laga hua tha. pahale to kee din pandal banavane aur mehamanon ki davat ka intazam karane men laga raha. jalasa khatm ho jane par jahan-jahan se jo saman aye the unhen sahej-sahejakar lautane ki pad gayi. mnjula ko dhanyavad dene bhi n a saka, kisi ne kaha zaroor ki devi ji bimar hain, magar usane samajha, thakan se kuchh hararat ho ayi hogi, zyada parava n ki. lekin chauthe din khabar mili ki bukhar abhi tak nahin utara aur bade zor ka hain, to vah badahavas dauda hua aya aur aparadhi-bhav se usake samane khada hokar bola-ab kaisi tabiyat hai? apane mujhe bula kyon n liya?

mnjula ko aisa jan pada ki jaise ekaek bukhar halka ho gaya hai. sir ka dard bhi kuchh shant hua jan pada. lete-lete vivash ankhon se takati huee boli-baith jaie, ap khade kyon hain? phir mujhe bhi uthana padega.

vimal ne is bhav se dekha mano usaka bas hota, to yah sara tap aur dard khud le leta. phir agrah se bola-nahin-nahin, ap leti rahen, main baith jata hoon. isaka aparadhi main hoon. mainne hi apako is jahamat men dala. mujhe kshama kijie. mainne apase vah kam liya jo mujhe khud karana chahiye tha. main abhi jakar daktar ko bula lata hoon. kya kahoon, mujhe jara bhi khabar n huee. fijool ke kamon men aisa phnsa raha....

aur usane pith pheri hi thi ki mnjula ne hath uthakar mana karate hue kaha-nahin-nahin; daktar ki koee zaroorat nahin. ap jara bhi pareshan n hon. main bilakul achchhi hoon. kal tak uth baithoongi.

usake man men aur kitani hi baten uthin, magar usane oth band kar liye. is avesh men vah n jane kya-kya bak jaegi. abhi tak vimal ne shayad use devi samajhakar usake samane sir jhukaya hai. usase door avashy raha hai; magar isalie nahin ki vah samip ana nahin chahata, balki isalie ki apani saralata men, apani sadhana men, usake samip ane men jhijhakata hai, ki kahin devi ko nagavar n gujare. vimal ne apane man men use jis oonche asan par baitha diya hai usase niche vah n aegi. vimal ko maloom nahin, vah kitana satvik, kitana vishalatma purush hai. aise adami ki smriti men hamesha ke lie ek akash men udऩe vali, nishkalnk, nishkapat, sati ki dhundhali chhaya chhod jana kitana bada moh hai!

usane vinod-bhav se kaha-han; kyon nahin; kyonki ap to manushy hain aur main kath ki putali.

‘nahin ap devi hain.’

‘nahin, ek nadan aurat.’

‘apane jo kuchh kar dikhaya, vah main sau janm lekar bhi n kar sakata tha.’

‘usaka karan bhi apane socha? yah stri ki vijay nahin, usaki har hai. agar in doshon ke sath main stri n hokar purush hoti, to shayad isaki chauthaee saphalata bhi n milati. yah meri jit nahin, meri naritv ki jit hai. roop to asar vastu hai, jisaki koee haqikat nahin. vah dhokha hai, phareb hai, durbalataon ke chhipane ka parada matr!’

vimal ne avesh men kaha-yah ap kya kahati hain mnjula devi! roop snsar ka sabase bada saty hai. roop ko bhaynkar samajhakar hamare mahatmaon aur panditon ne duniya ke sath ghor anyay kiya hai.

mnjula ki sundar chhavi garv ke prakash se chamak uthi. roop ko asaty samajhane ke prayas men sadaiv asaphal rahi thi. aur apani nishtha aur bhakti se mano apane roop ka prayashchit kar rahi thi. usi roop ke is samarthan ne ek kshan ke lie use mugdh kar diya magar vah snbhalakar boli-ap dhokhe men hain, vimal baboo, mujhe kshama kijiega; magar yah roop ki upasana apamen koee nee bat nahin hai. maradon ne hamesha roop ki upasana ki hai. thode panditon ya mahatmaon ne chahe roop ki ninda ki ho, par maradon ne pray: roopasakti hi ka praman diya hai. yahan tak ki roop ke lie dharm ki parava nahin ki aur un panditon aur mahatmaon ne bhi jaban ya kalam se chahe roop ke viruddh vish ugala ho; lekin ant:karan men ve bhi usaki pooja karate hain. jab kabhi roop ne unaki pariksha ki hai unaki tapasya par vijay payi hai. phir bhi jo asaty hai, vah asaty hi rahega. roop ka akarshan keval bahari ankhon ke lie hai. gyaniyon ki nigah men usaka koee mooly nahin. kam-se-kam apake mukh se main roop ka bakhan nahin sunana chahati, kyonki main apako devatuly samajhati hoon aur dil se ap par shraddha rakhati hoon.

vimal vikshipt-sa zamin ki taraph takata raha aur barabar takata hi chala gaya; jaise vah moorchhavastha men ho. phir chaunkakar utha aur aparadhiyon ki bhanti sir jhukaye, sandigdh bhav se qadam uthata hua kamare se nikal gaya.

aur mnjula nishchint baithi rahi.

