कर्मभूमि उपन्यास भाग-1 अध्याय-18

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is lekh ka punarikshan evan sampadan hona avashyak hai. ap isamean sahayata kar sakate haian. "sujhav"

amarakant gali ke bahar nikalakar s dak par aya. kahaan jae- pathanin isi vakt dada ke pas jaegi. zaroor jaegi. kitani bhanyakar sthiti hogi kaisa kuharam machega- koee dharm ke nam ko roega, koee maryada ke nam ko roega. daga, phareb, jal, vishvasaghat haram ki kamaee sab muaph ho sakati hai. nahian, usaki sarahana hoti hai. aise mahanubhav samaj ke mukhiya bane hue haian. veshyagamiyoan aur vyabhichariyoan ke age log matha tekate haian, lekin shu' hriday aur nishkapat bhav se prem karana nian? hai, akshamy hai. nahian amar ghar nahian ja sakata. ghar ka dvar usake lie band hai. aur vah ghar tha hi kab- keval bhojan aur vishram ka sthan tha. usase kise prem hai-

vah ek kshan ke lie thithak gaya. sakina usake sath chalane ko taiyar hai, to kyoan n use sath le le. phir log ji bharakar roean aur pitean aur kosean. akhir yahi to vah chahata tha lekin pahale door se jo paha d tila-sa najar ata tha, ab samane dekhakar us par chadhane ki himmat n hoti thi. desh bhar mean kaisa hahakar machega. ek myunisipal kamishnar ek musalaman l daki ko lekar bhag gaya. harek jaban par yahi charcha hogi. dada shayad zahar kha lean. virodhiyoan ko taliyaan pitane ka avasar mil jaega. use talastay ki ek kahani yad aee, jisamean ek purush apani premika ko lekar bhag jata hai par usaka kitana bhishan aant hota hai. amar khud kisi ke vishay mean aisi khabar sunata, to usase ghrina karata. maans aur rakt se dhaka hua kankal kitana suandar hota hai. rakt aur maans ka avaran hat jane par vahi kankal kitana bhayankar ho jata hai. aisi agavahean suandar aur saras ko mitakar bibhats ko moortiman kar deti haian. nahian, amar ab ghar nahian ja sakata.

akasmath bachche ki yad a gee. usake jivan ke aandhakar mean vahi ek prakash tha usaka man usi prakash ki or lapaka. bachche ki mohini moorti samane akar kh di ho gee.

kisi ne pukara-amarakant, yahaan kaise kh de ho-

amar ne pichhe phirakar dekha to salim tha. bola-tum kidhar se-

'jara chauk ki taraph gaya tha.'

'yahaan kaise kh de ho- shayad mashook se milane ja rahe ho?'

vahian se a raha hooan yar, aj gajab ho gaya. vah shaitan ki khala budhiya a gee. usane aisi-aisi salavatean sunaeean ki bas kuchh n poochho.'

donoan sath-sath chalane lage. amar ne sari katha kah sunaee.

salim ne poochha-to ab ghar jaoge hi nahian yah himakat hai. budhiya ko bakane do. ham sab tumhari pakadamani ki gavahi deange. magar yar ho tum ahamak. aur kya kahooan- bichchhoo ka mantr n jane, saanp ke muanh mean uangali dale. vahi hal tumhara hai. kahata tha, udhar zyada n ao-jao. akhir huee vahi bat. khairiyat huee ki budhiya ne muhalle valoan ko nahian bulaya, nahian to khoon ho jata.

amar ne darshanik bhav se kaha-khair, jo kuchh hua achchha hi hua. ab to yahi ji chahata hai ki sari duniya se alag kisi goshe mean p da rahooan aur kuchh kheti-bari karake gujar karooan. dekh li duniya, ji tang a gaya.

'to akhir kahaan jaoge?'

'kah nahian sakata. jidhar takadir le jae.'

'maian chalakar budhiya ko samajha dooan?'

'phijool hai. shayad meri takadir mean yahi likha tha. kabhi khushi n nasib huee. aur n shayad hogi. jab ro-rokar hi marana hai, to kahian bhi ro sakata hooan.'

