प्रतिज्ञा उपन्यास भाग-4

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

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lala badariprasad ki sajjanata prasiddh thi. unase thag kar to koee ek paisa bhi n le sakata tha, par dharm ke vishay mean vah b de hi udar the. svarthiyoan se vah kosoan bhagate the, par dinoan ki sahayata karane mean bhi n chookate the. phir poorna to unaki p dosin hi nahian, brahmani thi. us par unaki putri ki saheli. usaki sahayata vah kyoan n karate? poorna ke pas halke damoan ke do-char gahanoan ke siva aur kya tha. shodasi ke din usane ve sab gahane la kar lala ji ke samane rakh die, aur sajal netroan se boli - 'maian ab inhean rakh kar kya karooangi.'

badariprasad ne karun-komal svar mean kaha - 'maian inhean le kar kya karooanga, beti? tum yah n samajho ki maian dharm ya puny samajh kar yah kam kar raha hooan. yah mera kartavy hai. in gahanoan ko apane pas rakho. kaun jane kis vakt inaki zaroorat p de. jab tak maian jita hooan, tumhean apani beti samajhata rahooanga. tumhean koee takaliph n hogi.'

shodasi b di dhoom se huee. kee sau brahmanoan ne bhojan kiya. dan-dakshina mean bhi koee kami n ki gee.

rat ke barah baj ge the. lala badariprasad brahmanoan ko bhojan kara ke lete, to dekha - prema unake kamare mean kh di hai. bole - 'yahaan kyoan kh di ho, beti - rat bahut ho gee, ja kar so raho.'

prema - 'apane abhi kuchh bhojan nahian kiya hai n?'

badariprasad - 'ab itani rat ge maian bhojan n karooanga. thak bhi bahut gaya hooan. letate hi letate so jaooanga.'

yah kah kar badariprasad charapaee par baith ge aur ek kshan ke bad bole - 'kyoan beti, poorna ke maike koee nahian hai? maianne usase nahian poochha ki shayad use kuchh duahkh ho.'

prema - 'maike mean kaun hai. maan-bap pahale hi mar chuke the, mama ne vivah kar diya. magar jab se vivah hua, kabhi jhaanka tak nahian. sasural mean bhi saga koee nahian hai. pandit ji ke dam se nata tha.'

badariprasad ne bichhavan ki chadar barabar karate hue kaha - 'maian soch raha hooan, poorna ko apane hi ghar mean rakhooan to kya haraj hai? akeli aurat kaise rahegi.'

prema - 'hoga to bahut achchha, par ammaan ji manean tab to?'

badariprasad - 'manegi kyoan nahian, poorna to inakar n karegi?'

prema - 'poochhooangi. maian samajhati hooan unhean inakar n hoga.'

badariprasad - 'achchha man lo, vah apane hi ghar mean rahe to usaka kharch bis rupe mean chal jaega n?'

prema ne ardr netroan se pita ki or dekh kar kaha - 'b de maje se. pandit ji pachas rupe hi to pate the.'

badariprasad ne chiantit bhav se kaha - 'mere lie bis, pachchis, sath sab barabar haian, lekin mujhe apani ziandagi hi ki to nahian sochani hai. agar aj maian n rahooan, to kamalaprasad kau di pho d kar n dega, isalie koee sthayi bandobast kar jana chahata hooan. abhi hath mean rupe nahian haian, nahian to kal hi char hazar rupe unake nam kisi achchhe baiank mean rakh deta. sood se usaki paravarish hoti rahati. yah shart kar deta ki mool mean se kuchh n diya jae.'

sahasa kamalaprasad aankhean malate hue a kar kh de ho ge aur bole - 'abhi ap soe nahian? garami lagati ho, to pankha la kar rakh dooan. rat to zyada ho gee.'

badariprasad - 'nahian garami nahian hai. prema se kuchh batean karane laga tha. tumase bhi kuchh salah lena chahata tha, to tum ap hi a ge. maian yah soch raha hooan ki poorna yahian a kar rahe to kya haraj hai?'

kamalaprasad ne aankhean pha d kar kaha - 'yahaan! ammaan ji kabhi n raji hoangi.'

badariprasad - 'ammaan ji ki bat chho do, tumhean to koee apatti nahian hai? maian tumase poochhana chahata hooan.'