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us din se ekaek vimal ka sara utsah aur karmanyata jaise thandi pad gayi. jaise usamen ab apana munh dikhalane ki himmat nahin hai. manon is rahasy ka parda khul gaya hai aur charon taraph usaki hnsi ud rahi hai. vah ab sevashram men bahut kam ata hai aur ata bhi hai, to adhyapikaon se kuchh batachit nahin karata. sabase jaise munh churata phirata hai. mnjula ko milane ka koee avasar nahin deta, aur jab mnjula harakar usake ghar jati hai, to kahala deta hai, ghar men nahin hai, halanki vah ghar men chhipa baitha rahata hai.

aur mnjula usake manoharasy ko samajhane men asamarth hai. vimal ne apani sadhana aur sadbhavana se use apani or akarshit kar liya hai, isamen sandeh nahin. vah ek nari ki gahari antardrishti se dekh rahi hai ki vimal bhi usaka upasak ban baitha hai or jara bhi protsahan pane par apane ko usake charanon par dal dega. usane barason se jo zindagi basar ki hai usamen prem nahin hai seva aur kartavy ka daman pakadaqar bhi use apani apoornata ka gyan hota rahata hai. jis purush men usaka prem nahin hai, n vishvas hai, usake prati vah kisi tarah ka naitik ya dharmik bandhan nahin svikar karati. vah apane ko svachchhand samajhati hai. chahe samaj usaki svachchhandata n mane, par usaki atma is vishay men apane ko azad samajhati hai; magar vimal ki nazaron men adar aur bhakti pane ka moh usamen itana prabal hai ki vah us svachchhandata ki bhavana ko sir nahin uthane deti. vah vimal se snsarg ki ghanishthata to chahati hai; par apane atmabhiman ki raksha karate hue. isake sath hi vimal ke pavitr aur nirmal jivan men vah dag nahin lagana chahati. usane socha tha, vimal ko dava ka halka-sa ghoont pilakar vah svasth kar degi. vah svasth hokar usake manodyan men aega, phoolon ko dekhakar prasann hoga, hari-hari doob par letega, pakshiyon ka gana sunega. usase vah itana hi snsarg chahati thi. dipak ke prakash ka anand to dipak se door rahakar hi liya ja sakata. use sparsh karake to vah apane ko jala sakata hai; magar ab use maloom hua ki dava ki vah ghoont badha ko harane ke badale ek doosara rog paida kar gayi. vimal men nirlep hokar rahane ki shakti n thi. vah jis chiz ki or jhukata tha, tan-man se usi ka ho jata tha aur jab khinchata tha, to mano nata hi tod leta tha. usake is naye vyavahar ko mnjula apana apaman samajhati hai. aur man yahan se uchat ho jata hai.

akhir ek din usane vimal ko pakad hi liya tha. mnjula janati thi, vimal roj dariya kinare sair karane jata hai. ek din usane vahin ja ghera aur apana istipha usake hath men rakh diya.

vimal ke gale men jaise phansi pad gayi. zamin ki or takata hua bola-aisa kyon?

‘isalie ki main apane ko is kam ke yogy nahin pati.’

‘snstha to khoob chal rahi hai?’

‘phir bhi main yahan rahana nahin chahati.’

‘mujhase koee aparadh hua hai?’

‘ap apane dil se poochhie.’

vimal ne is vaky ka vah ashay samajh liya, jo mnjula ki kalpana se bhi koson door tha. usake mukh ka rng ud gaya, jaise rakt ki gati band ho gayi ho. isaka usake pas koee javab n tha. aisa phaisala tha jisaki kahin apil n thi.

ahat svar men bola-jaisi apaki ichchha. mujh par daya kijie.

mnjula ne adrr hokar kaha-to main chali jaoon?

‘jaise apaki ichchha!’

aur vah jaise gale ka phanda chhudakar bhag khada hua. mnjula karun netron se use dekhati rahi, mano samane koee nauka doobi ja rahi ho.

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chabuk khakar vimal phir sevashram ki gadi men jut gaya. kah diya gaya mnjula devi ke pati bimar the. chali gayin. kam-kaji adami prem ka rog nahin palata, use kavita karane aur prem-patr likhane aur thandi ahen bharane ki kahan phurasat? usake samane to kartavy hai, pragati ki ichchha hai, adarsh hai. vimal bhi kam-dhandhe men lag gaya. han, kabhi-kabhi ekant men mnjula ki yad a jati thi aur lajja se usaka mastak ap-hi-ap jhuk jata tha. use hamesha ke lie sabak mil gaya tha. aisi sati-sadhvi ke prati usane kitani behoodagi ki!