'chalo mere ghar, vahaan d aauktar sahab ko bhi bula lean, phir salah karean. yah kya ki ek budhiya ne phatakar bataee aur ap ghar se bhag kh de hue. yahaan to aisi kitani hi phatakarean sun chuka, par kabhi paravah nahian ki.'

'mujhe to sakina ka khayal ata hai ki budhiya use kos-kosakar mar dalegi.'

'akhir tumane usamean aisi kya bat dekhi, jo lattoo ho ge ?'

amar ne chhati par hath rakhakar kaha-tumhean kya bataooan, bhaeejan- sakina asamat aur vapha ki devi hai. good d mean yah ratn kahaan se a gaya, yah to khuda hi jane, par meri gamanasib ziandagi mean vahi chand lamhe yadagar haian, jo usake sath gujare. tumase itani hi arj hai ki jara usaki khabar lete rahana. is vakt dil ki jo kaiphiyat hai, vah bayan nahian kar sakata. nahian janata jianda rahooanga, ya marooanga. nav par baitha hooan. kahaan ja raha hooan, khabar nahian. kab, kahaan nav kinare lagegi, mujhe kuchh khabar nahian. bahut mumakin hai majhadhar hi mean doob jae. agar ziandagi ke tajarabe se koee bat samajh mean aee, to yah ki sansar mean kisi nyayi eeshvar ka rajy nahian hai. jo chiz jise milani chahie use nahian milati. isaka ulta hi hota hai. ham janjiroan mean jak de hue haian. khud hath-paanv nahian hila sakate. hamean ek chiz de di jati hai aur kaha jata hai, isake sath tumhean ziandagi bhar nirvah karana hoga hamara dharm hai ki us chiz par kanaat karean. chahe hamean usase napharat hi kyoan n ho. agar ham apani ziandagi ke lie koee doosari rah nikalate haian to hamari garadan pak d li jati hai, hamean kuchal diya jata hai. isi ko duniya iansaph kahati hai. kam-se-kam maian is duniya mean rahane ke kabil nahian hooan.

salim bola-tum log baithe-baithae apani jan jahamat mean dalane ki fikrean kiya karate ho, goya ziandagi hajar-do hazar sal ki hai. ghar mean rupaye bhare hue haian, bap tumhare oopar jan deta hai, bivi pari jaisi baithi hai, aur ap ek julahe ki l daki ke pichhe ghar-bar chho de bhage ja rahe haian. maian to ise pagalapan kahata hooan. zyada-se-zyada yahi to hoga ki tum kuchh kar jaoge, yahaan p de sote raheange. par aanjam donoan ka ek hai. tum ramanam satta ho jaoge, maian innallah rajeoon .

amar ne vishad bhare svar mean kaha-jis tarah tumhari ziandagi gujari hai, us tarah meri ziandagi bhi gujarati, to shayad mere bhi yahi khayal hote. maian vah darakht hooan, jise kabhi pani nahian mila. ziandagi ki vah umr, jab iansan ko muhabbat ki sabase zyada zaroorat hoti hai, bachapan hai. us vakt paudho ko tari mil jae to ziandagi bhar ke lie usaki j dean mazaboot ho jati haian. us vakt khurak n pakar usaki ziandagi khushk ho jati hai. meri mata ka usi jamane mean dehaant hua aur tab se meri eeh ko khurak nahian mili. vahi bhookh meri ziandagi haian. mujhe jahaan muhabbat ka ek reja bhi milega, maian beakhtiyar usi taraph jaooanga. kudarat ka atal qanoon mujhe us taraph le jata hai. isake lie agar mujhe koee khatavar kahe, to kahe. maian to khuda hi ko zimmedar kahooanga.

batean karate-karate salim ka makan a gaya.

salim ne kaha-ao, khana to kha lo. akhir kitane dinoan tak jalavatan rahane ka irada hai-

donoan akar kamare mean baithe. amar ne javab diya-yahaan apana kaun baitha hua hai, jise mera dard ho- bap ko meri paravah nahian, shayad aur khush hoan ki achchha hua bala tali. sukhada meri soorat se bejar hai. dostoan mean le-de ke ek tum ho. tumase kabhi-kabhi mulakat hoti rahegi. maan hoti to shayad usaki muhabbat khianch lati. tab ziandagi ki yah ratarhiar hi kyoan hoti duniya mean sabase badanasib vah hai, jisaki maan mar gee ho.