kamalaprasad ne dridhata se kaha - 'maian to kabhi isaki salah n dooanga. duniya mean sabhi tarah ke adami haian, n jane kya samajhean. door tak sochie.'

badariprasad - 'usake palan-poshan ka to kuchh prabandh karana hi hoga.'

kamalaprasad - 'ham kya kar sakate haian?'

badariprasad - 'to aur kaun karega?'

kamalaprasad - 'shahar mean hamian to nahian rahate. aur bhi bahut se dhani log haian. apani haisiyat ke mutabiq ham bhi kuchh sahayata kar deange.'

badariprasad ne kataksh-bhav se kaha - 'to chanda khol diya jae, kyoan? achchhi bat hai, jao ghoom-ghoom kar chanda jama karo.'

kamalaprasad - 'maian kyoan chanda jama karane laga.'

badariprasad - 'tab kaun karega?'

kamalaprasad isaka kuchh javab n de sake. kuchh der ke bad bole - 'akhir apane kya nishchay kiya hai?'

badariprasad - 'maian kya nishchay karooanga? mere nishchay ka ab mooly hi kya? nishchay to vahi hai, jo tum karo. mera kya thikana? aj maian kuchh kar jaooan, kal meri aankh band hote hi tum ulat-pulat do, vyarth mean badanami ho.'

kamalaprasad ne bahut duahkhit ho kar kaha - 'ap mujhe itana nich samajhate haian. yah mujhe n maloom tha.'

badariprasad bete ko bahut pyar karate the, yah dekh kar ki meri bat se use chot lagi hai, turant bat banaee - 'nahian-nahian maian tumhean nich nahian samajhata. bahut sanbhav hai ki aj ham jo bat kar sakate haian, vah kal sthiti ke badal jane se n kar sakean.'

kamalaprasad - 'eeshvar n kare ki maian vah vipatti jhelane ke lie baitha rahooan, lekin itana kah sakata hooan ki ap jo kuchh kar jaeange, usamean kamalaprasad ko kabhi kisi dasha mean apatti n hogi. ap ghar ke svami haian. ap hi ne yah sanpatti banaee hai. apako is par poora adhikar hai. nishchay karane ke pahale maian jo chahe kahooan, lekin jab ap ek bat tay kar deange, to maian usake viruddh jibh tak n hilaooanga.'

badariprasad - 'to kal poorna ke nam char hazar rupe baiank mean jama kar do aur yah shart laga do ki mool mean se kuchh n le sake. usake bad rupe hamare ho jaeange.'

kamalaprasad ko mano chot-si lagi. bole - 'khoob soch lijie.'

badariprasad ne nishchayatmak svar mean kaha - 'khoob soch liya hai. dekhana keval yah hai ki ise svikar karati hai ya nahian.'

kamalaprasad - 'kya usake svikar karane mean bhi koee sandeh hai?'

badariprasad ne tiraskar-bhav se kaha - 'tumhari yah b di buri adat hai ki tum sab ko svarthi samajhane lagate ho. koee bhala adami doosaroan ka ehasan sir par nahian lena chahata. manushy ka svabhav hi aisa hai. ge gharoan ki bat jane do, lekin jisamean atm-samman ka kuchh bhi aansh hai, vah doosaroan ki sahayata nahian lena chahata. mujhe to sandeh hi nahian, vishvas hai ki poorna kabhi is bat par raji n hogi. vah mehanat-majoori kar sakegi, to karegi, lekin jab tak vivash n ho jae, hamari sahayata kabhi n svikar karegi.'

prema ne b di utsukata se kaha - 'mujhe bhi yah sandeh hai. raji hogi bhi to b di mushkil se.'

badariprasad - 'tum usase isaki charcha karana. kal hi.'

prema - 'nahian dada, mujhase n banega. vah aur maian donoan hi ab tak bahanoan ki tarah rahi haian, mujhase is dhang ki bat ab n karate banegi. maian to rone lagooangi.'

badariprasad - 'to maian hi sab thik kar looanga. haan, kal sham mujhe avakash n milega, tab tak tumhari ammaan ji se bhi batean hoangi. shayad vah usake yahaan rahane par raji ho jaean.'