tin sal gujar gaye the. garmiyon ke din the. vimal abaki mnsoori ki sair karane gaya hua tha aur ek hostal men thahara tha. ek din baind staind ke samip khada baind sun raha tha ki bagal ki ek bench par mnjula baithi najar ayi, abhooshanon aur rngon se jagamagati huee. usake pas hi ek yuvak kot-paint pahane baitha hua tha. dono muskara-muskarakar baten kar rahe the. donon ke chehare khile, donon prem ke nashe men mast. vimal ke man men saval utha, yah yuvak kaun hai? mnjula ka pati nahin ho sakata. ya snbhav hai, usaka pati hi ho. dampati men ab mel ho gaya ho. use mnjula ke samane jane ka sahas n hua.

doosare din vah ek angareji tamasha dekhane sinema haaul gaya tha. intaraval men bahar nikala to kephe men phir mnjula dikhayi di. sir se panv tak angreji pahanave men. vahi kal vala yuvak aj bhi usake sath tha. aj vimal se jabt n ho saka. isake pahale ki vah man men kuchh nishchay kar sake, vah mnjula ke samane khada tha.

mnjula use dekhate hi sannate men a gayi. munh par havaiyan udऩe lagin, magar ek hi kshan men usane apane ap ko snbhal liya aur muskarakar boli-hallo, vimal baboo! ap yahan kaise?

aur usane us navayuvak se vimal ka parichay karaya-ap mahatma purush hain, kashi ke sevashram ke snchalak aur yah mere mitr mi0 khanna hain jo abhi hal men inglaind se ayi0si0eph0 hokar aye hain.

donon adamiyon ne hath milae.

mnjula ne poochha-sevashram to khoob chal raha hai. mainne usaki varshik riport patron men padhi thi. ap yahan kahan thahare hue hain?

vimal ne apane hotal ka nam batalaya.

khel phir shuroo ho gaya. khanna ne kaha-khel shuroo ho gaya, chalo andar chalen.

mnjula ne kaha-tum jakar dekho, main jara mistar vimal se baten karoongi.

khanna ne vimal ko jalati huee ankhon se dekha aur akadata hua andar chala gaya. mnjula aur vimal bahar akar hari-hari ghas par baith gaye. vimal ka hriday garv se phoola hua tha. ashamay ullas ki chandani-si hriday par chhitaki huee thi.

mnjula ne gambhir svar men poochha-apako meri yad kahe ko ayi hogi. kee bar ichchha huee ki apako patr likhoooon, lekin snkoch ke mare n likh saki. ap maje men to the.

vimal ko usaka yah ulahana bura laga. kahan abhi hasy-vinod men magn thi, kahan use dekhate hi gambhirata ki putali ban gayi. rookhe svar men bola-han, bahut achchhi tarah tha. ap to aram se thin?

mnjula adrr kanth se boli-mere bhagy men to aram likha hi nahin hai, mistar vimal. pichhale sal pati ka dehant ho gaya. unhonne jitani jayadad chhodi usase zyada karz chhoda. inhin ulajhanon men padi rahi. svasthy bhi bigad gaya. daktaron ne pahad par rahane ki salah di. tab se yahin padi huee hoon.

‘apane mujhe khat tak n likha.’

‘apake sir yon hi kya kam bojh hai ki main apani chintaon ka bhar bhi rakh deti?’

‘phir bhi ek mitr ke nate mujhe khabar to deni hi thi.’

mnjula ne svar men shraddha bharakar kaha-apaka kam in jhagadon men padऩa nahin hai, vimal baboo. apako eeshvar ne seva aur tyag ke lie racha hai. vahi apaka kshetr hai. main janati hoon, apaki mujh par dayadrishti hai. main kah nahin sakati, meri nazaron men usaka kitana mooly hai. jise kabhi daya aur prem n mila ho vah inaki or lapake to kshama ke yogy hai. ap samajh sakate hain, unaka parityag karake mainne kitani badi kurbani ki hai; magar mainne isi ko apana kartavy samajha. main sab kuchh sah loongi; par apako devatv ke oonche asan se niche n giraoongi. ap gyani hain, snsar ke sukh kitane anity hain, ap khoob janate hain. inake pralobhan men n aie. ap manushy hain. ap men bhi ichchhaen hain; vasanaen hain; lekin ichchhaon par vijay pakar hi apane yah ooncha pad paya hai. usaki raksha kijie. aur adhyatm hi apaki madad kar sakata hai. usaki sadhana se apaka jivan satvik hoga aur man pavitr hoga.

vimal ne abhi-abhi mnjula ko amod-pramod men krida karate dekha tha. khanna se usaka sambandh kis tarah ka hai, yah bhi vah samajh raha tha. phir bhi is upadesh men use sachchi sahanubhooti ka sandesh mila. vilasini mnjula use devi ke roop men najar ayi. usake bhitar ka ahnkar usaki lolupata se balavanh tha. sadbhavana se bharakar bola-deviji, apane jin shabdon se mera samman kiya hai unake lie apaka ehasanamand hoon. kahie, main apaki kya seva kar sakata hoon?

mnjula ne uthate hue kaha-apaki kripa-drishti kafi hai.

usi vakt khanna sinema-haaul se bahar ata dikhaee diya.

tika tippani aur sndarbh


snbndhit lekh

varnamala kramanusar lekh khoj

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