amarakant maan ki yad karake ro p da. maan ka vah smriti-chitr usake samane aya, jab vah use rote dekhakar god mean utha leti thian, aur mata ke aanchal mean sir rakhate hi vah nihal ho jata tha.

salim ne aandar jakar chupake se apane naukar ko lala samarakant ke pas bheja ki jakar kahana, amarakant bhage ja rahe haian. jaldi chalie. sath lekar phauran ana. ek minat ki der huee, to goli mar dooanga.

phir bahar akar usane amarakant ko batoan mean lagaya-lekin tumane yah bhi socha hai, sukhadadevi ka kya hal hoga- man lo, vah bhi apani dilabastagi ka koee iantajam kar lean, bura n manana.

amar ne anahoni bat samajhate hue kaha-hindoo aurat itani behaya nahian hoti.

salim ne hansakar kaha-bas, a gaya hindoopan. are bhaeejan, is muamale mean hindoo aur musalaman ki kaid nahian. apani-apani tabiyat hai. hinduoan mean bhi deviyaan haian, musalamanoan mean bhi deviyaan haian. harajaiyaan bhi donoan hi mean haian. phir tumhari bivi to nee aurat hai, padhi-likhi, azad khayal, sair-sapate karane vali, sinema dekhane vali, akhabar aur naval padhane vali. aisi auratoan se khuda ki panah. yah yoorop ki barakat hai. ajakal ki deviyaan jo kuchh n kar gujarean vah tho da hai. pahale lauande peshakadami kiya karate the. maradoan ki taraph se chhe dachha d hoti thi, ab jamana palat gaya hai. ab striyoan ki taraph se chhe dachha d shuroo hoti hai .

amarakant besharmi se bola-isaki chianta use ho jise jivan mean kuchh sukh ho. jo ziandagi se bejar hai, usake lie kya- jisaki khushi ho rahe, jisaki khushi ho jae. maian n kisi ka gulam hooan, n kisi ko gulam banana chahata hooan.

salim ne parast hokar kaha-to phir had ho gee. phir kyoan n auratoan ka mizaj asaman par chadh jae. mera khoon to is khayal hi se ubal ata hai.

'auratoan ko bhi to bevapha maradoan par itana hi krodh ata hai.'

'auratoan-maradoan ke mizaj mean, jism ki banavat mean, dil ke jajbat mean farq hai. aurat ek hi ki hokar rahane ke lie banaee gee hai. marad azad rahane ke lie banaya hai.'

'yah maradoan ki khudagaraji hai.'

'ji nahian, yah haivani ziandagi ka usool hai.'

bahas mean shakhean nikalati geean. vivah ka prashn aya, phir bekari ki samasya par vichar hone laga. phir bhojan a gaya. donoan khane lage.

abhi do-char kaur hi khae hoange ki daraban ne lala samarakant ke ane ki khabar di. amarakant jhat mej par se uth kh da hua, kulla kiya, apane plet mej ke niche chhipakar rakh die aur bola-inhean kaise meri khabar mil gee- abhi to itani der bhi nahian huee. zaroor budhiya ne ag laga di.

salim muskara raha tha.

amar ne tyauriyaan chadhakar kaha-yah tumhari shararat maloom hoti hai. isilie tum mujhe yahaan lae the- akhir kya natija hoga- murti ki jillat hogi meri. mujhe jalil karane se tumhean kuchh mil jaega- maian ise dosti nahian, dushmani kahata hooan.

taanga dvar par rooka aur lala samarakant ne kamare mean qadam rakha.