kamalaprasad grih-prabandh mean apane ko lasani samajhate the. yoan to buddhi vikas mean vah apane ko aphalatooan se ratti-bhar bhi kam n samajhate the. par grih-prabandh mean unaki siddhi sarvamany thi. sinema roj dekhate the, par kya majal thi ki jeb se ek paisa bhi kharch karean. mainejar se dosti kar rakhi thi, ulte usake yahaan kabhi-kabhi davat kha ate the. paise ka kam dhele mean nikalate the aur b di suandarata se kabhi-kabhi lala badariprasad se is vishay mean unaki than bhi jaya karati thi. boodhe lala ji bete ki is kutsit manovritti par kabhi-kabhi khari-khari kah dalate the. kamalaprasad samajh ge ki lala ji is vakt koee apatti n suneange, balki apatti se ulta asar hone ki sanbhavana thi. isalie unhoanne kootaniti se kam lene ka nishchay kiya. pratahkal poorna ke dvar par ja kar avaz di. poorna pahale to unase parada karati thi, par ab bahuriya ban kar baithane se kaise kam chal sakata tha. unhean aandar bula liya. baramade mean charapaee p di huee thi. kamalaprasad baboo us par ja baithe. ek kshan mean poorna a kar unake samane kh di ho gee. poorna ka matha ghooanghat se dhaka hua tha, par donoan sajal aankhean kritajnata aur vinay se bhari huee bhoomi ki or tak rahi thian. kamalaprasad use dekh kar avak-sa rah gaya. vah is irade se aya tha ki ise kisi bhaanti yahaan se tal dooan. maike chale jane ki prerana karooan. use isaki jara bhi chianta n thi ki is abala ka bhavishy kya hoga. usaka nirvah kaise hoga, usaki raksha kaun karega, isaka use lesh-matr bhi dhyan n tha. vah keval is samay use yahaan se tal kar apane rupe bacha lena chahata tha, par vidhava ki saral, nishkalank, din-moorti dekh kar use apani kutilata par lajja a gee. kaun prani aisa hriday-hin hai jo kisi komal pushp ko to d kar bha d mean pheank de. jivan mean pahali bar use sauandary ka akarshan hua. aandhere ghar mean dipak jal utha. bole - 'tumhean yahaan ab akele rahane mean to b da kasht hoga. udhar prema bhi akele ghabaraya karati hai. usi ghar mean tum bhi kyoan n chali jao. kya koee haraj hai?'

poorna sir nicha kie ek kshan tak sochane ke bad boli- 'haraj to kuchh nahian hai, babooji yahaan bhi to ap hi logoan ke bharose p di hooan.'

kamalaprasad - 'to aj chali chalo. babooji ki bhi yahi ichchha hai. maian ja kar adamiyoan ko asabab le jane ke lie bhej deta hooan.'

poorna - 'nahian babooji, itani jaldi n kijie. jara soch lene dijie.'

kamalaprasad - 'isamean sochane ki kaun-si bat hai. akele kaise p di rahogi?'

poorna - 'akeli to nahian hooan mahari bhi to yahian sone ko kahati hai.'

kamalaprasad - 'achchha, vah billo. haan budhiya hai to sidhi; lekin tarri hai. akhir mere ghar chalane mean tumhean kya asamanjas hai?'

poorna - 'kuchh nahian, asamanjas kya hai?'

kamalaprasad - 'to adamiyoan ko ja kar bhej dooan.'

poorna - 'bhej dijiega, abhi jaldi kya hai?'

kamalaprasad - 'tum vyarth hi itana sankoch kar rahi ho poorna, kya tum samajhati ho tumhara jana mere ghar ke praniyoan ko bura lagega?'

kamalaprasad ka anuman thik tha. poorna ko vastav mean yahi apatti thi, par vah sankoch-vash ise prakat n kar sakati thi. usane samajha, baboo ji ne mere man ki bat ta d li. isase vah lajjit bhi ho gee. baboo sahab ke ghar valoan ke vishay mean aisi dharana use n karani chahie thi, par kamalaprasad ne usake sankoch ka shighr hi aant kar diya, bole - 'tumhara yah anuman bilkul svabhavik hai, poorna lekin socho, mere ghar mean aisa kaun-sa adami hai jo tumhara virodh kar sake. baboo ji ki svayan yah ichchha hai. mujhe tum khoob janati ho. pan. vasant kumar se meri kitani gahari dosti thi, yah tumase chhipa nahian, prema tumhari saheli hi hai, ammaan ji ko tumase kitana prem hai, vah tum khoob janati hi ho, rah gee sumitra, use jara kuchh bura lagega. tumase koee parada nahian, lekin usaki batoan ki paravah kaun karata hai? use khush rakhane ka bhi tumhean ek gur batae deta hooan. kabhi-kabhi yah mantr phooank diya karana, phir vah kabhi tumhari buraee n karegi. bas usaki suandarata ki tariph karati rahana. yah n samajhana ki ranbha ya urvashi kahane se vah samajh jaegi ki yah mujhe bana rahi hai. tum chahe jitana badhao, vah use yatharth hi samajhegi. isi mantr se maian use nachaya karata hooan yahi mantr tumhean batae deta hooan.'

poorna ko hansi a gee, boli - 'ap to unaki hansi u da rahe haian bhala aisa kaun hoga, jise itani samajh n ho.'

kamalaprasad - 'itani samajh ko tum sadharan bat samajh rahi ho, par yah sadharan bat nahian. tumako yah sun kar ashchary to hoga, par apani tariph sun kar ham itane matavale ho jate haian ki phir hamamean vivek ki shakti hi lupt ho jati hai. b de-se-b da mahatma bhi apani prashansa sun kar phool uthata hai. haan, prashansa karane vale shabdoan mean bhakti ka bhav rahana avashyak hai. yadi aisa n hota, to kaviyoan ko jhoothi tariphoan ke pul baandhane ke lie hamare raje-maharaje puraskar kyoan dete. batao? raja sahab tamanche ki avaz sun kar chauank p date haian, kanoan mean uangali dal lete haian aur ghar mean bhagate haian, par darabar ka kavi unhean virata mean arjun aur dronachary se do hath aur ooancha utha deta hai, to raja sahab ki mooanchhean khil uthati haian, unhean ek kshan ke lie bhi yah khyal nahian ata ki yah meri hansi u daee ja rahi hai. aisi tariphoan mean ham shabdoan ko nahian, unake aandar chhipe hue bhavoan ko hi dekhate haian. sumitra rang-roop mean apane barabar kisi ko nahian samajhati. n jane use yah khabt kaise ho gaya. yah kahate bahut du:kh hota hai poorna, par is stri ke karan meri ziandagi kharab ho gee. mujhe maloom hi n hua ki prem kise kahate haian. maian sansar mean sabase abhaga prani hooan aur kya kahooan. poorv janm ke papoan ka prayashchit kar raha hooan. sumitra se bolane ko ji nahian chahata, par muanh se kuchh nahian kahata ki kahian ghar mean kuharam n mach jae. log samajhate haian, maian avara hooan, sinema aur thietar mean pramod ke lie jata hooan, lekin maian tumase saty kahata hooan poorna, maian sinema mean keval apani hardik vedanaoan ko bhulane ke lie jata hooan, apani atript abhilashaoan ko aur kaise shaant karooan, dil ki ag ko kaise bujhaooan. kabhi-kabhi ji mean ata hai, sannyasi ho jaooan aur kadachit ek din yahi karana p dega. tum samajhati hogi, yah mahashay kahaan ka pach da le baithe. kshama karana, n jane aj kyoan tumase ye batean karane laga. aj tak maianne in bhavoan ko kisi se prakat nahian kiya tha. vyakti hriday hi se sahanubhooti ki asha hoti hai, bas yahi samajh lo. to maian ja kar adamiyoan ko bheje deta hooan, tumhara asabab utha le jaeange.'

poorna ko ab kya apatti ho sakati thi. usaka ji ab bhi is ghar ko chho dane ko n chahata tha, par vah is anurodh ko tal n saki. use yah bhay bhi hua ki kahian yah mere inakar se aur bhi duahkhi n ho jaean. ashrayavihin abala ke lie is samay tinake ka sahara hi bahut tha, to vah nauka ki kaise avahelana karati, par vah kya janati thi ki vah use ubarane vali nauka nahian varanh ek vichitr jal-jantu hai, jo usaki atma ko nigal jaega?

sanbandhit lekh

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