salim is tarah lalaji ki or dekh raha tha, jaise poochh raha ho, maian yahaan rahooan ya jaooan- lalaji ne usake man ka bhav ta dakar kaha-tum kyoan kh de ho beta, baith jao. hamari aur haphijaji ki purani dosti hai. usi tarah tum aur amar bhaee-bhaee ho. tumase kya parada hai- maian sab sun chuka hooan lalloo budhiya roti huee aee thi. maianne buri tarah phatakara. maianne kah diya, mujhe teri bat ka vishvas nahian hai. jisaki stri lakshmi ka roop ho, vah kyoan chu dailoan ke pichhe pran deta phirega lekin agar koee bat hi hai, to usamean ghabarane ki koee bat nahian, beta. bhool-chook sabhi se hoti hai. budhiya ko do-char sau rupaye de die jaeange. l daki ki kisi bhar le ghar mean shadi ho jaegi. chalo jhag da pak hua. tumhean ghar se bhagane aur shahar mean dhiandhora pitane ki kya zaroorat hai- meri paravah mat karo lekin tumhean eeshvar ne bal-bachche die haian. socho, tumhare chale jane se kitane prani anath ho jaeange- stri to stri hi hai, bahan hai vah ro-rokar mar jaegi. renukadevi haian, vah bhi tumhian logoan ke prem se yahaan p di huee haian. jab tumhian n hoge, to vah sukhada ko lekar chali jaeangi, mera ghar chaupat ho jaega. maian ghar mean akela bhoot ki tarah p da rahooanga. beta salim, maian kuchh beja to nahian kah raha hooan- jo kuchh ho gaya, so ho gaya. age ke lie aihatiyat rakho. tum khud samajhadar ho, maian tumhean kya samajhaooan- man korh kartavh‍y ki dori se bandhana p data hai, nahian to usaki chanchalata adami ko n jane kahaan lie-lie phire- tumhean bhagavanh ne sab kuchh diya hai. kuchh ghar ka kam dekho, kuchh bahar ka kam dekho. char din ki ziandagi hai, ise hans-khelakar kat dena chahie. mare-mare phirane se kya fayada-

amar is tarah baitha raha, mano koee pagal bak raha hai. aj tum yahaan chikani-chup di batean kahake mujhe phansana chahate ho. meri ziandagi tumhian ne kharab ki. tumhare hi karan meri yah dasha huee. tumane mujhe kabhi apane ghar ko ghar n samajhane diya. tum mujhe chakki ka bail banana chahate ho. vah apane bap ka adab utana n karata tha, jitana dabata tha, phir bhi usaki kee bar bich mean tokane ki ichchha huee. jyoanhi lalaji chup hue, usane dridhata ke sath kaha-dada, apake ghar mean mera itana jivan nasht ho gaya, ab maian use aur nasht nahian karana chahata. adami ka jivan khane aur mar jane ke lie nahian hota, n dhan-sanchay usaka uddeshy hai. jis dasha mean maian hooan, vah mere lie asahaniy ho gee hai. maian ek ne jivan ka sootrapat karane ja raha hooan, jahaan mazadoori lajja ki vastu nahian, jahaan stri pati ko keval niche nahian ghasitati, use patan ki or nahian le jati balki usake jivan mean anand aur prakash ka sanchar karati hai. maian roodhiyoan aur maryadaoan ka das banakar nahian rahana chahata. apake ghar mean mujhe nity badhaoanka samana karana p dega aur usi sangharsh mean mera jivan samapt ho jaega. ap thande dil se kah sakate haian, apake ghar mean sakina ke lie sthan hai-

lalaji ne bhit netroan se dekhakar poochha-kis roop mean-

'meri patni ke roop mean .'

'nahian, ek bar nahian, sau bar nahian .'

'to phir mere lie bhi apake ghar mean sthan nahian hai.'

'aur to tumhean kuchh nahian kahana hai?'

'ji nahian.'

lalaji kursi se uthakar dvar ki or badhe. phir palatakar bole-bata sakate ho, kahaan ja rahe ho-

'abhi to kuchh thik nahian hai.'

'jao, eeshvar tumhean sukhi rakhe. agar kabhi kisi chiz ki zaroorat ho, to mujhe likhane mean sankoch n karana.'

'mujhe asha hai, maian apako koee kasht n dooanga.'

lalaji ne sajal netr hokar kaha-chalate-chalate ghav par namak n chhi dako, lalloo bap ka hriday nahian manata. kam-se-kam itana to karana ki kabhi-kabhi patr likhate rahana. tum mera muanh n dekhana chaho lekin mujhe kabhi-kabhi ane-jane se n rokana. jahaan raho, sukhi raho, yahi mera ashirvad hai.